Monday, May 11, 2009
Its amazing how much love you can have for someone. My little boy is the most amazing gift! I love him so so much. The thought of going back to work really worries me... so I try to push it far away... I do have another 10 weeks home to enjoy him... so thats what I am doing... enjoying him. I have to remind myself to eat... I really get so consumed with the day and my tummy just doesn't send that 'hungry' signal for some reason. So I just try to make sure I eat all 3 meals a day, whether I am hungry or not. It does make it easier to stay healthy. Jeff brought home Oreo cookies the other day and they just really did not sound appealing so I didn't have any.
I am still adjusting. It is going to be a while, I think, before I really get the hang of things. Xavier has his 2 week appointment today- so hopefully the pediatrician tells me everything is okay. I worry that his circumcision didn't heal right, probably for no reason, but I worry anyway. Also, his belly button is hanging on by a thread and looks a little strange underneath, again probably fine, but I worry anyway. Then there is his weight, I have no idea if he is getting enough to eat- he eats about every 3 hours or so- he has what I would consider an adequate amount of output (about 10 wet diapers a day and 6 dirty)- but again I worry anyway. Guess that goes with being a mom for the first time. I have never done this before so I am not sure if everything is okay... I will feel better when the pediatrician tells me that it is.
Anyway, enough ramblings of the things that go on in my head... Eventually when I log here it will be about my diet and exercise... but not for a while yet...