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Slipped Far More Than I Feared...!

Thursday, December 03, 2009

To weigh in or NOT to weigh in...

Struggled with this first thing this morning thinking: hmmm...if I give myself a week off from the scale I can use the time to whack away at the weight I gained during my travels and the number won't be so fearsome...

But! Shouldn't I *KNOW* what I'm up against...?

Aight: scale it is!

...and I just couldn't BELIEVE how BADLY I had slipped!

My next reaction, habitual, was to get beyond the shock, be ashamed and consider just buckling down on getting the pounds off and never sharing with anyone what had happened.

Well that's too much like the bad old days, bad old ways...I remember reading somewhere a fellow saying that fighting against habits, doing the OPPOSITE of what one is inclined to do is how we can grow and develop.

So here I am putting it out there: FIFTEEN POUNDS! In less than a week I blew through almost ALL the weight I had lost during my efforts to get beyond my plateau of 226. Thankfully, I'm still ahead of that at 220, but have been hanging my head and kicking myself in the butt.

And then moving myself into the direction I always find useful: what can I learn from this costly mistake? What factors played into such POOR choices?

--- I got a bit TOO confident in my abilities to manage my weight, thinking that I could allow myself more latitude for a few days and get right back to my healthy lifestyle without paying TOO costly a price. WRONG!

--- Although I made a lot of healthy food choices, I played too much of an "ostrich" over the BAD food choices, sorta thinking magically that the grilled salmon, yogurt, strawberries, apples, etc. would cancel out the...BAD stuff. WRONG!

--- I tossed out my workout routine. It was hardly an inactive time for me...much walking, rock climbing, etc. but again, thinking that this equated to the type of efforts I put into my workouts...at least close enough, right? WRONG!

--- I stopped tracking...just a few days, no prob, right? WRONG!

--- I didn't follow my inspiration. I had a though early one morning how cool it might be to get out in shorts and t-shirt and walk-jog through the city...but never got beyond the thought, never put it into action. Next time I've got to PUSH myself into DOING IT!

--- I played with fire: allowed myself some of the very foods I KNOW are my trigger foods, those sugary sweet highly processed carbie things. Foods that turn off my "enough is enough" trigger and open the bottomless pit. Just like an alcoholic and alcohol: I just can't *TOUCH* this stuff!

I'm still sifting through this to gain whatever lessons I can. Still shaking my head at times over how FRIGHTFULLY EASY it can be to BLOW IT! Yet, reminding myself that one HUGE step forward for me is that in the bad old days I would still be spiraling downward for years to come...not so now:

I've STOPPED! I'm BACK! Tracking the food, strength training, back on my 'mill, jammin' to my tunes and reclaiming my SPARK!

I *WILL* get to ONEderland! Even if not by the year's end, not TOO far beyond!

Be careful out there folks...it can be so, SO easy to get lost along the way!

Don

  
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MOJAVEMAMA 12/4/2009 11:25AM

    Unfortunately, we have all been there. But, you have stopped the spiral and are back on track. I know you can do this.

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LEELYNN2 12/4/2009 10:20AM

    yep... been there... repeatedly. One of the lessons to still be learned (or probably you already have and just didn't list it) is Trust in yourself that you will get back on track and in the game. I gained 6 in the the time I was gone though I couldn't point to any time that I slipped, but I trust that because I've learned to pay close attention and know the habits that I need to get back to my maintenance weight that it will be fine.

Don't give up that grilled salmon! But save that chunk of extra fatty tail section for me, cause that's the part I love the best and all those omegas keep me young and beautiful.

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JCORYCMA 12/4/2009 8:15AM

    Don your story was MY Thanksgiving story. Thinking how long it took to take off those lbs. and how quickly I put them back on literally brought me to tears. Thank goodness for my return to Spark World so I could make a quick recovery and not get that "what the heck attitude" and fall even further back. I weighed yesterday and am going to get up the nerve to go public with it - especially now I see that you have and it's not the end of the world. Thanks for sharing & thanks for inspiring me to get right back on track!
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BKWERM 12/4/2009 6:06AM

    Oh, Don, that IS depressing but I know if anyone can get rid of it quickly, it's you.

Take care.

