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Lather, Rinse, repeat.

Monday, November 21, 2011

Honestly, this is soooo pathetic. My last two or three blogs have been "oh, I fell off the wagon and now I'm back...I'm gonna do it this time." Then I join a challenge...I weigh in once or twice and then I have a bad week and that spirals into two bad weeks and then three..and so on and so forth. I promptly bail on Sparkpeople for the next several months until I get desperate again and I show up for my next "off the wagon" blog....Lather, rinse, repeat.

...I don't know why I can't do this. I guess the more accurate term would be WON'T do this. I know I COULD. I know what I need to do. I think a lot about what I should do. Unfortunately I do that thinking while I'm sitting in front of my computer or watching TV and eating something yummy. So I keep gaining more weight and then of course activity is more difficult so I do less and less and then I gain more weight....lather, rinse repeat. Are YOU seeing a pattern here? I believe I do.


So. Obviously I need to make some changes. I'm going to commit to one change a week for now. I'll work more in later. My change this week is going to be logging all of my food (good or bad) on Sparkpeople and logging all of my activity, or lack thereof. I know it doesn't sound like much, but I truly believe that the more I'm on Sparkpeople, the more I think about what I eat and what activity I do and all this thinkin' has got to do something in the long run right?

  
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GIALADIVA 11/22/2011 9:35AM

    Your blog is very touching, I was there once too so I know how you feel. Your keeping at it and in your heart you know it's something you want to work on. I think you just have to find the one thing that motivates you. If you have a trend falling of try tracking to see what's causing you to do s, like what food or what were you feeling at the time. I know sometimes you have to hit rock bottom before you finally take a stand for yourself. Keep pushing you are awesome for at least admitting it. Find someone to hold you accountable. Hey I'll volunteer if you'd like I'm on here regularly lol. Add me if you like!

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THE-MORE-GIRL 11/21/2011 11:42PM

    Are you making it too hard on yourself? Maybe you're choosing challenges that are beyond the place where you are now. I'm reading The Spark book, and he says you really really need to pick some first goals/streaks that are totally doable -- even easy -- but just something you're not doing right now. Like 10 minutes of exercise a day, or logging on to SparkPeople every day, or something. And then when you have that licked for a month, do something else, but not anything too hard.

This is totally working for me, anyway, and I hope I don't sound like I'm criticizing you, because I know how hard it can be to be so frustrated.

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Lather, Rinse and repeat.

Monday, November 21, 2011

Honestly, this is soooo pathetic. My last two or three blogs have been "oh, I fell off the wagon and now I'm back...I'm gonna do it this time." Then I join a challenge...I weigh in once or twice and then I have a bad week and that spirals into two bad weeks and then three..and so on and so forth. I promptly bail on Sparkpeople for the next several months until I get desperate again and I show up for my next "off the wagon" blog....Lather, rinse, repeat.

...I don't know why I can't do this. I guess the more accurate term would be WON'T do this. I know I COULD. I know what I need to do. I think a lot about what I should do. Unfortunately I do that thinking while I'm sitting in front of my computer or watching TV and eating something yummy. So I keep gaining more weight and then of course activity is more difficult so I do less and less and then I gain more weight....lather, rinse repeat. Are YOU seeing a patter here? I believe I do.


So. Obviously I need to make some changes. I'm going to commit to one change a week for now. I'll work more in later. My change this week is going to be logging all of my food (good or bad) on Sparkpeople and logging all of my activity, or lack thereof. I know it doesn't sound like much, but I truly believe that the more I'm on Sparkpeople, the more I think about what I eat and what activity I do and all this thinkin' has got to do something in the long run right?

  
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JULIEBITES 11/22/2011 12:18PM

    ::hugs:: it is a long and frustrating road. But it doesn't seem so overwhelming if you keep your sights short. Small goals can add up to much bigger goals. It also helps to be able to meet all those small goals one right after the other. It becomes a snowball effect after a while. Much love dearling and know I am here if you need to vent.

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ALIHIKES 11/22/2011 12:03AM

    I absolutely think you are taking a good step toward changing your fitness! emoticon

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I almost didn't write this...

Sunday, July 10, 2011

I almost didn't write this blog because I feel kinda stupid starting over again and again and again....but, my other option is to NOT start over again and just keep getting fatter and fatter. I'm not willing to concede to that. So, here I am again.

  
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SUNFLOWERSAVAGE 8/1/2011 11:30PM

    Congratulations on not giving up!

~Deanna

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TRACSGOAL 7/11/2011 12:33PM

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CHRISTYLHARRELL 7/11/2011 2:24AM

  Just remember that every day is a new day, so every day you are starting all over again anyway. I am glad you are back! So here is to loosing weight and finally get what we want!

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NURSE_FAWN 7/10/2011 5:33PM

    When you stop trying, you start failing. Start over as many times as it takes because you are worth it. Welcome back!!!
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PIPPAGREY 7/10/2011 4:47PM

    I think almost everyone does this in fits and starts. I like to think of the times we quit as temporary breaks while we prepare ourselves for the journey. Each new start teaches us something we will need to allow us to finally take the whole trip.

Welcome Back!

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IRISHBEANERGAL 7/10/2011 1:22PM

    The only guaranteed failure is when you fail to start. Congrats on starting again - Welcome back!

~Irish (aka The Incredible Shrinking Mom)

**JULY MANTRA - Plan to WORK and Work your PLAN**

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TANYAP71 7/10/2011 12:24PM

    Welcome back!

