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My Love Affair (with food)

Monday, November 16, 2009

I'm having a love affair (with food)! I make plans to meet it in my car, in restaurants, on my lunch hour, and in the dark of night.

I long to be faithful to the good guy (veggies, fruits, lean protein), but I crave the leather jacket, motorcycle riding, fun, James Dean type (pizza, garlic bread, cheeseburgers, chocolate).

I swear this will be the last time. I feel guilty afterwards. It's hurting other aspects of my life (energy, moodiness, self-esteem, wasted money, health).

Sounds like an affair -- doesn't it?

"Ah-a" moment. Look how I glorify the wrong foods. I discriminate against whole food groups. I can have pizza and still make it a healthy food choice. Portion control is more important than eliminating the fun foods entirely. I can change my recipes to make them healthier.

A big part of the allure of eating for me is peace & quiet, relaxation, me time. When I'm at work, I'll go out for fast food just to avoid the noisy breakroom. It doesn't feel like a break if I'm still with my co-workers and people are talking to me. I go to restaurants alone and bring a magazine. I love to treat myself to this escape. I could take a walk to be alone or go to the library or a park to read. I could take a bubble bath in the evening to relax and be alone.

I need to put these thoughts into action.

Thank you friends for supporting me and not being enablers! You see me doing wrong and call me on it. When I need a kick in the rear or a V8 slap to the forehead, I can always count on my SP buddies to give it to me! I love ya for it.

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POSITIVELY_EB 11/18/2009 9:40AM

    That is an excellent way to put it! I'm there with you except I've been "celebate" for the last 3 months! LOL! I find it easier not to deal with the "bad" foods at all! Keep working on what works for you, my friend! You can do this! I love you!

Hugs! Beverly

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I'm Too Much!!

Tuesday, November 10, 2009

"I'm Up Today!"

I'm too much!! When one is good, I go for two. I sleep in too often. I watch too much TV. I snack too. My scale shows too many pounds!

See a pattern?

I talk the talk -- now it's time to walk the walk.
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I'm going for a physical this afternoon. Maybe my doctor will have some "miracle advice" for me. I don't think so though. I have to do the hard work myself. There are no "miracle pills" or easy answers. Ahh, but if there were.....

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KO1215 11/16/2009 12:48AM

    I would be in line with you!!!! I love that picture of the dogs! Here's to being good!



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NEEDSHELP4EVER 11/11/2009 3:55AM

    You can do it Dee. I have been okay with eating but having real trouble getting back to exercising. Doesn't help htat one shoulder is so painful, but I should be walking more. How about we meet up and walk each day? Weather pretty miserable over here just now so how about a walk along a nice beach over there? Where shall I meet you?


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    TURKEY TWINS - TOUCAN DO IT! Let's do the "turkey walk" and get moving! I'm with you all the way! Hugs, Brenda
PS - So is my kitty "Patches" - she's sitting here helping me type! :)
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-WRKNG2ABTTRME- 11/10/2009 4:07PM

    When you find that miracle pill or shot.......send it my way! lol

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POSITIVELY_EB 11/10/2009 2:09PM

    Good luck with your MD appointment, Dee! As for the rest, well, you know there aren't any miracle fixes!!! If there were, there would be no need for SparkPeople!!! BUT, we're here for you. Start small and work your way back into it! If you need a good emoticon let me know!!!

Hugs! Beverly

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Plus One, But Not Discouraged

Friday, November 06, 2009

I gained one pound, but I'm not discouraged. This is only day 5 of trying again. I'm just coming off of an "eat everything you can now before you start to diet" week!! I know... bad idea and old thinking. I'm back now and that's what matters!

I did a 30 minute sculpting with hand weights DVD, a hip hop abs DVD, and used my hula hoop this morning. I've planned and tracked my meals for today. Now, I'm going to make myself a healthy breakfast.

The weekend is here -- emoticon. I've got a plan though. I'm going to allow myself to splurge (a little) at one meal each day on the weekends. I will keep my daily total at 2,000 calories or less. I will continue to exercise even on the weekend. We'll see how this works!!

