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Didn't make my goal...

Friday, January 21, 2011

But I'm ok with it. Because I have a new plan. I bought EA Sports Active 2 for the Wii and I love it so far. I started it 13 days ago and have lost 2 pounds. My new goal is to lose 4 more pounds by Valentine's Day. I'm hoping to lose 8, but I'll be happy with 4. I went food shopping yesterday and bought lots of veggies and fruits and am going to commit to cooking dinner and packing lunches for work. I know, I've said all of this before, and I'm sure I'll be really discouraged if I don't lose, or worse yet, gain next weigh-in, but I will keep going. After I finish the 3 week challenge, I'm going to move onto the 9 week challenge and up the exercise intensity from easy to normal. Sometimes I feel like the easy is too easy and won't change anything, but I have to keep reminding myself that baby steps are the way to go, and workouts that have been too hard to keep up with in the past have only discouraged me. And of course, coming back here always inspires me to do better and not quit.

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LPOWELL911 1/24/2011 10:27AM

    Keep working hard! If easy levels are too easy, add something to it. Add a small weight or a can of goods from the pantry for a little extra resistance. Look for an extra movement that will not throw off your timing, yet work another part of the body. For example, if you are doing basic steping exercise, add a knee lift to work an abdominal crunch.

You are right. If you work at a difficult level then it may be discouraging. Try a difficult level once and then evaluate it. If it was too challenging and discouraging, then get back to the easy level for a few more weeks and try the challenging level again later.


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CASSIECAT 1/23/2011 7:25PM

    Just keep working at it in a smart way and you'll get results! And keep checking in. The blogs and teams really help me. :)

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DISP770 1/22/2011 10:34AM


I'm really trying, I don't want to be a fat bride. Plus my heath is starting to suffer and so is my self esteem. I've had years to lose this weight and now I am trying to cram it into 8 months. I think I work best under pressure. LOL

Thanks for the support!

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CASSIECAT 1/22/2011 10:12AM

    You sound like you have an excellent attitude and plan!

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DISP770 1/21/2011 5:03PM

    Thank ladies!! You are doing great as well. My Sparkfriends are the best!!!

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MRSMLBJ 1/21/2011 4:34PM

    Baby Steps. And don't be discouraged. Losing 2 pounds is better than gaining 1. And remember...check how your clothes fit and how you feel, too. Good luck.

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CLARABRUNNING 1/21/2011 4:33PM

    Hey girl! Hang in there! I set goals all the time, realizing that LIFE HAPPENS and it is totally ok to readjust.

I'm on a sort-of plateau (only losing about 5 pounds a month) even with changing my routine, etc. But I'm not going to let it get me down! All we can do is keep trying and even 1 pound is one we will never have to fight with again.

Hugs and high-fives girl!


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6 pounds. Can I do it?

Tuesday, December 21, 2010

I know this is a bad time to be setting a goal, but you gotta start somewhere, right? I decided to try and lose 6 pounds by the 11th of January. That's 3 weeks from now. 6 pounds can't be that hard, right?

Yesterday I felt super out-of-shape. I took the stairs at work (going down) and felt like an elephant was sitting on my chest the entire ride home. I decided to go wedding dress shopping, finally, in January. I'm terrified. But maybe it will open my eyes and give me the kick in th ass that I need. At least it will show me if the image in my head is real or just a figment of my imagination. Who knows, maybe I will think I look stunning. (I doubt it, lol) I think it will turn out to be a positive experience. Whatever I end up losing will only make me look that much better. I may not be a size 8 on my wedding day, but a 12 will still look great. Even a 14.

Oh, yeah, get this. My fiance had his work Christmas party at a bar we used to go to a lot. This guy came up to me that I haven't seen in a while (older guy, super sweet) and puts his hand on my waist. He says, "You look great!" and follows it up with, "April?" I said, "April?" (thinking, my name is Michelle, not April....) well.....he meant am I DUE in April!!!!! Mind you, I'm holding a Miller lite! I just laughed it off, he said he felt so embarrassed, but I told him it was ok. The thing is, I thought I actually looked good. I had a new sweater dress on with some body shaping garments on underneath. I felt cute. I didn't really let the comment bother me, but I was definitely self-concious the rest of the night. I kept pulling my dress away from my tummy. I didn't let it ruin my night, but it was in the back of my mind. Oh well, what can you do.

