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after the loss .........

Friday, August 15, 2014

I had no idea what to really expect when my Mom passed away and then on Wed Aug 13th at 5:53pm she did. It's so very sad and the thought of those last hours are overwhelming my mind. She had not been a healthy woman for many years suffering with numerous medical issues and in the last year we all watched as she went downhill rapidly. We knew it wouldn't be long before she left us. But it is so true that no matter how much you expect it and know that it could happen anytime, you just are not prepared and then it hits you like a sledge hammer.

I can not go into details of her illnesses or last hours anymore, either in words or writing but I can with peace in my heart, say that she and our family is so grateful that God blessed her that day and took her home as her future here would have only been too difficult for her. She is at peace and pain free now and we are left with broken hearts that will heal in time. We will stay close to each other in the grieving time and share our love and comfort as the time passes to accept that she is no longer here with us but watching us from above with a smile on her face.

I love you Mom and I'll see you later.

I've heard from others that their lives have changed in such different ways since the loss of their parent(s) ...... I wonder what mine will be ?????

I felt the need to change the title of this blog from "it's over" to what it is now.

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KATELJM 8/25/2014 11:22AM

    My thoughts and prayers are with you. Cherish the best of her that lives on in you.

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MAGGIEBONGO 8/18/2014 6:38PM

    Very hard to lose your mom. Your spirit shines through this blog and I imagine you're a wonderful presence for your grieving family. Bless you all.

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APPEALSTOME 8/18/2014 6:12AM

    I understand and sympathize. {{{{{hugs}}}}}

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FORMYDARLINGS 8/16/2014 2:48PM

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CIERAPOET 8/16/2014 11:16AM

    One moment at a time! Cherish those memories of the BEST times. It Helps! emoticon

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ARCHIEMITCHELL 8/15/2014 10:12PM

    My deepest sympathy to you and your family. My prayers are with you and your. Thank th e Lord her pain is over.

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SPACEYKP 8/15/2014 8:58PM

    I am so sorry for your loss. Whether or not it's unexpected it's never easy to lose someone we love so much. My condolences to you and your family.

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TERRI289 8/15/2014 6:15PM

    I am so very sorry for your loss..... emoticon

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MERILYNN1 8/15/2014 11:57AM

    I'm so sorry for your loss. My mom has been gone for almost 20 years but she is still with me. I lived with her and was caring for her more and more during the last 10 years of her life and it is not unusual now for me to have a feeling of her presence in the other room. I moved from the family home and in that sense she came too. I find it a comfort - if we have loved each other there is no loss, only a change. Allow yourself to feel the grief and the pain of this change in your relationship and then the realization of the joy, the knowing that you haven't really "lost" her. Prayers for you and your family. Meri

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SUNSET09 8/15/2014 11:39AM

  I understand your pain as we can never be prepared what is to come. My condolences are with you and your family and know, you will see her again as she is in the Hands of the Most High God, no more suffering nor pain! rejoicing! emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon

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when God closes one door, He opens another ........

Monday, June 30, 2014

Well June is ending without the financial assistance to continue at the Y. But I will not let that deter me. I will continue working out at the Y until July 15th since that is paid for and will look for other options to continue participating with others in an affordable way. I need the support and motivation of others doing the same thing in order for me to maintain this momentum. Someone mentioned to me that Planet Fitness offers a monthly rate of $10 which is all I can afford, so I will look into that this week.

I want to have a plan for July that keeps me wanting to exercise and as surprised as I am about it, I think the gym atmosphere is what will do it for me.

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APPEALSTOME 7/17/2014 7:46AM

    I was sorry to read you only received a ten dollar discount on Y membership. Have you tried Planet Fitness? My friends gave up their private gym memberships for PF and like it. Have you looked into Spark teams in your area? My area has a exercise group that meets twice a week. We walk and exercise in mall in winter and beaches or park in summer. Trainers in my area use parks, etc for group work outs and agree belonging to gym is not necessary to exercise and stay fit. emoticon

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    I know you will make it work for you as did the Y. I wish you the very best and keep blogging.

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ROBEC4175 7/4/2014 11:06AM

    Debigene, I hope you find a good fit for your exercise routine. Being off mine this past week feels weird and I look forward to getting back to it next week.

You're doing an awesome job! Keep it up.

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IAM_HIS 7/2/2014 8:59AM

    Deb, you are a wonderful inspiration and motivator for me. I so enjoy you "Living a Simple Life" spirit and attitude. Thank you for this blog. Can't wait to hear about what door opens for you.

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8BALANCE8 7/1/2014 3:34PM

    I can totally relate to having an atmosphere where there are others working on their fitness. It's so much more motivating that doing it at home. Fingers, toes, eyes crossed that you find another gym that fits your pocketbook. Hugs, Cat

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Who'd a thunk it .......... def not me !!!!!!

Friday, June 27, 2014

WOW, I finally made a move !!! I can hardly believe that I am working out in a gym at the Y .... and I'm liking it !!!! I mean it I'm shocked !!! I even worked up a sweat for the first time tonight and enjoyed the excitement of watching it happen on the chart as I was cycling. I just want to keep this motivation going and the only way I can do that is if I get the financial assistance the Y has available for those that qualify. Otherwise I can not continue and I know that I will lose my motivation to exercise. I am enjoying it at the Y because there are other people around that are there for the same reasons as I am (like SP) and I do not have anyone to workout with at home. The videos do not do anything for me, I find it boring, and I do not like walking alone. I just want to have fun with others and the Y is doing that for me. So I am praying that the FA will be approved. I need to get this weight loss moving again and this is motivating me to stay more focused on my problem with portion control.

