Wednesday, June 04, 2008
Honestly. I have had a rough 2 weeks. I think turning 27 just hit me. 27 isn't even that old. But I feel like my life has been on hold. My hubby and I just work our lives away at no avail. We work hard for materialistic things and then make claims that we can't afford to have kids. That is a load of BS. I am getting baby hungry for some reason. A big part of me wants to have kids now but the realistic side of me says we need to get our finances under control before we attempt it. All the thinking and the scale not moving just made me depressed and feeling like crap! So I took a break. I did work out for some of it, but I am not going to lie, I was not consistent. I guess this blog should be labeled 43 days, 210... but I have been gone for so long that I felt it was more important to focus on the bigger picture. My hubby and I have done a lot of talking the past few days and it has helped a lot. Our biggest problem is spending. Because we both work full time we do bring home a good salary- but it sure doesn't feel like you do when you add it all up. Our credit card is out of control because we are constantly going out or on trips... we need to stop using the credit card. And travel the old fashion way... save money and bring cash. I guess my birthday just brought on the feeling of 'I have nothing to show for my life'. Yeah, I have nice things.... but what good are they if you have no one to pass them on to? And even then, they are just things. I finally told my husband that I would be willing to sale all of our things if it would mean that we could start a family finally. He actually somewhat agreed with me. Which made me feel better. I woke up this morning feeling like my old self. So it's time that I started to get back in my routine. Working out and watching what I am putting into my mouth! I can do this! And I want to thank all of my spark buddies for being so patient with me along the way. I don't know what I would do without you girls!