Sunday, May 08, 2011
And here we go again......
I finally left my lying, cheating, pretending, manipulative, whining, professional victim of a husband in May of 2010!
He was cheating on me with a woman who professed to be a lesbian...she gave lesbians a bad name!
I left and went running home to Mama who had just moved to Nebraska. My weight had reached 260. Over the next year I proceeded to lose 50 (YES 50) lbs just by getting a divorce....who knew what would happen when I cut the dead weight!
Now I am back (again) on sparkspeople. I am tracking my diet, re-learning portion control, and I met a great guy who thinks I am beautiful just the way I am.
Do I still want to lose weight? Yes, but not to fit into the latest fashion, but for my health and longevity.
One of my biggest changes is giving up ALL junk food.....and I am here to tell you that giving up junk is MUCH HARDER than quitting smoking! I have yet to make it all the way through a day without having some form of crap.
Another big change I have made.....and am still working on....is that I have this cooler that I pack my food for the day in. As long as I eat out of that cooler, everything is accounted for and that takes A LOT of the guess work out of my day.
I am brutally honest about what I put into my body and I am getting better at recognizing when I am justifying bad food choices. I still make mistakes. I still have bad days. I just don't beat myself up over it so much any more.
Also, having a boyfriend who keeps me accountable does make all the difference in the world. He doesn't care how much I weigh, he cares about the type of food I eat.