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Alive ---> THRIVE!

Sunday, January 03, 2010

Rivulets running down the windows as I steam up my 50 degree workout room during my hour on the 'mill and a half hour with my dumb bells and resistance bands today. Been percolating thoughts for a New Year's blog for some time now...but somehow during my workout today everything seemed to come together. Seems to be ripe conditions for blog incubation!

2009 was one mighty fine year for me. It didn't really dawn on me until I finally paused to take stock while on my treadmill today, what a laundry list of accomplishments I made this year:

---Cross Country Skiing: No, I can't say I know what I'm doing, but for the first time in my LIFE this past winter I got out and TRIED! And am heading back out again THIS winter to try again and see if this is something I can get the hang of and enjoy.

---Kayaking: Another first! Had NEVER done this before jumping in with fellow members of SparkPeople and especially credit yakking enthusiast 4A-HEALTHY-BMI (her pics from our events shared below) for organizing my first kayaking outing with the Ithaca & Finger Lakes SparkTeam! I've since gotten out other times and thoroughly enjoyed myself and expect in time I'll probably buy one of my own to enjoy more regularly.



---Biking the Kal-Haven Trail: Did it! Biked 40+ miles from my son's apartment down the Kal-Haven Trail through the beautiful rural countryside of Michigan to the shore of Lake Michigan at South Haven.

---Maxed out the INCLINE on my treadmill! Using 10 or 12 (which is the highest) all the time on my 'mill...woo hoo!

---Traveling to San Diego to attend the very first SparkConvention

and for the first time in the 20+ years my sister has lived in San Diego to be able to visit and stay with she and her family and soak up all the wonderful things the San Diego area has to offer! Here's one of my favorite pics of my sister and I:

---SparkRally: American Cancer Society's Relay for Life! What a wonderful time our local Binghamton Area Losers had keeping someone on the tracks walking for 24 hours to raise money for such a great cause! Here's a pic of us in action:

---While in San Diego I had been interviewed for "possible" inclusion in Chris Downie's upcoming book "The SPARK"...and lo & behold I'm IN some of the videos shared from the Convention ( www.youtube.com/watch?v=o1sqOCjFjJc ) AND I had the pleasure of being quoted in "The SPARK" on page 120-121! Woo hoo!

During the past year I've had some great "light bulb" experiences which have taken me further along the path of recovering my optimal health and wellness:

1) I "discovered" personally that I could REALLY RAMP UP my workouts, but yet not achieve much in the way of weight loss. Of course I felt great and could see better muscle definition, etc. which was SUPER. The corollary was that I could maintain my weight and physical condition with a less intensive workout regimen...I didn't HAVE to keep pushing the envelope.

2) The biggie was, after all my resistance and muss & fuss over rebelling against tracking my food due to past negative experiences I bit the bullet and jumped in yet again and finally, after a few years of "intuitive" eating, in which I struck out my trigger foods (mostly highly processed carbie sweet things), bumped up my veggies and ate what I wanted. I accomplished much with this, but after a year or so of plateau-ing @ 226# I decided this was the only tool left for me to use in trying to bust through my plateau. SUCCESS! I've since been setting my sights on ONEderland and actually achieving a statistically "healthy" BMI, which would begin once I reach 194.

However, for all of these insights and accomplishments which added up to a truly STUNNING and AMAZING year I managed to fizzle and limp my way through the final weeks of the year, allowing the holidays to de-rail me from the healthy choices in eating and working out.

Part of me feels like I've reverted and taken a crayon to scribble all over the masterwork that this year had previously been...argh!

But then another part of me is being more reasonable, stepping back and telling myself:

---I am a food addict. I can manage my addiction, but I can never vanquish it, and I must always be vigilant for this addiction to rear its ugly head and take steps to avoid conditions where this might happen and take action ASAP when I need to regain control.

---I have had these bumps in the road in the past...uh, yeah, a whole month ago when traveling over Thanksgiving...I've navigated holidays successfully in the past, but this year...? What a bust! But I HAVE bounced back and lost the weight, regained control and SPARKED ANEW!

---So I can and WILL do it yet again!