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ROYALETBONE 12/4/2009 2:02AM

    Woot, woot, you're back! Coming back at it, that's what really counts. You are being accountable, take pride in who you are!
And- I bet a bunch of it falls off again- I'm crossing my fingers that at least 5 pounds of it is salt/water weight. Yup. Keep us posted.
And hey- all the 'maintainers' that I know- when they get to 'maintaining'- get on the scale every day. A switch in mentality from losing, to just casually keeping an eye on what's up- or down!



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MEDDYPEDDY 12/4/2009 1:17AM

    Impressive action, hopefully some of that "slip weight" will disappear as soon as you get back in healthy routines.

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AZIMAT 12/4/2009 12:43AM

    Fifteen pounds. Wow, that's prodigious. You'll figure it out.

Great post from Healthy BMI. Hope half of it is water.

Keep on keepin' on, Bingfriend.

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4A-HEALTHY-BMI 12/4/2009 12:04AM

    I'm sorry you had a shock, but glad you decided to 1) err on the side of having more information, and 2) admit it to us [and thereby yourself].

I've been reading a lot of the scientific literature on maintenance lately and frequent monitoring and taking steps to correct the trend are both really important, possibly the main key components to success in maintenance.

Take heart in the fact that much of it probably is water weight - processed food tends to have a lot of salt in it.

I somehow gained SIX pounds over the 4 days I spent traveling to, at, and from a weekend family reunion. (And that was WITH weighing and tracking almost everything I ate, making only the best food choices available, and hitting the gym on both opportunities I had.) It took about a week to get back to where I'd been before I left.

If you had to have a shock, be glad it was after a relatively short-term lapse. As you've said, now you know you aren't ready to take off the training wheels, so you're less likely to make that mistake soon again. (According to the literature it takes 2-5 YEARS to retrain ourselves to the point we can relax a bit and drop some of the vigilance.)

Also, consider that if you had not removed 15 lbs before your vacation, you would possibly be 15 UP from where you started, rather than where you are now. So it was fortunate you had that recent 15 lbs in the bank to draw upon.

Finally, just one other point - something in your post raised a little red flag when I read it:

I question whether grilled salmon can be considered a "good" food choice - in terms of calories, there is a LOT of fat in it, compared with other options such as shrimp, hake, cod, or tilapia. It really depends on how MUCH salmon... (Appropriate portion sizes are about half the amount you can eat of the other fish I listed, and you're getting less protein and more fat in that little half fillet.)

You might want to re-examine your concept of "good" versus "bad" foods, because there might be some foods in there that aren't as helpful as you think - recall all those nuts you were eating while driving; in moderation nuts are fine. In quantity the calories add up fast.

I've had to do this re-evaluation process several times over the past year as I've tweaked and refined what I put into my system. In the end I always decide based on the macronutrient ratios versus total calories.

Anyway, welcome back on program, and you know as well as I that if you stick to it you'll see results. Which in the end is probably the most comforting fact out there.

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SANDYSKY1 12/3/2009 11:58PM

    Your story is everyone's story. I'm glad you weighed yourself. Glad you stopped and happy you are back at it. It will be like coming home.

You are right, it is too easy to slip. We all need to be careful. This is just too hard to throw away. Good luck.






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Re-Sparking!

Wednesday, December 02, 2009

I had a super time traveling...the high point was climbing around these cliffs & rocks...felt SO GREAT to be able to have a body that could MOVE around and navigate such tricky areas!

Another fellow and I swapped cameras so we could get photos of ourselves. Here I am celebrating myself and my SPARK accomplishments! (complete with the WRONG photo date stamped...lol!):



Here are a couple of short videos to give you a better idea of the terrain:

First the view from way down in the crevasses & brush:

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Then the view from on high!

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While traveling I went "astray" with my food choices much more than I really wanted, but am back and re-SPARKING myself toward ONEderland once again! I'm going to be SO ANGRY with myself if I've set myself back too far, but am going to channel that toward getting down to the BUSINESS of LIFE and LIVING with healthy food choices and working out! This business of "maintaining" and avoiding pitfalls, stumbles and backslides...treacherous stuff!

