Tuesday, March 12, 2013
It's too late tonight to write a blog, but I'm going to do it anyway.
I've been too busy and too stressed out to focus on eating and exercise...at least that's what I've been telling myself.
I taught four classes this fall at two different colleges, and all of them had some particular challenges (one was at a new college, one was taken on at the last minute, one was new to me, etc.). And this spring, I'm teaching four classes again...with some particular challenges, including having taken on a couple of research projects.
And -- I mentioned last fall that I was diagnosed with an autoimmune skin issue that I've been working on healing.
I've been making progress on healing...but I'm not all the way there. I have a doctor appointment AND a birthday coming up in one month. I'd like to have good news...and be feeling better in my body by then.
And in the meantime since last fall, I've gained weight. Not good. I'm officially back in "overweight" territory and I'm feeling uncomfortable in a lot of my clothes.
Food choices and activity will make a difference in my healing, I believe. And food choices and activity will certainly make a difference in helping me get my weight down to where I feel better.
Why not start now? Busy, not busy? It will always be so. Anxious? Sad? Happy? Feelings come and go. I can find other ways to soothe myself.
Too Busy to cook? Keep apples and carrots and yogurt around for a quick meal in case I don't have time to cook.
Stressed? Same: Apples and carrots have a nice crunch and a sweet taste!
Stressed? Make exercise and meditation a priority. Go to bed on time. Take a nap when you can.
None of this is new. I have a new twist on that old saying: Fall down 100 times, get up 101...or as many times as it takes.
I'm too busy to focus on healthy eating and exercise, but I'm going to do it anyway.
Be well, everyone.
Saturday, December 08, 2012
I'm reaping the karma of allowing myself to fall into poor eating choices.
And the problem is that even though I don't want to keep gaining weight...I also don't seem to want to stop making the choices I've been making.
I realized that I need to remember what it feels like to be successful -- what those choices feel like every day. I have been successful in the past -- and I want to reorient myself to that stance so I can find it again! Here are some things that I am recalling I can do, be, think, or act upon that lead to a healthy mind and body.
(I was diagnosed with a benign ovarian cyst, plus a women's skin ailment that might be hormonal and might be auto-immune and might be...who knows. Anyway: I'm watching the cyst, and am taking an alternative path (not western, at least not not now) to help facilitate healing. However: I have been emotionally freaked out about it -- and that has lead to some VERY poor eating and exercise choices...especially coupled with my insanely busy fall work wise.)
So: I'm ready to pull up out of this downward spiral!
Here's a list in a little bit of random order:
~Making an assumption that I'm going to eat well.
~Stopping a moment to say "What COULD I eat that would be healthy?" when the urge arises to eat poorly.
~Planning ahead. Actually choosing the "plan ahead" food.
~Remembering that food serves many purposes -- social, emotional, physical -- and that accommodating all those purposes will be wise.
~Get enough social time with people I care about and who care about me so that I don't fall prey to "poor me" thinking.
~Realize how quickly food affects the body...in both good and bad ways. My neighbor pointed out to me that when you take a vitamin your urine turns very yellow (B vitamins) right away...and when you eat asparagus, that "funny smell" happens very rapidly. It's wise to choose healthfully!
~Being loving to myself...this is super tough, but when I eat and exercise better, I start to feel better about myself. The trick is to PULL UP and out of the downward spiral, even when I'm feeling bad about myself.
Getting enough sleep -- I blogged about this before, and just reminded myself that a full eight hours is GOOD!
~Drinking enough water -- For me it will be herbal teas because that's one of the ways I'm working on re-setting my body to cure this ailment. (Note to self: Less coffee and more tea!)
State of mind:
Ironically, both being present -- and also having some distance from -- the NOW is useful
Type of food:
And -- the type of diet I should be choosing is anti-inflammatory, which means, basically WHOLE food!
Be well, everyone.
Sorry for the non-edited version of this blog. As Mark Twain once famously did not say, "I didn't have time to write a shorter letter."
Saturday, July 21, 2012
"Research has already shown that people who sleep less than seven hours a night tend to have a higher body mass index (BMI) than people who get more sleep. The biological mechanisms linking sleep deprivation and weight gain are numerous."
