Sunday, January 12, 2014
I've been living with my head in the sand. At least for the past year. I've gained over 20 lbs. since last June. It has been too hard to stay motivated. It's stupid to say this, but I have regressed to binge eating. Something I had thought I'd gotten past. I guess I've been depressed. Come to think of it, the weight started going up after my dr. upped one of my medicines last June. Then, I was put on 2 other meds. by October. But I can't blame it on that. I just gave up and over ate what I wanted.
You know what? It's not good to go to the coffee shop and get a "small" latte and 2 chocolate chunk cookies - and on the way back to work, devouring both cookies so no one knows. Who would have thought that, right? Hey, I did it soooo many times the past few months.
So here I am, up to 185.2 lbs. on January 12, 2014. Never in my wildest dreams/nightmares had I ever dreamed I'd weigh this much. I am so ashamed of myself. I am going to lose this weight the right way by taking it one minute at a time. I am not going to put pressure on myself by setting a "deadline". What I really want is to lose 40 lbs. So, I am back to Spark. I don't know what else I can say, except I am going to try hard to make this work.
Tuesday, July 09, 2013
Today I didn't do as well with my food choices/calories. I did great yesterday.
I've got to forge a plan.
I did track ALL my calories.
I didn't plan out/track all my meals this morning, which meant when I came home for lunch, I ate too much. Not all healthy either.
I did walk Poppet 2x's.
I did exercise this evening with dh.
All in all, today wasn't a total wash.
I'm trying to figure out what I need to do. One thing that I need to do, is do my meal tracking before I start the day. Get everything planned out. This starts tomorrow morning.
Tuesday, July 02, 2013
I didn't weigh myself for 2 weeks. In those 2 weeks I started out positive, watching what I ate, and began simple exercising. Well...... that didn't last long. If I had weighed myself after the 1st week, I may have thwarted the mindless eating that happened the 2nd week.
Okay, I realize this. I weighed in Sunday, and was about the same as I was 2 weeks ago. I know if I had weighed a week ago the numbers might have been better. Why do I sabotage myself like this? I wonder, should I concentrate more on the healthy eating at first? Add exercise after a week or 2 to give myself a chance to get the eating under control 1st? I don't know..... Maybe not. Exercise helps in more ways that just expending calories. It is also a stress reliever. I think I just answered my own question.
Monday, June 24, 2013
I'm still being positive, but I have to admit that today challenged me. Monday's are my day off. Today I took Poppet (my dog) and Teazer (my cat) to the vet. First time taking them together. That wasn't bad at all. However, the "girls" both have issues. Poppet has arthritis, and her gums are receding. She has other, ongoing issues too. Teazer's gums have not improved after being on antibiotics, so we are going to try a medication that I will rub on her gums and teeth.
Ok, that was first. I had a good breakfast before going to the vet. Came home, had a nice lunch. A nice fruit snack later. Then.... I WANTED SOMETHING TO MUNCH ON!!! SOMETHING EITHER SALTY OR CHOCOLATEY. I didn't give in. Oh boy, I sure could have, but I didn't. I didn't want to undo what I've been working so hard at. It's hard changing old habits. I could've had carrots or something else healthy, but I know that if I eat ANYTHING when I'm in that frame of mind I will overeat. And I don't mean good healthy food, either.
So, instead of eating mindlessly I took a short nap. I felt so much better. It's amazing what a short nap can do. Then I got up and did some cleaning. I feel good, and I am proud that I didn't give in.
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