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Monday, September 05, 2011

So friday had a gr8 phone conversation with a cousin of mine who i love , and the conversation came to be about my younger brother. She reminded me on how my brother has been through so much trouble and how now is so determined to get his life on track.
That alone go me thinking about my neglect for myself. Why cant i take care of myself the way i am busy taking care of others. How i worry about the whole family and not myself. So i got my sneakers on and went for a walk to think about things and i have not stopped since. I have been taking care of what i eat and making time to put in a workout. It has been a while so currently i am at 20min so that i dont hurt myself. I know that its easy to get distracted and then end up losing focus. But i have asked the family to support me and always keep reminding me when they feel like i am slacking. They now also have to cook their own dinners when they feel like eating something that i cant have, but since i am the primary cook , they say they will eat with me whatever i prepare.
So i say thank you to my cuz Shiela for the kinds words, and her time to listen when i need it.

  


Never would give up!!!!

Saturday, January 22, 2011

Ohwii, well how do i begin. well i should have got back in the program once again, but my body keeps fighting with me here lol! bout with my Rheumatoid arthritis, Tonsilitis, then ankle soreness from a previous injury. All this is kinda pulling me down mentally. Its difficult also because of the separation from my partner because we are in different parts of the world. he used to be that second brain of mine and would push me to push myself.
I am grateful that this whole time i have not gained weight, i have just fell on this rut that has kept me at the same number for more than 20months.
I am still willing to however fight this war and win, no matter how long it takes me. But this year i will fight to shed 50lbs. that is my target! I wont give up. I cant give up.!!!!

  


confessions

Monday, October 05, 2009

So its Monday and i am sitting in the office trying to think right and do right. I can only confess in order to rid myself of this guilt of the eating that I did in the past two days. Ooh and yes now I feel so sick cos of all the sugar salt concoction.
So here it is. The list of nasties.

2 packs potato chips 100g each.
1 box of choice assorted cookies..
4 cokes
2 cupcakes, no icing.

Yes Saturday and Sunday was a sugar Ėsalt laid day . why is my brain and my head unwired. My logic tells me I donít need it I need to be doing good for myself, but something else tells my head yes and that devil makes me think so much of that bad food so that I finally cave in. And now since January I am pooching. All these years overweight I was never one with a stomach. All that took the fat was the rest of the body but not my belly area.
So as a result of this bad eating, tho my stomach hurts, I am not hungry at 10am cos I did actually wake up this morning and did some exercise for 30minutes.I should eat but my head is telling me I donít deserve it now cos I ate an army worth of crap of food. Is it really hunger anyway ooh is it that constant demon that wants to be fed. Okay so my solution is to drink a lemon splashed glass of warm water, then munch on an apple, I want to think that will be all till lunch time.
Wish me luck! Now that I have kicked myself, let me move on and I will try and come back with better news!

Tonite
-Stremgth training
Meal plan for the weeks needs to be done too.

Till tomorrow then

  
  Member Comments About This Blog Post:

ROCKYCPA 10/5/2009 8:39AM

    It is hard to admit when you have not followed your conscience but at least you are willing to admit that you were "bad". I am sure that in the future you will be more conscious and hopefully will conquer your sweet and salt tooth. Good luck and you are forgiven.

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COLIBRI930 10/5/2009 8:20AM

    The hardest part is being honest with ourselves, and you have done that. So, today is a new day! emoticon

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HECTORJESUS 10/5/2009 4:18AM

    You are forgiven emoticon

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fat gal image syndrome

Sunday, September 21, 2008

Well it seems all that excitement from friday after i saw the big 7lbs loss has suddenly faded because now i have been trying to figure out were all this fat loss is from. I am stuck in trying to see the physical change in me abd i dont see it.
I mean i feel great and am continuing do more sports as i lose the weight, but i seem to lose the appreciation since i dont see it when i look in the mirror. I am trying to picture a smaller me because i dont want to end up being that person who even when i get to my goal still wonder if i should be doing more??#@%#$%
I am not letting it get me down tho' , i mean 51lbs is huge.. i am out of the 300's and wooo hooo its a celebration enough

  
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AMYCOSTELLO 12/3/2009 11:52AM

    Remember that fat builds up around your organs too! Sometimes the fat loss that we don't see can be the most important! I remember seeing a biggest loser episode where they showed a before and after cat scan of a contestant's body the fat that had built up around his organs was terrifying. Chin up, you have a fan, me! Next year is going to be a great year for you.

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7lbs lost in a week@%#&!!

Friday, September 19, 2008

I have never lost this much in a week since i started this journey so this was a shock ,mostly because this week i have not worked out a lot like i usually do.
When i got on the scale last nite i thought it was fluke and so waited till this morning to see if its real. And its still pulled the same number 299. Which means, no more 300's , and i have lost 51lbs.
It surely gives me motivation even though i dont really see too much of a difference when i look in the mirror. Some clothes do show that i have lost the weight. I just hope to get out of this fat body image i am seeing and really focus on how i can be when i am smaller than i am now.
I read and article about thinking yourself thin so i need to do that .

  
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REBECCA43C 9/22/2008 2:57PM

    Thats amazing Daphne-- I am so happy for you and proud of the hard work you have accomplished!!

Rebi

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HIKERMARY 9/20/2008 8:11AM

    I am so proud of you girl! In the 200's now. You're doing a great job of losing the weight. Keep at it and you will see a new and wonderful image in the mirror in no thyme.

Mary

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JEWELS6363 9/19/2008 8:42PM

    Awesome!!!!

Congratulations on your 50lbs + lost and being out of the 300's. Two big milestones is amazing!

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SHARI1221 9/19/2008 5:14PM

    emoticon emoticon emoticon Thats AWESOME!

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