Tuesday, November 10, 2009
Today is the last day of my 38th year.
Last Monday I went and saw a band called Florence and the Machine. It was something akin to a spiritual experience for me.
Tonight I went and saw another favourite band - AFI.
I didn't work out - I danced. And I sang and I had a blast!
I strongly recommend that sometimes just throw caution to the wind and *live.* I mean really live!
Push yourself, do something you haven't done in a long time, put your crazy makeup on, go dancing, go to a club, find your bliss, just... do something and really *enjoy* it.
We're all spending so much time fretting over what the scale says, or how our jeans fit or whatever that we sometimes just lose sight of the fact that, even if we're packing too many pounds and our blood pressure is out of whack, we're still alive.
Last Monday and now tonight was just awesome for me. It reminded me of what it's like to have fun. To breathe. To actually *love* life.
So that's it. Nothing exciting. Nothing profound. Just... live. And have fun doing it.
Bring on my 39th year. I got carded, so even fat I must be looking somewhat good!
Thursday, November 05, 2009
I haven't been really inspired to write anything for a few days now. I haven't really been inspired to do much of anything lately.
I don't know if it's the weather, or the time change, or just my own apathy, but I've just not been doing... anything.
I need to get my groove back.
I don't really remember why I'm doing this at the moment. Oh I know I need to get healthy and "I want to live longer" blah, blah, blah. But right at this moment I don't care about all of that. I can't remember, I mean really remember, why I started on this journey again.
I don't think I've lost the map, but I sure as heck don't remember where I put it!
Maybe I just need a good night's sleep.
Wednesday, October 28, 2009
I am so pooped this is going to be short.
The rain deterred me from wanting to get up for work, much let alone walk there.
I was late, but I brought my own lunch.
I had a horrible woman come in and start insulting me like I was some sort of idiot who didn't understand the English language (she actually asked me if I had a dictionary! Smart Alec that I am, I did have one and offered it to her because it seemed she needed it more than me).
I then was telling someone about this horrid woman when I was asked how old she was, "Oh, she was around my age give or take."
"Oh like what, 26?"
Nothing like a man complimenting you on your age - almost thirteen years younger than you really are!
Bed time for Bonzo - night Sparkers!
Tuesday, October 27, 2009
I've been on Spark since sometime in 2008. I'm pretty sure that instead of losing weight I've packed even more on. That's what happens when you don't stick to the plan.
So this time I've been trying to take a slightly different approach. Instead of thinking the ten years of weight gain (which is about 100 pounds for the record) I need to work off will magically melt away over night and being horribly disappointed that it's not happening, I've been taking things a little slower.
First I needed to master some of the really small, seemingly stupid things. I was not in the habit of taking supplements on a daily basis. I've had to train myself to take a multivitamin every morning, and to remember to take the vitamin B12 away from the iron and don't forget the vitamin D!
I feel that, even though it is less than three weeks or 21 days, I've got a pretty good foundation for that habit to grow on.
I've also started walking more. And more. And faster too.
When I first started walking, it was agony. My legs rebelled at having to be used for something, my feet protested and my ankles just felt like they would give out, but I've been walking a little more each day. Today it was about 8km total. Sure there are those out there that are running further, or others walking faster and longer, but this isn't a race. The only person in this competition is me, and regardless of where I place, I'm still going to win.
Today I logged my meals for the first time in forever! I may be jumping the gun a little on that... I'm still at the baby steps stages, so if I stumble, well... I stumble. But I know how to get back up again.
This really is a wondrous journey! I'd be happier if I didn't need to take it at all honestly, but I am on it now so I am making the most of it.
I wonder what else I will see on these travels of self rediscovery...
Monday, October 26, 2009
As mentioned in previous blogs, I'm trying to walk more. There's the obvious reasons for this, and then there's the other reasons - I've got a lot of perpetual swelling in my legs (and elsewhere) and being just a wee bit overweight (insert sarcasm here) walking I thought would be a good way to get started again and boost some circulation.
The problem for me now isn't the walking so much, but the fact that I have crazy tense, sore calf muscles.
Now I am going to go to my doctor's next week to really press her to see why there is so much swelling. This isn't new and it's not the first time I've asked her about it either.
But back to the wickedly tense calves.
When I choose to walk home I am walking about 2.5 km in about 30 minutes. Not wickedly impressive numbers I'll admit, but I *am* impressed that I'm walking at all! Heck, I even throw some climbing stairs in that walk too (which I could avoid by changing the route slightly)! So while I do make it all the way home, the calf muscle thing is killing me.
This is a great idea that I'd like to try: http://www.sparkpeople.com/resource/exerci
ses.asp?exercise=495 but the simple fact of the matter is that I am too big and do not have the upper body strength to really do this for any length of time for any real amount of success.
Stupidly tight calf muscles, which wouldn't really be happy with any sort of deep tissue massage at the moment, shouldn't be the reason I can't even walk - and it's almost becoming that way.
Suffice it to say, I need some sort of help in figuring this out. Stat.
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