kashi cereal- good....bad pain- not good

Thursday, March 13, 2008

first i would like to PROUDLY say a peanut M&M has not entered my mouth since my last blog!! my mom and i came to an agreement- she will buy the regular M&Ms and leave them out for my dad so he's happy with his cnady and i won't touch the regular ones =D


i'm still on my fruit/veggie/fiber kick and i swear it's flatting my stomach- an easy way for me to meet my fiber quota is with kashi cereal...i am ADDICTED to the golean crunch now- this stuff rocks because the fiber AND protein grams in it is really high (and calories are not! woo!).....been having it every morning with fresh berries mixed in!! delicious and nutricious breakfast...


actually a few days i had a bowl of golean for breakfast and then a bowl of the goodfriends cinnamon raisin for lunch...have to be careful though b/c my carbs have been a little high b/c of this =/ but yea yay for kashi..it really keeps me full too!!


so this whole week i've been really tired- like not just lazy tired like pure exhaustion..i'm not sure why...the beginning of the week i did my slim in 6 and all my exercises every day and felt great (but tired) but then yesterday i woke up with the worst pain in my right shoulder blade/trap muscle and said okay maybe i need a day to rest and not work out so i rested but then today the pain is still there and i just do not have the energy to move- usually when i'm tired/in pain i push myself to do a little and it works but it's just sooo bad today i can barely sit up- the past 3 nights i've been going to be at 8 or 9pm which is ridiculous..i think my body really wants to heal/recover for more then a day but it's driving me nuts i feel soooo lazy and gross just sitting around watching tv in agony not working out...if i work out tomorrow and saturday (which is my usual rest day) i still would have gotten 5 days of exercise in so all is not lost yet...fingers crossed i wake up tomorrow and can do it!

  

veggies, fiber and peanut M&Ms

Friday, March 07, 2008

i always ate fruits and veggies and liked them but i never paid attention to how much i actually ate and i recently realized it wasn't too too much, the past week or so i've been paying extra close attention and made sure to have at least 1 serving at each meal and had them and snacks and it's been making me feel pretty good =)


Part of the reason I tried to do this is because i haven't been getting the rec. daily fiber intake and i'm reading more and more on how important fiber is for maintaining a good weight and i also read it's supposed to help with flattening your stomach so it's worth a shot- this whole week i was within the range...i've actually been craving some fruits and veggies too..

artichokes have always been one of my favorite things to eat in the world and i saw the biggest ones i've ever seen in my life at a fruit market on my way to school so i had one for dinner (with a side of turkey and thena veggie burger bc of lent) twice this week...it was delicious beyond words (see the pic i took lol)....i've also been eating a grapefruit a day most days as a snack because aside from tasting yummy i read it's supposed to really help with weight and also arthritis pain...i also have been sneaking berries into my cereal, putting tomato and spinach in my egg whites and just enjoying fruit plain between meals more conciously...




but along with these good eating habits i must admit the past few days me and peanut M&Ms have been having a little affair...my mom won't respect the "out of site out of mind" motto of if i don't see a food and don't know it's there i can't eat it and she leaves bags on them on my dining room table...mix that with the hardcore chocolate craving i get along with my monthly woman friend who stopped by (sorry if TMI) and we have us a disaster...willpower willpower, where are you?..after each meal i usually leave room in my daily caloric allowance for a little chocolate (so i don't turn into satan) but the handfuls i've been taking are more then i should be and i know it...only did it 2 or 3 days but still i shouldn't have...so yes, i'm pissed at myself again because i wil never get the abs i want if i keep doing this crap...at least they were the peanut ones so i got nuts right? that's semi healthy (i'm kidding- nothing about a dam M&M is healthy and i have no excuse for them to be entering my oral cavity)....life would be easier if they just weren't in my house!!!