So, I'm going to be as good as I can the next 3 weeks. This is the week of food deliveries at work and people bringing in various things like candy, cookies, cakes....it's hard to say no, but I have to do it. I can't ban myself entirely, but I'm not going to pig out. I have to work Christmas Eve, Christmas Day and the day after, so that really sucks. But at least I won't be at someone's house all day where food will be available at all times. I have to admit, I'm not very optimistic about this. but I can't give up. I have to do something. Even if it's a little tiny something.

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DISP770 12/21/2010 5:10PM

    Thank you everyone! I just joined the Emotional eaters page and learned that I should try to journal about my feelings when I feel like I want to eat something. Unfortunately I did it the other way around this first time, but it made me feel better. I'm really stressed out at work right now and feel like flipping out. I do not want to track my food, because as an emotional eater it makes me completely obsess over what I eat and I beat myself up if I overeat. So I think I'm just going to journal for right now and see how that goes.

As usual, you guys are the best!!!

PS....I took a short walk today on break! It felt great!

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SIMPLELIFE4REAL 12/21/2010 4:59PM

    emoticon...Tracking all your food will make it all possible.

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NWHURLEYGIRL 12/21/2010 2:56PM

    I think this is the BEST time of year to make a goal of getting healthier! If you can succeed and achieve your goal through all the high sugar/high fat foods being shoved in your face from every direction, you can make it through ANYTHING! You absolutely can do it!!

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DISNEY4537 12/21/2010 1:57PM

    It is really hard to stay within the calorie limit during the holidays because everyone is tempting you with all types of foods. Six pounds in 3 weeks is 2 pounds a week which is completely doable. You have broken down your medium goal into three smaller goals emoticon Just stick to your guns and think "do I really need that" when temptation is knocking on your door. Plus, when you fight off temptation and win, it is way more rewarding. emoticon Way to go!! You are setting goals during a more challenging time of the year and you can do it!! You go girl!!! emoticon

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4 lbs. gained in 3 weeks...

Monday, October 25, 2010

This is ridiculous. I don't know what I'm doing wrong. There is nothing wrong with my thyroid, I've been trying really hard to eat better the past few weeks...I just don't know.

I went to a 70th birthday party for Paul's wild and fun Uncle Jim on Friday night. My friend Shannon, who has lost a lot of weight this past year and looks fabulous was sitting with me at one of the tables. I am really happy for her, but at the same time I felt like everyone was looking at ME because I (felt like) I was the fattest person in the room. I couldn't believe how self-concious I felt. I had a few tostitos with spinach dip and felt incredibly guilty. When we got in line for food, I felt like everyone was judging what I was going to eat. This was absolutely absurd thinking, but I couldn't help it. I felt like everyone was thinking, "Look at her, why is she eating that?" I have never felt like this before. Eventually I felt better but it really disturbed me. And then to top it off I step on the scale this morning and discover a 1.5 lb. gain from last week. I can't do this anymore. I don't understand what's happening to me and why. I was on my feet all day yesterday doing laundry, cleaning, cooking, decorating, etc. and by the end of the day my heels hurt so badly I could barely walk. They still hurt a little today. I know it's because of my weight. I am so depressed on the inside because of this. I don't really show it on the outside but I can feel that I'm sad. I hate feeling this way. I am supposed to be going to try on dresses for my wedding soon and I am dreading it. This is supposed to be an exciting and happy time! I am terrified! I can't bring myself to do it! I don't know what I'm going to do.

In the meantime, I'll be pondering my next move.

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ARCHIMEDESII 10/26/2010 3:03PM

    I hope you don't mind, but I snuck a peak at your food journal. If you're not logging everything, you should. You may be taking in more calories than you think. Don't be afraid to be honest with yourself, log everything. The SP charts are great. They'll tell you if you are deficient in any vital nutrients. They'll also tell you if you're taking more sodium than you think. Salt hides in a ton of different foods.

One thing in particular that stood out to me was a definite lack of dark leafy greens. For optimum health, a person should eat 6-9 servings of fresh fruit and veggies each and every day. If you were to just make one change to your nutrition, eating 6-9 servings of fresh fruit and veggies would have the biggest impact on your health as well as your weight. If you're going to overeat anything, over eat your veggies. Think color. The darker and brighter a fruit or veggie is, the better. Example, romaine lettuce is better than iceberg.

As far as retaining water, that happens to us all. Do make sure you're drinking enough water. If you are the least bit dehydrated, your body will hold onto water. So, if you want to release water, you've got to drink water. And if you don't like water, consider trying something like Poland Springs Sparkling flavored waters. no calories. no preservatives. no artificial sweeteners. very tasty.

