Monday, November 16, 2009
Had a great day today...been psyched about fitting into an ancient, yet never worn pair of size 38 jeans over the weekend. I believe they were bought DECADES ago when I had my stomach stapling surgery and it seemed to be on my way to this size but my bad old eating habits struck and de-railed me for years and years.
It feels like SUCH a victory to return and CONQUER the JEANS...lol!
So today I just dressed up in my size 40 pants (don't have dressy 38s...yet! :-) ) and size 16 shirt (which is already getting a tad roomy...!) because I really felt proud of myself and wanted to show off...plain and simple as that. Although this is not at ALL like me it feels good to claim more confidence in my appearance, to be able to give myself more credit. Everyone at work thought I was on my way to an interview and getting ready to leave them...lol! Working as an intensive case manager for the mentally ill, like many, I've grown pretty comfortable with casual clothes, for the most part.
I've been busy as all get-out lately working together w/ my DW in rehabilitating our home which has gotten far too little attention over the years. Turning things upside down to tear things out, replace, re-paint, re-EVERYTHING! Wanting to get a whole lot of stuff done before Christmas.
Haven't even had time yet to get out my Balance Board I bought from the SparkStore, inflate and start trying out. I'm hoping it may help improve my adjustment to cross country skiing. But I suppose I have to USE it first...? :-) I'm going to be lucky to catch my breath before the New Year arrives!
Today I got a SparkMail from another member giving me a pat-on-the-back for getting so close to my goal and she wondered what I would do when I accomplish this, would I leave SparkPeople...?
Leave the SPARK?!?! Perish the thought!
I'm here for the long, long, LONG haul! I have SO much for which to be grateful from my SparkFamily that I know I'll be here for the duration paying forward all the knowledge, kindnesses and support that I've received from others here in this wonderful community!
Have a super week everyone!
Friday, November 13, 2009
Okay folks, put on your party hats, get in the conga line and celebrate!
This is one of my favorite 6 mph songs and everytime I hear it I feel like hamming it up and pretending I'm just FULL of myself and think I'm the HOTTEST fellow around!
Of course those of you who know my struggles with the mirror and my body image realize that most of the time nothing could be further from the truth... BUT:
During this song I like to *pretend* for just a few minutes that none of those struggles exist and I'm just going to WOO HOO! and LAUGH and CELEBRATE myself, my accomplishments and invite all of you to join in and fuggetabout all your doubts and criticisms of yourselves and your bodies because as the song sez:
WE'RE HOT HOT HOT!
Here's the video from this 80's one-hit-wonder that should be on ALL of your mp3 players:
Join the conga line...cuz we're all SPARKIN' HOT! :-)
Tuesday, November 10, 2009
I just LOVE to catch up with everyone and their blogs! Such inspiration, heartbreak, excitement, creativity, angst, curiosity...how can I resist? After all we're like one big family, right?
Well, I'm beginning to realize that I'm spreading myself a wee bit too thin and subbing to SO many blogs that I don't take enough time to (phew!) pause, reflect, and put some of my OWN thoughts down...!
I've been sticking with the nutrition tracking and although I got a tiny bit fuzzy with it over the weekend, I'm right back at it this week. Due to that fuzziness, however, I was nervously awaiting this week's weigh-in and feared a flat line or (gulp!) even a gain.
As tomorrow is a holiday for us state workers I would not be able to weigh-in on the scale our nurse kindly allows me to use each week. I always weigh-in around the same time (mornings) and under pretty much the same conditions:
---nothing touches my lips other than my morning vitamins/pills and a few sips of water
---all pockets are emptied, wrist-watch and shoes slipped off...if I had more privacy EVERYTHING would go...!
Anyone else get kinda wacky around weigh-in time...lol?
At first I thought...hey, wait till Thurs. and I'll have a chance to hedge my bets and another day of running under my calories!
But then I decided I just COULDN'T wait!
And...Ta DA! Two more pounds down! In SIX days instead of SEVEN! Woo hoo!
10 more pounds till ONEderland...7 more weeks...!
Feeling a bit jazzed when I came home I realized I did a smart thing: I put a jump rope in my car!
I have off and on attempted to jump rope over the past year. Klutz that I am I have only been able to get the darned thing past my feet 2, 3, maybe even 5 times before tripping up. The other day I realized I'm always trying this indoors under somewhat confined conditions where the rope will THWACK the ceiling or I'll bump into something. So I figured, 'hey, let's stick it in the car and perhaps a time will come along and I can work in some attempts outdoors without anything to get in my way.'
