Saturday, January 28, 2012
I joined Sparkpeople about 2 weeks ago and everytime I log in I look at the blog entry section and click away. I have so much to say but I d0n't know where to begin. What do I say? How do I get my story across where people would be able to understand the real me?
I have been overweight most of my life, starting out as a chubby kid who became an overweight adult. When I was in my 20's I seemed to have conquered my weight problem by eating less and exercising regularly. Even through my early 30s being overweight seemed to be a thing of the past. When I got into my mid 30s however, some family issues arose, I had surgery, relocated to another state only to have to move back home with my parents and then 5 months after that, lost my father to lung cancer. I'm definitely an emotional eater and with the stress of everything I was going through, I just couldn't get a handle on my weight gain.
Fast forward to now. I'm 47 years old and weigh 289 pounds (the heaviest I've ever been) and am now going through peri-menopause. Oh that's just great. Just what I need when I was starting to get my mind together. I'm eating healthy, I'm exercising but I'm not losing any real weight. I just keep losing and gaining the same 3 or 5 pounds. I have a helluvalot more to lose than 5 pounds! At the risk of sounding cliche-ish I have tried almost every diet plan out there from the time I was a teenager until now. I must have been on and then off Weight Watchers at least 12 times (I swear) and each time I didn't lose any weight. Besides being on Weight Watchers I have also been on diet pills, Jenny Craig, and most recently, NutriSystem. With both prepared food programs I did lose weight, however, I simply could not afford the price of the food each month.
Luckily for me I don't have a sweet tooth. Sure, I like certain sweets like apple pie and blueberry cobbler but if I had to choose between dinner or dessert, dinner would win hands down. My God if I had a sweet tooth too I don't think I'd be able to walk!
Besides going through depression, knee pains and now peri-menopause I am still standing, still trying to get myself healthy and get a handle on my weight. I thank God that as overweight as I am I don't have diabetes, high blood pressure or high cholesteral. I do have asthma though, which I am trying to get under control and according to my doctor losing weight would help with that tremendously. I know all about healthy eating, what exercises I should be doing but now I just don't have the strength or motivation to do my exercises the way I used to. I've always liked to exercise at home to one of my dvds but now walking from the train station to my house takes all my strength. Different people have told me about water aerobics but I am terrified of the water (almost drowned when I was a kid) so getting into a pool doesn't appeal to me. I must admit though that lately I've really been thinking about it. I know I'm older now and its harder to lose weight as you get older but why can't I get myself together? I would hate to start developing diseases at this stage of my ife.
Fast froward to now. One night I was thumbing through my Fitness Magazine when I saw an advertisement for Sparkpeople. I swear up unti then I had never heard of it. I liked what I was reading and decided to give it a try and so (sigh) ...here I am.