---Another thing learned: while there is much to be said for being "in the moment," I'm kicking myself in hindsight for not being more mindful, PRE-HOLIDAYS, of how momentous this year has been for myself. Instead of just living day-to-day, setting aside some time to gather my wits, take stock of my life, my accomplishments, give myself pats-on-the-back. Had I done this I suspect I would have been far less likely to slip as I did during the holidays.

What lies ahead...?

What must be UPPERMOST in the minds of EVERYONE who has lost the kind of weight we have lost is as 4A-HEALTHY-BMI pointed out: MAINTENANCE! If you haven't been following her blogs, I HIGHLY recommend everyone keep an eye on her thoughts, suggestions & "enabling food technologies" ...she is an AMAZING example of what SP is all about and MAINTENANCE is one of her top priorities these days. I suspect she will be helping to beef up the offerings SparkPeople has to help those of us who NEVER, EVER want to "go there" again and regain what we've worked so hard to lose!

Having backslid and skidded my way into 2010 I know I have my work cut out just restoring what I have accomplished, but there is no question MAINTENANCE will be my TOP PRIORITY!

The tough questions, goals, etc. come after maintenance...life beyond the numbers: what's next? There's nothing like nailing a goal that really SPARKS and REVS a body up!

Numbers are the easy part: ONEderland...here I come...along with a "healthy" BMI which arrives at 194#. More numbers: planning to buy a new bicycle this winter and to get ready to bike back and forth to work 2-3 times a week in better weather, racking up 20 miles each round trip. Would like to solidify and build upon my 40+ bike rides. There is another town to our north that is around 30 miles away, which would be approx. 60 miles round trip.

Beyond the numbers: A fellow member of SparkPeople recently blogged about working toward being able to be like her sadly departed friend...a person who was able to be so genuine, spontaneous, to bring joy to others and to find and celebrate joy "in the moment" when with others.

During the past few years I've learned to find joy by "being in the moment" with MYSELF during workouts and physical accomplishments. I've learned that 'yes, I have a pulse, I am truly ALIVE!' It's been wonderful, for instance, to finally climb that hill on my bike which previously forced me to walk up it and SWOOP down the other side WOO HOO-ING all the way!

But moments of joy shared with others...I need more of that! I see this as shifting from being ALIVE to becoming able to THRIVE in the world!

After being so focused on numbers and concrete, specific goals working toward something like this feels like I'm in a foreign country grasping for intangibles that are so tricky to measure and break down into baby steps...!

But here are a few ideas:

---Get the darned hearing aid! My old hard rock days have taken their toll. Several weeks ago I had a condition with one of my ears which was taken care of, but along the way I had a hearing test which confirmed what I already knew. My hearing is atrocious. How can I be more social, spontaneous and find joy within my contacts with others if I'm figuratively reaching for my hearing trumpet shouting "eh? wazzat sonny?" I have the prescription, must return to the audiologist and get this done!

---What could I do that might pull together my love of music, the thrill of being able to extend my physical capabilities yet even further and this new focus of being able to THRIVE socially? To find joy through my relationships with others? A shy, closet-dancing voice inside has nudged the idea of taking dancing lessons or classes from the back burner towards, but not yet ON the front burner. My recent encounters with the Wii has shown me just how stiff and imbalanced I am...coupled with my HIGH degree of self-consciousness, it will take a LOT for me to actually stop talking about this and DO SOMETHING! Stay tuned...

---My new Nordic Walking Poles are gathering dust...looking forward to USING them...wonder if I could rally some interest in others doing the same so that we could perhaps turn Nordic Walking into a social outing as well...?

That's as far as I can take it for now...don't know if you all could hang in there to the very end of this *novel"...lol!

I have found it SO helpful to read everyone's thoughts and ponderings for the New Year and have been SPARKED in so many ways by all that we share together here at SparkPeople. I can't thank you all enough!

Let's move forward to the very BEST of years ahead in 2010!


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USARUNNERGIRL 1/5/2010 10:13PM


What an amazing list of accomplishments! And yet you feel like you didn't do the year justice. You have reminded me over and over again that as long as we keep trying we have won. You are a great and wonderful example and I am proud to know you.

I hope that 2010 brings you all you want and especially that coveted onderland that I know would mean the world to you. You deserve the world. You can do it...one step at a time!

