What now?

Sunday, March 27, 2011

Just feeling really lost on this journey. I get random bursts of motivation and I think I can take on the world and will lose the weight, but then next thing I know I'm at the grocery store buying pizza and ice cream. I'm going to Europe in about 2 1/2 months and I so badly want to be able to wear cute little dresses and shorts while I'm there. More importantly I want to be able to have my picture taken at the Eiffel Tower and at Westminster Abby, etc. I started looking at Jenny Craig and Weight Watchers, but it seems that they're not any better than what I can get at Spark for free. However, why CAN'T I stay on track. Why am I so weak? I'm scared to death to get on the scale tomorrow, but I guess I have to start somewhere. Hopefully I don't pass out when I see the number!

  

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MEGSOSU 4/1/2011 7:59AM

I'm sorry that you're struggling. :( I am too. But every good decision you make will add up in the end,and 2 and a half months is plenty of time to make some good progress! You could drop 20 lbs by then if you stick with it! Imagine how good it would feel to get there and be 20lbs lighter! I have a wedding to go to in the beginning of July, so I'm setting a 3 month goal. I'm trying to focus on new ideas for what might work rather than all the stuff that hasn't these past three months. It's definitely easier said than done! Since it's the beginning of a new month I'm going to focus on doing everything I can to make this month great and not thinking about the long term stuff. I hope your week is going well! You can do it!!!!!! Report Inappropriate Comment

BILLALEX70 3/28/2011 7:40PM

It's a never ending battle to eat healthy and exercise. There's going to be a couple Sparks walking at Highbanks on Saturday morning; check the C-bus boards for more information. Finding LIVE people will help more with staying on track. Almost all of my best friends I've met through Spark. BTW. Love the new profile pic. Report Inappropriate Comment

AHEALTHIERME44 3/27/2011 9:14PM

I have been in the same place as you..been trying to get back in the swing of things since Jan 1st. Have my ups and downs. I didn't meet my goals before heading to FL at the end of Feb and have slid back even further since then as I head to FL again. Not really digging the idea of putting on a swimming suit..but plan to enjoy myself just the way I am and not give up for the long term. Trying to get back in the upswing these last several days and just get back to the basics of eating fruits/veggies before junk...drinking 8+ glasses of water..today just get back into my cardio routine again and have a plan for the week. Hopefully I can continue these small steps as I go on vacation and not gain any weight while I am there. Step by step..day by day..is all you can do. Try not to focus on the number on the scale as much..read your last blog on 1/30..you were so positive then focusing on those things as well. You will do this...in your own time. Don't give up and certainly don't let anything put a damper on your exciting trip :) Report Inappropriate Comment

ARARUTH 3/27/2011 8:27PM

this sounds like something i would have written. and of course i have no answer. something that helped me was a picture of my back fat. its what people see when they are behind me and my motivation has taken on a whole new meaning. keep posting blogs. the support on sparks will help alot. good luck, you got this! (you can see my back fat picture in my album if you want to be scared) Comment edited on: 3/27/2011 8:27:40 PM Report Inappropriate Comment

DHOLLOWAY60 3/27/2011 8:25PM

Just keep at it . Report Inappropriate Comment

Weigh in

Sunday, January 30, 2011

So technically I'm supposed to weigh in tomorrow, which I probably will, but I am about 99% sure that I didn't reach my goal weight for the month. However, I'm not going to dwell on it and here's why: I FEEL better. I like that I'm exercising 4-5 days a week and cooking healthy meals. The scale may not be working in my favor, but I know that mentally I'm doing right by my body. Each day and every meal is a challenge (had a few cheat days this month), but it always will be for me. I just have to learn to cope with that. The best thing is that I'm up and moving.

  

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PEGGYMAS1 1/31/2011 11:35AM

you seem to have all under control and know what your doing. make sure you track your food and exercise Report Inappropriate Comment

BILLALEX70 1/31/2011 6:33AM

Hey Gal! I'd say you had a great month! If you exercised, ate right and had a few cheats; that's a win in my book. The scale is secondary to how you FEEL. Exercise will lead to eventually making that scale move, but until then enjoy your new found energy. Report Inappropriate Comment

LINDA! 1/30/2011 8:02PM

Let's focus on the fact that you are doing well. The scale will catch up. Report Inappropriate Comment

Feeling like a slob

Wednesday, December 22, 2010

So I've had this pain in my abdomen for the last 9 days. Couldn't really attribute it to anything so after 5 days I decided to see the doctor. Thankfully I work at a clinic so I have a doctor on hand when I need her! Last Friday she examined me and felt that I probably strained my abdominal wall from my core exercises. Well after taking a bunch of ibuprofen over the weekend, no change. Still in a lot of pain. So the doctor decided to order labs and an Ultrasound on all my organs in the abdominal area. Everything came back normal on the Ultrasound, only thing was my C reactive Protein came back slightly elevated indicating inflammation somewhere in my body. So, off to a CT scan I went. Well, I got the results this afternoon before I left work and I am so embarrassed. Apparently, I have fecal loading...aka I'm constipated. Now, this didn't make any sense to me since I was still going daily, but apparently it happens. I of course, immediately become self conscious of my terrible eating habits of late and feel about the size of a house. I can't believe that my poor choices led to all this. The only reason I'm posting this is to accept what I have done to my body and make myself accountable for my poor choices. Here's to 2011.