Well, although I had a ZILLION things I COULD have done instead, tonight I figure I've got the whole driveway to myself, let's give it a go!
So I really STUCK with it...klutzed my way through some feeble attempts, but kept going it, going it until...woo hoo! Managed a NICE sustained bit of jumping rope, actually even able to take my eyes off my feet and look straight ahead and keep up the jumping...! Whew! Nice quick way to work up a sweat! And the darned things are so PORTABLE too! Problem is...have to do this outside...when I'd rather be in a CLOSET so nobody could see me...lol! Another down side: I can hear the SLAP-SLAP of my belly flab as I jump...hard not to feel self-conscious about that. So while it's an UPPER to be able to DO IT, I have to keep kicking myself with reminders that I fought long and hard for that belly flab and the LAST thing I should do is feel SELF-CONSCIOUS about it!
You all know the struggle, I'm sure...!
Keep on SPARKING all you wonderful people out there!
PS...almost forgot...another holiday music recommendation for anyone who appreciates jazz / Brasilian music: A Brasilian Christmas:
As the reviewer says: "This is one of my favorite holiday albums. It was peculiar at first, combining the tropical warmth of Brasil with a holiday that conjures images of cold winter scenes for those of us in the northern latitudes, but very quickly one just sits back, smoothes out and enjoys the ride! I believe Oscar Castro-Neves has a significant presence on this cd, as well as other wonderful Brasilian guitarists. If you enjoy Brasilian, bossa-nova style music, you owe it to yourself to buy this album!"
Friday, November 06, 2009
Just passing along a couple of reviews of a new movie: "Precious"...
It looks to be a TOUGH flix to watch, filled with abuse and neglect, however it's theme of *HOPE* caught my eye and seemed like it offers quite the inspiration for anyone who've dealt with seemingly insurmountable barriers...such as many of us!
NY Times Review:
Roger Ebert's Review:
If anyone sees it I'd appreciate it if you could post your thoughts / reactions here...! I'll do the same if I do, however, I'm doubting I'll catch up with it for a while...so darned BUSY!
Wednesday, November 04, 2009
I was a bit nervous anticipating my weekly weigh-in today as we had been out of town this weekend with a few dining out "indulgences"...but YES! Another pound down! Been buckling right down and holding my calories down to an average daily total around 1800.
I enjoyed using a terrific recumbent bicycle while at the hotel:
A HIGHLY customizeable bike which allowed me to recline and stretch my legs out. I felt a strange combo of being relaxed while buzzing along on the pedals...if I had a pillow I think I could have snoozed while sweating it out...lol! And it could be all YOURS for the low, low price of $2,000...yeesh! :-)
So my BMI now places me at 27.3, smack in the middle of the "overweight" category. Don't know if I'll get "quite" as low as a BMI below overweight...that would mean 194 pounds for me to hit a BMI of 24. Crossing into 190's may just be "enough"...we'll have to see...however, it WOULD be awfully nice to officially no longer be "overweight!" :-)
Now for a few musical recommendations...! After Halloween marks for me the beginning of my holiday music season! Yes, a wee-bit early, but I don't exactly jump right into Jingle-Bell-Rock-mode...lol! I enjoy a wide range of new age / world music which is instrumental and captures "moods" more than spelling out specific holiday wishes. One of my all-time favorite album which can be enjoyed year round, but is especially apropos for this time of year is Paul Winter's "Wintersong" in which one of my favorite soprano sax players gathers "a collection of international tributes to the season, with traditional songs and circle dances from England, Scandinavia, Italy, France and the Appalachian Mountains." Most of these are NOT exactly workout tunes...with the exception of Bach's Ode to Joy...which Winter & Co. transform into a fun, celebratory Brasilian romp!
Winter joins forces again with Brasilian guitarist extraordinaire Oscar Castro-Neves on their duo album "Brasilian Days:"
This is a WONDERFUL album, although non-holiday-oriented, guaranteed to warm your hearts and soothe away your stress...highly, HIGHLY recommended!
For more soothing holiday music of a New Age, mostly of an instrumental, acoustic nature I highly recommend Windham Hill's "Winter Solstice" series of albums:
Everyone have a super warm-up to the holiday season this month...!
I'll continue to ramp up my efforts toward ONEderland by the New Year.
PS, Oh! Also looking forward to a group walk at one of our state parks with fellow SparkPeople members this upcoming Sunday...woo hoo! :-) Check out details here: www.sparkpeople.com/myspark/city_spa
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