Friday, April 05, 2013
It's been over a month since my granny had her devastating stoke, and three weeks since she passed on. I miss her more that I can express. She was such a huge part of my life, it's almost like a part of me is missing. I know how much my granny loved me, and how important my health and happiness was to her. So I must pick back up where I left off many weeks ago, and return to a healthier lifestyle. I know I have it within me to take the journey, I just need to get back on the road! She will be so proud of me when I reach my goals!
Sunday, March 03, 2013
Sometimes it's the little things in life that can bring us the greatest joy. I never realized how comforting my grandma's voice was to me. And now I will probably never hear her sweet voice again, "Oh Diana, Diana! You make me laugh!" I will have to hear her in my memories of the countless times we have spent together. She suffered a severe stroke yesterday, and it took her voice along with most of the movement on her right side.
I am trying to stay strong and positive for her, but it is a challenge. I am reflecting on all the good times we've shared, all the long talks, even all of the short ones. I keep going back to last Tuesday when I skipped work to see her. As I was getting ready to leave for home, we were hugging good-bye and she said, "I'm so glad you came, you really made my day." Without hesitation, I responded to her, "Well Grandma, you really made my LIFE!" She laughed, we hugged tighter, and she said, "Oh, you're gonna make me cry!" That wasn't the last time I got the chance to talk to her, but it's a moment I am so grateful I didn't miss out on. I am trying to keep focused on the blessings, no matter how small, in this difficult time.
I have been so blessed to have her in my life, especially for this long, and in the health she has had up until now. No one will ever love me like my grandma does.
Her recovery is uncertain at this point, and she is still in danger of suffering another stroke. So me and my family are leaning on one another and helping her and eachother through this. It really brakes my heart that my vibrant and life loving grandma must bear this burden at the end of her life. Please keep her and my family in your prayers!
Tuesday, February 26, 2013
Well, sometimes life throws you a few curves and you have to just roll with it. My beloved granny is still in the hospital. There is a surgeon coming to talk to her today about possible valve replacement, hers is narrowing. The interim boss at work is on a rampage, it feels like things are falling apart for him and he's scrambling to get it together. Makes things stressful for everyone else too! But I am trying to hold it together on my end. Continuing to track my food and exercise, still making it to the gym, and sparking every day. It's really a challenge when there is so much going on. But I know I need to take care of me first and foremost.
Time to get on the elliptical now before I shower and head up to the hospital to wait for the surgeon with my granny.
Friday, February 22, 2013
I got a call from my grandma this morning at work. She doesn't usually call me at work unless something is wrong. She sounded short of breath, and said she was having trouble breathing, and that the veins in her neck looked 'like they are sticking out and puffy' She has been getting a lot of headaches too, and today was a bad one.
I called my uncle, and he came and took her to the ER. They are going to admit her to run some tests, she is just waiting on a room.
She is my rock and always has been. She is the love of my life. We are kindred spirits her and I. She is my special gal! We have always had a close and very special relationship. She would probably say the same thing about me.
I know she can't live forever, and I am so grateful that I have been blessed to have her with me this long. But I know there will come a day when she will be gone and I will have to learn to live without her. I don't think I will EVER be ready for that day, no matter how much I prepare myself. I know it's going to hit me like a ton of bricks, someone will have to scrape me up off of the floor.
So please say a prayer for my granny. I pray for her every day, but the more prayer, the better!
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