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Monday, November 21, 2011
Honestly, this is soooo pathetic. My last two or three blogs have been "oh, I fell off the wagon and now I'm back...I'm gonna do it this time." Then I join a challenge...I weigh in once or twice and then I have a bad week and that spirals into two bad weeks and then three..and so on and so forth. I promptly bail on Sparkpeople for the next several months until I get desperate again and I show up for my next "off the wagon" blog....Lather, rinse, repeat.
...I don't know why I can't do this. I guess the more accurate term would be WON'T do this. I know I COULD. I know what I need to do. I think a lot about what I should do. Unfortunately I do that thinking while I'm sitting in front of my computer or watching TV and eating something yummy. So I keep gaining more weight and then of course activity is more difficult so I do less and less and then I gain more weight....lather, rinse repeat. Are YOU seeing a pattern here? I believe I do.
So. Obviously I need to make some changes. I'm going to commit to one change a week for now. I'll work more in later. My change this week is going to be logging all of my food (good or bad) on Sparkpeople and logging all of my activity, or lack thereof. I know it doesn't sound like much, but I truly believe that the more I'm on Sparkpeople, the more I think about what I eat and what activity I do and all this thinkin' has got to do something in the long run right?
Monday, November 21, 2011
Honestly, this is soooo pathetic. My last two or three blogs have been "oh, I fell off the wagon and now I'm back...I'm gonna do it this time." Then I join a challenge...I weigh in once or twice and then I have a bad week and that spirals into two bad weeks and then three..and so on and so forth. I promptly bail on Sparkpeople for the next several months until I get desperate again and I show up for my next "off the wagon" blog....Lather, rinse, repeat.
...I don't know why I can't do this. I guess the more accurate term would be WON'T do this. I know I COULD. I know what I need to do. I think a lot about what I should do. Unfortunately I do that thinking while I'm sitting in front of my computer or watching TV and eating something yummy. So I keep gaining more weight and then of course activity is more difficult so I do less and less and then I gain more weight....lather, rinse repeat. Are YOU seeing a patter here? I believe I do.
So. Obviously I need to make some changes. I'm going to commit to one change a week for now. I'll work more in later. My change this week is going to be logging all of my food (good or bad) on Sparkpeople and logging all of my activity, or lack thereof. I know it doesn't sound like much, but I truly believe that the more I'm on Sparkpeople, the more I think about what I eat and what activity I do and all this thinkin' has got to do something in the long run right?
Sunday, July 10, 2011
I almost didn't write this blog because I feel kinda stupid starting over again and again and again....but, my other option is to NOT start over again and just keep getting fatter and fatter. I'm not willing to concede to that. So, here I am again.
Thursday, October 07, 2010
So, I fell off the wagon...Ok, really, I sort of jumped off with the intent to jump back on, but then never really caught up with the wagon again until now. That was, I dont know, 6 or 8 months ago I think. Time gets blurred when you don't want to think about what you're doing because you know there's no way you can justify it. So, after eating myself into a stupor for the last two seasons or so, I went to the doc about two weeks ago to discuss fertility issues. She diagnosed me with PCOS (I tried to get a different doc to diagnose it and give me metformin about 3 years ago, but they said my Testosterone was fine, therefore, I didn't have it. This doc says that is NOT the defining test) and put me on Metformin and told me to do a High Protein/Moderate carb diet. I started that almost two weeks ago and have gone from 299 to 289. What's really sad is that my mom had a massive heart attack in August and even THAT didn't change my eating habits. While she was in a bed in the critical care unit fighting for her life, I was in the cafeteria eating loaded fries (Shouldn't hospitals serve healthier food in their cafeterias?) Does it help that I felt terribly guilty with every fry I ate? Probably not. I still ate them. But it did make me look harder at my life and my health. Mom spent almost 3 weeks in the critical care unit. Two weeks on a ventilator and we thought she was going to have to spend the rest of her life on the vent. Thank God, He pulled her through and she's not even on Oxygen now, but it could easily have gone the other way. I have a two year old that I want to see grow up and if I don't change this, I may not make it.
Wednesday, February 24, 2010
So, I've been out of town for a week. Not as much control over my food choices as I would have liked, not much opportunity to do any organized activity. Sounds like excuses, but no, just reasons. I still take responisbility for everything that passed my lips and every step I didn't take. On the other hand, I tried to make mostly good decisions. I stuck to the changes I've made like not putting butter and sour cream on my potatoes and eating more veggies and less starches. I made good decisions most of the time, the same kind of good decisions i've been making for the last month, I might have a small burger, but with it, I eat a yogurt or a salad instead of having the large fries soaked in mayo and ketchup.
My father in law commented that this is the healthiest he's ever seen me eat. I also made some decisions that some would say were bad decisions. We had a family wedding. My husband was in the wedding party which means not only did we go to the wedding and reception, we also went to the rehearsal dinner. I had lasagna....I took half home. I ate three breadsticks....I didn't eat 6. I had the cheesecake for desert...the entire piece...and it was sooooo worth it.
At the wedding, the chicken that i'd chosen turned out to be chicken cordon bleu....breaded, with ham and cheese and a yummy sauce. I ate it all. I ate the potatoes. I ate the wedding cake...plus half of my son's....I didnt eat ALL of his cake.
One of my rituals when I go to California is to have In-N-Out. I don't want to change that. I think If I eat well most of the time and limit my calories the rest of the day I can have In-N-Out once a month...the double double with fries animal style. I had no access to weigh myself and did no organized activity other than one session of bowling, but the week was very busy with lots of running around that left me feeling as if I'd had a workout each night, but with nothing to actually log, I felt as if I wasnt doing anything.
The net result of all this....a loss of 4.6 pounds! Woo Hoo! Thank goodness I'm back home with my scale, my Wii fit and my normal choices!
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