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ZIRCADIA 1/4/2010 5:22PM

    OOOH I MADE YOUR BLOG! :D hehehee. It was so great to meet you, most especially because it turned us into SparkFriends, which we weren't before, but now I definitely value being your SparkFriend!!!!!! Anyway -- I feel you on the backslide into 2010, the busting the holiday's, but hey -- we're here now and time to make the most of another year. :D You did so many awesome things in 2009 as well! :D WOOHOO! I want to take dancing lessons, too -- like latin ballroom classes in particular... :D haha. Maybe later in the year?

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JOYYAK 1/4/2010 9:54AM


What a great blog with all of your goals and accomplishments outlined. You have certainly had a busy year and one filled with many happy firsts! Nice job!

And now, as we all move into the new year we carry those aspirations another mile, another level...and continue to take care of "us."

Keep it up! And enjoy the snow! I canceled my trip to Syracuse today (we were going to leave at 3 a.m. to drive up today) because of the lousy weather. Disappointing but I will get it in soon...


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LEELYNN2 1/3/2010 10:31PM

    You had an amazing year and I'm so glad that I've had a chance to follow a bit of it. So many new activities! It's so cool. I am looking forward to seeing how the dancing lessons go. I'm going to be waiting for the updates on this!!!!

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APPYMORGAN 1/3/2010 9:16PM

    Thank you for another amazing blog...err Novel...I love how you are really able to describe and dissect all of last year for yourself. I find it very helpful to read about how others have overcome their struggles. I am just beginning to admit that I am addicted to food. It is affecting my life. While I am successful in the other areas of my life, I am missing out on so much of what I want to do because of my weight. I really hope to participate in a triathlon or the Tevis cup ( a horse riding event) but how can this happen when I currently struggle to walk a mile. I know I can get through and beyond this too. Thanks for sharing your struggles and successes, I have been greatly influenced and motivated by them.
I think that maybe part of your ability to maintain will come from the same place that your amazing ability to encourage and motivate others comes. Paying it forward, as you said in response to my blog, is what SP is all about.
Thanks Kristi
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I guess this was the second chapter of that previously mentioned Novel. lol

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DAYHIKER 1/3/2010 8:41PM

    What a great blog, Don! All the way to the end! And I finally found out where your quote is and read it! emoticon Thanks for the blog and book tips!! You're doing emoticonand your enthusiasm is contagious!!


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L*I*T*A* 1/3/2010 2:23PM

    such great reminders ............what an inspiration you are to us all..............what a privledge it is to know you too................thanks for sharing your year in review...........blessings and hugs...................lita

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PUDDLE_JUMPER 1/3/2010 11:13AM

    You are an inspiration to me!!!


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ZESTYLADY 1/3/2010 8:45AM

    You rock! I am so envious of your local support group. I've been unsuccessful rallying up a group in my vicinity. I think that makes such a huge difference to ongoing maintenance success. Who else but Sparkers are willing to me moan and groan about the same old challenges year after year. My a-ha moment was realizing that the addiction is lifelong and I will always need to be vigilant. Thanks for your thoughts.

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ZELLAZM 1/3/2010 8:42AM

    Don, I love this blog and reliving all the ups and downs of the past year. You are such a great example of what Spark is all about. Thanks for the reminders, the sharing and all the hope your story gives your readers!

Blessings in the New Year!

P.S. Take your next vacation to Florida and you can go Nordic walking with a great group of folks on the beach in Naples every Wednesday and Saturday. Tell them I sent you! ;)

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FRECKS96 1/3/2010 8:35AM

    Don, great job in 2009! With the tools and knowledge that we continue to gather, we can only get stronger as each year goes on. I wish you all the best in your goals and I look forward to hearing how you're progressing. Particularly with the (maybe) dancing lessons. That's something I have been mulling over as well. Maybe this will be the year!

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POEKSTER 1/3/2010 7:26AM

    WTG Don and maintaining is hard work

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DDOORN 1/3/2010 7:23AM

    Re: Refuse to Regain by Barbara Berkeley...have loved her blogs @ http://refusetoregain.com/ !


