Monday, July 26, 2010
So I've been stressed by work and life and have allowed my own negative attitude to get the best of me. Whoever said that life wasn't going to be easy had it right! Not that my life is THAT difficult in comparison to so many others - I mean I am so blessed in so many ways. But sometimes life gets me down... I think we all struggle with that now and then... and I went through that the last couple of weeks and haven't been quite so good w/the diet & exercise.
It doesn't help that I'm in a long distance relationship... I'm here and my guy in a land far, far away... okay, maybe notsomuch. But he is in New York while I'm in Nebraska and while we do a pretty good job of seeing each other every month sometimes we have to go through longer stretches without a trip. We were in Chicago about a week and a half ago and had a wonderful weekend hanging out and having fun. It had been 8 weeks since I saw him last... EIGHT. WEEKS. Aargh. That's hard on a romance... in so many ways!! And even though we speak daily and rely heavily on text and email to keep in touch throughout the day, every time we have a longer stretch without seeing each other I start to have doubts. What are we doing? Why are we trying this long distance thing? Is it all going to fall apart? And it's offset by OMG I miss him so much! Why can't time pass more quickly? Why do our stupid schedules have to interrupt our relationship? I want to see him Noooooowwwww!
So, you see, with all of that emotion running, and frankly, a crappy support system here in good old Nebraska, it's hard to stay on track and not turn to emotional eating, a couple glasses of wine, and blowing off the gym. Which then leads to the trip where we celebrate with wonderful dinners at top notch restaurants with wine flowing and topped off with a delicious dessert. Wow. How I managed to go on this last trip and not put on 5 lbs is beyond me!
But I finally stepped on the scale this weekend and guess what? I had only put on half a pound. Woot! So right back to the gym I went. Yes, I should've gone back right after returning from Chicago but I was sad and blue and I missed hiiiiiiiiim! Yep, I'm pathetic.
Good news is our next trip is coming up and we're spending an entire week together. WooHoo! Big Party! :)
But, yeah, that's what I've been up to... not proud of dropping off the diet/fitness plan but it is what it is and I'm trying to make the most of the situation we're in right now. Hopefully one of these days we'll be more geographically compatible and I'll find a whole new excuse not to exercise and eat right. Geez!
Saturday, July 10, 2010
The last 2 days of this week I was stuck in the most boring all-day meetings ever! Okay, maybe not ever, but close. How is it that a whole day of doing nothing except trying to stay awake and on topic can be so exhausting? At least lunch and snacks were not provided because that generally turns into a minefield of unhealthy treats to avoid. I did pretty well overall this week other than skipping the gym the last couple of days. So, I'm back to the gym again and, as usual, jumping right back on the horse... which seems to be my typical weekly plan... slip a bit, get back to it, slip a bit, get back to it, lather, rinse, repeat...
Wednesday, July 07, 2010
to break my plan. I could easily chow down on some licorice or skittles or chips right about now. But that's what got me into this mess in the first place! It's amazing how a simple little package of tasty goodness can leave you with a muffin top that hours at the gym may or may not remove. I'm doing okay... maybe struggling a little bit... I lifted yesterday and was starving all morning today! Greek yogurt w/ fresh blackberries & a tsp of raw sugar... a hard boiled egg... a cup of dry Cheerios... mixed nuts, raw veggies and half a tbsp of Annie's Goddess dressing. And I was still starving. Oh I know what hungry feels like today! Oh yes I do! I had LC spaghetti and a small peppermint patty for lunch. I finally feel almost satisfied. I'm going to drink some water and hang in there... this, too, shall pass.
I've slept poorly the last couple of nights - stressed for a variety of reasons. And right at this moment work is a little slow - hopefully I'll get a new assignment soon and things will pick up! I'm sure they will... and then I'll want to eat due to stress instead of boredom. :) Oh yes, that's how my lovely appetite works!
I'm ready for a change... I mean a real, big, meaningful change... not sure what that will be... hopefully it's weightloss and liking myself a bit more... but it's hard to say. I have several balls in the air at the moment. I just need security and satisfaction... I feel like I'm close but I've still got a ways to go...
No short-term solutions for me today, though. Today I stick to the plan and feel the hunger knowing it will help lead me to my goal.
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