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Starting Over is Bittersweet

Monday, March 07, 2011

I was a faithful Sparker about a year or so ago. So what happened? Life! My work hours increased to 11-12 a day. There was no time left for exercise or healthy cooking. I know, I know....excuses, excuses. I'll be the first to admit it.

I started Sparking June 2010 with my highest weight of 252. I was faithful with exercise/healthy eating, getting down to 190 by December 2010. Well, it's March 2011 and here I am at 215 pounds. I guess I need to be grateful that I didn't regain it all, only 30 pounds, half of it.

A couple of weeks ago I joined Weight Watchers Online, and am enjoying the program, although not overjoyed with the weight loss so far (I've only lost 5 pounds since 2/24 - 11 days). Hmmm, I guess that's not so bad really.

But I really missed SP. The support here is amazing. So I'm going to continue WW Online and Spark at the same time. I will do this. I have to do this. I threw out all of my size 22s & 24s.....gotta get back into those 16-18s by summer. I hate squeezing this 20 butt in 18s. Wish me luck!

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TEACHINMOM 3/7/2011 1:40PM

    Well, emoticon back!!! So many of us have been in this same exact spot! I've done that TWICE before......I'm a little slower to learn but learn I did.....that it doesn't work that way!! Anyway, what's important is that your back and still ahead! You have 30 less pounds to lose than you did last time! That's a HUGE PLUS!! You can be back in those 16-18's by summer!!!
AND 5 pounds in 11 days is absolutely AWESOME!!! I didn't even lose 5 pounds in FEBRUARY!!LOL.......Keep up the great work!!

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RIVERUN 3/7/2011 1:06PM

    One day at a time, one pound at a time You can do this.

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Having a hard time.

Wednesday, December 02, 2009

The past couple of days have been so hard. I've been in the bed sick for the past couple of days and been doing horribly with my eating. You would think that when you are sick you wouldn't want to eat, but not me. It's been so horrible, like the old, fries, burger, you name the worst possible food and I've eaten it. Now I'm heart sick too. I haven't behaved this way in over 6 months and I don't know what to think of myself.

I don't know what has gotten into me, slacking off a bit for the holiday weekend or getting sick. It's like I've turned into the old Denise thinking about food, planning my next junk food meal, actually eating that junk food.

Last night I broke down in tears.....and STILL ate the pizza. I cried while eating eating!! What? I don't know how but I've got to get my control back. I'm hoping tomorrow I'll have the strength to go to gym. That should straighten me up. I sure hope so.

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GEMINISUE 12/8/2009 7:10PM

    Gosh! Sounds like me too, I've felt sluggish, but still I had to order pizza, chose a thin crust, but still ate the whole large pizza with the works in one day. Thank you for printing your problem, made me wake up and say Me Too! Together, we, all of us will get over this stumbling block, get back on the ball and go down down down. We can do it.

Read your back on track So proud of you! emoticon

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TEACHINMOM 12/2/2009 10:42PM

    Oh WOW!! That has soooo been me for the last few weeks. I got sick AND ate more while I was, I DID slack off because of Thanksgiving and I know it (gained 7 freakin' pounds between being sick and the holiday!), and then I just feel lousy (and mad at me!)!! I can just sympathize with you and say that "WE CAN GET BACK ON TRACK AND DO THIS~WE HAVE TO!!!!!! Just know I'm there going through with you!! This is where for a permanent lifestyle change we have to accept it as what has happened and how we have handled it and go back to doing what we know we have to do to meet our goals. I believe there will always be these little "glitches" along the way and we have be ready and waiting to straighten things back out and go even further the right way!! OH YES, WE CAN DO IT!! You've proven that you can!! I've proven that I can! So let's just DO!!!!!!

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DARA52 12/2/2009 7:09PM

    Hi Denise! Exactly, what's different is that you wrote about it. Just get up tomorrow and even if you don't feel like going to the gym, take a walk. Just doing something will help you feel better. Make a plan for your meals that day and put them in the tracker. It's harder to cheat that way. :) I know because when I was sick I didn't track and I got off plan. I started tracking yesterday and started reading posts and I'm picking up speed. I'm headed out for my 2nd walk and I even felt like cleaning my laundry room. You'll be okay. I know you'll do fine!