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FERRETLOVER1 1/3/2010 7:21AM

    Wow - when you list all you have achieved, you really should be proud of yourself.

Remember, you are a human being and you will backslide sometimes. It's just a fact of life. However, you can & will take control once again.

I've been maintaining for 4+ years now and I certainly do backslide sometimes, too. I am learning not to beat myself up about it anymore. I just put it behind me (sorta literally if ya know what I mean! emoticon) and start all over again!

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MAZUR157 1/3/2010 4:53AM

    Wow! Looks like you had something to say...
Good for you!!!
It was an inspiration.

Hang in there. You're going to to just fine.
I wish you success in all your endeavors.

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4A-HEALTHY-BMI 1/3/2010 3:29AM

    Thanx for the shout out.

I've started reading Refuse to Regain by Barbara Berkeley and it looks like it will be interesting.

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Who ME? Run?

Friday, December 18, 2009

I enjoyed reading another members' blog about discovering that he could RUN and got to thinking about how I just can't BELIEVE I can run these days! It just doesn't even occur to me that I CAN run except once in a while like tonight while heading out to the car from the mall. I parked at the very end of the lot to give me some walking time...except tonight I thought, hey, you're short on time, why not RUN?!?!


I envy runners their fitness and the "high" they get from running....but still don't see myself pushing in that direction very much...at least now...but who knows what the future may hold? :-)


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S318830 12/24/2009 12:08AM

    Every time I can't run for some reason or other, I look with absolute envy at all the people out there on the roads running. I'm going through that right now. You should give the Couch to 5K program a try and see if running is for you. If you think a parking lot feels great, try running your first organized race - now that's a serious high! I LOVE races!

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ZIRCADIA 12/21/2009 8:37PM

    All I know is, never say never or you'll end up running a marathon! :D HAHAHAHAHAA :D

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4A-HEALTHY-BMI 12/20/2009 5:48PM

    Fortunately one does not need to actually run to get a "runner's high" LOL. As you know my arthritic knee won't even tolerate WALKING more than 2.5 miles without telling me about it - but I can get buzzed from spinning and the elliptical.

Thanks goodness for those natural endorphins. If I couldn't manufacture them internally for free, I'd probably be in prison for buying and/or using them! LOL

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UNIDENT 12/19/2009 11:32PM

    Good start! And why shouldn't the future hold running for you, if you want to go there? There is nothing in your way. Nothing at all.

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BOBBYD31 12/19/2009 10:33PM

    don, running can be a great experience but it is not for everyone. i hope that it may be in you future, i have found it very rewarding no matter how fast or slow i go. runners are very supportive of each other, just like sparkers.

merry christmas to you and your family.

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JOYYAK 12/19/2009 1:56PM

    I love to walk. I know lot's of people love to run, but I love to preserve my knees. Hope to have the same set for my entire life! I can get the same endorphin high from a nice brisk walk!

But, I like your parking lot philosophy. I do the same thing and oftentimes park far away from the entrance of where I am going. Every little bit helps!


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FRECKS96 12/19/2009 9:52AM

    When you're ready to try, let me know! I know what you mean about envying the runners with the way they talk about it.

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ZELLAZM 12/19/2009 9:51AM

    Wooohooo! What a great feeling! I see a 5K in your future too!

BTW, love the new background - we don't have cardinals here in Germany so I really enjoy the photos!

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FERRETLOVER1 12/19/2009 7:23AM

    I have never really been able to run because of my knees, so I envy those who can. Even just running a short distance to catch a bus hurts my knees. Oh well, at least I can walk & I do walk - lots & lots. I try to walk fast to make up for the fact that I can't really run.

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RENA1965 12/18/2009 10:27PM

    Don, I can't run on a regular basis it annoys my disc collapse- however I walk 10kms daily... Don't have to be a runner to be fit, smart training you can have all the details and less injuries..
Running is high impact, but many people abuse it.. Keep it at a level you enjoy.. I don't have to increase my exercise, but when I want to see my husband grave I pick up the pace and 16 kms disappears faster than waiting on 2 busses..

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LEELYNN2 12/18/2009 10:26PM

    My Daughter and sometimes my son will race from the car to the store or the store to the car... that's the best! she's growing out of in though unfortunately and has to have a big lead before she'll try anymore. The cardinals in your yard? They're great.