So, do your best to eat more fresh veggies. It will make a difference. Drink your water and mostly, you must be patient. This is not the Biggest Loser, you really will not see dramatic changes in a short period of time. Slow and easy really does win this race.

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DISP770 10/26/2010 1:04PM

    Thanks Karen!

So, what do I do about the water weight? I have not been able to get under 200 in a few years. In fact, I think the last time was about 3 years ago. I have been trying to cut my salt intake, and eat less packaged foods than I used to. Every few months I need new pants because they are too tight. I am almost a size 20 now. I am planning on having a full physical and stress test done. My heart rate was high when I was in the hospital and they were a little concerned.

Maybe I am one of those people it just doesn't "happen" for. That I have to work extra extra hard and that is just not how I am programmed. I'll admit it! I'm lazy! I've hardly ever finished a project I started. I give up way too easily. I give into (food) temptation at the drop of a hat. And I hate exercise! LOL

I know that if I resist all the temptations of eating junk and being lazy that it WILL get easier. It's just hard to believe I will EVER lose weight.

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ARCHIMEDESII 10/26/2010 8:51AM

    Once again, you must be retaining water. Maybe not for the reasons SKYWATCHERRS or I posted, but something else. Remember, one pound of fat = 3,500 calories. Physiologically, it really isn't possible to even gain a pound of fat in one day. Your body just doesn't soak up that many calories that quickly. Weight gain (as a generality) comes from people mindlessly eating day after day after day. A dramatic change in the scale over a short period of time is almost ALWAYS some type of water retention.

so, if a person has to eat an EXTRA 3,500 calories on top of their daily caloric intake, that means they'd need to eat at least 5,000 calories on one day to theoretically gain one pound of fat. Now, if you believe you gained 4 pounds of fat, that means you ate an extra 14,000 calories over the last three weeks.

Did you eat an extra 14,000 calories ??? If you've been watching what you eat because you're trying to be a bit healthier, then you did NOT gain 4 pounds of fat. You're gaining water for whatever reason.

And yes, there are more reasons the human body retains water that were not listed. As I mentioned in my previous reply, I can easily GAIN 3-4 pounds in a day! It's not a fat gain. It's a temporary water weight gain that happens to everyone.

You really can not tie your emotions to the scale. It is just not healthy. You're making yourself miserable because you think you're doing something wrong, when you aren't.

My advice... step away from the scale for at least a couple of weeks. Don't even think of getting on. You eat right. You watch your portions and you get some regular exercise. You don't worry about the scale. You concentrate on doing healthy things for your body. If you fixate on the scale, you really will be miserable.

And that's no good. You've got to take care of yourself, mind, body and soul. Slow and easy wins this race.

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DISP770 10/25/2010 8:28PM

    Well, you ladies motivated me! Even after 12 hours of work I made myself do the Jillian 30 day shred. And even though I barely have the strength to hold my phone to type this, I know I made the right choice. One day at a time, right?

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SOCKKNITTER 10/25/2010 6:26PM

    You're making yourself crazy!! RELAX! Start over. Today is the beginning. Forget the party. Forget the gains. TODAY is the beginning. This meal. Right now. Stress is a killer & can pretend to be anything. It can pretend to be a heart attack or the "runs". It can make your face swell up & take away a good orgasm. So, you have to de-stress. One of the best ways is EXERCISE. You have no time. Well, you do. Skip rope. Dance to a favorite song a few times a day. Do jumping jacks during the commercials. Down load the 3 Minute Walk to your Google Bar & do it several times a day. Drink, drink, drink your water. I, too, hate to write down what I eat but if I don't write down every bite, I have no idea what I'm eating. If you have no idea, how can you plan on losing??? Cut off a boob?? You get my drift. You are making yourself crazy because you aren't organized. Be accountable to yourself - draw a chart with the daily musts & check them off as you do them. I liked the WW booklets with all the little boxes to check off when you drank your water, milk or ate your fruits & veggies. Follow the Program that you choose from Spark. Do this for ONE WEEK. See the difference. We're like alcoholics - we have to do this ONE DAY AT A TIME. emoticon

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KAITHOFFMAN 10/25/2010 5:37PM

    i know its hard when u know youve been working hard and there seems to be nothing showing for it. why dont you try tracking how many inches you have lost instead of pounds? or go by how you feel energy wise since you started? sometimes it takes people a while for it to come off. maybe next weeks or in a few weeks, you will have a big loss! some people's bodies just work that way...but i can understand how frustrating it is.

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DISP770 10/25/2010 4:57PM

    Thanks everyone.

