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The Good Sister and the Evil Sister

Friday, March 23, 2012

Inside me lives a good sister and an evil sister. They sit on my shoulders and tug at me every day. Sometimes the good sister wins and sometimes the evil sister wins. Now I like them both oddly enough, because sometimes the evil sister is much more fun, but the good sister is the one I like to have in control most of the time. The evil sister has come out during Mardi Gras I must admit. I have to have a keeper during Mardi Gras! Love those Hurricanes!

Today I woke up late and had to hurry to get dressed for work. I’ve not been sleeping since I’m so excited about going home next week. I thought, “I wonder what I should do my blog on maybe I’ll just write about being tired.” Then I thought again…. “Who wants to read about me being tired? We ALL get tired.”

The evil sister kept trying to get me to eat something telling me I would feel better if I did, but the good sister reminded me of what I have learned on Spark all ready. She reminded me to listen to how my body feels and deal with my emotions.

I decided I should hold off writing my blog till after all my Sparking is done because somehow when I’m finished Sparking I miraculously feel better!

I was right. I did my points and wrote down my food. All was going well. I felt my mood start to lighten. I started reading the two required blogs so I could comment on them. They were wonderful. I found myself laughing and realized that I once again had let my good sister lift my spirits and told the evil sister to go take a nap!

Remember to read blogs. They really give you insight, encouragement, humor and hope. I love the way people share themselves without worrying about criticism. I want to thank all that have written blogs for allowing us to share in their journey to be healthy.

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DONNA2238 3/24/2012 5:07PM

    SO awesome that you would post this! I was having a "not so good" day...AFTER my great day yesterday :0(...I came on here just to look around for a few minutes and before I knew it my spirits were lifted too! THANKS so much for your post on my blog and for sharing about the good sister triumph!

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LKWQUILTER 3/24/2012 7:04AM

    I think the evil sister is really wanting to beat the good sister. lol Love it.

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WINDSONG~ 3/24/2012 3:18AM

    To the good sister I say woo hoo to the evil sister I say watch out!

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JAZZY_JOAN 3/23/2012 9:53PM

    Hi Dianna. I really should read more blogs, but then I should do a lot of things. Sometimes I just don't find the time. I have been taken a lot of time the past couple weeks to hang out with the good sister and it has paid off.
Come to think of it, The bad sister dissapeared today. Well, I was out and she stayed home, so the good sister had final say to it all ..."NO NO NO" and thats final!!

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MIKA016 3/23/2012 9:48PM

    Good and Evil Sisters. I'm so glad you followed the positive and good sister. My mother used to say it takes less energy to be positive then it does being negitive. You are doing Terrific. Keep up the good work. One more week to go!

I try to read a few blogs everyday. They usually lift me up. It's kind of like having a piece of my day to reflect.
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ALPHASENIOR 3/23/2012 9:25PM

    You are my second comment on a blog for today. I'm so glad I read your blog. The difference between your evil sister and mine is that something my evil sister bring a whole choir with her! My poor little good sister is very browbeaten!
But I'm still a work in progress, so things will definitely be getting better and better.
Resist, resist!

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MENNOLY 3/23/2012 7:02PM

    I try to read one blog from each of my teams so that I can feel more connected to my fellow team members. I don't necessarily comment on them and I try to read blogs from people who are not my friends since I will in all likelihood read my friends blogs anyhow.
One more week it will go by so fast! Have a great holiday before you come home.

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Spark Works

Thursday, March 22, 2012

I really wasn't sure when I decided ONE MORE TIME to try to lose weight. I had seen an article on someone losing weight on Spark People. I had never heard of it so I took a peak. I liked it but took a week or so to decide.

I know that unless you are ready it really doesn't do much good to start. All those off and on the diet tries is not a good thing for your body or your self esteem.

I decided for some reason that I have tried so many other ways to lose weight and I thought I knew how to do it in a healthy way. I actually am pretty aware of how to lose but I never got the why of losing weight.

I didn't fully understand the workings of my emotions in it all. It is like a line of dominoes that you hit one and the rest fall.

Through the past 2 1/2 months I have learned so much. I understand myself much more. I am starting to understand how my eating is triggered by different events. I am learning that blogging which I have never done is very therapeutic and that the support that I thought I got in other programs was severely lacking.

Spark People is the culmination of all those things and more I haven't even discovered yet.

I am grateful for having found this program. I truly believe I can do this. My hurry up and lose attitude has changed. I'm content with working on whatever needs work that week, whether it is attitude or understanding or exercising. I still try to "keep it between the lines" but I think I'll be able to forgive myself when I falter.

This is an amazing program. I could not be more thrilled to be a part of it. I can't even imagine how I will feel when I get to goal.

