Wednesday, October 04, 2006
October has arrived and I feel alive! A beautiful month for sure....however, in the past, October has been a month that I dread, due to major events, which happened in the past, causing sadness and stress and uncertainty. I used to get depressed when October rolled in, due to anxiety of what might happen, just because it was October! Years ago, my father had heart failure in October, 1986... I ended up with intermittant heart block and had to have a pacemaker implant 15 years ago, October 9th 1991. That same month, my mother ended up in a nursing home due to her rapid deterioration from Parkinson's Disease.
Looking back, I now see that those events were just life...those things of which we have no control. I am a much happier woman this October than in the past, more grounded, more relaxed...I do suffer from depression, however I will say that at this time it is manageable...and I believe that it is for this reason...
Since joining Spark People, I have not only managed to drop some weight, but I have been given the tools to better myself inside and out! Using these tools has genuinely helped me to improve my daily life...I feel refreshed and energized...more so than I have in YEARS. These tools help me to remain focused....helping me to understand myself,as well as the triggers that have set me off in the past. I know that the nutritional balance I am achieving is helping me restore energy and vitality!
So, this October, I shall embrace every day that I have been given, I shall hopefully continue on with my journey with excitement and determination...I shall celebrate having completed one more year of living, and if given the chance, approach this next year of life in harmony with myself and my God, treasuring my health, my family and my fellow man...life is a gift!