Bad week...

Friday, September 10, 2010

I have allowed work to totally consume me this week. We did get away to my moms cabin for the holiday weekend- which just made this work week so much worse. I can't allow this to happen. I have spiraled out of control and the stress it taking its toll on everything. Hubby and I have been fighting like crazy lately, which makes me super depressed. He is my best friend and I promised him that I would not "blog for the world" the detail of our relationship... so I am going to keep that promise. I have been in a very dark place this week. I have not really been this depressed in a long time. I need to pull myself out of this rut.

Tomorrow is a new day.

  

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SHIITAKE 9/13/2010 4:20PM

Tomorrow is definitely a new day........look for the positive in each day of your life ! You are so blessed to have a beautiful son, and wonderful husband.....who is your best friend ! Concentrate more on your family time together......make new memories, my friend ! Report Inappropriate Comment

WILSOCA 9/11/2010 4:29PM

I think the most important thing is that you know and admit that you're in a dark place. Now you have to try to get out of that place and I know you can do it. If I lived near you ... I would commandeer you and take you out for a nice walk to get some fresh air and sun... but I can't do that :( Can the 3 of you get out to a park and play where you can laugh and have some fun together. Try to forget about work and have a bit sun and fun ?? Take care my friend and let us know how you're doing !!! C Report Inappropriate Comment

MDTWEETY 9/11/2010 1:59PM

I am so sorry you had a bad week. :( I like PENUMBRA52's advice! I hope today and the rest of this week continues to get better and better for you. HUGS Report Inappropriate Comment

CONFUSEDBIRD 9/11/2010 9:08AM

I hope today is better for you. Have a good weekend! Report Inappropriate Comment

HEALTH4LYFE 9/11/2010 9:01AM

I hope this morning's sunshine is spreading itself all over you and that after a good night's sleep, you are feeling better and more refreshed. Please take care of yourself and know you are in my thoughts and prayers. Report Inappropriate Comment

PENUMBRA52 9/10/2010 11:19PM

been there GF - break that cycle at all costs - get out and look up the most positive friend you know of ask them to meet you for a walk or a cup of coffee, find out what is going on in their world first get the focus off your negative thinking (everyone has those weeks so focus on someone or something else) try it you'll like it! Good Luck Report Inappropriate Comment

2BIKEDAD 9/10/2010 11:04PM

Yes, tomorrow is a new day and a new opportunity for good things to happen to you. Focus on the good that is in your life. It is there. Sometimes it is easier to see the bad than the good. You got through a really tough week, you remain true to your word to your husband. You have the resolve to change ("I can't allow this to happen"}. And your best friend is still your best friend. Report Inappropriate Comment

DEEB58 9/10/2010 10:50PM

I am praying for you and your husband. Life is short girl, hang in there and if you don't kn ow Christ now is a better time than never. Report Inappropriate Comment

Back from Canada...

Thursday, September 02, 2010

It's good to be back... but I so wish I was not sick. Ever feel like the sky is falling?.. thats how I feel now... I promised a certain someone that I would not share our problems with the world- so I am going to keep that promise. Today just isn't a good day and I wish I felt better.

Sorry to be such a downer today.

  

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SHIITAKE 9/13/2010 4:14PM

I hope you feel better very soon ! Try and take it a little more easy, my friend ! Report Inappropriate Comment

KNMMOMMY 9/7/2010 2:50PM

I hope things are getting better and you are feeling better! hugs!! Report Inappropriate Comment

MDTWEETY 9/3/2010 10:19AM

Feel better soon, Danielle! HUGS Report Inappropriate Comment

XENA1956 9/3/2010 12:07AM

I hope you feel better soon. Since I am just getting over not feeling well, I feel you. rest up and take it easy! Report Inappropriate Comment

WILSOCA 9/2/2010 9:57PM

Awww .. damned Canadians .. and their sickness :):) I'm sorry you're having a downer of a day. You've had a lot on your plate lately so it's no wonder. I hope you get to have a bit of a rest and you're feeling better soon. C Report Inappropriate Comment

CONFUSEDBIRD 9/2/2010 9:29PM

I hope you feel better soon! Take it easy! Report Inappropriate Comment

Stress!

Thursday, August 19, 2010

Work has been stressful and I am letting it get the best of me. I am flying to Canada tomorrow and will be back on Sunday. I'm not sure if I will have access to a computer and the international roaming charges through my blackberry are astronomical. Things will be less hectic when this trip is done. I will still be exercising and making good food choices. I am still keeping my fingers crossed that there will be a comp computer w/ internet access somewhere in the hotel....

I attempted day 2 of week 4 again... this week is so hard for me. I was literally crying because I couldn't finish it. I need to get my brain strait and I know the stress isn't helping. I weighed in at the same this week as last... up 2 from the week before... I need a change and soon.

