Wednesday, August 13, 2014
I spent an hour in silence today to get recharged , to move on! I miss the joy i usually have and what ever happened to My cat it,s over and it,s hard but i still am getting the the joy back now!
I put the little favorite toys away All his dishes and things as i think GOD is telling me it,s time to let go!
I will have to admit i was mad as hell at God cause ive lost too much for one person even my cats! i lost 5 family members in 5 yrs some from old age some not so old and i got thru that then my 20 yr. old cat passed and he was with me thru it all now the last of what i have left is missing... But GOD knows i will get thru this he,s always been a little tough on me but it is for a reason and it has made me beyond strong! he has guided me to what i love to do, He has put Awesome people in my life so i can know longer be upset with him! I will get over this as i did with the other loss,s this just seemed to be the last straw..... but it isn,t i can mope around as i have this week or i can break out of this and get the old me back so-o later Garden here i come and i will be in gratitude for the Garden people who,s love and compassion have got me thru and i will work like i always do and pick food for the pantry people then i will deliver on Friday morning and help while i,m there for 6 hrs cooking and making them happy and listening to their stories and i understand their grief cause i have been there! They appreciate some one who will listen and give them a Hug even if they are drunks or lost soals It doesn,t matter They need me and yes i need them And the love and things that goes on there is a Blessings to see and feel! They always feel better when they leave than when they came in! This job was dumped on me and didn,t know til this year that GOD put me there to do this work and That,s what keeps me together and Them also... This is what God wants me to do and now know this Job wasn,t dumped on me but was a gift from the creator! Today after this meditating Morning i feel better and know what i need to do and i will do it in Gratitude and am always open to what GOD next gives me to do and he didn,t cause this loss , it just happens but he gives me comfort to move on! I appreciate the Love and help i get from my Spark friends also You are all a beacon of light , Love and joy and do know you are all a piece of my crazy quilt of life and its Beautiful All designs and colors wild and free! I Love it! Thank you for this ... HUGS,BONNIE
Saturday, July 12, 2014
I,m done with Diets cause in the long run unless you stay on that plan for ever you will Gain it all back !
This is my new back to basics Idea for me! There is no sense in depriving your self of any thing or you will end up gorging on it so... Savor a small morsel!
Im first making God, my first spark friend cause with out his help i might just as well for get it, cant do it..
So-o i make sure to be with him every day whether its out by the woods on the fallen log, one of my first meeting spots when i was down and didn,t think i could go on and i asked him for help and when i got up off the ground i just felt i can make it and could do any thing as long as i keep the connection and ya don,t have to pray constantly doing something for someone is Prayer, giving out hugs and gratitude and being with the destitute and for gotten is where i have found my self with the down and out and god has lifted me up from my down times! I have none now! i havent had a down day since that day on my knees out by the woods... Thanks To GOD for lifting me up and giving me a whole new outlook and path.
I am more aware now of things and i need to watch what i put in my mouth as we are the temple of God and only good things should go in our selves since we were all meant to be Holy! Holy is Healthy so-o im moving a long and i think Better every month i see better things in my life!
I continue my Yoga practice if only for 3-4 times a week it keeps me in-focus of what i need to do-o!
I take my healthy Ideas to others such as the pantry, I make sure i have a healthy dish like a salad and now in stead of walking by they say What kind of Salad did ya make today ! They love them ! I have to use what the food rescue Truck brings so its never the same sometimes great sometimes plainer but then i pick up things too when i can afford it! Im sure GOD S planned this for me and others! The spark people in my life you Beautiful ones are like sunshine many days and start me out right! Thank you all for that!
So i have been given this thing called Arthritis to deal with and its hard some times i have to sit on and off in the Garden and pantry but they know i have bad times but i have good days and use them to the fullest and get my excerise in! The Yoga has helped with Flexability issues so much! I love it!
So my plan is Being with the Creator in nature if i can or else where , eating right, loving all of mankind, excercise any way i can and watching what i put in my mouth my hardest time is @ night so im working on the munchie time and eating just 100-150 calories .. Thats about it dont lose as much as id like but i think eventually i will start losing again! Thats it ! i hope it works.. Love you all, BONZ P.S It seems like years but i used to weigh304 in my down times now im 249 so just chugging along and being happy and eating whole good things is my path! Blessings Sparkling stars you all shine like the brightest star in the sky.
Sunday, August 18, 2013
It was the most most Beautiful weather for the Pow-wow and i headed out so i could get there early! Its good to do so to get a chance to look at the Venders selling Hand made things supplies to make things and of course any one that goes has to have the fry Bread and i didnt just have one ,i had two! I tryed two different places and the local one was the best but i never had a bad one in all my years of going.. The winner tho was a little thicker and had crunchy edges of goodness! I got a place in the shade in the second row! Ive been there for yrs in the same spot.You get to see the dancers in every stage from getting ready to all the different types of regalia for the different dances! There are Grass dancers , Jingle dress dancers fancy shawl dancers and Traditional Mens and Women dancers for the not so limber and fast and fancy dances for the younger group! When they come in to the arena they honor the veterans and all Carry the staffs and flags! There is only one lady i know of who has ever had the Honor of carrying a staff with a eagle head on it ! ( How they received the head was from a eagle who perished in a Winter storm and was frozen in Lake Michigan and they went and cut the block of ice out and decided that it should be for the first womens staff, a big honor and they picked a well known women who was in the Air force yrs a go to carry and keep this staff !She is a woman of respect and well loved by her tribe members in the Grand Traverse tribe of Indians! There was the smell of camp fires from campers fires and also the smell of sage in the air always. It started at 1200 ended at 400 for dinner and resumed At 700 - 900 and the next day it went on until 400 that day! I left at 400 and headed home feeling blessed and Happy i got to see the same dancers and the natives are so welcoming and helpful! I admire how good they are to the elders they have a special area to sit and are always honored and treated in a loving way! I love how they do that for them! Theres some very old or disabled who go in once atleast and some with crutches and wheel chairs make it around !They must all be tired at the end of the week end and some traveled from far off places and other tribes come from other states and canada! its all about honoring those who have gone , those who have fought for us and Healing to all who come,! Last year an Eagle flew around the pow-wow arena when it was going on and it happened this year again, I never seen any thing more Beautiful, two years in a row is amazing! Im thinking the Creator was watching for sure! For those who never had the chance to go , go it is Great and i have kept the memories of the natives in my mind year after year watching them as they age and change from one dance to another as they are able and watching the families get bigger and what great dancers they have become! I went around once with a friend i know when they had the inter tribal dance and it feels healing and wonderful! Just thought id share! I have a few pictures in my Gallery if you wanna see. Blessings and Luv, Bonnie
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