Tuesday, August 06, 2013
I have not been on SparkPeople in a LOOOOONNNNGG time! Seeing all of this again makes me feel pretty low ~ like it was just another failed attempt to lose weight. I KNOW that I CAN lose the weight...I did it before. I really do not want to be at this place on my big 4-0 birthday next year.
This year has brought so many wonderful things our way. We purchased a new home and we LOVE it where we are. I resigned from my teaching position which was a HUGE deal, but I want to be with out daughter while she is little. She is going to PreK five days a week for two hours and 45 minutes. She is really growing up too fast and this time is so precious. This will be the last year I am home full time.
I have the time to commit to losing the weight now. NOW is truly the time. However, it is discouraging when I read back these posts and remember that I lost the weight but it all stopped when I returned to work full time after my maternity leave the last time.
Thursday, October 21, 2010
I can't believe we are nearing the end of October! I miss SP so much, but now I am finding I barely have time to do anything. Gotto love it when people think teachers work until 3 pm and that is it. HA! If I only worked the hours that school is actually in session I would never have a lesson plan and nothing would ever get graded.
I hate saying I don't have enough time, but it is true (at least right now in my life.) Our daugher is waking up sometimes as early as 4 am! I really think she misses time with Mommy & Daddy and wakes up just for those quiet moments in the early morning cuddling. My school dismisses the students at 3:10 pm. Technically, I am supposed to stay until 3:30 pm, but there are time I leave asap to pick up Bella from my mom's house. That is 45-50 minutes in the car. Bella and I are usually home by 5 pm and then I have to feed her and start thinking of what to make for dinner for me and hubby.
So, the day wraps up at about 7 pm. There is no way I could exercise that late and go to bed...I'd be too pumped up to sleep. ANNNDDD, in all honesty I am too pooped! At that point I write lesson plans or grade papers, go through my e-mail, bills, etc... and I am off to sleepy land
The good news is that I have still managed to lose a little more weight! I honestly have no idea how and I am shocked. I was actually dreading the scale. I was pleasantly surprised when I was down another 1.5 lbs. The bad news is this is not as fast as I wanted things to move and I miss my workout routine
Seriously, we moms have sooooo much on our plates. I just have to remember that I can have it all; I just may not be able to have it all at once.
Saturday, September 11, 2010
Well, this was an almost full week back to work (we were off yesterday for the Jewish holiday.) The most difficult part is feeling like a barely have any time with our daughter. My husband brings her to my mom in the morning and I pick her up after work. I get there about 4:15 pm. By the time we get home, eat dinner, and wash up it is time for her to go to bed!
I am so thankful that she is with my mom though ~ Joe and I both have peace of mind all day rather than being worried and questioning if she is okay all day.
I miss working with middle school students, but I really like the new school I am at and the teachers there are great to work with
I have not lost anymore weight, but I haven't gained back either ~ AMEN! I have not been able to exercise and that is driving me crazy. I keep setting my alarm clock earlier and our daughter keeps waking up earlier! I am not sure if I can wake up any earlier than 5 am. I am already barely able to stay awake past 9 pm! What a geek
The evenings are hard for me for a few reasons. First, I have no motivation after work and it is easy for me to tell myself I am too tired. Second, I truly am too tired. Third, I'll have trouble falling asleep if I workout that late. Soooo, I have yet to find a way to get my exercise into my day I did start the Kettlebell class on Wednesday and I really liked it! That is only one night a week though. My goal right now is to figure out a way to exercise on a regular basis.
Saturday, August 28, 2010
My husband and I are having some marital troubles right now. Our marriage is strong and we love each other very much, but unfortunately we are revisiting an issue that was thought to be resolved. It amazes me sometimes how quickly we forget the pain and anguish our actions hurt others and how easily we succumb to doing the WRONG thing time and time again. I can’t help but think of the Israelites being led through to the promise land by Moses. Whenever I am facing a challenge in my life, God places certain topics and scriptures in my path over and over. Some would just shrug it off and think it coincidence, but I know better ~ He is speaking to me through The Word.
Over and over again, the people of Israel disobeyed God and lost Faith the minute things went wrong (wrong in their minds that is.) While Moses spent 40 days and nights on the mountain receiving instruction from the Lord, the people lost hope and carved an idol! The Lord was so weary of them! Oh, and the complaining and moaning! Just reading their complaints makes me tired. Each and every time they were confronted with an obstacle they wanted to run back to Egypt! Egypt!?! Where they were slaves! Egypt, where they were mistreated and considered less-than! But are we not just like them?
When I discovered this problem in our marriage reared its ugly head again I instinctively wanted to run back to Egypt! “Oh, Lord, why do I bother? I should just stay as I am ~ fat and tired. All my efforts to bring about positive change in my life and the life of my family are in vain. Here we go again! I didn’t ask for this, Lord. Why are you letting this happen?”
And then the physical instincts/habits began: I just wanted to hide under the covers and sleep. Grab some rich, creamy ice cream and numb these awful feelings of despair. I simply wanted to head back to Egypt!
But God reminded me of how far I have come…what I have overcome before and how He has used it ALL FOR GOOD in my life. He will use this hardship for good as well if I give it to Him and Faithfully do all that He asks. I do not have to “go it alone” and pitifully drag myself through this problem with my head hung low. I don’t have to crawl into bed and pull the covers over my head and hide. I don’t have to eat a gallon of Haagen Daz ice cream.
So, this morning I DECIDED to get up, put on my workout clothes, lace up my walking shoes and WALK. This problem will be there whether I walk toward Him or I head back for Egypt. I am choosing to walk out of the wilderness and continue heading in a better direction toward freedom DESPITE the problems and DESPITE the fact that I don’t feel like it. “I press on toward the goal to win the prize for which God has called me heavenward in Christ Jesus.”
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