  

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SHIITAKE 8/22/2010 7:08PM

Stress can really mess a person up.........just try to make the best food choices and do your exercises while you're away. Then you can do your running bwtter when you get back from your trip ! Have a safe flight to and from Canada, my friend ! Report Inappropriate Comment

MDTWEETY 8/20/2010 7:23AM

Oops. Not sure why it posted twice! Comment edited on: 8/20/2010 7:23:59 AM Report Inappropriate Comment

MDTWEETY 8/20/2010 7:23AM

Deep breaths.... I'm so sorry you are feeling stressed. I think that might be why the running is difficult right now too. Take some time to unwind. I hope you have a safe trip and are able to at least enjoy being somewhere new. :-) Report Inappropriate Comment

CONFUSEDBIRD 8/19/2010 11:45PM

Awwwwwwwww noooooo don't let it make you cry! Just do your best. Doing the first of each week is supposed to be a struggle and you know what if u gotta run very sllllooowww then run very slow. I hope you get some downtime when your away in Canada, just breath deep! Everything will be better soon. Report Inappropriate Comment

Day 25 & 26: Tired

Monday, August 16, 2010

So I did manage to stay within my calories yesterday and today. But I am so freaking exhausted. I am not sure what my problem is. Yesterday I went to work but then like didn't want to move. No cardio- no blog- nothing. Today is kinda the same thing. I am going to go to bed early and wake up early and run. Maybe it will give me more energy for the day?....

  

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WILSOCA 8/19/2010 9:34PM

Sometimes you're just tired and need a little rest. How are you feeling today ?? C Report Inappropriate Comment

SHIITAKE 8/19/2010 1:38PM

I know you will get your energy back soon.......I know that when I am bad, and don't do any cardio, I feel really tired ! That's why I try and do some everyday when I can ! Report Inappropriate Comment

PHX_DOROTHY 8/16/2010 11:54PM

I've been like that the last few nights too, it's rough. Good luck with your run tomorrow!! Report Inappropriate Comment

XENA1956 8/16/2010 11:47PM

Some days are like that. I seem to be getting my energy back and I know you will too. Keep up the good work. Report Inappropriate Comment

CONFUSEDBIRD 8/16/2010 11:44PM

Good luck with your run tomorrow! I hate those days when you just drag so much. Report Inappropriate Comment

Day 23 & 24: Staying in calories

Sunday, August 15, 2010

I am so freaking irritated. I finished an entire long blog last night and it didn't stick! So irritating! I actually managed to stay within my calories both days. Today I was way above and beyond in protein which is not normal for me... but I did have eggs for breakfast and salmon for dinner- so that would probably do it.

I didn't do 'cardio' today- but I did play with kids for hours and hours and hours. Chasing my nieces and Xavier around. I am really exhausted. I didn't wear my HRM either- so I don't know how I would even track anything burned today.

I'm tired... this week is going to be a bit hectic. I need to be in Canada next weekend for work- so I have to get a lot done during this week as prep. I also need to find some mini travel containers for my face lotion and stuff cause I am going to try to avoid checking a bag.

Side note, I am so bugged at the moment. My father in law had his kidney removed and has been in and out of the hospital. He came home for 2 days (when I was sick) and went back in. News flash- nobody under the age of 14 is allowed in the hospital unless they are a patient. So rather then having Jeff stay home with Xavier while I go see him, I send Jeff. Yeah, it's just a tad more important that Jeff see is dad- then me see his dad. Anyway- long story short... my mother in law was asking Jeff last night why I have not been at the hospital and quote: "all the other daughter in laws have made an effort". GRRRRRRR!!!!!!
Sister in law number one is RICH- has no kids and came here on vacation to see him.
Sister in law number two is SELF EMPLOYED- therefore can get off work anytime she'd like and her youngest child is 19!
Sister in law number three is UNEMPLOYED- and has no children!
I have a 15 month old! I was sick for half a week! I work 55 hour weeks! WTF!!!! I am totally bugged right now. It's just totally typical of her to be like this. I just can't stand people who don't see the big picture. He will be home on Tuesday- it's not like I can't go see him then. And I don't know, actually be able to bring my kid with me?...duh?!

Sorry, had to vent for a moment.

  

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SHIITAKE 8/19/2010 1:33PM

Good job staying within your calories.........you can only do so much with your time ! Don't worry about your in-laws......your DH knows how you feel, and how much extra time you have ! That's what counts right now ! Report Inappropriate Comment

MDTWEETY 8/15/2010 7:49AM

Good for you for staying w/in your calories! WOO HOO!!!! I hope you didn't let that comment from your MIL ruin your day. Ughhh... I would be irritated too, though. Report Inappropriate Comment

PHX_DOROTHY 8/15/2010 12:20AM

Good job staying within your calories, especially during irritating family stuff. That can be hard. Report Inappropriate Comment