Enjoyed listening to Michael Pollan's audiobook "In Defense of Food" while on the go...such a FINE book which I HIGHLY recommend to EVERYONE out there! I've had so many suspicions along the way which Pollan confirms in his book...it's so cool to hear someone famous echoing such similar thoughts...!

Don

PS: For those of you who are close to your goal, maintaining or planning on reaching and maintaining your goal weights: I can't recommend highly enough that you check out ORIGAMIFREAK's great blogs here:

www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_jo
urnal_individual.asp?blog_id=2604382


and here:

www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_jo
urnal_individual.asp?blog_id=2280263

  
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FERRETLOVER1 12/3/2009 8:53AM

    Maintaining is truly hard - I have lost at least 100 or more lbs. several times & re-gained that & more. This time around, I have committed myself to not letting it happen again. I am worth the effort & so are you!

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ZELLAZM 12/3/2009 4:23AM

    Always knew you had your head in the clouds! emoticon

Great photo! Welcome back!

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JCORYCMA 12/2/2009 9:03PM

    Don, that's an awesome picture! I was naughty in my holiday travels last week too but as soon as I got home, I got back to my Sparking and feel like I'm in much better control. Tracking that nutrition does help...
Thanks for the blog links. I'll check them out!
Joanne


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FRECKS96 12/2/2009 7:33PM

    Welcome Back! Glad you had a great trip and are re-energized.

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MOJAVEMAMA 12/2/2009 6:00PM

    Looks like Red Rock!!! Looks like you had a blast.

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4A-HEALTHY-BMI 12/2/2009 3:51PM

    Glad to hear you're back - AND back on track!

Your pics make me a little homesick for the brief 2.5 years I lived in the southwest...

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INTOTHEJAM2 12/2/2009 3:07PM

    Welcome back! Congrats on all of your success. You're a great inspiration to all of us on SP :)

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L*I*T*A* 12/2/2009 2:54PM

    nice to have you back..........looking fantastic too...........blessings and hugs..............lita

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ZIRCADIA 12/2/2009 2:50PM

    I LOVE that book - I also highly recommend a similar book, Food Matters, which echoes many of Pollan's principles but arrives at the conclusion from a world environmental health motivation. :)

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AZIMAT 12/2/2009 2:17PM

    Welcome back. You look terrific. Sound like a wonderful time.

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Traveling

Thursday, November 26, 2009

Heading out of town for some fun for a long weekend.

Planning on SPARKING away my days and will catch up with you all when I can...'net availability may be questionable.

You all take care and KEEP THE SPARK! :-)

Don

  
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KIKICANADIAN 12/2/2009 9:43AM

    enjoy your trip...I was a bit worried

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S318830 11/29/2009 5:09PM

    I hope you had a great trip!

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BOUDICA26 11/27/2009 12:01PM

    Have a great time! I hope the weather is agreeable.

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FRECKS96 11/27/2009 8:40AM

    Safe trip, and enjoy!

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ZELLAZM 11/27/2009 6:57AM

    Safe travels, Don and enjoy your mini-vacation!
Michelle

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L*I*T*A* 11/27/2009 12:56AM

    have a safe and wonderful time.............blessings and hugs..............lita

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Getting Closer...!

Wednesday, November 25, 2009

This has been such an excruciatingly LONG day!

First thing this a.m. I weighed in and found out I lost FOUR POUNDS this week! Woo HOO! Can't wait to tell my SparkFamily! Wait and wait and wait...here I am almost MIDNIGHT sharing the excitement! Sheesh it's frustrating not to be able to shout out to you all for such a long time!

This week I got nervous when a visit to Old Country Buffet over the weekend put my calories up to around 3200...so I buckled down to 1200-1500 since and voila! 205 is an awfully SWEET number! :-) I think the cycling of calories UP and DOWN has been helping me out.

Although I may not be able to pop in on my Friend Feed as I would like throughout the day, I sure carry your support with me throughout my day! So in the spirit of Thanksgiving I wanted to share these thoughts from Marlene of MotivateUs.com:

Be Thankful


Thanks for not having
Be thankful that you don't already have everything you desire.
If you did, what would there be to look forward to?



Thanks for lacking knowledge
Be thankful when you don't know something,
for it gives you the opportunity to learn.