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JCORYCMA 12/18/2009 10:23PM

    Sometimes I feel the "high" sometimes I just feel relief I'm done :) Running just seemed like a natural progression when I was walking at an ever faster pace. It was just a matter of lifting the feet up off the ground AND convincing myself I could do it! You probably walk at a faster pace than I run, so some time give it a try. Why? Because you can. Next thing you know, you'll be thinking 5K...

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Frazzled & Frantic But Holding the Line w/ Healthy Choices

Thursday, December 17, 2009

Going crazy dealing with BOTH a pellet stove that isn't burning right and an oil furnace that isn't running and here we are zooming down to our first single-digit night...argh! Service fellow is coming to save the day...after hours fees and all, ugh!

Holiday festivities and foods continue to pop out all over...but have been enjoying them in healthy ways...no more stumbles on my way to ONEderland thank you...! :-)

Our local supermarket has been having these HUGE Cortland apples on sale 78 cents a pound and they are DELICIOUS! And no where NEAR the calories of other foods...been chowing on 2-3 each day...yum...what a treat!

Can't wait for some slack days...there WILL be some, won't there...?


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CHANGE4FIT 1/6/2010 1:58PM

You are an inspiration! Sorry I missed your blog till today. while I am in the south, we are having our own heydey with the cold. Can't say I stuck to apples over the holidays....now it's time to pay the piper! Thanks for you blog and keep up the great effort!

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JOYYAK 12/18/2009 8:11PM

    LOL - I'm sure that the time between and including Christmas and New Year's was meant to be "slack time"... we'll all be bemoaning what we have had during that time; just wait for those January posts!

Cortland apples - yummy! I can't wait to get to NY and get some of the local apples...and the other good local foods like Hoffman's hot dogs and coney's, Grandma's Baked Beans and cheese curd! I can't get any of those down here - and I hear that they are calorie free when you eat them in NY! :)

Hope your repairman came through for you!


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FRECKS96 12/18/2009 8:14AM

    ugh, so sorry about your heaters. The last 2 days have certainly made up for our warm November! Hope you got everything fixed and got some sleep.

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FERRETLOVER1 12/18/2009 6:56AM

    It's always that way - whenever the need for heat is crucial, that's when the furnace breaks down. Same thing in the summer when you really need the air-conditioner.

Good for you eating apples - healthy & delicious, too. Have you tried the Honey Crisps? They are fantastic!

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L*I*T*A* 12/17/2009 10:57PM

    sorry about your furnace problems.........hopefully it will be resolved quickly........love apples too.............blessings and hugs................lita

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JCORYCMA 12/17/2009 10:27PM

    My super snack this season is those little Clementine oranges. Seedless, peel like a dream, and just the right size! Sorry to hear about your furnace. One of life's little bug-a-boos...
A special emoticon for how well you've been handling the holiday eating. Very motivating!
Joanne emoticon

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Another Holiday Temptation Hurdle Cleared!

Friday, December 11, 2009

BRR am I ever feeling the COLD these days without all my "extra padding!" As I said in my status update...this must be the only drawback to having lost the weight I have...lol!

I did well today at our agency's buffet luncheon...even if they DID have the blasted goodies all spread out on a table throughout the whole luncheon...no veggie trays and no fresh shrimp as they've had in the past...grrr! Passed up on the goodies, though and stuck with the roast beef with roasted cloves of garlic and mushrooms (yum!), salad w/ balsamic vinaigrette and broccoli...and you know...? I was STUFFED and couldn't eat another bite afterwards. It was great to feel so satisfied and satiated with my healthy choices!

Now: on to a busy weekend FINALLY breaking out the Christmas decorations and setting up the tree!

Sending out SparkWishes for everyone to have a festive, fun and healthy holiday weekend! :-)


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JOYYAK 12/14/2009 11:28AM

    Funny - I just wrote a similar blog when I realized it was a loss of insulation causing me to have increased cold intolerance this year! Hey, I quickly stopped complaining and added another sweater!


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TRAINOF4 12/13/2009 12:56AM

    It's interesting to read about feeling colder without the extra padding - I've always been very "hot" even before I gained so much weight. So I'm curious about what will happen as I lose MY extra padding!

