IM BACK

Monday, October 24, 2011

A little over 2 months ago I made the BEST decision I could have... I split with my boyfriend of 5 years, moved back home and started dating another guy. While it seems to have come to fast I've know him for a couple years and I haven't been HAPPIER! I am smiling all the time and I am actually happy to be ALIVE! I want to live and breathe and have fun...

We have been four wheeling, and hiking, and to the movies, and shooting guns and all these new and exciting things! He has supported my healthier decisions and my ideas about getting my life back on track. Supporting me going back to school and looking at new jobs and everything in my life.

I finally feel WHOLE again and ready to start over again...

My journey is starting again, but this time I feel like I have someone supporting me, pushing me, loving me, and being right there with me!

  

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CALIFGOLFER 10/26/2011 9:13PM

Congrats on the new life and the new love. Best of everything to you both!!! (He sounds awesome) :) Nancy Report Inappropriate Comment

THE_SHAKESHAFT 10/25/2011 3:43AM

Well done. Such big life decisions are very hard to make but often once you've made them you feel so much better for it. Good luck with your future :) Report Inappropriate Comment

PEPIPOI 10/24/2011 8:43PM

Well done and great for you. It's so nice to see that your life has turned around. Congratulations. Report Inappropriate Comment

Figuring out me...

Monday, August 15, 2011

Yesterday my boyfriend and I decided to split up...it was a discussion that we have been having over a week and it was the end of the line yesterday.

I am taking this time to figure things out for myself, figure out what I want in my life and just take sometime to enjoy things.

It's extremely hard and I've cried more then ever, but it's also been bad for my body. This and the new medicine I'm on has killed my appetite which while it is leading to weight loss it's not healthy for me.

I am taking sometime to move back home and get my life in order, feel free to to message me or leave me a comment but I may not be able to answer for awhile.

Thank you for all the time and support each of you have given me, I appreciate it.

  

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IBSPARKY 8/20/2011 7:18PM

Sorry to hear you are hurting. Life changes are stressful and tough on our systems. I am glad you are taking the approach of sitting back to take a look at your life and deciding what it is you want. I'm thankful you have the opportunity to spend time with your parents... being around people who love you is good medicine. (((hugs))) and healing. Karen Report Inappropriate Comment

JESSICA1999PA 8/18/2011 6:53PM

WOW...I am just so sorry to hear this, I can't even imagine the heartache you are feeling right now. My hubby and I have been having some problems lately too, it just puts so much stress on a person. I'll be thinking about you. You have my ph# if you want to go take a walk or just get out and do something. Report Inappropriate Comment

JESS0107 8/16/2011 12:04PM

You will also be in my prayers!! Sometimes, the best thing you can do for yourself and to get some space and work on yourself!! You are always in my thoughts. Report Inappropriate Comment

TPETRIE 8/15/2011 8:41PM

I wish you the best of luck figuring yourself out. It is time for you to concentrate on you. You must remember that you are number one. You need to feel positive about yourself first. just remember a better you is a better friend. Stay focused about what you want and need and you will succeed. Also family is very important and they are always there when you need them or they need you. Report Inappropriate Comment

a break

Thursday, August 04, 2011

I need to take a break from life please... I haven't been able to exercise without pain in almost a year and food is my enemy... fast food a lot and not nearly enough water.

I was doing so well for the past month health wise until I woke up yesterday morning numb and it has continue to spread over my body coming and going as it pleases. Not much pain but that usually comes right after the numbness. I see another docotor on Tuesday and I am praying, hoping and wishing that they are able to get me on a right path. I've been gaining support and connected with a girl I went to school with who acutally has the same symptoms as me and it's been nice to talk to someone who feels like me.

I am going to take a break from life this weekend and just hang. I will be trying Zumba again to see how my body reacts but other then that NO plans......