Thursday, July 19, 2012
I am feeling discouraged...and feeling guilty for being discouraged, which makes it worse, of course.
The broken toe has morphed into some other kind of compensatory injury that has caused my left lower leg to swell up a bit and feel like I have a mighty bad case of shin splints. That, of course, makes walking difficult. And lack of exercise leads to feeling worse, and feeling worse leads to overeating.
I'm discovering is that the gremlin of overeating is never far from me.
Here's when I get triggered:
* Off my normal schedule
* Lack of exercise
* Going to any shop that has any kind of trigger food (yes, that is practically all of them)
* When people around me are making choices that, who knows, might be good for them but are not good for me.
* When I have not planned for tricky situations.
* When I have given up.
So, you see, there are triggers practically everywhere! Damn! There is a thicket and a swamp and a mountain to climb and any other metaphor you want to use.
But: Let me not stop there with simply feeling sorry for myself.
I've been through this thought process before, but clearly I need to do it again. In other people, clearly, those situations and emotions don't trigger a run for the sugar bowl. In me, it does.
Well, I have clearly learned how to use food to damp down, anaethestitize and deaden, feelings that I don't want to be having.
My yoga teacher yesterday asked me how long the effects of poor eating lasted...and since she is a new teacher to me, and I was busy "building face" instead of being honest...I told her that I knew all about my patterns and that it wasn't a problem of knowledge but of action.
I don't think that's actually true.
So, I will think and feel more honestly now.
The effect of overeating is indeed that I feel a release of tension.
But that's not all. When I overeat I feel slow, tired, stupid, and disconnected. The effects last for days, frankly. And -- since overeat regularly -- I am clearly spending a good part of my life in a less than optimal state.
When I am on the path and eating well, I am more attuned to the world around me and that can be a wonderful thing.
The key, I think, will be to find ways to be attuned to the world *AS IT IS* and find ways to bring myself comfort and resilience in ways that don't involve overeating.
I don't know yet, how to do that -- how to stay gently and solidly placed in the now.
I'm going to find out, though, and I'm going to start by doing some researching on the spiritual dimensions of overeating.
In the meantime, I'm having a cup of tea.
Be well, everyone.
Tuesday, July 10, 2012
Had a mini-meltdown yesterday. However, since I don't keep anything that even resembles junk food at my place, it was relatively healthy as far as *what* I was eating. However, *how* I was eating and *how much* I was eating were not so good.
The good news is that I waited until I was hungry again today to eat. Yes, I am trying to tune into signals!
Today I had guests and I bought bread (something I have been trying not to have around), cookies (same), and butter (I have nothing against it but try to eat even healthier fats instead: coconut and olive). They are from Holland and I thought I OUGHT to have such "basic" things!
However -- My friend had laugh of recognition at the affirmation posted on my refrigerator: "I eat like a thin person." She declined the bread and the cookies, which was pretty funny. The male partner did not decline the cookies, though.
However, he didn't eat all of the five small locally made cookies I bought. Unfortunately, I ate a bunch of the cookies, realizing after the first bite that they were TERRIBLE. They were locally made, but whoever made them had used old butter and old flour and they were basically rancid.
Did that stop me? No. Will it stop me in the future? Maybe. Am I embarrassed? Yes!
About the bread: I had ONE (yes! only one!) slice of bread and butter and then gave the rest of the loaf to the friend I rent from. Victory!~
I had a big old salad at lunch. That's good.
And I'll have some peas for dinner.
I'm still in recovery from the mini-meltdown, but tomorrow I expect I will be back in action eating my healthy food.
Next Topic: Exercise and Body:
I caught a glimpse of my thigh and calf in some harsh light yesterday and was horrified. I have a tendency to be heavy and have cellulite in those areas and DAMN I look like a comfy chair with quilts and buttons.
I tried out my now-healing toe on the first walk for two weeks today and it seemed to be okay. I'll keep doing healing things...and maybe I am back on my walking track!
Sorry for the rambling post.
Be well, ya'll!
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