Tuesday, December 22, 2009
I thank everyone who has been supporting me through my journey out of my negative and lost mindset. I have been deciding whether or not to write this. I have really been trying to focus on changing my behaviors and habits and general mindset.
I recently made a list and blogged about it showing all the work I want to accomplish for the new year to start fresh. Get this. This was my life but I am changing it so there MURPHY :-P pfft.
My co-worker was out for 5 days and just sent a resignation email. Now this co-worker was babied here where else can she be on facebook 8 hours a day, although I am sure she will find a place. She told my boss she went to the doctors, went to the hospital, had to see a specialist, and then went to the doctor's yesterday and my boss asked her to bring a doctor's note since she was out for 5 days. So her response was a email resignation.
LOL! Now, part of me thinks how the hell am I going to get all my work done, smoothly and do her job and prepare for new girl and train new girl and ...
During this past week, my bosses mentioned new tasks and new procedures for the new year.
Part of me feels like this is such a huge test but usually I feel lost and cast off and overwhelmed but you know what... I don't.
I am just going to keep my head down and tackle this.
Plus, I will get props for handling it so smoothly as always because I rock.
It is sad and odd in so many ways. But whatever.
Reason I wanted to blog.
I feel like yes the universe is testing but I think that mustering up courage and energy to prepare and make a to do list and review all tasks that I started a ball rolling in the universe. Because then my job starting cleaning house (and we don't do this every year at this time) and changing things, streamlining. And then I decided to address Melanie's job and we have been restructuring since. I feel that the stuff Beth would have to address with her and everything it almost seems like the energy of the universe that she would leave.
I am hoping that no I am going to attract to me a great wonderful assistant / billing rep / receptionist that will allow me to grow and delegate and allow my boss to delegate to me.
This will be a great new change for a great new projection forward.
Sunday, December 20, 2009
So I am trying to keep watching, reading, listening and repeating shows, audio tapes, etc to keep myself on the right track.
I watched Excuses Begone by Wayne Dyer today.
"Habit is habit, and not to be flung out of the window by any man, but coaxed down the stairs one step at a time". – Mark Twain
I love this. It reminds me that each moment, I am making the choice.
One book Dr. Dyer recommends is the Biology of Belief by Bruce Lipton
Here it is discussed that the excuses you use are not reality. And how you can break them down. In the Biology book, it shows you how the excuse of "it is in my DNA or hereditary" is bull.
The Second book Dr. Dyer mentions is: Virus of the Mind by Richard Brody
This talks about Memes and how people use this self talk, these handed down memes to keep themselves from doing things.
First function of a virus is to Duplicate itself
2nd function of virus is to infiltrate openings
3rd function of a virus is to spread
Definition of a meme from Wikipedia: "unit of cultural ideas, symbols or practices, which can be transmitted from one mind to another through speech, gestures, rituals or other imitable phenomena."
Stress is a meme. There is no such thing as stress. You can't collect it. We need to break ourselves from these types of limiting ideas.
Dr. Dyer mentions the Secret and how many people say you attract what you want. He says, you attract what you are.
From the Tao Te Ching, "When you correct your mind, everything else falls into place."
Dr. Dyer says that the famous Man on a Wire stated that you need to cultivate a habit of enthusiasm - You have to have passion every single day.
At the end of this program, Dr. Dyer brings out Dan Caro. This man was born in 1979 and in 1982 endured 75-80% of burns on his body. Since than has had 80 plus surgeries. When they unwrapped his hands – his one hand fell off, his other hand then fell off, and he lost his toes.
Here this man has endured all of that and he stated, "What gives me the right to complain about a gift? I have so many opportunities to inspire people. It would be an insult to God, to my family and my friends."
And this guy with no hands has become a drummer, his dream of being a musician came true.
For Christmas, I am going out and buying myself those two books. I think of all my unhealthy habits and thoughts. The only way I am going to really beat them is if I just start filling myself up and my time up with good ones and then finally one day I will be filled with good habits.
I have to mention two more things.
1. My friend's uncle just had a bone marrow transplant. I didn't realize that what happens is you still have your blood in your and then your blood and their blood basically fight for the rights to the body.
Every time I think of this, I think of the miracle of our body. What our bodies can do and what we can accomplish, we are walking miracles when you think of all the functions we do automatically and not even think about the things we do on purpose by choice.
I have to mention Deepak Chopra says in his audiotape, "The New Physics of Healing" --
---- We are a field of energy which is rapidly interacting with the world also a field of energy.
-- When you breathe in you breathe in approximately 10 (to the 22nd power) of new atoms
-- When you breathe out you breathe out approximately 10 (to the 22nd power) of old atoms
------98% of atoms in your body are replaced each year
--new liver every 6 weeks
--new skin 1x a month
--new stomache lining every 5 days
--raw materials of DNA every 6 weeks
---In less than 4 years we replace our whole body down to the last atom.
I think this is very interesting. Things to keep expanding your mind and thinking about. Personally I would rather contemplate about energy and visualization and possiblities than twinkies and/or negativity.