That lunch sounded really yummy! I LOVE roasted garlic! It's really good for you, too. emoticon Good for you for resisting all those EXTRAS!

Have fun emoticon getting ready for your holidays!

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L*I*T*A* 12/12/2009 12:12PM

    good for you!!! temptation is everywhere.................hopefull
y we overcome them this time with sparkpeople on our side!!!..............blessings and hugs.....................lita

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FERRETLOVER1 12/12/2009 10:45AM

    Yeah, I have also noticed how much colder I am now that I have lost the weight I needed to. I thought after a while (4 years) at my current weight, my body might have adjusted. But, no!! Instead, it seems like I am even colder than I was before. Oh well, I just wear a sweater more often than I used to!

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ZIRCADIA 12/12/2009 9:19AM

    UGH, I know! And I've never really gotten WARM clothes that actually fit me... So I end up layered like a crazy hobo in oversized stuff, too. HAHAHAHAHA Like today -- old Marching Chiefs Shirt, my grandpa's cardigan I "inherited", a hoodie, my old FSU Sweatshirt... scarf... hahaha. (Well that was for outside, inside I'm down to the cardigan and Chiefs longsleeve shirt.)

P.S. -- I'm going to not one, but TWO holiday events tonight. My plan is to eat as healthy as possible for dinner at the first event, no "treats". Then at the party eat ONE or SMALL SERVING of things I want to have and then cut myself off with some gum. (The first is a church dinner then Christmas Concert type thing, the second is my friend's annual "martini" party which is funny because we don't drink, but we always go cause it's her Christmas Party and she gives the best parties ever! We just stay out of the martini glass gift exchange.)

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ZELLAZM 12/12/2009 6:26AM

    Good for you - I didn't fare quite as well at our office party. But it's over! Yay! Do I sound like Scrooge? ;)

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MAZUR157 12/12/2009 6:15AM

    Good for you!!! Keep up the good work.

This coming week is the week of holiday temptations for me:
It starts with Xmas dinner with my Zumba friend tonight.
Cookie baking on Sunday for the cookie swap on Monday.
The cookie swap on Monday
The holiday potluck at work on Wednesday. I am going to bring a salad with balsamic dressing and strawberries. (Then I'll know there'll be something for me to eat. ;o)
Present exchange and dinner with my son and his girlfriend on Thursday.
Holiday lunch with smaller group of co-workers on Friday.
After work party at local bar on Friday evening

Yikes!!! I am scared to death. But, I am determined to do my best.
...wish me success!

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USAKIBAT 12/12/2009 1:12AM

    Wish some of your will power would rub off on me! You are an inspiration. Tomorrow I will think of you and all the other inspiring SparkPeople I have encountered, every time I'm tempted to stray from eating healthier. Hope it works! Nothing else I've tried has. emoticon emoticon

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PATTYCAKE49 12/11/2009 11:07PM

    May we all do as well as you did!

Happy Holidays!

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PISTL67 12/11/2009 11:06PM

    emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon you've got it handled!!

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LINDA25427 12/11/2009 10:52PM

    Great job on your choices emoticon emoticon emoticon

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SWEETERINA71 12/11/2009 10:15PM

    Why does celebration almost always involve food? Doesn't seem fair, does it?
I had to get to the point where I wasn't embarrassed to say "No thanks, I'm on a diet." or disappear when the food came out.
I do love how fast I fill up, now that I'm not eating the way I used to. And I can't wait to lose my extra padding =)
Happy holidays to you too!

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FRECKS96 12/11/2009 10:01PM

    Great Job today! Congrats!

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Nailing Backslides Before They Happen!

Thursday, December 10, 2009

An old colleague of mine from back at the state psychiatric hospital sent me a note recently with some holiday wishes and letting me know she was sending me a nut roll next week. Hmm...temptation! Normally I wouldn't bat an eye, but a nasty thought flashed through my mind and I realized one of the patterns that have "undone" my hard work in the past. As I teased out the thinking it went something like this:

"After all this work I've done to lose all this weight, aren't I overdue for a reward or two...? Haven't I earned it? So how about hanging onto this nut roll for myself...?" You know...all those evil little jingles about "having it YOUR way" and "you deserve a BREAK today"? These nasty little thoughts work their way into your brain and like automatic pilot they can kick in and OFF WE GO TO THE RACES!

