Thursday, April 01, 2010
I don't know if I am the only one that feels this way but it always seems that when I get all gung-ho to restart my diet/lifestyle/etc - Life falls apart. It seems like the more I try, the harder I push the crazier life gets and the more challenging it gets.
I wanted to start the spring fresh and renewed. And here I get sideswipped and taken out for over a week. I am slowly getting back into shape but I can't seem to eat much and I am real shaky and panicky afraid to eat anything for fear of dizziness, nausea, puke, etc.
I ended up getting the dreaded stomach thing going around which lead to a bacterial bladder infection which is leading to a yeast infection and I just got my TOM today.
LOL! Not to mention I got so dehydrated from the infection, I had to go to the ER to get fluids pumped back into me, antibiotics.
I still forced myself to go to work most the time and push through. Really I couldn't without the help of the anti-nausea meds and antibiotics.
I tend to really be harsh with myself and put myself up to high standards.
I am not going to let it get to me. I am just going to move forward and try to make each day the best I can.
I am going to try to find a way to attract that the harder I try, the easier it gets. That the harder I try, the more the universe helps me.
I am going to follow my dreams and find a way to live in that happiness.
I feel like a lifetime has passed my way and I have missed a lot. I have forced myself to miss things and opportunities.
I will not live that way anymore. I will try to be open, vulnerable, truthful, real with myself and my needs and to fulfill them.
To live true.
I must say the end of the rainbow has come -
- I lost a few pounds
- I worked out my craving for wawa tea
- I worked out my sugar and chocolate and rice krispy cravings
The sickness makes me want to only eat healthy and small portions and really
hit home that PROBIOTICS rock.
Maybe I will come out ahead in this yet.