  

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JESS0107 8/5/2011 11:31AM

I'm sorry to hear that you are not feeling too well but I think that taking a break and just relaxing just might help. I hope that everything goes well with your next doctors visit!! Report Inappropriate Comment

LHUP7546 8/4/2011 10:54PM

So sorry to hear about your pain! I know from experience how depressing and debilitating it can be! It took three years for the source of my pain to be discovered and it turned out to be my gall bladder! What an easy fix that was. I hope that your discovery will come soon and it will be an easy one! Sometimes the best thing to relieve stress is to take a break! Hope you enjoy a quiet weekend. Report Inappropriate Comment

love your dash

Saturday, July 30, 2011

How Do You Live Your Dash?
I read of a man who stood to speak
At the funeral of a friend.
He referred to the dates on her tombstone
From the beginning to the end.

He noted that first came her date of birth
And spoke the following date with tears,
But he said what mattered most of all
Was the dash between those years.

For that dash represents all the time
That she spent alive on earth
And now only those who loved her
Know what that little line is worth.

For it matters not, how much we own;
The car, the house, the cash,
What matters is how we live and love
And how we spend our dash.

So think about this long and hard
Are there things you’d like to change?
For you never know how much time is left,
That can still be rearranged.

If we could just slow down enough
To consider what’s true and real,
And always try to understand
The way other people feel.

And be less quick to anger,
And show appreciation more
And love the people in our lives
Like we’ve never loved before.

If we treat each other with respect,
And more often wear a smile
Remembering that this special dash
Might only last a little while.

So, when your eulogy’s being read
With your life’s actions to rehash
Would you be proud of the things they say
About how you spent your dash?

  

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JESSICA1999PA 8/9/2011 7:04PM

I've read this before, it's one of my favs! Report Inappropriate Comment

Do I have a food addiciton?

Monday, July 11, 2011

I just got done watching Extreme Makeover: Weightloss edition and it was honestly the saddest thing I have ever seen. Here this man was given all the tools and all the opportunities to lose the weight and he instead...gained weight. He would hide and sneak food, go to the bank to get money out after his wife took all his cash and credit cards. He was admitting that he had a food addiction, a real addiction, that he could not over come.

As I sat and watched this episode I connected with this man more then anyone else I have when it comes to weight loss. I have in fact done things to hide food, eat alone and on occasion binged for no good reason. I have emotions so tied up in food, it means so much to me, and I can't find anything about replacing it.

Do I belong at over-eaters anonymous? Is that where I should go?

  

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JESSICA1999PA 7/14/2011 6:56PM

There are OA meetings at the church I got married at here in KOP, and I've thought about going over and over. I just haven't taken that first step...it's so hard. Report Inappropriate Comment

IRISHGIRL74 7/14/2011 8:09AM

That is the thing with weight loss. We need to lose weight becuase it's a health thing like smoking. Yes, it can be an addiction. Like smoking, there's emotions tied to it. Unlike smoking, you have to eat to be alive. You can't give up eating cold turkey! Yet, like this guy said, sometimes we weren't taught the right ways to eat. I was. I eat when I'm stressed or lonely. Which is all the time. I'm trying to break the emotional part and retrain myself to eat when I'm hungry and not replace the emotions with the food. I can't fill up the holes in my emotions with food. Report Inappropriate Comment

WANNABESKINNYME 7/12/2011 12:51AM

It sure can't hurt to check out OA. They have online, phone and face to face meetings. I have always thought that I had a food addiction. It wasn't until I did Atkins that I discovered for absolute certain that I do. I have a serious carbohydrate addiction. I feel so awesome with out the "bad" carbs. Once I have eliminated the addictive cycle, I no longer over eat. It's very scary being out of control. Check them out on the web. You can also do yahoo or g-mail groups. Best of luck. May you find your truth and peace. Report Inappropriate Comment

COUTURELADY 7/12/2011 12:04AM

I think it is worth checking out. I've gone to a few meetings and it's definitely a mind-heart-opener. You may decide that the meetings are just what you need. Go and see. I wish you the best! Report Inappropriate Comment

DEBTOLOSE 7/11/2011 11:31PM

that is toataly up to you But I went to my first over eaters Anonymous tonight and I think they have something there to help me and my daughter good luck to you Deb Report Inappropriate Comment