But just as quickly I ruled that out and told myself I would be passing this along to my colleagues at work...just the same as I do whenever I find myself possessing any "contraband"...down to the staff kitchen for all to share! :-)

Another HUGE holiday luncheon tomorrow...you know...one of those long, multi-tabled buffets...? I'll stick with the fresh shrimp, veggies, etc. thank you...!

Another member of SparkPeople had posted about her favorite holiday music so I thought I would share a few more of mine. Some of my favorite holiday music includes Windham Hill's Winter Solstice series and along the same vein Tingstad & Rumbel's holiday albums. All instrumental, acoustic, sometimes folksy sometimes new age-ish. Tingstad & Rumbel are a duet of guitar and oboe...wonderful combination!

Here is one of their songs at YouTube:


One of the most special things about this season is the music!


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DOCKO56 12/17/2009 8:47AM

    Aggghhh! The ONLY problem with this is that I work in an office where there are MANY people with the same mindset! They buy crap and goodies, then realize their mistake and bring it in to work and stick it on the breakroom table for everybody else who are trying to avoid all of these things. They are so tempting. I even think there are people in the office that are trying to sabotage those that are making progress with their weight and fitness! They see you making progress and feel guilty!
Oh well, better to share than horde it! emoticon

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CARRIE1948 12/12/2009 7:51AM

    Isn't thinking of food as a reward part of what got your to be overweight in the first place? It seems to me that there are still lessons you haven't internalized. Food is not a reward, it it fuel.

Rewards are music, books, walks in the country, whatever brings warmth to your soul.

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SIRCATNIP1 12/11/2009 7:04PM

    LOL. I first read this blog title as "Nailing Backsides." LOL

Great blog!

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USARUNNERGIRL 12/11/2009 12:46PM

    Glad you are resisting. It is so true how we always think, oh I have been so good so it won't hurt if I eat _____. It is realizing that food rewards aren't a reward that makes or breaks it.

Just a thought, maybe you should throw out the temptation instead of passing the temptation on?

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JCORYCMA 12/11/2009 8:49AM

    You inspire me, Don! Isn't it great when things like a buffet no longer intimidate you? Have a wonderful time!

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KELLI9001 12/11/2009 8:27AM

    Rewards are good...Habit breaking snacks are not. Way to go on passing the contraband onto someone else. You are my hero!


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FERRETLOVER1 12/11/2009 8:03AM

    Stay strong!!!

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FRECKS96 12/11/2009 7:15AM

    Good Luck with your temptations over the next couple weeks. And, as always, thank you for broadening my musical horizons!

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ZELLAZM 12/11/2009 6:44AM

    IKWYM! So far, a bottle of wine, a bottle of brandy and a huge bottle of chocolates are ready for "re-gifting" here.

Thanks for the music tip - very pretty!

Good weekend!

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4A-HEALTHY-BMI 12/11/2009 2:58AM

    Yep, good going, nipping that thought train in the bud.

'Cuz don't you DESERVE to get to ONEderland?

Aren't you WORTH having the body you want?

Wouldn't it mean so much MORE to get to New Year's with a resolution to KEEP weight off rather than GET it off?

LOL. There you go. Some anti-consumerist slogans to stick in your head and combat the consumerist ones...

Stay warm and wish me discipline and vigilance while I visit a friend in DC this weekend...

(I REALLY want to remove those last 3 lbs and get to a "healthy" BMI in the next week or two... I want that SwiMP3 player! I want my shiny new BMI for Christmas! LOL)

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L*I*T*A* 12/11/2009 1:14AM

    great song......love it.......thanks for sharing..............blessings and hugs..............lita

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JAE_HENNINGTON 12/10/2009 11:42PM

  beautiful song... thank you so much for sharing

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RENA1965 12/10/2009 11:42PM

    We are having christmas dinner on the 23rd I said no thanks to the arrangers ordering food to me- I am taking something wow and make their jealous lol... I am taking a meal fit for a king..
Hang in there D...

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