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JAZZY_JOAN 3/23/2012 10:00PM

    emoticon SP has my vote too! One can't say enough about it.

Wishing everyone well on their weight loss journey. JO

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HUZZAH39 3/23/2012 4:11PM

    I am in agreement with you and glad we are in this together!

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WINDSONG~ 3/23/2012 2:35AM

    I am grateful for your sharing your thoughts, goals and your desires with all of us.

You are hellping others with your positive attitude.

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VIXSTERLU 3/22/2012 11:57PM

    Glad this journey is sparking you to find the real you!

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MIKA016 3/22/2012 4:22PM

    Diana, It's true about finding the right path. I have gone down so many dead ends before and during Spark people. However since I have been on Spark People those mistakes have been documented in my head and I don't keep going down the same wrong paths. Small Steps... I'm finding my way. So many Ah ha moments have sparked so to speak in my head. Sparking is a good thing! Hugs!

Spark Friend,

Marylou emoticon

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JENNNY135 3/22/2012 4:10PM

    I can totally agree to all that you've blogged about. This is a fantastic website and community.

Keep up learning about yourself and enjoy the journey.

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MENNOLY 3/22/2012 4:02PM

    Isn't it great emoticonWhen I started almost 9 months ago I had a goal of reaching 180 pounds. It was an impossible dream but that was what I wanted. Well I am within a couple of months of reaching that impossible dream and I feel that I can do better. All due to SP. I agree this program is absolutely the greatest thing I have ever done. emoticon

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Wednesday, March 21, 2012

Today I want to talk about music. When I was young as most teens and young adults, I spent a lot of time listening to music.

Now as most people know you tend to think the best music in the world is what you listened to as a teen. I’m no exception. Music from the early to late sixties is my favorite to this day. On occasion I find someone new I like to listen to but nothing compares to my “golden oldies”.

Tonight I was a little down at work. The days don’t go by quickly when you want to go home. I have one week left before heading toward home. So, at dinner I decided to take my Ipod to lunch in the dining room. I eat alone because I work nights.

I have to tell you as soon as I put on my “golden oldies” I was swaying in my seat and I actually caught myself dancing in the dining room. Now I would have felt embarrassed had anyone come in on me, but I thoroughly enjoyed it.

Music has a way of transporting you. I was young again. I was remembering all those days when all you cared about was getting to the weekend and what your hair looks like. I’m not saying my life isn’t happy right now because it is. But, it feels good to be transported on occasion to a place and time, if only in your head, where life was simpler and you felt great, where your whole life was ahead of you.

I’m not sure I have a point in this blog other than I caught myself moving to the music. So, get out those golden oldies or whatever you listened to, whether it be swing, rock, rap or golden oldies and do your walking with headphones. I think you’ll be surprised at how the time passes and you move to the rhythm of the beat.


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HUZZAH39 3/23/2012 4:37PM

    Music DOES have a way of transporting you. It can touch a part of you that words can not convey. Those oldies are still goodies even though they were before my time. I enjoy music from many genres. Right now, I especially love praise and worship songs. There is something about worshipping and glorifying God that brings such peace and joy. God has even blessed me with some original songs. Right now I just sing them to Him. The songs have shared some with a few friends and I hope one day to share them with others. I do not have a good voice but I can make a joyful noise. I have the lyrics and melody in my heart and mind but need the instrumental music to go with it. It would be an honor if someone would sing my songs one day. Music is especially precious to me because four years ago I totally lost my hearing for about a day. That experience has changed my life. I am so thankful that my hearing was restored and that I can enjoy music and sounds!!!!
I am also glad that you found an outlet that bring you joy.

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WINDSONG~ 3/22/2012 2:12AM

    I AM an 'oldie' and I do love my rock and roll.

Let's Dance, Diana!

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1COUNTRY_GAL 3/21/2012 10:45PM

    I miss the oldies,but I do you tube them and listen and there is no comparison,we had mighty fine music emoticon"Joy To The World"Three Dog Night,'Oh that mighty Fine music"! So much music I miss,we were so lucky,weren't we? So many songs with a dance beat,how could you not dance and Rock and Roll? Did you watch American Bandstand with Dick Clarke? Was that the early 70's? Thank you for taking me down memory lane and keep on Dancing to the Music,"Dance to the Music"! emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticonDiana

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MIKA016 3/21/2012 8:20PM

    I catch myself going back in time whenever I hear a old favorite song playing.Day dreaming of days gone by. "sigh" Those were the days. I can relate. Can't take away memories....It's somethimg to cherish and happy to have them. emoticon


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CELLOPLAYER1 3/21/2012 6:33PM

    Music is a great healer. I play the cello and my music saw me through cancer treatments.

