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From Driven to Driver!

Wednesday, January 22, 2014

I've noticed another change in my thinking since beginning my re-set two weeks ago.

First, a confession about a bad-old-habit I picked up along the way. Despite knowing logically that it is the easiest thing in the world to out-eat any workout, witness many long bike trips and events where I torch hundreds, perhaps THOUSANDS of calories yet still gain weight, I still carried that fallacy with me and allowed it to PROPEL me toward a workout compulsion where nary a day would pass without some intense cardio. Even knowing that it wouldn't compensate for the calories I consumed I would take on crazy thoughts about how if I didn't get this workout in I would balloon even WORSE than I might otherwise and hey, I tried to sell myself: maybe, just MAYBE I might pull it off and cancel all those unhealthy calories I ate!

Now that isn't necessarily all a bad thing: I've acquired a pretty rock solid habit and approach to exercise and for that I'm grateful.

However here is my latest morph: I've noticed during my workouts over the past two weeks an increasing sense of ease and calm. An absence of the element of desperation which would creep into past workouts which would sometimes compel me toward extending my limits and capabilities.

Instead, now when the right song comes along and I'm just inspired by the mood, words and what my body can do, I THEN push myself toward more intense efforts.

I'm finding that taking the desperation, the compulsion off the table leaves room for other healthier experiences:

---such as gratitude for what I've accomplished and a recognition of the good that has come from my old, less-than-healthy thinking.

---such as greater self-acceptance and appreciation for where I am on my journey, for what I've learned and have yet to learn.

---such as confidence in myself that I am acquiring such terrific self-knowledge about what works for me...and what DOESN'T!

Instead of feeling so DRIVEN, I am finding myself increasingly in the DRIVER'S seat, setting the course for my life and following Mark Twain's advice in one of my favorite quotes of all time:

“Twenty years from now you will be more disappointed by the things that you didn't do than by the ones you did do. So throw off the bowlines. Sail away from the safe harbor. Catch the trade winds in your sails. Explore. Dream. Discover.”

Viva la SPARK!

Don

ps...oh yeah...no drum roll needed as my food choices are locked in and continue to pay off: 3 more pounds down for a total of 13 pounds since beginning my re-set, averaging nearly a pound a day.

pps...additional thoughts summing up important changes in my core beliefs in response to WATERMELLEN's excellent latest FatLoser blog:

www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_jo
urnal_individual.asp?blog_id=5602034


Here are a few of my changes in core beliefs:

Numbers are bad...numbers are GOOD

Tracking is bad...tracking is GOOD

Workout to burn those calories...workout to enjoy my body

Self-bashing...self-accepting, self-valuing

I can’t control my food choices…I am in charge of my food choices

Plus I have locked in a morning meditative pattern which includes other vital new "lessons" which I am planting for myself.

  
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RAINBOWFALLS 1/27/2014 8:56AM

    Great lessons learned. You are making some awesome progress. emoticon

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HAKAPES 1/27/2014 3:40AM

    I also find tracking is so important.
Have you heard about the Quantified Self movement?
I consider myself to be part of it.
There are so many of us who track, and like it!

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LUVLYLORELEI 1/25/2014 11:47PM

    That's an important change in perspective. Sounds like you've found a peaceful approach that will serve you well. emoticon

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JUST_TRI_IT 1/25/2014 10:30AM

    That is a truly powerful shift.. in thinking and acting. That sense of calm is in itself a huge wind in the sails! I agree with you that being driven versus being in the driver's seat is a strong place to be now.

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ZELLAZM 1/25/2014 7:23AM

    Some big mindset changes - as important as the numbers on the scale!

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KANOE10 1/23/2014 8:03AM

    That was an excellent shift into the driver's seat from being driven to exercise. Now you can simply enjoy the exercise. That is great that your re-set is working and that you have lost 13 pounds. I think you have successful replaced your core beliefs with excellent positive thoughts.

Way to go, Spark Friend. Excellent blog.

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STRIVERONE 1/22/2014 11:53PM

    I know what you are talking about. There was a point when I committed to getting fit and staying that way. Reaching the point where I could be driven more by the moment and less by the goal was a struggle and I suppose I had to force myself to to do my workouts consistently. But it paid off. Now going for a run, hike, or bike ride is routine and something I look forward to every day.

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L*I*T*A* 1/22/2014 7:50PM

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GREENGENES 1/22/2014 7:50PM

    Wow. Very impressive numbers! Great to see the shift in attitude is working so well.

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ONEKIDSMOM 1/22/2014 7:41PM

    I am really tripping on the day 19 revelations that we've all been posting about growth in our individual core beliefs! emoticon Growth in personal development and health all 'round! emoticon

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HIPPICHICK1 1/22/2014 5:34PM

    Wow! Excellent blog.
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Now I have an ear worm. "Driver's Seat" by Sniff and the Tears

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WATERMELLEN 1/22/2014 4:34PM

    Love to see YOU in the driver's seat. I'm so convinced that for me 80% ++ of weight loss/maintenance is the food tracking thing, and I injured myself permanently when I ran 10 km a day trying to out-exercise a crappy diet . . . Exercise, yeah: but not in a self-punitive manner.

Thanks for the generous shout-out.

It's terrific the way in which you are reframing those core beliefs.

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RACEWELLWON 1/22/2014 11:13AM

    Great blog - same here !

