Thursday, March 13, 2014
Big changes are on the horizon. I'm getting married next month…looking forward to getting out of town for our destination wedding. And in a twist of fate, our plans to move later on this year got moved up by three months--the landlord gave us a notice to vacate our current house. So we're not only moving, we're moving 225 miles away--to the same area where we're having our wedding, actually.
I haven't been working out much this winter. It's been crazy cold and I am a bundle of achiness when it's cold and rainy. I just don't move well. So I haven't been moving much at all. Luckily it is starting to warm up again (although today it's chilly again…but not for long), and we've gone walking three times this week. Last night we went walking and got caught in a torrential downpour…it did make us speed up a bit. ;) I wish to continue to walk for exercise--in fact, I have designs on training for a half marathon that's scheduled in November. It'll be a local half marathon for us, so it's worth checking out. And I still want to at least try to start running, bad knees/IT bands or not.
We're moving in June. That's almost five months of full-on training for the half…I'd love to do part of that half at a jogging pace. It's a nice goal to aim for.
I'm determined to get back on track. Right now I'm more interested in decluttering our house--I do not want to take a lot of this stuff with us to the beach! :P Packing things in boxes to take to Goodwill is exercise, right?
I'm looking forward to this year's changes.
Saturday, January 11, 2014
It's now 2014, and the time of year to make resolutions. I don't like resolutions since a lot of times they fall by the wayside. All I can do is do my best.
--I really want this year to be the one where I lose some serious weight. My goal is to finally hit onederland. Having PCOS, it's difficult for me to lose weight, and always has been. However, I need to stop thinking of the PCOS as an obstacle to weight loss, and work with it as best I can. I know my goal is completely doable if I get serious about things.
--I also want to complete a half marathon this year. It's been three years since I've done one (that long? I can't believe that!)--2011's Flying Pirate was the last half marathon. This time, I have my eye on the fall for this, mainly because I want to incorporate some running into it! I've completed three half marathons to date, but they were all walking. I'd really like this year to be the one where I start running. I suspect I'll be pretty slow, but I'm determined to get there. I need to not be afraid of what my body will do--I have a tendency to overdo and then I hurt. A lot. For a long time. (Courtesy of myofasical pain syndrome.) I need to let myself get stronger.
That pretty much covers the health and fitness goals for me. Other things I will accomplish this year:
--Finally finding a job. Full-time, with benefits. Preferably remote.
--Moving to the beach! The timing of said move hinges on my finding a job.
--Oh yeah, I'm getting married in April. :) We already live together, so it will mainly be a legal change more than anything else. That and an excuse to wear a really nice dress!
I've come to realize that it's okay to take care of me. And more than just once in a while. I just need to be nicer to myself sometimes. Not beat myself up mentally when I don't have the best food week, or don't exercise as much as I want or plan to. That sort of behavior is self-sabotage, and I'm done doing it. If I don't take care of my body, who will?
Tuesday, November 05, 2013
So, Halloween happened. And then I went to visit friends in Cleveland for the weekend, where they had a belated Halloween party. I fell off the mainly plant-based wagon. Especially in the dairy department. I gorged on cheesy pizza, ice cream, cake (with frosting, naturally), and of course, lots of Halloween candy. I am feeling it, too...more sluggish, more achy in my joints. I'm also having trouble stopping. I got home yesterday after flying home (flying stresses me out anyway, so that didn't help the situation) and promptly ordered pizza because I didn't feel like cooking.
Why do I self-sabotage? I have no idea. I know I shouldn't do it, I know that it's bad for me, but undoing a lifetime of bad habits means I'll have inevitable slip-ups. Right? Right?
And the thing is, even though I really don't like cheese all that much anymore--it's slimy, it's salty, and I really don't like the flavor or texture of it--I couldn't stop myself from eating it. I don't get it. Now I'm stuck trying to backtrack and detox from all the crap I put in my body over the last few days.
I need to plan ahead and figure out how I need to eat when I travel. I switched to vegetarian the last couple of times I've traveled, and I've allowed myself to make poor decisions within that guideline. LIke the ice cream. Like the cheese. When I have more control over my food--not having to rely on others or restaurants for my meals--I do better. Even when traveling--when we visit the Outer Banks, we are able to bring our own food.
