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Another January 1st has come....

Tuesday, January 01, 2013

I hate making New Years' resolutions because I never keep them. When I don't keep them it makes me feel like a failure. I am in the same place that I started last year (weight wise) but I don't want to whine bout that. All I can say is that I am still here and am still trying! I refuse to give up!

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POLACALINDA 1/10/2013 2:02AM

    You and me both, girl! I hear what you're saying. This year is going to be different for both of us though. We can and will find our way to the healthy women God wants us to be. DON'T STOP AND YOU ARE BOUND TO GET THERE EVENTUALLY!!!!

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Wednesday, August 29, 2012

When I first started this program back in January (can't believe it's been that long already) I was 288. Over time I continued to gain and at my highest was 298. Long story short, it has been a hurdle, month after month trying to get my life back by seeing a loss on the scale. For the past couple of months I have been consistently losing a pound here an ounce there. Well I'm happy to say that I have lost a total of 7 lbs (7 of the lbs I gained since being on Sparkpeople)! Now I know you're thinking okay you lost but it took you like 7 months. I know, I know I felt the same way at first but then realized that a loss is a loss regardless of how much or how long it took so... I am happy and am finally seeing steady results! Yayy me!


Losing Hope..

Wednesday, February 15, 2012

Today is not a good day. Each week I gain a little more than the last. If you read my previous blog I know all about healthy eating so I know what to do. The only thing I'm not doing is exercising. Due to my bad knees I haven't been doing much of anything hoping that if I can get my healthy eating under control I'd have a significant loss. Not the case. Peri-menopausal, depressed and the weight is just not coming off. I can't swim am scared of the water but was thinking about joining the Y just to try this water aerobics. The thought of putting on a bathing suit though immediately makes me retract that thought. I don't know. I am also seriously thinking about getting an elliptical. Back when I was in shape I was doing an hour on it with vigor - now I can barely pedal 2 minutes w/o having to stop.

Sorry to be such a downer today. I am tipping the scale at 290. I have never weighed this much in my life and frankly I am scared.

Anyway, I just needed to get my feelings out today. Today is not a good day :o(

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PAMELANFL 2/21/2012 11:43AM

    Dont' give up!!!! I'm just gettn started and we can do this!!!! emoticon

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DEZIREME2 2/15/2012 1:20PM

    I just want to give a emoticon to all that responded to my blog. I truly am listening to each one of you and am going to check out those chair exercises right now!


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MAGA99 2/15/2012 1:15PM

    I pray things get better 4 u n soon

have u looked into chair exercises they may help w the bad knees

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    :) as a girl about the same point as you - take strength! Today is a hard day, but the day is young. So you can't do things hard on your knees, how about doing amended yoga, or work your upper body or floor work? I was not a fan of water aerobics either, but I am jumping in with both feet - we work in the 4ft section so I'm well above water and I can start slow and go and stop as I need to. You can do this - It's okay to have a bad day, so long as it doesn't string together to become a permanent state of mind :). I miss the elliptical (on the hunt now to purchase one of my own. Tell yourself you CAN do hard things, and choose today to work on your abs or do upper body excercises until you feel more confident in excercising! You can Do it!

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FREETHEGODDESS 2/15/2012 12:52PM

    I lost my first 20 lbs. just changing my eating habits. I know all about healthy eating as well but, I was not watching my portions or calories so I recommend measuring your food and watching your simple carbs. Also, don't eat too few calories because that slows down your metabolism. Eat plenty of lean protein to keep blood sugar levels steady because spikes can stop your metabolism as well.Drinking water helps with digestion and metabolism too.

You are capable of doing cardio exercises in a chair so I recommend checking out the Chair Exercise Sparkteam for exercise recommendations and for support. There are many people on this website with similar restrictions and issues that can help you. Don't dwell on what you can't do, concentrate of what you CAN do!

Don't give up. You CAN do this!!! Life is soooo much better for me now and I want the same success for everyone else. This is not easy but, it is POSSIBLE so keep thinking positive and fight for what you CAN do it!

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Where Do I Begin?

Saturday, January 28, 2012

I joined Sparkpeople about 2 weeks ago and everytime I log in I look at the blog entry section and click away. I have so much to say but I d0n't know where to begin. What do I say? How do I get my story across where people would be able to understand the real me?

I have been overweight most of my life, starting out as a chubby kid who became an overweight adult. When I was in my 20's I seemed to have conquered my weight problem by eating less and exercising regularly. Even through my early 30s being overweight seemed to be a thing of the past. When I got into my mid 30s however, some family issues arose, I had surgery, relocated to another state only to have to move back home with my parents and then 5 months after that, lost my father to lung cancer. I'm definitely an emotional eater and with the stress of everything I was going through, I just couldn't get a handle on my weight gain.

Fast forward to now. I'm 47 years old and weigh 289 pounds (the heaviest I've ever been) and am now going through peri-menopause. Oh that's just great. Just what I need when I was starting to get my mind together. I'm eating healthy, I'm exercising but I'm not losing any real weight. I just keep losing and gaining the same 3 or 5 pounds. I have a helluvalot more to lose than 5 pounds! At the risk of sounding cliche-ish I have tried almost every diet plan out there from the time I was a teenager until now. I must have been on and then off Weight Watchers at least 12 times (I swear) and each time I didn't lose any weight. Besides being on Weight Watchers I have also been on diet pills, Jenny Craig, and most recently, NutriSystem. With both prepared food programs I did lose weight, however, I simply could not afford the price of the food each month.

Luckily for me I don't have a sweet tooth. Sure, I like certain sweets like apple pie and blueberry cobbler but if I had to choose between dinner or dessert, dinner would win hands down. My God if I had a sweet tooth too I don't think I'd be able to walk!

Besides going through depression, knee pains and now peri-menopause I am still standing, still trying to get myself healthy and get a handle on my weight. I thank God that as overweight as I am I don't have diabetes, high blood pressure or high cholesteral. I do have asthma though, which I am trying to get under control and according to my doctor losing weight would help with that tremendously. I know all about healthy eating, what exercises I should be doing but now I just don't have the strength or motivation to do my exercises the way I used to. I've always liked to exercise at home to one of my dvds but now walking from the train station to my house takes all my strength. Different people have told me about water aerobics but I am terrified of the water (almost drowned when I was a kid) so getting into a pool doesn't appeal to me. I must admit though that lately I've really been thinking about it. I know I'm older now and its harder to lose weight as you get older but why can't I get myself together? I would hate to start developing diseases at this stage of my ife.

Fast froward to now. One night I was thumbing through my Fitness Magazine when I saw an advertisement for Sparkpeople. I swear up unti then I had never heard of it. I liked what I was reading and decided to give it a try and so (sigh) I am.

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CAZINOZ 1/28/2012 9:57PM

    Welcome!!!!!!!!! I am sure you will find loads of information and great people to support you. emoticon

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SHAZZY67 1/28/2012 6:43PM

    Good luck on your journey and welcome to the rest of your life!

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