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My Biggest Challenge

Sunday, August 16, 2009

"How you respond to the challenge in the second half will determine what you become after the game, whether you are a winner or a loser."
Lou Holtz

I think this quote could definitely include that of a healthier life style. Changing you lifestyle is a huge challenge in itself. Along the way you also meet many smaller challenges that you must over come to meet your ultimate goal, mine being A Healthier Me including mind, spirit, and body.
One larger challenge that I am trying to over come at this time is one that needs much discipline. I am trying to get up earlier so I can get my workouts done in the morning. I feel so much better through out the day and have so much more energy when I can do this. When I started my journey, my life was so chaotic I was just happy getting my workout in. Now my workouts have become a part of my day and I would like to give them my time and dedication with as little disruption as I can. For me this means doing them in the morning, which in turn will also give me time to relax and clear my mind for the day.
I am determined to do this and think I need to do it one step at a time. With this said, beginning Monday (tomorrow) I am going to make myself get up when my alarm goes off. If I can do this for a whole week, next week I can set it even earlier. Then I will be at the time I want everyday and they say after you do it so long your body just adjusts. I hope so. I am going to pray about this and maybe the Lord will even step in and help me (of course he will).

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AMYCHUBBUCK 8/18/2009 9:00AM

    Its a great goal and it seems like you are in already on your way there. It is definitely hard when life is chaotic and i know how that goes. I think you should already be proud of the fact that love exercise and the way it clears your head and gets you going.

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BANANIE41 8/18/2009 6:53AM

    Yep I agree! I swear I think too far beyond just today and it sabotages everything I have been working on.

Great quote!

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HAPPYCHICK10 8/17/2009 9:35PM

    Difficult yet attainable challenge! You can do it!!

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ROSIENOTROSE 8/17/2009 4:48PM

    I've always had problems with early morning wake-ups but I love the idea of getting my work-out done before work. I have my fingers crossed for you.

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    Getting up early to exercise is sooo hard, but like you, I think it's completely worth it. Keep working at it. You have the right mindset and motivation.

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SPUGGLYD 8/16/2009 9:29PM

    Sounds like a great game plan for getting your workouts in bright and early. I've heard it said that when you commit to working out when you get up in the mornign, it really gets u revved and ready to continue the rest of your day in a healthy way. This is something that everyone who struggles to get their workouts in should be looking at, myself included : )

Best of luck this week with your workouts emoticon

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KAYDOOMOM 8/16/2009 7:57PM

    Good luck on your new challenge. I have confidence in you!

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DBUNYEA 8/16/2009 7:40PM

    If you dedicated to doing this and you follow through you will succeed He helps those who ask for it emoticon You seem to have a great plan for doing so just make sure you maintain the same time even on weekend because they say that by getting up even an hour later on weekends it can reset your internal alarm clock Good luck emoticon

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JOLLYANNIE 8/16/2009 7:12PM

    It just takes taking that step forward one foot at a time. I am wishing you much luck as you embark on this journey.

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Adding to my journey

Thursday, August 13, 2009

"I will remember always that marriage, like life, is a journey - not a destination - and that its treasures are found not just at the end but all along the way."