Here's the thing. I did not eat a lot of salty foods. I don't have time to exercise, so it's not my muscles holding water. It's not my TOM. I am extremely stressed most of the time because of my job, and because of my schedule, work nights I only get 5-6 hrs of sleep. Nothing I can do about it. So what do I do to combat the stress? I have no idea. As far as being irregular--I have been seeing a GI dr since last November because I may have IBS. I can be in the bathroom as many as 12 times a day. Nothing backed up here. I have tried numerous times to track my food. It only makes me nervous, anxious and crazy. I obsess over everything I put in my mouth, deprive myself of foods I really want, and feel guilty about eating. I just can't do it.

Please please please don't take this as me being negative and throwing out every suggestion. I REALLY REALLY REALLY appreciate the feedback. It just kind of scares me that it ISN'T any of those things, and I am still gaining weight. That's why I post this. Because I don't know what it could be.

You guys are the reason I keep coming back here. I'm sorry if I'm wearing out my welcome!!

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SIMPLELIFE4REAL 10/25/2010 3:16PM

    Good for you for blogging about how you are feeling. You are doing a great thing just by writing about what's happening.

I don't know if you have been tracking all of your food, I didn't do that for a long time and finally got on the wagon. I've learned a lot in the past few months about how my eating affects my weight. Like others have said, sometimes it's just water weight. Tracking helps to figure that all out. I can look back at see if I'm in calorie range, but ate salty foods or if I really have been out of range.

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SKYWATCHERRS 10/25/2010 2:37PM

    Just to add on to what my pal ARCHIMEDES said, the scale can rise or not change at all due to factors totally unrelated to your body fat. As ARCHIMEDES pointed out, water weight gain is one of them. Here are others:

eating food high in sodium, processed foods, packaged foods - these make you retain water. Makes the scale go up.

Stress and not sleeping enough - tells your body that you are in some kind of crisis, initiating a stress response. Part of this response is the release of a hormone called cortisol. Cortisol tells the body to start saving calories and fat instead of burning them because the body perceives you to be in crisis. That can bring your scale loss to a stand-still. Stress/sleep deprivation also messes with many of your other hormones, including the ones that regulate hunger, so you may want to eat more.

Time of month - as ARCHIMEDES stated, you can see a 3-5lb shift on the scale from normal hormone shifts and body fluid shifts related to your menstrual cycle. It's not fat.

exercise - vigorous exercise makes your muscles swell with water and increased blood volume. This usually translates to a rise on the scale, but it's just fluid and blood. IT's necessary for your body to recuperate and come back stronger in response to your exercise.

irregular bowel movements/constipation - not to get graphic, but if you don't poop regularly you're going to see up to 4lbs on the scale. 4lbs of waste, not body fat. So eat fiber and stay regular.

Keep track of your measurements in addition to scale watching (if you absolutely must watch the scale). Your measurements won't lie - if your measurements shrink, you're losing body fat no matter what the scale tells you.

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LCHATTY 10/25/2010 2:10PM

    I think a lot of your issues are stress related. Your body is fighting back because of all the stress it is feeling. No wonder, with all the wedding plans....who wouldn't be totally freaking out.
I agree with DISP715, cut yourself some slack, relax, plan your wedding and everything else will come into focus. Putting pressure on yourself at this point in time to lose "x" number of pounds by such and such a date is just about the equivalent of sabotage.
If anyone is looking at you and making judgments, then they can just kiss your butt. Who cares!!
You go get whatever size dress fits and you will look stunningly beautiful in it.
I think I filled that with enough cliches to last a little while. :)
Now sit down and put your feet up!!!


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ARCHIMEDESII 10/25/2010 2:08PM

    So, did you eat 14,000 calories over the last three weeks ??? If you ate an extra 14,000 calories on top of your normal daily intake, that would cause a four pound gain in fat. Keeping in mind that one pound of fat = 3,500 calories. HOWEVER, if you did not eat an extra 14,000 calories, then what you're experiencing is nothing more than a temporary WATER WEIGHT GAIN. This is perfectly normal.

I can easily "gain" 3-4 pounds in a day !! Is that a fat gain ? Not unless I ate an entire Cheesecake Factory Cheese Cake. Ever notice your weight goes up during TOM ?? Most women experience a gain in weight. Is that a fat gain ? Nope, once again it's nothing more than a temporary water weight gain that passes in a few days.

If you know you've been eating properly, then you did NOT gain fat. However, you are probably retaining water. not unusual and in fact, quite normal. Make sure you're drinking plenty of water. if you want to release water, you need to drink water.

