Sunday, April 11, 2010
I am inspired by sparkers who keep with it and have had amazing results.
They fill me with the knowing that I CAN DO IT TOO! Sometimes success seems so far away.
I am inspired by music, books and ideas. You wouldn't think that a fantasy vampire novel would inspire me to take my life back -- but it does.
Sometimes it is just a sweet or intense vocal.
Sometimes it is a great piece of music.
Sometimes it is a lyric.
Sometimes it is the perfect blend with my emotion.
When I read, I feel comforted in who I am, inspired by who I could be, intrigued by what the world could be and accomplish and hopeful I might to be able to make a difference.
Also - Men. Men inspire me. People inspire me. Love inspires me. Good Relationships inspire me.
I love to see love in action. Good husbands, good relationships. It makes me not just think and hope but know == real love is real.
I love to know how people meet and fall in love. I love to honor and dispel the hollywood image. Knowing that love exists keeps me pushing for something greater in my life.
Men inspire me. In my 32 years of life, I have only met a handful of men that make me go weak in the knees. Men who have a mind, who are creative, men who think about life, ideas.
And when I find a new man whether some untouchable musician or some old favorite. Some new neighbor or old crush. Someone who comes into my life by some avenue and they just show signs of life, intelligence, creativity. I feel inspired. To be my best self. I wish I lived in a world where those types of men were everywhere. But the more I stretch my comfort zones and move in other circles, I realize there are honorable, inteligent, loving, committed, sexy, unbelievable men in the world. It excites me. Because if as I get older, I keep meeting and seeing awesome traits in men, it seems kind of logical that I might one day find a match, a partner, a idea sparring lover full of spunk (lol I mean pep!!!!fire!!!), full of passion, full of intensity.
I want fire. I want the smoldering fire that lives within a human being awakened by thought and dreams and set ablaze by love and touch.
I want someone who loves me for all my quirks and desires.
And... I keep meeting this man yet he isn't right. He marries another. He is an untouchable musician (who I know is probably completely flawed) Plus a musician - don't go there lol.
But if you play the law of averages or numbers, I might just find him yet.
And knowing all these old great male writers, great thinkers, poets, singers, alchemists,
dreamers, there has to be a little for me!
Lyrics that inspired the blog - And also inspirations - they alone inspire me to JUMP up and do it.
I imagine I am singing this to my inner daemon.
Time is running out - Muse
"I think I'm drowning,
I wanna break this spell,"
"I won't let you bury it,
I won't let you smother it,
I won't let you murder it.
Our time is running out,
Our time is running out,
You can't push it underground,
You can't stop it screaming out."
Sia - Breathe me
"Help, I have done it again
I have been here many times before
Hurt myself again today
And, the worst part is there's no-one else to blame"
"Ouch I have lost myself again
Lost myself and I am nowhere to be found,
Yeah I think that I might break
I've lost myself again and I feel unsafe"
Whenever I hear this song it or I am weak, I play it at least 6x and just sing it over and over again until I feel strong, vulnerable and beautiful. And if I play it enough, I usually can propel myself into exercise, writing or something productive.
With music and the written word, I feel I am a competent emotional alchemist.
Thank God for your beautiful creativity to save me, to help me see, to comfort me while I take this journey called Life.
Sunday, April 11, 2010
I love Numerology, Astrology etc... They give me things to think about and think through.
Some snippets about my birthday -
The birthday of the illusionist.
My greatest challenge is RELIABILITY.
The way forward is to understand that however great your ability to charm, the best way to earn the respect of others is to prove that you're honest, reliable, and committed.
They are masters of the art of illusion and their talent for developing believable and fascinating theories, strategies and stories is awesome.
Possessing the drive and enthusiasm to make things happen, they can, despite their obvious gifts, get depressed or melancholy for no apparent reason.
It said that until the age of 38, I will be gaining confidence and I need to learn to balance the seductive gift with solid results. I need to turn the illusions into reality. Once I learn to use my seductive will-power to achieve rather than "talk about my objectives, I will be a force to be reckoned with.
This made me feel good because I feel like it is really true. I need to put up or shut up. I need to act. I need to be the person I want to be.
And it made me feel like maybe I am on the path and I am just taking that next step and all I have to do is move and feel the universe and I can have success.
I got this from "The Element Encyclopedia of Birthdays" by Theresa Cheung
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