Thursday, April 22, 2010
Today as I was driving to work, I had an 'Aha moment'. The odd thing is that it's something so simple yet powerful.
When I think about the way I felt about food, I felt that I lived to eat. It became like a hobby for me. I couldn't wait to get up and eat something, or I couldn't wait to get home, order a pizza and see how much of it I could stuff in my face. I know that I ate because I enjoyed eating. I felt that endorphin rush when I started ripping into a pizza, or that double cheeseburger. Then I would feel awful afterwards since I was overstuffed only to repeat the cycle again the next day. That's how I got to the point that I am now.
Today I made the conscious decision to change the way that I think. It's not going to be easy, I'll have my bad days but I WILL win the battle. Today I start to EAT TO LIVE. Eating should be like breathing. You're not going to breathe extra fast to store up the air in case you run out later, you only breathe as much as you need to stay alive. That's what I need to change, I need to only eat as much food as I need to stay alive and healthy.
It's crazy how things can hit you like that when you're not expecting and it's crazy how flipping a few words around can make such a difference.
Today I no longer live to eat, today, I eat to live!