Thursday, November 14, 2013
Since I've started speaking to my sister again. It has weighed heavy on my mind that we need to other than communicate but we need to see each other and visit. I really didn't think that it was going to be this difficult but I guess it is.
When we talk on the phone it seems like old times. I am sure when we meet again it is going to be different. Too many years have passed and I wish that I had not let that happen but I guess was afraid, hurt, angry and unforgiving. I have learned a lot from this experience and one is to forgive. I forgive her and my other siblings. I want to move forward.
One of the issues I am sure that my sister has is her appearance. She is very vain you know but so am I. She has been on numerous medications that make her very swollen, bloated what have you. I could hear the worry in her voice when I speak to her about her medications and if her face and/or body will go down. Of course, it will. I too have changed since she last saw me. I am overweight and show signs of age.
I am unhappy to be overweight but I have to admit it. I am trying I just need to put things into perspective. I must say life can be very challenging. I pray for many things most importantly to be healthy. I do not have any real health concerns but I need to be aware.
Our meet will be just us. I am so looking forward to it. We need to catch up and know that we can be there for each other. My mom (god rest her soul) will be happy!