Saturday, August 17, 2013
I have strayed so far over this past year. I have really taken a detour. I have started to feel like a hypocrite; for a few years now I have been the one sharing healthy living advice with others. I have been there as their support and shared many of my secrets that helped me reach success. Now I feel like a horrible person because I have not been able to follow through with my own advice or actions that I know are in my best interest.
My weight has gone up over the last year, more that I wanted it to, but I have stayed below 200 pounds. I would randomly weigh myself and see that it was creeping back up so I would tell myself what I would tell someone else, "cut back on sodium and increase your water intake." This helped, I would also have to tell myself to cut back on carbohydrates as this is my addiction...and it sprung back to life.
I have even strayed from my #1 priority in life which is my family. I really feel in my deepest soul that I am here to support my family as a stay-at-home mom and wife, while helping others learn to live as a healthy family as well. I have also strayed from my workouts. Sure, I've had my workouts here and there, there were even a couple months when I worked out every day. Those workouts were not to my fullest potential...I was definitely in my "I can't do this, I should just give up" stage.
I could blame this on many things...moving (twice since last June), living with those who have unhealthy diets, having my boyfriend's son move in with us, needing to get a full-time job that is not 100% my passion to help make ends meet, having to buy (between my bf and I) 2 new cars (1 in March and 1 last month), and a whole slew of other things. I could blame all my stress, lack of love for life, lack of ambition, lack of time, and even lack of proper nutrition on all of the above items. Unfortunately...well, maybe it's fortunately, I can only place the blame on myself.
I knew what I was doing the whole time, enough so that I would check my weight, nutrition, and even think about ways to better my business from time to time. Nothing came to fruition though.
I had a huge epiphany this morning. It came out of the blue. I even ended up typing this, randomly. My boyfriend took his son out for the day and said that I could have the day to myself. My plan was to work on lesson plans and watch "Blue" (a random show I found on hulu.com. Instead I am here. I decided to jump onto my email accounts and check them out, I have not really looked at them in a few months. I check them from time to time to archive and delete items or check which books I have on hold at the library. Anyway, I got to my business account and was skimming through those emails to clear out the inbox. I came across an email that required me to log onto a few different accounts to relink them as the system had improved. I felt a prick of excitement getting back to work on something business related.
It stopped there for the morning. I then went on to watch the latest episode of "Extreme Weight Loss" which is in my queue on hulu. Oddly enough I stopped to think about that grilled cheese sandwich I was eating while watching it. Then there was this advertisement for an exercise program so I went to check it out...decided that I would finish my show then go back. I went back after my show and filled in all the required information. I decided that I would start tomorrow since it is already midday. That "Oh, it's too late" excuse that many people love to use...even me. I know if I workout after 3pm that I cannot sleep very well because I have too much energy. I for some reason got up and changed into workout clothes and came back out to complete the workout. After all, it was only 1pm.
I started one workout, that I probably would have been able to complete one year ago and could not do after about 5 minutes. I wanted to quit. Instead I found another workout that was less intense and completed that 15 minute workout. It felt great! I began to feel on top of the world. I remembered how great workouts made me feel, and how my favorite thing is that shower afterward.
While in my shower I had the urge to write. I needed to get all my thoughts out....boy I wished I had a recorder in my shower that would type my thoughts for me. Coming back out here to write caused me to lose some of my thoughts, but I think most made it here.
Right before I began to type I started thinking about my last few conversations with my friend Lauren. Then, it hit me! I had spent the year before pushing myself so hard to get what I thought was the best business up and running that I lost myself. I didn't lose myself this past year, I was rediscovering myself this past year. Relearning what is important to me and my life. God said, "I am letting you go. I will be here when you are ready." I was beginning to lose myself. God gave us free will and we cannot use it if we depend too much on him. We have the ability to make our own choices. I was trying too hard and closing everyone out, even Him. I forgot that help is okay, but I have to do some things on my own. I need to ask for help, not just expect it to happen.
Deep Breath!!!!! Now that is all out, I am feeling so much better. I can see now that I can use what I have learned to be much better and proficient. I am feeling really proud of myself right now. :)
Monday, March 25, 2013
I initially became a weight loss coach as a way to reach children and help them live healthier more fit lives. I was/am a teacher and work with children on a daily basis. My passion lies deep with the health and well-being of children. I want to work with children and their families. I want children to have supportive, healthy families that actively participate in their lives with them.