I will stay positive that things will work out. In the mean time I am getting my money's worth while I can. I only have until July 15th when my membership will have to end if I don't get approved so I have to make the best of it till then.

I just can't believe how much I am enjoying this when I thought I never would !!! I just don't want it to end.

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ROBEC4175 6/28/2014 10:52AM

    I hope you get good news on the FA. It's wonderful to hear the excitement in your posts when you're off to the Y or back from the Y. You're doing a great job and you should be very proud of all your efforts.

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8BALANCE8 6/27/2014 11:17PM

    Praying you get that special rate Debigene. So proud and happy you are so motivated and enjoying it so much. Keep on keeping on!!

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What the HEdoublehockeysticks went wrong ??????????

Saturday, June 14, 2014

WOW ..... can't believe May slipped away and now 1/2 of June is just about gone !!!

What's even more disturbing is that I haven't lost any weight that has made a difference. yeah I am still juggling that same 6 pounds that I just can't get rid of in order to inspire me to lose more. Worst of all I just don't know why? Well I mean I know why; it's because I am not in control of my portions mainly, but also because of too many occasional treats. What I mean by why is - why am I not in control of these things??? I used to be when I was losing weight regularly. I was so determined that nothing would get in my way of learning how to get healthy and it started with losing weight. As I did I became more confident and wanted to participate in having a social life ... in other words having fun again. Maybe I became to complacent?

I haven't been able to pin point where I strayed and why?

Is it because I got very comfortable with the weight i had loss since it made such a drastic difference, or was it all the compliments I was getting making me feel too confident, or is it because work has been going through a lot of turmoil that has effected everyone, could it be the price of everything has gone up and my pay check has not seen a raise in 4 years. I dare say that all of these have had some influence and probably others that I haven't even thought of yet !!!

Here I thought a plateau was something that only lasted a few weeks or months, not for me it's been 2 years that I've been juggling this 6 pounds !!! I will say that on the positive side at least I have been able to juggle it, I think that says something. I have learned to eat healthy and I recognize when I am not, I know I need to choose healthy eating AND exercise not one or the other and in this last 2 years I have added 15 minutes each day of walking and stair climbing as a regular part of my day. So knowing what I know tells me that 15 minutes each day has warded off those 6 pounds from becoming 12, and let me at least juggle them.

But that's not what I want to be doing !!!

Now that I have had this talk with myself and can see the words in front of me, I think I can put things into prospective now and move forward with a clearer vision of where I am going and how to get there.

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ROBEC4175 6/16/2014 12:26PM

    DG, I struggle with a lot of the same quandaries you are struggling with right now. I lose a few pounds and start to feel good and the next thing you know, I've gained a few back.

Over the weekend I was reading blogs and one woman wrote something that went something about pick your hard. It's hard to be fat, it's hard to be skinny, it's hard to be ... Anyway, you see the general idea; pick your hard and I just thought how right she was.

You've been doing really good with a weight loss two weeks in a row! Come on, push hard, YOU CAN DO IT!!!

I hope your app for the Y gets approved. You deserve it!

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    Yes, you can do it. Just sometimes it takes longer than we want. Keep emoticon

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MERRYMARY42 6/14/2014 9:38PM

    me too, but I too know that it is portion control and those sweets that I think are harmless. I have to shape up soon, or I will be back where I started

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April ..........

Sunday, April 27, 2014

My 60th birthday was terrific and full of good times spent with friends and family. After a long 5 years with the same old fat pic on my driver's license I finally got a new one and if I must say so myself it's a pretty good one.

Work has been busy and we received news that a raise is on the horizon for the fall .... FINALLY !!! That will def be a blessing long awaited. Depends on what it will be but I'd like to increase my retirement savings even if it's just 1%, just something !!!

I've managed to lose 3 pounds , then gain it back and then lose 2 again, so I am still a little behind in my 1 pound a month goal but I will work harder to make it happen in May, now that birthday celebrations are behind me it should be a bit easier.

Spring has finally sprung although we did have some unexpected snow mid month, but the days are getting longer and that will make being out doors in the evening after work more doable and enjoyable for a bike ride.

I'm making it a point to reach out to my friends in a personal way to let them know how much they mean to me. I don't want to go thru' the rest of my years not letting people know I love them and they are important to me, So I will be finding different ways to do this. It's important to me because they have all played an important pert in my life in one way or another. When my time comes to leave this earth I don't have anything to leave but my love so I want it known.

WOW turning 60 does have some effect huh? LOL !!!

Well I guess that's all till ......... May !!!!

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KASEYCOFF 5/23/2014 10:31AM

    I missed your birthday too, but hope it was not only a wonderful day - hope you have a real milestone of a year. Sixty's a Big Deal, thinks me.

As for people in your life, friends and family - sometimes you don't even need to have met someone face-to-face to know they are a good friend. emoticon

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MNDEBBIE1 4/28/2014 1:40PM

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MERILYNN1 4/27/2014 11:17PM

    I missed your birthday but my good wishes and prayers were there. I was 79 this month and can't imagine how or when this happened! I've been told that " accepting what is" is a progress - when I am proceeding but slowly! Best wishes to you!

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