I've got my emoticon back!!
I credit the November Buddy Challenge with igniting my emoticon!!
Thank you friends for challenging me to do better!!
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DEEGIRL50 11/10/2009 10:43PM

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Toucan Do It!!
I'm with you.

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    NOVEMBER BUDDIES....TURKEY TWIN TO THE RESCUE! I'm always here for you - not just for November! We can make it through the holidays....and with a loss! Are you with me??
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KO1215 11/6/2009 12:04PM

    Hula hoop huh! How do you like that? I never thought of it!

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CONNIE1-11 11/6/2009 8:00AM

  you are doing great ! all of us gain a pound now and then..keep focus on your target and those pounds will vanish !

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BREN4376 11/6/2009 7:57AM

    You can do it! Keep up the hard work and stay focused on your goals. You already have an amazing start! Best of luck to you!

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Choices - Day 4

Thursday, November 05, 2009

I had my meals all planned yesterday. Then I received a last minute invitation from my girlfriend to go out to dinner (after our water aerobic class).

What do do?

I want to lose weight. I want to be healthy. I also want to live my life!

I turned down the invitation. I need time to strengthen my resistance muscle. I could have gone with her and hopefully, made a healthy choice at the restaurant. I wasn't sure what the calorie counts were and I didn't trust myself to make a good choice. SO, just for this week, I did not put myself in a place of temptation.

We went to class together. We laughed and chatted with each other. Then we parted. I had a good time without eating.

Next week, maybe I'll go to dinner. I won't have the margaritas though! emoticon

Some times things have to be spontaneous. I will have to trust myself to live healthy even in those moments or make up for it later. This week, I wasn't ready to do that. It was a tug of war, but I think I made the right choice for me.

Now, this morning I wanted to go to McDonald's for breakfast. Instead, I made scrambled eggs (one whole egg and one egg white) in a pan sprayed with PAM. I had an english muffin with peanut butter on it and a cup of green tea. Delicious!

As long as I make more good choices than bad ones, I should be able to lick this weight problem!! My snack last night was 100 calorie popcorn and a tootsie pop. No candy bar this time! emoticon

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    You're doing great, Turkey Twin!! Maybe you can go out next week with your friend and have a place picked out that YOU suggest - with a food plan in place!! I'm so proud of're back on track!! I'm doing my best too - instead of candy, I had cocoa powder covered almonds (just a few). Satisfied my "chocolate" craving and was a great source of protein & fiber!

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KO1215 11/5/2009 12:41PM

    I admire your strength. My resistance is really low right now! DARN HOLIDAYS! I'm proud of you!!!

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POSITIVELY_EB 11/5/2009 9:30AM

    Good for you, Dee! That is awesome!

Hugs! Beverly

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MAXBALLARD 11/5/2009 8:10AM

Sounds like you made some great choices AND got to spend time with your friend in a way that didn't involve food. You have inspired me today!

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Day 3 Re-Birth

Wednesday, November 04, 2009

My head is a very funny place to live! I had 2 good days in a row (Yeah)!! Yesterday afternoon (the day wasn't even over), I found myself checking to see if my pants felt any looser. Good grief, talk about wanting instant results!!

I have my meals and snacks planned for today! I used the nutrition tracker. I put it in writing so that's what I need to eat today. Stick with the plan.

Last night, we made grilled steak fajitas. Mine were made with 3 oz. of steak and 1/4 cup cheddar cheese, and loads of onions, green peppers, and tomatoes. Fat-free sour cream. I went heavy on the veggies. It was delicious!!

I limited myself to one diet soda. I had a 100 calorie pack of popcorn, a mini Baby Ruth candy bar, and a tootsie pop for snack. Compared to what I normally snack on -- this is good. I was still within my calorie range.

I didn't want to exercise, but I put in a 4 mile WATP DVD. I quit after 2 miles, but considering I didn't want to exercise -- 30 minutes was better than none.

This is a long blog (therapeutic). If you quit reading after the first paragraph, you read my main message. The rest was just for my own record. Laura was right "it does feel good to have a fresh start."
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NINA2834 11/4/2009 6:34AM

    It sounds like you did really well today. Great work!

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