Thursday, June 20, 2013
On May 16th at around 2am or so, I had a heart attack. On the wild ride to the hospital in the squad, all I could think was that I hoped I would make it. I still had so many things I wanted to do.
In the days afterward, I have needed to take a serious look at myself and my efforts to become healthier. Those efforts that never quite "took" permanently. I knew that I had arthritic changes in my knees, COPD, and that I had high blood pressure and cholesterol and a big family history of heart disease. I would do REALLY well for limited periods of time, and then always went back to the same old bad habits. I still smoked. I was still an emotional eater, and always eventually went back to eating too much plain old junk. I still drank tones of diet Dr. Pepper. I have the knowledge, as most of us do these days,to understand what a Russian roulette I was playing with my life.
But I think, that with many of us, we see it and know it, but don't fully see that danger as REAL. Sure I'm making it likely I will have a heart attack or stroke, but there's PLENTY of time! I'm only 38...48...58. What? I had a heart attack at 58?
Yes I did, and I was just lucky to have great people in the EMS and the cardiac cath team to get me through it.
Now I am 58 with 3 stents in the arteries leading into my heart. The cardiologist and his team have done their wonders to keep me here. Now it's my turn; and this time I need to keep my eye on the results of my actions.
I don't have insurance, as my employers did not hold my position for me after the heart attack. And cardiac rehab is very expensive for someone who isn't working and has no insurance. But I still need to recondition my heart and my body. I'm still 100 lb overweight. I need to get my body and my heart back into strong enough condition to prevent a second heart attack.
So I'm trying to eat healthy every day. I haven't smoked a cigarette since May 15; am puffing on the electronic cigarette with zero nicotine since then when I feel I MUST puff. The healthy eating is still a struggle. Avoiding drinking diet Dr. Pepper is still a struggle but I try to do it rarely and not a carton a day like before. And My soda, like my tea and coffee, are now decaf.
I'm weaker than I thought I would be since the heart attack, and I get out of breath SO easily. But I'm going to stay with my daughter in Georgia in a couple of weeks. I will be there for a month and she wants to help me do our own version of cardiac rehab, complete with healthy food and building up my strength with easing into the cardio and some strength training, at first without weights, and then gradually adding some weight.
I'm so lucky to have her, and I'm lucky to belong to SP, because I know that all my friends here will also help keep me motivated in getting back into a healthier shape. Heck, I'm just lucky, period, and thankful to still be here.
Friday, March 08, 2013
Not feeling too well today; I was unable to eat much...some oatmeal this morning and a little soup this afternoon. Not up to much exercise so I got in about a half hour walk. I work 12-hour shifts this weekend, hopefully my eating will be a little better tomorrow
Thursday, March 07, 2013
I did well yesterday with my eating, got in my exercise, all good.
Today I woke up with the alarm going off....which had been going off for quite some time. I rush through getting ready for work, and took off without packing my lunch. So although I ate a healthy but quick breakfast, I totally missed lunch and any snacks through the work day. This is something I've struggled with in the past.
I just need to PLAN to avoid the issue. Tonight I packed a lunch and a healthy snack, and both are in the frig to take with me in the morning. So as long as I don't forget to grab them when I leave the house, that particular problem will be averted.
I've been thinking what other planning I can do. I work three 12 1/2 hour shifts and one 4-hr shift during the week, so I'm thinking I will cook on one of my days off and freeze single servings of a few foods to make meal planning easier. Now's the perfect time to try some of those spark recipes! I've also found a lot of recipes that look both tasty and healthy in various places, I plan to try at least one new recipe each week. Also to get a nice BIG water bottle to take with me to work. So after a long shift, all I'll need to worry about is getting in my exercise and making sure my food for the next day is ready to pop into the cooler.
Wednesday, March 06, 2013
I have a new beginning today. My background check FINALLY came in, and I go in for orientation for my new job this morning.
New beginnings and fresh starts are always exciting things. With each new beginning, a new horizon of possibilities opens up.
I think it is a great idea to look at each morning as a fresh start. We have the whole day ahead of us, full of possibilities and choices. Each new day, we make our choice as to how we are going to live our life in THIS day. If we look at each new day in this way, and we make the choices that reflect what we want in our future, those possibilities are so exciting.
Each day that we choose to be good to our bodies moves us one day closer to health. Each choice impacts both our present and our future.
In this new day, I plan to start my new job. I plan to eat tasty, nutritious foods and to get in some movement. And I plan to spend some time this evening with people that I love.
That sounds to me like a good day. I wish all my spark friends a good day as well!
Tuesday, March 05, 2013
Strive for progress, not perfection. -Unknown
For so much of my life, I felt that everything I did had to be as close to perfect as I could make it.
I naturally want to be a perfectionist at work and in my goals. There's kinda a problem with that, though.
There's no such THING as perfection. So you never fully reach it.
So now, I'm accepting that doing my best is enough.
That I don't HAVE to see tons of weight loss in order to believe that my changes in diet and exercise are making me healthier.
That it doesn't always have to happen today, or next week.
That I can lose one pound this week, and maybe none next week, but I can still believe that continuing to eat healthy and exercise and deal with my stress will lead to better health.
That I am being successful just by continuing to reach for my goals, and not giving up.
That not seeing immediate success does NOT mean that I have failed and should quickly drop all my efforts.
I'm striving for progress here. And perfection, I'm not reaching. But progress, THAT I am managing.
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