Trust me... water retention... You'll be fine. Don't fixate on the scale. there is more to good health than a number that stares at us from between our toes in the morning.


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DISP770 10/25/2010 1:43PM

    THANK YOU!! *hugs*

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DISP715 10/25/2010 11:23AM

    Girlfriend!! Cut yourself so slack!!! You have had an extremely stressful and difficult few months. Regardless of that, you made good choices all in the name of health. It is hard to turn off the voices in our heads, but, try to remember that "other people's opinion of me is none of my business!". You are beautiful, smart and have love in your life. It is easy to get frustrated and to say "**ck it" but remember what the ultimate goal is ....HEALTH for you and for Paul. SO.....chin up and move forward BECAUSE you are WORTH it!!! HUGS!!!

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It Came in Three, I Hope It's Over!

Wednesday, September 22, 2010

So I get out of the hospital, and a week later Paul goes in. He gets out, and a week later my dad goes in. (He's fine, it was most likely mild pancreatitis or a passed kidney stone.)

Paul is still struggling with the pericarditis. I'm worried because he doesn't seem to be getting better and I don't know enough about recovery to put my mind at ease. The doctor (who is excellent and very well-known) has told him that it will take a while to run it's course and has changed his medications and dosage, but it just seems like we're at a standstill. It kills him to not be able to do the things he wants to do. I even yell at him if he cleans the house or does anything because he's really not supposed to be on his feet. I just hope that he doesn't suffer permanent damage from this or that it becomes a permanent condition. I wish I had more information on this, but there really isn't anything outside the realm of the clinical standpoint. I'd like to read some stories of people who have recovered from it and how long they had to deal with it. It's a little frustrating right now!

On a happy and totally unrelated note, 2 things:

I finally got my iPhone 4, and we set our wedding date! 9-3-11!!!

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DISP770 9/23/2010 4:25PM

    Melissa-- emoticon--Thank you girl...I'm so glad we are catching up again...I felt like we weren't friends there for a while!

Kay--no problem! you are the only one who seemed to know what it was about. I will check out the page you sent me.

Victoria--thanks! Congrats on you and your hubby making it work so long. PS STAY AWAY FROM THE COPS! LOL

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DISP715 9/22/2010 10:20PM

    I REALLY hope things start looking up for you soon!! Congrats on that wedding date! How exciting. My hubby and I just celebrated 22 years on the 17th. I keep threatening to trade him in for a newer model. (Maybe one of those hotties in a cop uniform!!). Hope you are feeling 100% and not working too hard!! HUGS!!!

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SIMPLELIFE4REAL 9/22/2010 4:46PM

    I'm sorry that I didn't provide more of the type of info you are looking for. Have you checked this site out? It is an on-line support group for people with pericarditis. You are doing the right thing by asking around. Just keep asking. Eventually, you will find some one that can help you with this.


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MISWIL765 9/22/2010 3:25PM

    Hey love...It is true what they say about things happening in 3's, for me it's usually 300 though LOL. Keep your head up! Paul needs time to heal, I know you want him better just take it one day at a time. I'm also happy to hear that your Dad is better!

I'm so excited for you and your wedding date. I feel like I'm part of the process, I love hearing about everything and seeing you happy :) emoticon emoticon

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Any ladies in the Philadelphia/KOP area?

Monday, September 13, 2010

I just purchased 2 75 minute pole dancing classes for $25 from livingsocial.com.

If you want to check it out, copy and paste into your browser:


Let me know when you purchase them and maybe we can meet up and do our classes together!!

I'm really excited about this!


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DISP770 9/14/2010 3:15PM

    I'm excited. A few of my friends bought one (unfortunately only 1 of them bought it thru my link lol) so we're going to go together.

Boyfriend WAS doing better, but I just talked to him (I'm at work, he is home) and he said his legs and feet are all red and blotchy. I am really concerned about it and can't seem to find anything on the internet about it. Edema is a symptom of pericarditis yet no sites discuss it in detail. Luckily he has the neurologists pager number, so if it gets worse later he is going to call.

I am doing pretty well. I still don't have 100% energy back. We went to a family festival on Saturday and both of us paid dearly on Sunday. Even me, just from standing and walking around I felt like someone beat me up. My legs and hips were sore as hell and where my appendix used to be was sore. I just can't seem to get back to normal just yet.

How are you? *hugs* back :)

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DISP715 9/14/2010 11:31AM

    Oh boy. I would probably fall over in the first 5 minute, either that, or laugh so hard I'd wet myself!! You have fun girlfriend. How's boyfriend feeling? How are you feeling?? HUGS!!!

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