I can't wait to read more.
Sunday, December 20, 2009
I enjoy Dr. Daniel Amen. He writes the one book Change your Brain, Change your life.
Deepak Chopra said in "The New Physics of Healing", Audio Tape that "to think is to practice brain chemistry".
Things Dr. Amen mentions:
Love is a drug.
1. He states that the same part of the brain lights up when you have a new love as when someone takes cocaine.
The long lasting healthy love is more like our own natural endorphin - like morphine which gives a feeling of warmth and peace.
2. Brains can look at least 8 years older and be much smaller if you are overweight.
3. He states that when you become attached to someone they actually come to live in the nerve cell networks in our brain.
Which is why you think of them or miss them when they are gone.
Losing someone you were attached to can be one of the worst hurts you may endure.
4. Low activity in the front part of your brains which makes us excitement seeking.
High Activity in the front part of your brains which makes us want predictability.
Deepak Chopra mentioned that when you felt tranquil. Our body makes the molecule form of valium.
When we feel Exhilarated, our brain makes a chemical like the anti cancer drug interlucan. One course of this cost $40K (when I first listened to this in 96. )
Dr. Daniel Amen talks about questioning every Automatic Negative Thought in our life.
Accurate thinking can help have a healthy brain.
Your brain is telling you to do things but you do not have the resources to understand what is going on.
It also talks about when your brain works hard, people tend to worry and get stressed, which means low serotonin. So people crave things like candy which is a simple carb. When you are stressed or worried, you will crave simple carbs which boost serotonin.
New book coming out Change your brain, change your body!!
Will be on public television in March 2010.
I am really glad I finally watched this show. It really made me feel powerful.
I tend to think poor me and I get stressed and I stowaway on the tastycake truck.
To realize that to be healthy, it really has a lot to do with how you think and how your brain works. And if I realize that the reason I am going for a candy bar is not because I necessarily want or need that candy bar it is because I am stressed and my serotonin is low that helps me when I have to battle with those demons.
But it also makes me even more aware that I have to try to remain tranquil and take things easy and also eat and keep my body full of the good carbs because your brains fuel is carbs. So if you are feeding your brain through out the day with good food, when you get stressed, your serotonin won't slip so far down that you end up calling to the candy machine god.
I do know many of these things and treatments someone should get a brain scan and really learn how they work and if they need any supplements or treatments. But it definitely shows you the relationships and is very interesting.
Saturday, December 19, 2009
I have often heard throughout my childhood, keep record of all things, record, log, keep track, take pictures. And I do see how it helps when renting an apartment, an accident, an active dispute... But one of my first office jobs, I had a co-worker that I respected and she logged everything she did every day. I kind of thought it was nonsense as I was so busy and never had a moment to log plus I did way to many things too log. And it never really came up as an issue with me and any job.
However, I have seen it come up with other people and their jobs. I have seen the necessity and at times I wish I did.
My issue is with the household. I often buy groceries, food, cook, do laundry, clean, run errands and I don't keep track, I don't judge, I don't keep score.
And for the most part, it doesn't bother me. But every once in a while, it becomes an issue.
And I am seeing at work how I really should have noted every wrong thing my co-worker did, every instance, that would take up a lot of time, but it helps in the moment of crisis when you need facts to back up statements and there is really nothing as valuable as getting into a skirmish and having the data to back u up. And not having it you really kick yourself.
With my new stage of organization with work and spending in this new year. I am going to track:
things to do
things that I find that are wrong at work /scan and log
spending on family both time and money
and anything else that might happen or that I forget.
I am one of those people that I care about you and I will just give, I don't keep a score. I don't go okay I bought lunch 3 times, now you. But I don't give to just moochers because I don't have that kind of money and I do know how to just not give but with family and friends you want to just love and give and not care.
But... the other side does seem to keep track and for some reason their tracking always seems off..
I am also going to track how I let my co-worker manipulate and push my buttons and also track her.
I need to nip this emotional crap in the bud. It is clinicial. I just got this audible book how to succeed around screwed up people!!! lol!!!
So now I am a tracker. I am going to track it all.
Thanks for listening to my lesson learned.
Friday, December 18, 2009
So if you read any of my blogs prior, you know about my stressing work situation, do nothing lying co-worker, and my mean boss.
Well, today I got out of bed and decided TODAY IS THE DAY. I got up at 630 and went straight into work. I thought it would be bad because my coworker called out again, this time saying some other crazy disease, and my boss arrived when he was supposed to be out.
Great setup for a bad day...
I flipped the switch! I just did the best i could and worked it.
I addressed at least 3 more issues today with my boss and I GOT A 22 inch widescreen monitor!!!!!!!
Plus, I was informed that things are going to change, so i will have more things to do -- it might get more fun and challenging.
I am not allowing my male boss to bother me, I am totally just doing my job and not fearing him... who is he..
U should have seen him fuming at me with the new large monitor...
Now i have to take this attitude to the thighs!
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