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Life as I know it

Tuesday, March 20, 2012

I’m determined that “Life as I know it” is gone. I want my new lifestyle to become the norm for me.

That eating the healthy way will feel right.

That sweets are too sweet.

That I don’t like to feel stuffed.

That celebrations are good with no food or healthy food instead of “big” food or “fattening” food.

That a family day out is spent walking or playing with the grandkids.

That shopping for clothes will be fun again

That I like looking in the mirror.

That I’m not embarrassed at the doctor by my weight.

That I can wear my wedding rings again.

That I can wear a swimming suit again without being embarrassed.

That I can wear high heels once in a while without them killing me.

That I climb stairs without hobbling up them.

That I look like I have aged well.

That I will feel better

That my risk of heart disease and diabetes are lower.

That I don’t hide from a camera.

That I can live longer.

This is what I am aiming for.

  Member Comments About This Blog Post:

HUZZAH39 3/23/2012 4:19PM

    Bravo, Diana! Let me know as you achieve the goals you have set for yourself. As for your wedding ring fitting again, you can go to a jeweler and get your ring resized. My hubby did this for me as a Valentine's gift this year at my request and it did a world of good for me. It further motivated me to take action to be healthy and boosted my spirit. Don't know if you would feel the same way but I thought I would mention my experience.

Comment edited on: 3/23/2012 4:20:09 PM

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WINDSONG~ 3/21/2012 2:30AM

    That the new you is appreciated, valued and know that you are an amazing woman.

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VIXSTERLU 3/20/2012 11:41PM

    Great list! Print it, post it, keep it in sight!


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MENNOLY 3/20/2012 5:30PM

    emoticon emoticon emoticonYou are on a roll!

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MIKA016 3/20/2012 5:10PM

    My thoughts almost exactly! I have others that I could add to my list of reason to keep on the right track. You are so uplifting! Your steps towards weight loss is so helpful. Your like an angel who popped into give us light! Thank you for blogging! emoticon

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I'm changing

Monday, March 19, 2012

Today I noticed I am really changing. I was suspicious but it is definitely happening. My attitude toward food is changing.

I will always want things I shouldn't eat. But tonight they had pizza and I wanted it and chose to have the only other alternative which was pasta in "tomatoes" I got it and it was pasta with little bits of tomato and covered in olive oil! I ate a limited amount and left feeling hungry. No protein. So, I took a couple of slices of baguette with what looked like ricotta on them to my room for the middle of the night when I usually have a snack (I work at night).

Anyway, I listed my dinner in the nutrition tracker and with the bread I would have gone over my calories for the day, so I chose to eat a pear instead.

I have noticed that by reading the blogs and articles that eating better is rubbing off on me. One comment a blogger made stuck with me. She said that eating that candy or whatever it was would only bring a "temporary" pleasure. Then you have to deal with the aftermath of your decision.

So, I looked at that bread and decided although I would rather have had the bread that a pear was a better choice and it doesn't taste bad it is just not what I would rather eat. I'm convinced if I do this often it will become a habit.

It makes me think that I will be able to continue to make those choices when I get home from Kazakhstan and am faced with all the foods I love to eat. I keep telling myself I can still have them just not as often or as much as I used to eat.

I am going to lose this weight and get more healthy.

It is time to step up to the plate.

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1COUNTRY_GAL 3/20/2012 3:59AM

    You are doing awesome.I am so proud of you,you are progressing so well and getting this healthy lifestyle journey, emoticon emoticon emoticonIt's so rewarding to be able to do what we learn here. emoticon emoticonDiana

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WINDSONG~ 3/20/2012 2:49AM


You are now in charge and enjoying the benefits from your efforts.
I am smiling knowing that you are on your eay to health and happiness.

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MIKA016 3/19/2012 9:53PM

    Diana, you made a big giant step! emoticon Keep up the great work!

emoticon Winning!


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MENNOLY 3/19/2012 9:01PM

    You are definitely growing in this lifestyle change. The day will come when your first thought will be I want the pear not I want the bread. I too love bread but it is a sometime treat and not an every day occurrence. I understand your not liking pasta aglia oglie. It was not my favorite growing up but a very common simple way to fix pasta.

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HUZZAH39 3/19/2012 2:36PM

    You are making really good choices and I hope that the decisions I have been reading that you have been making will rub off on me as well. I did not make good choices with food this weekend but I am today. Hope you are continuing to do the same.

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AUNTB63 3/19/2012 1:40PM

    I like to hear others have that "Aha" moment when they realize the changes are sticking with us. Looking at food differently is such a positive change. We all got over weight by not paying attention to our foods and how much we ate. I still feel that "pat on the back" feeling when I make a better choice when it comes to food, especially when I am not doing the cooking. GREAT job......keep it up! emoticon

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