I know what I did wrong, and I know what needs to be done to fix it. However, I'm still in the binge. Perhaps it's because my fiance is on the other side of the world--literally: he's in Hong Kong--and I miss his presence and his ability to keep me in line food-wise. I tend to eat worse when he's not around. Another form of self-sabotage, I realize.
Time to stop. I can do this. I have allowed myself to slip, but it's time to stop the slide and get back on track.
Saturday, October 12, 2013
Well, last month I was still dealing with the intercostal rib strain--turned out I had also strained my rectus abdominus muscles (they run vertically from under the rib cage to the pubic bone) when my back had gone out back in August, and I was healing from that as well. Took my massage therapist and I awhile to figure it out, but she worked on my abdominal muscles, and things are much improved. Almost back to my usual semi-normal.
However, the weather changed this week--cool, overcast, rainy. This was not a good development. First six days of October, we got out to walk every day. Even walked 6.52 miles one day (nearly half of a half marathon!). However, the weather blew in and has been sitting over us, and it's affecting me. My low back's been sore again. My muscular headache has been around most of the week. I've had low energy and have been overall achy in general (I have a lot of osteoarthritis I deal with every day). I haven't worked out since Sunday. I did go back to the massage therapist yesterday, and she worked on my back and my neck. Back seems to be better this morning, but the headache is still sticking around. *sigh*
I had pretty much eradicated my menstrual migraines since changing my diet, and my frequency of other types of headaches had decreased a lot as well. So having a headache due to muscle strain for a week is not fun. Especially since I just got over a four-day muscular headache...it really doesn't want to go away. I'm hopeful I'll be able to do a short walk later on today, however. Will have to work through the headache.
Overall, though, despite the headache, I am feeling a lot less achy. The ribs and abdomen strains are just about healed. This is important, because I've been waiting to step it up a bit workout-wise...I want to start interval training, but I've held off because my core wasn't feeling good. Now it's just about to the point where I might be able to start soon. We're going to go to Asheville next weekend and do some hiking, and when we get back I'd like to start intervals. I think I might be ready.
When the headache goes away. I know it's muscular in nature, so having to do stretches and massage therapy and heat and ice is the way to go here. Meds will not fix this. I'm determined to beat this headache. I know sometimes after massage you feel worse before you feel better...that's the tack I'm taking with this headache. Pesky pesky headache.
I will not let the headache impede my progress. I'm finally coming out of my pain spiral, and I can see the end of the tunnel I've been stuck in for the last two years. I'm almost there.
Saturday, September 07, 2013
I know there's a lot to be said for non-scale victories. However, I want to crow a bit about my scale victory today. I finally have made it 25% of the way to my weight-loss goal! I have a lot of weight to lose...a smidge over 100 pounds. However, I can officially say from my all-time high, I've lost 25.4 pounds as of this morning. That's been a long time coming...New Year's 2012 was when I hit my all-time high. Since then, I have radically changed my diet, but it's still been slow to come off (the "joys" of having PCOS). I know losing weight slowly is the healthy way to do it...at this rate, it'll take me another 4 years to get the rest of the weight off, but I'm okay with that.
My immediate goal (and it's an 8-month goal) is to lose 10 more pounds and 4.5 inches from around my bust measurement by the wedding. I would really like not to have to have my wedding dress altered. I like the back of the dress, but it doesn't fit at the moment. I'm okay with having a corset back put in the dress, but I'd really like to have the option. I think this is an attainable goal...I have slowly come to the realization that I'm just not one of those people that loses weight fast. So what some people can do in a month or two, it takes me six months or longer.
I've also lost 9% of my body weight. Nothing to sneeze at. Overall, I feel more comfortable in my skin. Having PCOS, I got very comfortable being at a certain weight--maintained it for DECADES--so when a medication jacked up my weight, it was not a good feeling. I've lost all the weight I gained on that medication, so I feel like I'm more at my true starting weight in this weight-loss journey. Which is probably not the best way to look at it, but I'm not going to overthink it.
I'm pleased with my progress so far. I don't care that it's been slow and oftentimes frustrating. The scale is still going in the right direction, and that's the important thing. I will lose the weight, just slower than most people. And that's okay, because that's me.
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