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Stepped into stupid

Thursday, October 16, 2014

I am pretty sure that I'm currently in the middle of a fatty liver flare-up. (I was diagnosed with non-alcoholic fatty liver disease in 2012.) Since we moved out to the beach in June, I've been eating all the wrong things. I also discovered some new-to-me tastes that I like…too much. I never used to eat onion rings…now, I crave them. Crab cakes? I try to get them broiled, but still…crab cakes. Two things that I never used to eat. Couple that with the excess sugar and simple carbs and….wham, fatty liver is back.

I'm annoyed with myself because this is entirely self-inflicted. It's one of those things where you see it happening but you can't stop the stupid and it becomes a train wreck. I knew I was making poor food choices. I admit it and take responsibility for it. However, I reached the enough line when I realized that I'm getting tender to the touch again. That's a sign for me that it's fatty liver and the aches I've been feeling the last few months haven't been all exercise-induced. The exercise kept me from gaining too much weight, but I've noticed I've gotten sluggish.

So as of Monday morning, I went back to the plant-based way of eating. Will try to not eat as much seafood (sort of tough, living at the beach), but when I do, eat it grilled or steamed. No more fried foods. That's a big one for me…I never really liked fried foods much (and certainly don't care for onions much under normal circumstances), but I've been eating a lot of fried stuff for me. The onion rings seem to be our go-to appetizer…nope, curtailing that behavior too. (As the folks at Weight Watchers say, it's a red-light food for me.)

I've done this way of eating before, and had success at it. I just can't afford to get lazy; otherwise, my health takes a hit. I'm too young to be dealing with the amount of daily aches and pains I do. And the liver thing is just a bonus. However, it's also one of those things I can control with diet. So that's what I'm doing.

I actually enjoyed eating mostly plant-based before…even though it's a lot of work for me. I've done a lot of research (and intend to refresh my memory by rereading some of the more choice books on the subject) and know what works and what doesn't for me. It's a fairly drastic change, and not everyone can or is willing to make the change. I have to do what's right for me. And for me, it means watching my diet like a hawk. I don't have the luxury of coasting.

I'm already starting to feel better. Have a ways to go, but it's improving. Not quite as sore. I'm essentially detoxing…it'll get better. And I will feel better in the long run.

Non-alcoholic fatty liver disease is no fun. But controllable if one is willing to take responsibility for what goes in their mouth. And I'm taking that responsibility again and paying attention.

Stepping out of the stupid puddle now.

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DJ4HEALTH 10/16/2014 11:12PM

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Lots of changes

Monday, August 18, 2014

I realized I haven't posted in several months. I'll be honest, I fell off the SP wagon. I got married, I moved 200 miles to a tourist destination, and have been trying to find a new job while setting up a new household. And my new husband has been traveling quite a bit for work. Lots of stressful changes, but positive ones overall.

I have not been so good with the whole eating thing, though. As of last week, however, I finally got myself into dairy detox, and I am already feeling better. I hope some of the weight that has crept on the last few months will go away as a result. ;) I'm also walking again--have my eye set on running part of the 2015 Flying Pirate Half Marathon next April (coincidentally, on our first wedding anniversary). As it is, we walked 15 miles last week (eight of those on Saturday), so I'm pretty pleased we're getting stuff done on the exercise front, at any rate.

I mentioned I moved to a tourist destination. The Outer Banks of North Carolina, to be exact. And I'll be honest--I'm having some trouble acclimating to the heat and humidity! At least we're getting close to fall…temps should start calming down a bit soon. The humidity won't be going away, though, so learning to deal.

Slowly righting myself with regard to the eating. I am trying to be patient with myself--I didn't gain that weight back overnight. I won't lose it overnight, either. I am not happy with the number I'm seeing on the scale, that's for sure. I don't care to see it anymore…so I'm trying to get back into healthier eating habits.

Overall, the big shake-up changes this year have been positive ones. Wish to keep that positive momentum going.

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EMMACORY 8/18/2014 6:28PM

    emoticon on your marriage. Life happens and sometimes things need to settle down before we can find our balance again. It looks like you are beginning to find it. emoticon

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Times, they are a-changing

Thursday, March 13, 2014

Big changes are on the horizon. I'm getting married next month…looking forward to getting out of town for our destination wedding. And in a twist of fate, our plans to move later on this year got moved up by three months--the landlord gave us a notice to vacate our current house. So we're not only moving, we're moving 225 miles away--to the same area where we're having our wedding, actually.

I haven't been working out much this winter. It's been crazy cold and I am a bundle of achiness when it's cold and rainy. I just don't move well. So I haven't been moving much at all. Luckily it is starting to warm up again (although today it's chilly again…but not for long), and we've gone walking three times this week. Last night we went walking and got caught in a torrential downpour…it did make us speed up a bit. ;) I wish to continue to walk for exercise--in fact, I have designs on training for a half marathon that's scheduled in November. It'll be a local half marathon for us, so it's worth checking out. And I still want to at least try to start running, bad knees/IT bands or not.