I started my weight loss journey and actually found that I liked working out and felt great after every workout. I wanted to help others feel this way as well. I wanted to be able to support them in their fitness journeys. I initially got my personal training certification to help my knowledge base so that I could help others. My plan was to go back to get my certification in pilates. I really do like those exercises and found they helped my back a lot. They also helped me lead my way into my love of working out. I was given an opportunity to share everything that I had learned about fitness and the nutrition that goes along with it to create the perfect weight loss plan as a teacher on a healthy living website (SparkPeople). I thoroughly loved every moment of these classes. I was able to support others on their weight loss journeys, give them advice when needed and help them create a plan that worked for them.
One of my friends (Sparkgirl32) who was also doing this suggested that I would make a good life coach. I had never thought about that before. I know I liked coaching softball, teaching students and sharing the best strategies that I found for losing weight. I pondered that new idea for some time. Then it dawned on me, that it was a perfect way to combine all my loves into one. I could really have it all. I had the means to combine everything that I loved doing into one...what a perfect way to live!
Deciding to take this path has really pushed me to become more confident in my abilities and believe in myself even more. I knew that I had the knowledge, just wasn't sure if it was good enough to share with the world. What I have discovered is that it is. It may feel at times that it is something that everyone already knows, but the truth is that I had to learn it so there is some one else out there who needs it as new information as well. I want to share my successes with the world and how I turned my failures into learning/teaching moments that led to great opportunities of success. I want to give families a way to reconnect on a deeper, healthy living level that allows them to actively participate in life together. It is all about the bond between parent and child and how that bond can become stronger than anything. Children need great role models in this tough, tough world. Adults are just that. I want to see a world where children are healthy because they have had fabulous role models to look up to.
The underlying motive for creating this business is to help children live healthy lifestyles with parents/guardians who actively participate in their lives. I have a deep love and compassion for children. They really seem to strike my heart at an extremely deep level. I am hurt by their hurts, saddened by their sadness, saddened by the lack of parental connection, amused by their intricate worlds and fulfilled by their happiness. I am an empathic person and find that I truly make deep connections with children. I have always noticed that I connected with them on a deeper level and could feel what they wanted or needed more than my colleagues. I had always found myself being put in the situation where the child needed extra tenderness or a more firm hand that was still able to show love and caring. Many of these situations have come up over the years and I didn't really make the connection until a couple years ago. It is because I have a deep connection with the. I feel I am connected to the world on a deep level and children are the gateway to that world.
I have worked in early childhood and seen first hand the simple lack of knowledge that some parents have about health, nutrition and fitness for themselves, let alone their children. Childhood obesity and obesity in general are kind of like the plague. People want to avoid them. It is like a sin to talk about them. They are extremely sensitive topics for all involved. They just need someone with a firm yet loving and caring hand to help guide them. It is really about the education. Parents and children, alike need to be more education on how to live that healthy lifestyle and even more on how to live it together.
Wednesday, March 13, 2013
QOTD - MARCH 13 - REFLECTION WEDNESDAY
Since our week-long challenge includes reminding ourselves of our reasons for the healthy journey, share on the thread exactly WHY you have joined Sparks, the BLC and the NINJAS!
~ 195.2 Booooooo :( my weight was up this week. I know exactly why. I was high in the sodium and we ate out like three times this weekend. It was not has bad as I thought it would be though as I did get over 250 fitness minutes. I only put on 1 pound.
This challenge is going to help because I'll have to put in my numbers. I have been writing everything down, but when I do that I do not know the exact sodium counts.
I joined SP to lose weight to show all those girls that I went to high school that I could be skinny like them and to prove to the world that I was not meant to be fat as I thought I was. I joined SP to be skinny and pretty, plus show that I can lose weight faster than my friend who had introduced me. I know that I joined for the wrong reasons, but they got me started. Along the way, I realized that it was much more beyond those things. I began doing it for me. I wanted to be healthy, I liked the way I felt, I loved having all the energy, I enjoyed interacting with others who share similar stories with me and who understand what I am going through. I began to think of SP as my family and wanted to do what I could to be healthy, supportive and help others become healthy along with me. I joined the BLC because I needed a challenge that actually pushed me. I joined other challenges, but they didn't seem to do it for me. So I tried BLC. I fell in love with the way challenges were created, the family I built on my team and the whole atmosphere of the challenge. I requested to be a Ninja for my second round for two reasons. One was because they sounded like they fit me, they were HARDCORE and that is what I need. I am extremely competitive, but if my competition is not at my level I do not enjoy it. I want to be able to push as hard as I can to prove to myself that I can do it and I want to beat others. I do not want to be given the win, nor do I want to "beat" those who are less competitive than me. I need the push, I want the push and every day I strive to win. I also requested to be a Navy Ninja because it's a tribute to my brother who is in the Navy and is completely into ninjas. It just reminds me of him every day. He is also as competitive as me so having that reminder pushes me even harder.