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MILESABOVEME 12/2/2009 6:42PM

    I am the same way when I get sick, most people chill in bed with orange juice, I want a cheeseburger! I don't know why. Don't be too discourgaged-- the fact that youre opening up is a good sign. What makes the difference is the decision your make -- to get back on the wagon and stop what youre doing? or to keep making bad food decisions? you're gonna be just fine,I know it. don't be so hard on yourself, we all have these days. and you're going to have them forever. that's why sparking is more than dieting, it's the way you're living. as long as you turn everything around, no worries. and even if you find you can't, all your sparkfriends are gonna support the heck out of you anyway. ;)

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PEDIPOD 12/2/2009 5:57PM

    It sounds like you need to give yourself a little break!! It is too much to expect that you could lie there and "be good" at the same time. If you can work out a little tomorrow, you can get back on track, but consider giving yourself permission ("baby yourself") to have a different behavior when you are sick. I know it is right after the holiday, but if you limit the "baddies" to the illness or decide that by Thurs the spree is OVER, you can get back. I think the trick is not to expect permanent future perfection, but rather to limit the regression to the old ways and get back on track!!

FEEL BETTER!! Lighten up -- literally!!

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SAWYERLONDON 12/2/2009 5:16PM

  I'm sorry to hear that you were sick, that's never fun. Don't feel bad about yourself for having a small sidetrack and eating some food that was bad for you. We all have those days. What's important is that we rectify the problem and move on from it and don't dwell on it. I know you can do it. Don't give up.


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TURTLERAE55 12/2/2009 5:02PM

    Sorry to hear that you are sick. When I get sick I can't eat but when I'm feeling better that's when I want the junk food.

Don't beat yourself up too bad. We all have days like this.

Just remember that drinking water actually speeds the weight loss.

Get back on track tomorrow and do good.

You can do it.!!!!!!! Trust in yourself that you want to get the pounds off.

Let's get this weight off. emoticon emoticon

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CHICAT63 12/2/2009 4:58PM

    Denise, I read your blog you're doing exactly what I do when I get a migraine nothing can relieve (ok drugs help a wee bit) but for the real pain to diminish I need junk, fried food !!! Your system is out of whack right now with being sick, for tommorow is a new day even if you just go outside for a short walk it will be good for you. As Sierra said, believe in yourself, you can do this. Sending you positive vibes to get better !!!! emoticon

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SIERRA924 12/2/2009 4:49PM

    Stay strong and fight off the fillings of wanting to eat! You can do it, just believe in yourself! Hope you get to feeling better soon!

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I Think I'm Going To Be Sick Now

Sunday, November 22, 2009

I woke up energized and ready to roll at 7:00 am this morning so I did T-Tapp, some of The Firm's Cardio Blast, and a 2 mile walk all before church this morning. Great right? Well, that is where the good news ends.

I have proceeded to eat 2,000+ calories today. You would think after losing over 50 pounds I would know better than to do this to myself. But do I, NO! I had no intention of consuming so many calories....but........ I should know better than to eat cheesecake (not to mention the other crap like Ranch dressing). Yeah I said it, cheesecake. OMG!!!!! Do you have any idea the calories? You don't want to know either.

The worst part about it was I didn't even think about it. I just ate it, like everyone else was doing. Lesson learned today: I am really going to have to focus or the weight's going to start piling back on.

It seems like now that I have finally made it to Onederland I am try to sabatoge myself. I've stopped being precise. There's something screwy going on in my head that I've got to get a grip on. Carelessness will destroy all my hard work and I've got to get a grip.

Has this happened to anyone else after making such good progress? If so, let me know what you did to pull it back together. I cannot let myself off the hook......I don't want to start eating like this and then try to justify it. Today was not okay!

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KAY-SUPREME 11/29/2009 1:03AM

    Like the other two comments.. we all have days like this. My biggest weakness... Taco Bell. And so once a week I budget a trip to the Bell in. Sometimes I stay within a good range, other times I'm like "nothing will satisfy me but a grande meal" .. but we're HUMAN and it happens.

The fact that you RECOGNIZE what happened means that you truly are DONE. If you weren't truly DONE you'd have repeated this for the next two weeks before realizing you'd been going over your range.

Don't beat yourself up over it. Nobody's perfect, and you've made such progress that one day like this isn't going to set you back!! Stay strong!

