Monday, July 23, 2012
Iím at a place I never thought I would be.
After losing 69 pounds, I regained 24 of it.
Since I got rid of all my fat clothes, Iím barely cramming myself into my current clothes.
I have a plethora of excuses. Some legit. Most not.
The one that is not an excuse, out-of-control eating, is the primary reason.
About 2 months ago, I decided to get myself back on track. I got back into water aerobics. I cut back on the wheat (my enabler of poor food choices). And, I got outside. I worked on the garden (go healthy, cheap veg!)
Then the heat wave hit. (Lame-o excuse 1)
Then the hip/pelvic pain I was having was getting worse and my doctor couldnít figure out what was going on.
I still did my monthly 5K. And I signed up to do a mini womenís only triathlon in August. I was serious about turning everything around.
Then I went camping. I coughed and herniated a disc (worst pain of my life) and ended up in the hospital, was discharged with a nice stash from the pharmacy, was quite immobile for a while and am currently in PT. Of course, I have sh1tty health insurance so the stress of where to come up with $7000 in deductibles and co-pays has not improved my morale. Plus the 90-100 deg temps continue.
Starting today, Iím getting the eating back under control.
Heat. Busted up back. Medical bills. Even if those still exist, none of those push nutella into my mouth.
I need to get 3 weeks of wheat-free eating accomplished to get myself sorted.
Iím signed up to do an evening 5K this week to benefit a friend's organization. I tried to run about 50 yards this weekend. Bad choice. My vertebrae and disc shouted and told me so. The v-brae are still reminding me of my poor choice today. So, I will walk the 5K as fast as I can. And not eat the free bagels afterwards.
Thursday, April 12, 2012
1) I am worth it because: I need to be the person I imagine myself to be.
2) I am worth it because: life is easier when there is less of me to carry around.
3) I am worth it because: my outer strength needs to match my inner strength.
4) I am worth it because: I only get one life to live. I need to make this one a good one.
5) I am worth it because: if Disack ain't happy, ain't nobody happy (at least in my household).
Sunday, April 01, 2012
I want to be able to compete in a triathlon at the end of August. To do this, I will swim twice a week, run twice a week and bicycle twice a week for the next 10 weeks (at least). When I reach this goal, I will get myself a competition worthy swimwear.
Monday, February 06, 2012
I've been trying to be upbeat on my postings. But, basically I'm in a huge funk and have been for a while. I'm putting up a fraudulent front.
I gained weight in Nov/Dec which depressed me bc I thought about how vigilant I was about losing it. I figured with the new year, I wouldn't have the "It's the Holidays" excuse. Well, I didn't have that excuse, but I made up other excuses.
There is no doubt that the shorter daylight and colder weather are killing my preferred exercise. However, winter is not forcing me to eat crap. Or loads of crap.
I'm pretty sure I spiral out of control when I make terrible glycemic choices. For so long, I trained myself out of eating crap, but it has snuck back in. And, I keep telling myself, "it'll be better next week."
Uh. No. It won't. I basically have to detox myself of stuff the blows my blood sugars out of the water. And, I have to force myself to search out the best food possible even if I'm traveling, at a party, being crowned princess of my own made-up country, or whatever the excuse du jour is.
This current sliding is UNACCEPTABLE. Do I hear myself? Un.ac.cept.a.ble!!
I'm done pushing reset.
I don't need nice words. I need to tough words.
**Get those %$$# chips out of your hands. (WTH? I don't even like potato chips much.)
**Wheat bloats you and makes you GI tract irritable. NOBODY including yourself likes to be around you when you eat wheat. And, jeez-o-pete, gorging on it is not gonna help anyone.
**No, coffee does NOT count as water. Neither does Diet Coke, even if it is caffeine-free. Duh.
**It doesn't matter if your family doesn't like what you cook. They will learn to love it or at least tolerate it. Because if mama ain't happy then no one is happy. And mama is not happy when she's feeling all self-loating.
**Stop blaming others.
**Go ahead and tell yourself that the digital scale doesn't work because the boys went berserko with the shower hose all over the bathroom. We all know the real reason is that the scale got sick of your pity party and took off in search of a less pessimistic person to stomp on it.
**Put your freakin' big girl panties on and do what you know you need to do. The house cleaning can wait. Your friends will still like you, even if they have to look at shoe scuff marks on the stair treads!
Monday, January 30, 2012
The grocery store had boneless, skinless chicken breast on sale for $1.49/lb this weekend. I bought 18 packages. (probably 2-3 lbs/pkg)
My co-worker just loaned me a food grinder that affixes to the KitchenAid.
Assuming it fits onto my mixer, I'm going to have GROUND CHICKEN BREAST FOR $1.49/LB!!!
Disturbing that I'm this excited about this, but the store sells it for $4.99/lb. And the 99% FF ground turkey breast? O.m.g. That's about $6.99/lb. Sorry. I'll eat beans instead.
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