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DENVERSMSDAWN 7/10/2011 12:21PM

    Thanks Everyone! And Hanavas....congrats on almost 6 yrs without smoking!

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RONNIE0404 7/10/2011 11:54AM

    I'm glad you decided to post your blog. Just remember, you're only a failure if you quit. As long as you keep starting again and again, you are working toward your goals.

Hang in there. You can do this!

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HANAVAS 7/10/2011 11:53AM

    Don't feel stupid, I don't think there's anyone on here that hasn't done the same! Never ever give up! I'm glad you're starting over, I am too. It took me 7 attempts to quit smoking (in Nov I will have been quit 6 yrs) Why should it be any different getting healthy? We CAN do this!

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MILTON114 7/10/2011 11:51AM

  There's nothing wrong with trying again. At first you don't succeed try and try again. I understand i'm someone who will always starts something but never follows through. This time I'm looking at the positive for myself and thats why i'm here. You are being couragous and brave just admitting it. You will do great just focus on why you want to do this and remember we are all here for you! emoticon

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Slinking back in....

Thursday, October 07, 2010

So, I fell off the wagon...Ok, really, I sort of jumped off with the intent to jump back on, but then never really caught up with the wagon again until now. That was, I dont know, 6 or 8 months ago I think. Time gets blurred when you don't want to think about what you're doing because you know there's no way you can justify it. So, after eating myself into a stupor for the last two seasons or so, I went to the doc about two weeks ago to discuss fertility issues. She diagnosed me with PCOS (I tried to get a different doc to diagnose it and give me metformin about 3 years ago, but they said my Testosterone was fine, therefore, I didn't have it. This doc says that is NOT the defining test) and put me on Metformin and told me to do a High Protein/Moderate carb diet. I started that almost two weeks ago and have gone from 299 to 289. What's really sad is that my mom had a massive heart attack in August and even THAT didn't change my eating habits. While she was in a bed in the critical care unit fighting for her life, I was in the cafeteria eating loaded fries (Shouldn't hospitals serve healthier food in their cafeterias?) Does it help that I felt terribly guilty with every fry I ate? Probably not. I still ate them. But it did make me look harder at my life and my health. Mom spent almost 3 weeks in the critical care unit. Two weeks on a ventilator and we thought she was going to have to spend the rest of her life on the vent. Thank God, He pulled her through and she's not even on Oxygen now, but it could easily have gone the other way. I have a two year old that I want to see grow up and if I don't change this, I may not make it.

  
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CYNEDRA 10/7/2010 8:26PM

    Welcome back! Some hospitals do only serve healthy fare - one of the locals doesn't do meat. Others use the cafeteria to make money. It makes sense though that when you were in an emotional time you turned to high carb/ high fat foods. I do the same thing.

Even though it has been a while since you feel off the wagon, you came back. That's the important thing. Missy advise is excellent as well.

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MISSY455 10/7/2010 5:48PM

    Welcome back! Being around to see your two year old grow up should be a powerful goal for you. Remember to start back slowly so you don't overwhelm yourself. Good luck on your journey to a healthier lifestyle.
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Traveling, a wedding and In-n-out

Wednesday, February 24, 2010

So, I've been out of town for a week. Not as much control over my food choices as I would have liked, not much opportunity to do any organized activity. Sounds like excuses, but no, just reasons. I still take responisbility for everything that passed my lips and every step I didn't take. On the other hand, I tried to make mostly good decisions. I stuck to the changes I've made like not putting butter and sour cream on my potatoes and eating more veggies and less starches. I made good decisions most of the time, the same kind of good decisions i've been making for the last month, I might have a small burger, but with it, I eat a yogurt or a salad instead of having the large fries soaked in mayo and ketchup.

My father in law commented that this is the healthiest he's ever seen me eat. I also made some decisions that some would say were bad decisions. We had a family wedding. My husband was in the wedding party which means not only did we go to the wedding and reception, we also went to the rehearsal dinner. I had lasagna....I took half home. I ate three breadsticks....I didn't eat 6. I had the cheesecake for desert...the entire piece...and it was sooooo worth it.

At the wedding, the chicken that i'd chosen turned out to be chicken cordon bleu....breaded, with ham and cheese and a yummy sauce. I ate it all. I ate the potatoes. I ate the wedding cake...plus half of my son's....I didnt eat ALL of his cake.

One of my rituals when I go to California is to have In-N-Out. I don't want to change that. I think If I eat well most of the time and limit my calories the rest of the day I can have In-N-Out once a month...the double double with fries animal style. I had no access to weigh myself and did no organized activity other than one session of bowling, but the week was very busy with lots of running around that left me feeling as if I'd had a workout each night, but with nothing to actually log, I felt as if I wasnt doing anything.

The net result of all this....a loss of 4.6 pounds! Woo Hoo! Thank goodness I'm back home with my scale, my Wii fit and my normal choices!

  
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SOLSTICECHILD 2/25/2010 10:25PM

    Way to go!! Sounds like you were making good reasonable choices!

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KATJAMES17 2/24/2010 10:48PM

    Good for you! I bet it was the enjoying what you ate :) And I hear you on the running around--after a day or even half a day of errands, I feel too tired to do any "real" working out. I wonder if somewhere there's an estimate of calories burned per hour of "errand running"?

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FINDINGMYWAY09 2/24/2010 4:45PM

    Remember its all about balance :) See you don't have to give up for favorite things you just have to work them into your new lifestyle!

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