Thanks for difficult times
Be thankful for the difficult times.
During those times you grow.


Thanks for limitations
Be thankful for your limitations,
because they give you opportunities for improvement.


Thanks for challenges
Be thankful for each new challenge,
because it will build your strength and character.


Thanks for mistakes made
Be thankful for your mistakes.
They will teach you valuable lessons.


Thanks for exhaustion
Be thankful when you're tired and weary,
because it means you've made the effort.


Thanks for setbacks
It's easy to be thankful for the good things.
A life of rich fulfillment comes to those who
are also thankful for the setbacks.


Thanks for troubles
Gratitude can turn a negative into a positive.
Find a way to be thankful for your troubles,
and they can become your blessings.


~ Author Unknown ~

Happy Thanksgiving, my friend, I am grateful and thankful for you.

Here's to a healthy, happy Thanksgiving to all of us and our loved ones!

Don

  
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ZIRCADIA 11/30/2009 3:49PM

    CONGRATS ON THE NEW LOW WEIGH-IN! :D So close to ONEderland!

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S318830 11/29/2009 5:10PM

    Awesome, awesome, awesome! You're so on your way to reaching the 100s by the end of December. I think you'll be there before that!

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SUSIEMT 11/28/2009 8:49PM

    Just happened on your blog. I enjoyed it! I am getting ready to enter onederland myself. WooHoo! Can't wait for us both to be there! Good luck!

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FRECKS96 11/26/2009 9:46AM

    WTG Don! Congrats! Thank you for the reminders and have a wonderful holiday.

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DAVEOZ 11/26/2009 2:46AM

    So true... and great loss!!

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4A-HEALTHY-BMI 11/26/2009 1:06AM

    woo-hoo! Crush that scale, Don!

ONE-der-land, here you come!

LOL

Have an awesome T-day!

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L*I*T*A* 11/26/2009 12:38AM

    congratulations on the great loss!!!!
happy thanksgiving to you and yours.........blessings and hugs............lita

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RENA1965 11/25/2009 11:52PM

    nice blog Don! happy turkey day..

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Jingo All The Way! (Gratitude)

Monday, November 23, 2009

Had a great session on my 'mill this morning...kept the incline @ 12 throughout and kicked the speed from 4 to 5 mph halfway...wrapping up with Santana's Woodstock version of "Jingo!" Couldn't resist the pun for my blog title...okay, groan away...! :-)

One of my favorite SparkPeople (ORIGAMIFREAK www.sparkpeople.com/mypage.asp?id=OR
IGAMIFREAK
) celebrated her birthday today by going to RealAge.com and calculating that through her efforts in reclaiming her health she has given herself the gift of growing EIGHT YEARS YOUNGER! Woo hoo! Be sure to stop by her SparkPage and wish her a happy birthday! And if you don't know her, stop and browse about her accomplishments...one AMAZING person!

This all has me thinking again, in this season of Thanksgiving, how all of us here at SparkPeople are giving ourselves and through our support of others, each other such tremendous GIFTS of LIFE and living a SPARKED LIFE! I just wanted to share my gratitude to all of you out there, Chris Downie, all the SparkStaff and fellow members: my SparkFamily...!

Have a wonderful Thanksgiving everyone! :-)

Don

  
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USARUNNERGIRL 11/24/2009 8:17PM

    Thank you for being part of my Spark Family! Good work on you treadmill today!

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ZELLAZM 11/24/2009 3:32PM

    Same to you, Don!

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L*I*T*A* 11/23/2009 4:31PM

    great...........thanks for sharing........blessings and hugs.................lita

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FRECKS96 11/23/2009 1:13PM

    Amen and Thank You!!!

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YAKWOMAN 11/23/2009 11:12AM

    That gratitude comes back to you ten-fold. You are an amazing inspiration to me. Congrats on the 12 incline! Very impressive.

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4A-HEALTHY-BMI 11/23/2009 9:03AM

    LOL. I looked at your blog title and couldn't fathom what it referred to.

I know of Django Reinhardt, the game Jenga, the term "jingoism," and recall that Jango was Boba Fett's father in the Star Wars canon, but have never before heard of the song Jingo.

I'm clearly a musical Philistine. hehe

P.S. Right back atcha.

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