Tuesday, October 05, 2010
I'm at a crossroad and I have to get organized. I love to spark and I spend at least 4 hours/day on it, either journalling, setting up my exercises, reading articles, and blogging. However, my DH is starting to complain about time spent on the computer. He's lonely and accuses me of neglecting everything else. It's partly true. When I decided to give one last try to losing weight on my own, I said that this time I'm doing it for myself, for myself alone, not for the kids, not for my husband, I'm going to lose weight for me because I need to enjoy life again, to be able to move again, to look good again. I remember when I was younger, I wanted to stand out from the crowd, I guess I accomplished that: I became the biggest person in the building! Not exactly what I envisioned way back when.
I've got to get organized. I got to think things over; thinking could be good. Let's see - If we haven't got any plans to drive to town or to go out anywhere, here is my routine:
I wake up between 8 and 9. I love to sleep in the morning mainly because I wake up 4-5 times a night for a pee. Yes, that's true! It used to be 3 times but since I started drinking so much water during the DAY, I get up more at night. When morning comes, I'm usually in a deep sleep. After I get up, I take my meds (thyroid), pour a cup of coffee (mild) and log on SP to huddle with my teams and get a few sparkpoints until my meds take effect (½ hour). Then I prepare my breakfast and go back to the PC to eat it while continuing my sparkpoint quest: Reading articles (I often get sidetracked by other articles), planning my meals, planning my exercises, etc. etc. I like sparkpoints because it feeds the competitiveness in me. I'm a bit obsessive when it comes to things like that in a passive-aggressive kind of way. A few years ago, I started playing Freecell on the computer when I was bored or couldn't sleep. I started at game #1 and beat it; then game # 2, and beat that one too, etc. Then I realized that I was competing with the computer! To date, I am at game # 19770 with 42 games left on the side because they were too hard to beat at the time and I didn't want to ruin my average against the computer (64% in my favor); I'll go back to those games later on.
Anyways, before I know it, it's lunch time! I prepare and eat lunch then do some housework for one hour until I'm ready to exercise. I exercise every day for about 1h 45m (strength, cardio and stretching) five day/week. In the evening, I go back to SP to make sure I haven't digressed from my food plan, make necessary adjustments, read my emails and reply to my SP emails (I got to welcome newcomers or support a struggling member), finishing with the last team reminder of "How did you do with your sparkpoints today?"
See, thinking can be good. The picture is getting clearer now. What are my choices: Getting up earlier or forgetting about sparkpoints? I doubt that it would be to my advantage to get up earlier in the morning. I don't get a restful night as it is and I need that deep sleep in the earlier hours of the morning. Besides, I don't think I'd accomplish much more anyways since I won't feel rested. Then the solution is to forget about sparkpoints for a while and concentrate on doing the basics: food and exercise journalling!