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Anxiety and Insomnia

Saturday, July 19, 2014

So I've had anxiety for years. I've been able to manage it on my own, listening to relaxing music, talking it out, exercise, meditation- I am usually great at getting it under control. But for the last month it's been really bad. My heart will just pound and I freak out over stuff that really is not that important. Then it impacts my sleep and by the 5th day of no sleep, I knew it was beyond my control. I've now been to my doctor, who has given me a little help. I hate taking medication and don't want to have to take something every day- but for my own well being, at this point, I see no other option.

Sorry if it appears I've been MIA- I obviously have to get this under control before I can focus on anything else.

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WANTSRECOVERY 7/31/2014 2:25PM

    I'm sorry to hear this.

Take care of you. I'll look forward to hearing from you once you are better.

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CONFUSEDBIRD 7/20/2014 8:23AM

    Have you been a psychologist to try to get to the root of it and try to talk it out? My mom used to have a lot of panic attacks and she found coping mechanisms when she felt them coming on. I hope you find some relief soon.

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BYEPOUNDS 7/19/2014 12:08PM

    best to you

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Friday, July 11, 2014

I'm feeling better! I started this day off great! Had a fabulous workout. My eating could have been better- but I did ok. Planning for a great tomorrow!

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CONFUSEDBIRD 7/12/2014 8:59AM

    Great to hear!

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GAILYN1 7/11/2014 1:16AM

    You can do it! emoticon

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ZRIE014 7/11/2014 1:08AM

  keep it up

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Day 1 recap

Tuesday, July 08, 2014

Yesterday was my first day "back on the wagon". If there was ever a time that I'd be called an emotional eater- it was yesterday. I did good almost all day. I drank lots of water while at work and avoided snacking. Then my boss sent me a naggy email. I tried to see the positive side of this situation... Finding it hard to do.... Decide to burn off my frustration at the gym. Then as I'm driving to the gym I get a message from the person watching our kids telling me they've 'planned a big last minute dinner party and wanted to get to the store, but it's okay if you go to the gym still, just how long are you going to be?' Now my gym time is cut in half. GRRR! Then I go to pick up the kids to find out that hubby forgot to leave behind car seats. Can I pick them up from him? Nope. His car is parked on one side of the valley and he's working on the other side. So again- GRRRR as I'm strapping my two year old into the only thing I can find (a booster meant for an 8yr old) and just buckling in my 5yr old without a car seat... Stress and careful driving all the way home. The cherry on top, was when I realized that hubby also had the birthday presents in his trunk for a party we had to be to in an hour- SERIOUSLY?!

The result of this horrible day was me eating a cookie, a donut and 3 fried tacos- putting me over my calories by about 500 for the day. Emotional eating? Yep. I'd say that is exactly what I was doing..... Ugh....

All day I tried hard to focus on the positives- and just found it difficult with the day.

Now- day 2 has got to be better! Wish me luck!

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4MEKELL 7/8/2014 10:10AM

    It will be a better day. Hang in there. emoticon

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LMGMILLER 7/8/2014 9:16AM

    Today will be better, each day is a opportunity to start over don't dwell on yesterday make the best choices you can today! emoticon

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Monday, July 07, 2014

So I completely avoided the whole picture and weigh in thing on July 1st. I've been on "vacation" for the past week and I let my calorie counting be too. I've no doubt that I've likely done some damage that will take all month to correct. I imagine this is how drug addicts feel when they attempt to get back on the wagon again after a slip.... I could sit and ponder the whys. But why waste the time? Actions speak louder than words. Mini goals will be set and achieved to help me get back on track again.

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    Welcome back.

I like your looking towards the future attitude!

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LEIGHWOMAN 7/7/2014 10:29AM

    I'm going through the same tjing. It's so hard!

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CONFUSEDBIRD 7/7/2014 8:12AM

    You are back, that is what matters!

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A crazy week....

Wednesday, June 18, 2014

So Wednesday I woke up with a bloody nose. It was bleeding on and off all day long. It gave me a screaming headache- so I skipped the gym.

Thursday morning we took the kids to breakfast at Ihop... I never eat there... and boy did I regret it.... Right after eating breakfast I attempted to workout- made it about half way through then spent the rest of my workout time in the bathroom. Later that night I went to work, made it through half my shift and then spent about a half hour throwing up- went home and slept.

Friday it was both ends... not good. Lots of rest and fluids all day.

Saturday I woke up with my right eye glued shut with goop. The good news is I wasn't feeling the flu anymore- now it was just conjunctivitis apparently.... Threw away my contacts and put on my glasses. Took the kids to an amusement park and tried to make the best of the day.

Sunday my eye had started to get a little less goopy, but was crazy red. I got some eye drops from the store and then we headed out to a family BBQ for fathers day. It was outdoor and there were these trees dropping yellow flower seeds everywhere. My luck... one of those lovely tiny seeds landed directly into my eye.

Monday my eye is still red and now it feels like I've got sand in it. Lovely. I call and make a doctors appointment. Made my way to the gym. Had a good workout.

Tuesday- eye still hurts. Go into the doctor and I've got a small coreneal abrasion. She gave me drops and a strict "no contacts" for the next week. I really pushed myself at the gym- working hard for a good burn. It felt great. It's annoying to wear glasses at the gym cause when I lean over I feel like they are going to fall off my face. But I made due.

That's my crazy week. My icing on the cake... I forgot to pack my socks in my gym bag AGAIN! I sucked it up and (yuck) wore my shoes without them. I wasn't going to let not having socks hold me back from really having a good workout.

Now.... I'm off to pack several pairs of socks into the pockets of my gym bag as an emergency stash and then bed....
Phew... done with this past week!

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CONFUSEDBIRD 6/25/2014 8:37AM

    Well at least the week got better!

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WANTSRECOVERY 6/20/2014 9:22AM

    Great job making the best of your crazy week! You have inspired me to keep plugging forward for one more week. emoticon

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AMSPARKS23 6/19/2014 3:42PM

    Great work! Letting things like no socks can easily stop us from going to the gym. I've not went before because I didn't have my headphones... how silly is that? You can really see your progress in your photos! Keep up the great work! :)

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PRAIRIECROCUS 6/18/2014 1:15AM

    Glad you made it through the week !
All the best with this coming week !

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