My life has been total chaos this last week, loaded with overwhelming feelings of joy and pain. To start off, Monday a friends mom, whom I consider to by my second mom, went in for surgery. This was suppose to be a simple procedure, they were going to go in and realign a couple of herniated disks. Well, they got in and discovered that she also had an enlarged thyroid and some cartilage that had calcified to her vertebrae. They had to move the thyroid out of the way and scrape away some of the calcification too. The surgery went very well, but when she awoke from the anestesia she felt horrible pain, when she shouldn't have felt any according to what she knew was going to be done. After the doctors explained what they had to do they also told her that the recovery wasn't going to be what it was suppose to be, she would be pain free in the long run, but it was going to be slower than planned with more pain. Only because they had to do more than originally planned.
My fiance had already been staying with her for the past week because her son, who is living with her and was taking care of her, fell at work and broke his arm. Between the two of them they weren't able to do a whole lot and since Krista, my fiance, works near them she's been staying with them to help out around the house. My friend and her other brother came home the day of the surgery so they would be around too.
"Mom" was still in the hospital Tuesday, but her three kids were with her. This was the day of our marriage. We are having two because we have very different religions, so we decided we would have a marriage for each. This one was a hand fasting for her pagan religion. (Yes, we have very complicated lives.) Next year we are going to have a wedding and be married by God. A very exciting day full of joy with the pain of mom and her surgery in the back of our minds. This was the most chaotic day. To start with we left the house half our later than we should have, so we were later than we wanted to be. My dress broke, so we had to fix that. Our Priestess, her cousin, was late b/c she was stopping for gas and the credit card machine wasn't working. My wife's best friend, who had our rings and roses came on time (this really suprised us) and our photagrapher, another one of our good friends, was half an hour late. The handfasting went without a hitch after everyone was there, so that ended well. We stopped by the hospital to see mom afterwards.
She asked how it went so we told her and the others. Mom was suppose to be getting out on Tues., but noone knew for sure if she would or not, ended up she did. Yesterday was her first full day at home and my new wife and I spent the day at her house helping out. My friend was getting ready to head back home, but when she got in her car the floor was flooded. This was suppose to be fixed (and airconditioning thing) but her dad and brother didn't do a very good job so they had to fix it again. She finally got left and her brother who was going to go home too, decided he would stay for another night or two just to make sure everything is going well.
It's a good thing our honeymoon isn't until next year, because we would have to postpone it. We feel mom's recovery is way more important. This being said, we were able to spend our first night together but now she is back with mom and I am still here at her sisters. We have been living here in between places. We are waiting for our apartment to get ready. When the apartment is ready we will be just a few blocks from mom so we will be around to help out a lot easier and be able to be together at the same time. So the long and short of it, I'm married but I don't get to be with my wife for awhile, she does come home on the weekends though.
Now that I have rambled on and on and on, I'm sure you are all tired of reading if you have made it this far. Even with all the chaos I am still staying on plan pretty well and losing. I think that is definitely a good accomplishment to feel proud of. I will make it yet.

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MSJAMIE0 8/14/2009 6:08PM

    Oh, Spiritbear your plate is full and you have handled it well. Congratulations on your marriage. Glad you are available to help "Mom". Your faithfulness will reap rewards; you are very much appreciated. Way to go for staying on track you strong women you. (grin)
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DINY123 8/14/2009 3:31AM

    WOW What a day!- Here are prayers and blessings coming your way and to "MOM"- family of choice is as real as it gets!- Congrats on the wedding/fasting andkeep up the good work!

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PRYDEQUEEN 8/13/2009 9:45PM

    Congratulations! emoticon

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KAYDOOMOM 8/13/2009 8:59PM

    Well, you have been very busy these past few days (weeks?) I'm glad the wedding went well with only a few bumps, and hope the second one goes well next year. It will be nice for you when life gets back to normal, whatever that means.

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The less traveled road

Tuesday, August 04, 2009

TWO roads diverged in a yellow wood,
And sorry I could not travel both
And be one traveler, long I stood
And looked down one as far as I could
To where it bent in the undergrowth;

Then took the other, as just as fair,
And having perhaps the better claim,
Because it was grassy and wanted wear;
Though as for that the passing there
Had worn them really about the same,

And both that morning equally lay
In leaves no step had trodden black.
Oh, I kept the first for another day!
Yet knowing how way leads on to way,
I doubted if I should ever come back.

I shall be telling this with a sigh
Somewhere ages and ages hence:
Two roads diverged in a wood, and Ió
I took the one less traveled by,
And that has made all the difference.
~Robert Frost~

My roads were there, and I definitely chose the one not traveled. I took the complicated and more adventurous one. If I had taken the other, yeah my life now would be simpler and less work, but would my life later on be simpler?
Thus far this has been a journey in overcoming many obstacles. One being that of my "I can't do it, I'm too fat and will never be thin" philosophy that I have had for the last many years. I now see that anything is possible if you put your mind to it. I love the feeling of being able to help others while finding motivation and determination for myself. Most people who know me always describe me as being stubborn and determined, but for some reason it didn't translate well into this journey.
I have been working really hard and am seeing many results. As a child and even a teen, I was always athletic. I would love to have that energy back. I have also noticed that not only did my energy leave, but my sense of adventure did also. This was and still is mainly due to the way I look; I should probably say the way I THINK I look. Now that I am beginning to lose the weight and get the exercise incorporated into my daily life again I am starting to feel that energy and sense of adventure come back.
There is a whole different me hiding under what I assume society sees me as and I would like her to come back out and enjoy the party. This is slowly but surely happening; it may be a long road but I will stay on it. However, every little success that I see makes that road that much shorter and I guess in the long run of things, it probably is really short. After all I still have my whole life ahead of me and hopefully that life will be even longer now.

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DINY123 8/6/2009 11:33PM

    You have expressed yourself so well with this one Bear!-

Nice blog and keep on keepin on-
reminded me I used to dance!- haven't done that in years!