  

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BILLALEX70 12/28/2010 7:38AM

I'm WAY behind on blogs right now, but wanted to give you a quick note. It sounds like a good chunk (no pun intended) didn't have a great 2010, but WE control the future. Let's kick '10 to the curb and make '11 the best year yet! Report Inappropriate Comment

LOURON 12/22/2010 5:27PM

Isn't it amazing how what we eat effects out health big time Your eating habits will definitely improve 2011!! Report Inappropriate Comment

MAMAJENC 12/22/2010 4:39PM

Let's go 2011!! You go girl!!! Report Inappropriate Comment

Holy Crap

Sunday, October 03, 2010

DANG! Just jumped on the scale and took some measurements. YIKES. The scale I was expecting wasn't going to be pretty, but I haven't taken measurements for about 7 months and I totally flipped out. I am so disappointed in myself. I can't change the last 7 months, but all I can do is move forward. My pants are so uncomfortable to wear now, which makes it difficult to be comfortable in your own skin. Time to buckle down on my eating habits and step up my exercise routine.

  

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MEGSOSU 10/7/2010 11:19AM

I know exactly how you feel! Every morning I dread getting dressed because all of my work clothes are getting tighter and tighter. I'm trying to get my husband on board to workout and eat better with me because we've been eating out wayyyyyy too much! I know we can do it!!! I think we just need to focus on what's really important to us. I know that for me feeling healthy and comfortable is a huge priority, but I lose sight of it when I get busy. Report Inappropriate Comment

BILLALEX70 10/4/2010 6:32AM

The only thing we can change is the future. Best wishes for a great Spark-tober! Report Inappropriate Comment

SIANAN74 10/3/2010 9:58AM

It's difficult but you can do it! The past is the past - change today forward! Report Inappropriate Comment

Question for the Ladies

Sunday, August 22, 2010

Ok, my fellow ladies. I must know any secrets that you may have to deal with the lovely PMS cravings. Please share!!!

  

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KJDOESLIFE 8/23/2010 10:18AM

Remember to drink your water! If I have an insane craving, I drink a glass of water and think about it. If I still want it, I eat it, as long as I keep the portion small and stash the rest so I'm not tempted. Report Inappropriate Comment

SBAIG1109 8/22/2010 9:24PM

Let yourself have it! Just make sure you exercise that day, which is good anyway because it helps with cramps. Plan ahead and know you're going to be craving something, and adjust your meals that day so that you have extra calories to spare. Another option is to portion it. Whatever you would usually have, cut it in half. If it's chips, take out a serving and put it on a plate and put the bag away. if it's cake, cut a small piece and put it on a plate and put the cake away. The final most important thing I do, not just during my period but any other time I'm having cravings or want to eat for emotional reasons, I read this thing I found (don't remember where). I have it saved to my desktop: CRAVING RESISTANCE Cravings are usually more emotional and physiologically intense than hunger. The moment I decide I will ABSOLUTELY NOT EAT cravings will diminish. When I experience a craving my attention gets fixated on food. It is important to remember that the experience of eating goes far beyond the actual time that food is in my mouth - It includes everything that happens afterward: feeling weak, guilty and out of control and gaining weight. In the past when I tried to diet, I gave into cravings, and I felt upset with myself. ------------------------------- --------- - I know I don't care at this moment, but pretty soon I'm going to feel really bad that I ate this. When I get on the scale, I'm going to care very much. If I don't learn to resist eating food I'm not suppose to have, I'll never be able to keep off the weight I lose. --------------------- I have to become an expert at resisting all food that I haven't planned to eat. If I want to lose weight and keep it off, I just can't eat what I want unless it is on my plan. ----------------- I am choosing to say NO CHOICE. If I want to lose weight, I have to do what I need to do, not what I feel like doing. --------------------- Successful dieters and maintainers stay successful because they don't eat whatever they want, whenever they want it. They stick to their plans. --------------- It is true that I don't care at this moment. But if I eat this unplanned food, I'm going to care quite a lot in a few minutes. I know I'll feel really bad if I give in now, but I'll feel really terrific in a few minutes if I resist. I need to do something else! Hope that helps! Report Inappropriate Comment