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CHICAT63 11/22/2009 11:07PM

    Hola Chica, today for you wasn't o.k. but Sista we've all been there and done that !!! Repeat after me I am human, tomorrow is an another day. You will not go back, because you're on your way and you will stay in onderland, you're DONE !!!! Our journeys are never easy nor are they supposed to be difficult, you're determined and dedicated to yourself that's what important. Have a great week, take care Josée emoticon

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NRLB75 11/22/2009 10:32PM

    Hmmmm. I actually think days like this are okay as long as you planned them to be total blow outs. I think the issue here is that this wasn't your plan. I know everyone says it, but you MUST forgive yourself and move on. One day isn't going to undo 50 lbs or bring back bad habits. You might be scared, frustrated, or even angery, but you've got to believe that anyone who can lose 50 pounds is strong, capable and in it for the long haul.
I know you'll do better tomorrow. Keep smiling & keep going. You have already DONE it & so you already know you can!!!!!!! emoticon

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Made it to Onederland!!

Wednesday, November 11, 2009

Well, here I am exactly five months and 51 pounds later in Onederland!! This is such an amazing feeling. I can't explain it really; a combination of excitement, happiness, and elation rolled up with fear, anticipation, and trepidation.

I do know how far I've come, I do. I've lost 10 inches alone just off my hips. But at the same time I'm so afraid that I'll mess up now. I can't screw it up now! I suppose part of the fear is in the fact that I've never made it this far before. In the past I've given up long before getting to this point.

I'm going to dig in deep and focus now on my strengths and determination. I know that I can do this, I can. Alright Denise, you will not falter!

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RNDONNA46 2/14/2010 6:47PM

    You look great Denise! Congratulations! You are a big inspiration for me! Thanks! emoticon

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TEACHINMOM 11/12/2009 9:13PM

    WAY TO GO and CONGRATS!!! I have to share with you one of my favorite quotes...."To guarantee success, act as if it were impossible to fail."
You've already lost 51 pounds and proved you can do it. I told my mom one day that "I've lost 50 pounds. Since I've done it once, I can do it again and again!" You're sooooo right, you will not falter. YOU ARE DOING IT!!! Can't wait till the day I join you in onederland!!!! Have a terrific Friday!!! emoticon Cindy

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NRLB75 11/12/2009 7:48PM

    Big GIANT Woo Hoo!!!! That's so awesome. Congratulations!!! Here's looking forward to oneeightyland!!!

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DRJJ2004 11/11/2009 8:55PM

    Woooohoooo!!! Way to go!! Proud of you!!! Can't wait to see it myself!

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CTQUEEN 11/11/2009 8:47PM

    Congrats! Keep up the great work!

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GLORJUNE 11/11/2009 8:29PM

    emoticon on making it to onederland.

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MYRTLY 11/11/2009 8:26PM

    Onederland! I can't wait. Love the way you put it. You won't mess up. You've changed your lifestyle! Don't ever forget it!
Spark on!

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SHAVALLAMA 11/11/2009 8:26PM

    Congrats!! I have a looong looong way to go until I reach that point.

Keep up the good work!
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JULJOH701 11/11/2009 8:16PM

    YAAAAAHOOOOOOOOOO!!!! congrats...cant wait to see onederland myself! :)

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I guess I don't look at myself.........

Saturday, October 24, 2009

So on a whim today I decided to have my hair cut. The bangs were getting long and annoying so I popped in to the little place inside our local Wal-Mart...had to be there to pick up some necessities anyway.

So I told the hairdresser that I was sick of my hair and that I'd lost a few pounds so just give me a flattering stlyle, I didn't care what, just whatever. I LOVE this cut!!!!!!! She did an awesome job.

When I looked in the mirror it was the first time I'd seen that my face is getting smaller. I did this little comparison for myself but I'll share...I'm that excited!

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LKAKERS 10/26/2009 3:50AM

    Great cut! And YES you can totally see a difference in your face -- you are doing a great job!


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MILESABOVEME 10/24/2009 11:59PM

    It is so adorable and modern! You look radiant!!!!! Congrats!! You deserve it :)

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ANGELTIMES3 10/24/2009 10:43PM

    Fantastic! You look great!

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NOTABOUTHEFACE 10/24/2009 10:03PM

    Wow, look at you skinny minnie!! Your new cut is fabulous!!

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EBRETTRUBIN 10/24/2009 9:38PM

    love the new look :-) you looked good before, but now you look great. congrats on the weight loss!

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DJS-DEBBIE 10/24/2009 9:34PM

    Denise, you look fabulous!! You face is definitely smaller and you look younger too.

I have been thinking about cutting my hair and you may have just given me the inspiration I need to do it.

You look marvelous!


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TEACHINMOM 10/24/2009 9:27PM

    Oh my gosh, I love it too!! And yes your face is much smaller but it is hard to see looking at yourself everyday!! You look absolutely fabulous! Keep up the awesome work! emoticon

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