goal for next week: work on resisting temptation, especially with all the candy that will enter my house for easter (cadbury mini eggs are evi... cadbury mini eggs are evil.... maybe if i say it enough times i will believe it)



exercise wise this week i did really well...didn't miss a weight training session and restarted the slim in 6 DVDs along with them..i started it for the 1st time in summer but went on vacation and forgot about them but recently i've been getting so bored on elliptical i needed something else...i'm going to stick with them this time for at least 6 weeks (some days i did the elliptical with the DVDs...and weights)...


my triceps are making me mad...they don't seem to be toning up the way the rest of my arms are and i don't know why because i do at least 3 exercises to target them...i want sculpted pretty arms soo bad..again, peanut M&Ms won't help my triceps


here's to a week of keeping up my fruit and veggie habit and never touching an M&M again

  

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FAT2LONG 3/8/2008 10:59AM

Great job on the fruits & veggies! I'm impressed with your determination - artichokes require work. Regarding the triceps - are you doing dips? I found those to be the most effective way to tackle those tricky muscles. I need to start doing them again myself . . . . And as for the M&Ms, I understand your frustration and can totally empathize with the lust for those tasty little guys. I wish I had a suggestion for avoiding them - my only strategy is to not eat the first one (because from there it's a downhill slide - not a pretty sight). I stick with my individually-wrapped Lindt dark chocolate squares - because they're wrapped, they have the potential to slow down my consumption (hee!) and I find the intense chocolate flavor to be much more satisfying than any form of milk chocolate. Hang in there - you are strong and have a great attitude! Report Inappropriate Comment

driving over a bumpy road but finally riding smooth again

Saturday, March 01, 2008

wow i haven't blogged in over a month! truth is, i've been meaning to but kept putting it off and have been ashamed at some poor eating choices i made...

so i know i discussed the trauma over what i ate on vacation and getting sick and then trying to get back into good habit after all that wasn't easy- i went most of january with the least amount of formal exercise i did in a year and my arm muscles certainly suffered for it =( and then-


the last weekend in january was my 22nd birthday along with an unwelcomed trip from Aunt Flo (sorry TMI) and well alcohol (which is RARE with me) pizza, ice cream, cake, and a weird craving for combos (those cheese filled pretzel snack things) which i had way more of then i care to even think....but my birthday is once a year i figured i'm allowed to cheat andeven though i was still blah over vacation and getting sick i figured i can get back to where i was quickly and once the weekend was over i went right back into my good exercising and good eating habits and was good for a few weeks =)...


then around valentines day i went on a road trip with friends for 4 days from nyc to poughkeepsie, ny to philly to maryland which involved more pizza, pancakes (i've never been to a denny's before), more alcohol (but not much), and some taco bell...what killed me about the roadtrip was deep down i knew i could have been making healthier choices but for some stupid reason when we had breakfast out my love of pancakes surpassed any rational decisions- but the breaking point was at a McDonalds i got the hotcakes (but not sausage) and saw on the back of the place mat the deluxe breakfast (hotcakes and sausage together) was 780 calories and i literally came close to vomiting and that ended my eat crap trip- luckily this was only a 4 day thing and as soon as i got home i felt so physically sick (really, my stomach felt like a tornado hit it, hmmm i wonder why), i was also really down and embarassed at my choices and knowing i did this to myself that i went back into healthy eating and excercising religiously again with a vengence, which is a good thing...


sooo and here i am now..i've been super consistent with my eating right and exercising without skipping since the roap trip and i've been even working my stomach harder then i ever have before and the results are shining through beautifully...scale wise today i was 117- ugh i gained 2 pounds but after over a month of spurts of eating poison i didn't expect a miracle and i knew my size 0's still fit with room so i was okay- so i'm working a little harder to get these 2 pounds to leave me again (and maybe even more) and also working to still get my body more tone like i've been wanting forever


i'm not overly concerned about january because i know i do have the willpower and determination to stay on track now and life is lived by lessons learned right? i learned on this roap trip that my next road trip i will for sure eat healthier...