We're moving in June. That's almost five months of full-on training for the half…I'd love to do part of that half at a jogging pace. It's a nice goal to aim for.

I'm determined to get back on track. Right now I'm more interested in decluttering our house--I do not want to take a lot of this stuff with us to the beach! :P Packing things in boxes to take to Goodwill is exercise, right?

I'm looking forward to this year's changes.

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GOLFGMA 3/15/2014 6:18AM

    You must be super excited with all that going on. Yes, packing boxes is exercise and I love that you are walking which is a near perfect exercise. emoticon

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UMUCGRAD 3/13/2014 7:32PM

    Yes, that packing is activity if you do it right. Do you wear a heart rate monitor? It's amazing how we can get that heart rate up. All the best to you. That's a lot to do - moving AND destination wedding. Wow!

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Big changes on the horizon

Saturday, January 11, 2014

It's now 2014, and the time of year to make resolutions. I don't like resolutions since a lot of times they fall by the wayside. All I can do is do my best.

--I really want this year to be the one where I lose some serious weight. My goal is to finally hit onederland. Having PCOS, it's difficult for me to lose weight, and always has been. However, I need to stop thinking of the PCOS as an obstacle to weight loss, and work with it as best I can. I know my goal is completely doable if I get serious about things.

--I also want to complete a half marathon this year. It's been three years since I've done one (that long? I can't believe that!)--2011's Flying Pirate was the last half marathon. This time, I have my eye on the fall for this, mainly because I want to incorporate some running into it! I've completed three half marathons to date, but they were all walking. I'd really like this year to be the one where I start running. I suspect I'll be pretty slow, but I'm determined to get there. I need to not be afraid of what my body will do--I have a tendency to overdo and then I hurt. A lot. For a long time. (Courtesy of myofasical pain syndrome.) I need to let myself get stronger.

That pretty much covers the health and fitness goals for me. Other things I will accomplish this year:

--Finally finding a job. Full-time, with benefits. Preferably remote.

--Moving to the beach! The timing of said move hinges on my finding a job.

--Oh yeah, I'm getting married in April. :) We already live together, so it will mainly be a legal change more than anything else. That and an excuse to wear a really nice dress!

I've come to realize that it's okay to take care of me. And more than just once in a while. I just need to be nicer to myself sometimes. Not beat myself up mentally when I don't have the best food week, or don't exercise as much as I want or plan to. That sort of behavior is self-sabotage, and I'm done doing it. If I don't take care of my body, who will?

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GOLFGMA 1/12/2014 8:48AM

    You are right about the responsibility to your body. Only you can make the difference, but, you are in a good place here on SP to get the job done. Wishing you much success with obtaining your goals! emoticon

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Weekend binge

Tuesday, November 05, 2013

So, Halloween happened. And then I went to visit friends in Cleveland for the weekend, where they had a belated Halloween party. I fell off the mainly plant-based wagon. Especially in the dairy department. I gorged on cheesy pizza, ice cream, cake (with frosting, naturally), and of course, lots of Halloween candy. I am feeling it, too...more sluggish, more achy in my joints. I'm also having trouble stopping. I got home yesterday after flying home (flying stresses me out anyway, so that didn't help the situation) and promptly ordered pizza because I didn't feel like cooking.

Why do I self-sabotage? I have no idea. I know I shouldn't do it, I know that it's bad for me, but undoing a lifetime of bad habits means I'll have inevitable slip-ups. Right? Right?

And the thing is, even though I really don't like cheese all that much anymore--it's slimy, it's salty, and I really don't like the flavor or texture of it--I couldn't stop myself from eating it. I don't get it. Now I'm stuck trying to backtrack and detox from all the crap I put in my body over the last few days.

I need to plan ahead and figure out how I need to eat when I travel. I switched to vegetarian the last couple of times I've traveled, and I've allowed myself to make poor decisions within that guideline. LIke the ice cream. Like the cheese. When I have more control over my food--not having to rely on others or restaurants for my meals--I do better. Even when traveling--when we visit the Outer Banks, we are able to bring our own food.

I know what I did wrong, and I know what needs to be done to fix it. However, I'm still in the binge. Perhaps it's because my fiance is on the other side of the world--literally: he's in Hong Kong--and I miss his presence and his ability to keep me in line food-wise. I tend to eat worse when he's not around. Another form of self-sabotage, I realize.

Time to stop. I can do this. I have allowed myself to slip, but it's time to stop the slide and get back on track.

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KNEWMANSKI 11/5/2013 10:23AM

    Put that foot down! you can do it. I do the same it seems once i have something bad the rest of the day is down hill from there. Keep your head up and I'm sure your fiance will be home soon. He wouldnt want to see you off the wagon either.

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