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MSJAMIE0 8/4/2009 10:45AM

    You go girl! Stay on the road; keep sharing cuz your life is an encouragement to many.

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BESTJUDY 8/4/2009 6:58AM

    Spiritbear..........we share a favorite poem in common. Thank you for sharing Frost's signature piece. And how fitting the poem is to your and SparkPeople's lives. We're choosing a road that ISN'T easy, but well worth it. Thank you for sharing your road less travelled, and thank you for being a Sparkie! emoticon

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    I want to get to feeling like the athletic teenager I once was too! emoticon

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CHIBIKARATE 8/4/2009 1:53AM

    you have the best of all qualities and that is so awesome

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The next 90 days

Sunday, August 02, 2009

Life is an Adventure ... Dare it
Life is a Beauty ... Praise it
Life is a Challenge ... Meet it
Life is a Duty ... Perform it
Life is a Love ... Enjoy it
Life is a Tragedy ... Face it
Life is a Struggle ... Fight it
Life is a Promise ... Fulfill it
Life is a Game ... Play it
Life is a Gift ... Accept it
Life is a Journey ... Complete it
Life is a Mystery ... Unfold it
Life is a Goal ... Achieve it
Life is an Opportunity ... Take it
Life is a Puzzle ... Solve it
Life is a Song ... Sing it
Life is a Sorrow ... Overcome it
Life is a Spirit ... Realize it

In the next ninety days I want to be able to do all of these things even better than I do now. Is that possible? of course it is! Joining the 90 day challenge will also help me with this, I won't only be challenging myself to accomplish all of this but I will also have wonderful people helping me along the way. I know this because I have already found great support and motivation from many here at SparkPeople.
By the end of the 90 day challenge I would like to have lost another 30 pounds that I can add to my "gone forever" list. I would also like to have more upper body strength. I find that the upper body is my biggest downfall and am really looking to improve on that.
All of this is possible, I just need to put my mind to it and do it. The biggest obstacle in my way is getting up and doing. I do well for most days, then out of nowhere I don't want to anymore. I need to find a way around these days and get up and do it any way. It will be done!!
I have faith that I will get the guidance I need.

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CHELSEYG29 8/2/2009 10:46PM

    Welcome to the challenge! I loved your blog and I hope you can achieve all of your goals that you have set in the next 90 days. The positive attitude will go a long way! I like the way you put the "gone forever" pounds, it's a very uplifting visual. Keep up the positive spirit. I'm so glad you joined the team. If you need anything please let me know. We will reach our goals!

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LUCI_D 8/2/2009 11:39AM

    Welcome to the challenge, I just joined yesterday myself. :) I also need to work on upper body strength.... mine is horrendous! Right now I'm just working on getting into routines... but if there is another 90 day challenge after this... I think I'm going to have to steal your idea. ;) Good luck with the challenge!

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AMYCHUBBUCK 8/2/2009 11:24AM

    Good luck with the challenge. Together we can all help each other achieve our goals and then some maybe..Im looking to lose 30lbs also so if I can help you or anything at all, please let me know. Keep your head up. Amy emoticon

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Slump Over!

Thursday, July 16, 2009

"To the question of your life you are the answer, and to the problems of your life you are the solution." ~Joe Cordare

Well, after gaining the pound last week I pushed myself and was able to lose that pound plus some. Not only did I lose the weight but I gained a better feeling about myself. I have gone through and revamped my workout schedule and routine, it now seems to be working better. YAY!!

With this slump, though, came the possibility that I may not reach my goal of another 20lbs by July 22, unles by some miracle I am able to lose 10 lbs in one week. Personally I don't think that is realistic for me, so I'm OK with not meeting my next goal. Does that mean I'm going to change them, no. I believe that if i continue to work at the rate I'm going that I'll be able to make of for my lost time eventually. I will leave all the dates the same and set a new goal to catch up. It may be my next dated goal or the one after, but I will get it all back under control so that I may reach my goal weight on my original goal date.....if not sooner. I CAN do it and I WILL do it.

With the help of Sparkpeople and all my sparkfriends it will get done and life will continue to be great. emoticon

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HOTMOMA970 7/19/2009 11:36PM

    you seem to have such a good attitude, i should learn something from that. i have gained 6 pounds and lost an inch. things happen in weird ways so don't let yourself get down about it. emoticon emoticon

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DINY123 7/17/2009 4:19AM

    Good luck with that- and thanks so much for stopping by my page!- My spouse is looking at a job in IOWA- so maybe we can get married too?!!!!

Concrats on all fronts!-Diana

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