Monday, February 04, 2013
At the beginning of January, I set out to challenge myself this year. CHALLENGE has definitely completely began to embody my actions for the year; I am so glad I picked it as my word. I am getting so much accomplished toward balancing my life. I feel it needs to be balanced on all levels if I want to be successful in any of the levels...health/fitness, my environment, fun/leisure time, personal growth, spirituality, career, financial, family, other relationships and my emotional health. I have a challenge for myself each month that relates to one of these.
My challenge for January focused on health & fitness. I set out to complete 1300 fitness minutes. I know that I got started about 1.5 weeks late, so I was shy of that goal by 267. I know I can definitely do that this month as long as I meet my weekly goals. I would say that one is pretty down pat.
February is about challenging my personal growth; I have a goal to read 30 self-development articles this month. Completely doable. I chose 30 b/c that pushes me to read a little more than 1 a day. I do not intend these to be books with 100's of pages, but articles so definitely feeling good about this month as well. I will also be keeping up with the 1300 fitness minutes. My intent is that each month will build upon the next.
Being part of the BLC21 Ninja team is really helping me accomplish these. I have to really thank all the fabulous women on the team that are pushing me to do what I know is possible, just a little beyond some of my comfort zone. I say beyond my comfort zone b/c I have procrastination issues and organization issues
I am working on meal plans that benefit my workouts, so it's now adjusting time. Tomorrow my plan is to wake up with a nice warm bowl of oatmeal & milk
Snack 1: have a tangerine and 1/2 cup yogurt
Lunch: left over pork chop, brown rice and asparagus
Snack 2: baked potato
Supper: pork chop, brussels sprouts, baked potato
Snack 3: air-popped popcorn
Friday, January 25, 2013
Hey Jess, cheer up!
Take some time to enjoy your accomplishments and allow yourself to believe that you can do it! You are a starter on your softball team, you are first flutist, you are an A student, you have apart time job and you have some great friends. You are rockin' it! You are way better off than you think you are.
Forget all those fat names and other names that those mean girls are calling you. You are a beautiful girl, you are a strong girl and you have the determination to accomplish anything you set your mind to. Let those holding you back go, you will be in college in a year and a half where you will be able to be whom ever you want to be with out worry. Who do you want to be, who are you? You are a fantastic, loving person full of wisdom and great advice. You know this, your friends lean on you for support all the time.
You are so worried about your weight and how others perceive you that you have not noticed how great you really are. Sure, you should start cutting back on your portion sizes....you eat such great food, take time to appreciate it. You don't have to keep up with your brothers. Help yourself to start eating less by eating a good breakfast in the morning, your dad already prepares it...just eat it. It might make you sick, so you'll have to go slow, but breakfast will help you eat less through out the day. And DO NOT skip lunch. Going without breakfast and lunch, then having marching band during the day and softball after school for 3-6 hours leaves you starving so you are actually over eating when you actually do eat.
Starving yourself is not helping you lose weight, it's actually part of why you are holding onto your weight even though you are so active. YOU NEED ENERGY. Think of food as fuel. Just as a car needs fuel to run, your body needs food. It is okay to eat, those who judge you are trying to find an excuse for what they do. You would actually be better at your activities if you had food to support your body's energy expenditure. And, your grades would remain high all the way through high school. Having proper nutrition would give you more energy to put forth the effort in school and probably make you a lot less grumpy at home.
You have everything you need: a supportive family, fresh vegetables and fruits, lean and fresh meats, plus great friends who support you. Your family and friends will do anything for you, just ask them.
You will have a very happy life, full of love. You will also achieve more than you have ever dreamed, even though it may not actually seem that way at the time. You do have to make your own mistakes to grow, but you are strong and will get through it.
Remember to appreciate your accomplishments no matter how small they may seem to you.
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