on a happier note...the creator behind the starbucks skinny mocha drinks is one of my new favorite people EVER..a grande cafe mocha is usually 230 or so calories- something i would never get because i wouldn't waste calories on a drink..out comes the healthier skinny version- 90 calories for a tall or 130 for a grande or 160 for a venti- guilt free and i get my espresso fix in the morning before school to keep me awake, along with 40% of my daily calcium...i get a grande with the spinach feta egg wrap from starbucks that's only 230 calories (and on a whole wheat tortilla!) so i have a good, healthy breakfast under 400 calories and thanks to the espresso- i don't get hungry for a good 4 hours after =) i love starbucks!


i promise to blog more frequently again, i promise to stick to my usual excellent exercise routine and i promise to eat way healthy always (minus my one daily chocolate allowance a day lol)


thoughts/comments/support always needed and appritiated

  

frustrated and depressed =(

Monday, January 21, 2008

okay so i was in california until the 17th..i started off really well making smart choices and exercising but as time went on because i was scared i hurt myself i stopped lifting and my eating habits weren't really really good (weren't super bad either- could have been a lot worse) but i figure okay no big deal, i can fix everything when i get home..i got home the 17th and the 18th had a prior commitment but i woke up on the 19th ready to do my cardio after work but at work i was really sick with a severe headache and i felt weak and queasy so i said let me rest, sunday will start no excuses and then sunday- i woke up with a 102.4 degree fever, went to urgent care found out i have the flu and a touch of bronchitis! i was in bed all day yesterday and haven't been able to get off the couch much today without feeling dizzy. i've been sweating and shivering at the same time...so this delays my working out even more and i feel it my whole body feels and looks like pure crap- the muscle definition in my arms are slowly disappearing and it's depressing the hell out of me =( i hope i feel good soon because i need to get back to where i was for my own sanity...i hate being sick! i hate the way my body looks! ughhh

  

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KHARLESS 1/21/2008 6:18PM

When you decide to starting making changing to your lifestyle, often it is accompanied with a sudden illness. I suspect this is two things, 1) Are alter ego trying to discourage us from doing what is right, 2) The exercise releases trapped toxins that suddenly become active and induce illness. Two approaches work for me; 1) Work through the mental blockage for 7 days, do not allow yourself to not commit to the exercise and eating well during these 7 days. After 7 days it should be easier. 2) Reduce the intensity of the exercise to something manageable but still makes you break a sweat. These two things got me through my first week or so. Report Inappropriate Comment

quick update blog from california =)

Tuesday, January 15, 2008

so i haven't wrote in a while...i'm sorry!!

i've been in california since january 7 and I am still here until thursdays. It's amazing in this state- I want to live here soo bad...

Because it's vacation I've been a little more easygoing with that I ate, but still careful to an extent...i've been wearing nothing but my size 0 jeans every day that i've been here because i can feel automatically in jeans when i eat too much and i haven't got that gross feeling yet...although my stomach does feel a little too blahh for my likings..

even when i go out to eat for the most part i've been getting salads but there are also some tacos, an ihop chocolate chip pancake breakfast (only ate half the serving, i knew better), hawaiian french toast breakfast (homemade by my aunt but carb city i'm sure) and this thing called a "pizzookie" at BJ's which was a chocolate brownie pizza with ice cream on top (i split it with a friend of course) that words couldn't describe...


i haven't done any "formal" cardio but i've been walking by the beach a lot (it's 70 degrees- in january- it's insane!!!) as well as looking for little things like taking the stairs instead of elevators...and i've been doing ab work every other morning as well as wear my slendertone belt....i started off doing strength training every other day because my uncle has this machine in the garage but my back was hurting me somehow (think i did too much bc i'm used to dumbells so wasn't sure how much to lift) and since i don't have access to my chiropractor and didn't want to be in pain my whole vacation i decided it was probably best to stop..the difference i really do feel is in my thighs-- i feel like i'm losing all the muscle i started to gain with my leg magic but i'm sure i'll get it back 1,2,3 as soon as i get home

come friday when i'm home, it's detox fasting high protein no carb time to undo the vacation damage i've done which luckily isn't too extreme

i figure, i come home friday- i'll weigh myself tuesday or wednesday after some quality time is spent with my elliptical so i don't get completely depressed at the number lol