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CHANGE4FIT 1/22/2014 10:38AM

    BRAVO! Well said my friend-I am glad to hear your postive tone and read your perspective on assuming the "driver" role. Something we all need to spend more time pondering. Spark on!
PJ

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CRAVINGLIFE 1/22/2014 9:36AM

    I appreciate your words today! Keep up the progress, you are doing great!

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VALERIEMAHA 1/22/2014 9:16AM

    Such important insights and accompanying WELCOME rewards!!!
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DAISYBELL6 1/22/2014 8:57AM

    Fantastic blog. I hear exactly what you're saying about the rationalization of over exercising. Moderation is usually the key.

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SLIMMERJESSE 1/22/2014 8:51AM

    Yes, that's how I backslid last year. I was exercising like a Banshee and felt entitled to eat accordingly. Yikes!

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Killer Fact: 30-40 Percent of Health Care Spending in the U.S. Is Tied to Excess Sugar Consumption

Monday, January 20, 2014

www.alternet.org/food/killer-politic
s-big-sugar


This is an extremely sobering article filled with very eye-opening information such as:

“Basically, the U.S. healthcare system spends about $1 trillion per year (and possibly more) fighting the effects of excess sugar consumption.”

"American politics are organized to protect corporate interests that make voters and taxpayers sick, and there is no better example: in a candy bar or a bowl of healthy granola, sugar is the big stake in the heart of American health."

The article takes care to point out the political problem is non-partisan: BOTH sides of the aisle are more than willing to take money from Big Sugar corporations and their lobbyists.

“In 2009, (sugar) crop producers spent more than $20.5 million on federal lobbying.” ( “How Big Sugar Gets Its Way," The Florida Independent, Sept. 11, 2011) That is the tip of the iceberg. Sugar producers and related industries cumulatively spend billions through dark money channels in political campaigns and “independent” expenditure committees supporting their candidates at all levels of government: from the smallest fry in Florida counties, to the state capitols wherever sugar can be grown. ("Koch-backed political coalition, designed to shield donors, raised $400 million in 2012," Washington Post, 1/7/2014) Sugar money in American politics disappears through the figments of campaign finance law and filaments of law enforcement. The United States is that special snow flake fallen on a pile of white sugar, melted golden by corporations more powerful than people."

More information here about the science behind the dangers of sugar:

www.npr.org/blogs/thesalt/2014/01/15
/262741403/why-sugar-makes-us-feel-so-
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Now I usually take care to keep politics out of my blogs here at SparkPeople, however when it intersects with our health and wellness I think there is value in keeping the Big Picture in mind!

Not because I think we need to lament and shake our heads helplessly, but because the more we are aware of the powerful forces against which we swim, the more we can 1) get ANGRY about this and 2) take actions to counter such forces!

When I see people loading their grocery carts with soda and highly processed carbohydrates I don't judge them: I judge the corporate / political / media SYSTEM that masquerades underneath our supposed free-will and shapes our preferences toward such death & disability-inducing choices!

What actions? A couple I can think of right off the bat is as many of us do: vote with our consumer dollars and avoid buying sugar-laden products. But the more important step is to speak out to our political leaders.

European countries appear to be so much more adept in holding their political leaders responsible for taking actions that benefit the majority of people and hold their leaders to task if they stray from this to serve their own self-interests by allowing corporations to buying out politicians to the detriment of the health and well-being of the people.

Speak out against subsidies for unhealthy industries such as Big Sugar! Ask our leaders: Why can we not subsidize HEALTHY food development? There is precious little help afforded to those who grow our vegetables and fruits.

Make noise: we need to be heard and we need to let our leaders know that we 1) will NOT support them if they don't take active steps to promote our health and wellness but that they will 2) earn our steadfast support if they DO support our health and wellness!

Don

Bonus link: The wonderful Michael Pollan shares his common sense thoughts on the paleo approach to food:

www.motherjones.com/environment/2014
/01/michael-pollan-paleo-diet-inquirin
g-minds


Bonus link #2: Great upbeat message in this song:

LIVE OUT LOUD! by Intervision

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=RGEy
iyyn3yM


Let's all keep Rockin' the SPARK!

  
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LPRUNWALK 1/21/2014 10:07AM

    Thanks for this excellent blog. We do need to make noise on this issue wherever and whenever we can. I tend to do this in one-on-one situations, talking about my own struggles with sugar and encouraging friends to join me in really trying to eliminate it as much as possible while getting used to the taste of food made with less sugar or none at all. Sugar has been such a destructive force in my life that I feel quite passionate about this. Your blog is an important reminder to take these conversations beyond the personal level and into the political realm where decisions about subsidies and support are being made. It is truly sickening to think about how politicians and Big Sugar have worked together to poison the food chain. Action can come from individuals making better choices in their own lives, but macro-level change is also needed in order to improve conditions for those who are not ready to change, feel they can't afford to (not true in most cases!!), or simply don't understand how they are hurting themselves (and their families) by continuing to eat large quantities of processed and sugar-laden food. I will look for opportunities to add my voice to this and thank you for the reminder.

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HIPPICHICK1 1/21/2014 9:37AM

    It's crazy, isn't it? I try very hard to spend ethically (as you mentioned..."voting with our consumer dollars") and talk a lot about food to other people, for example, where it's grown, how it's raised and why organic farms need to spend thousands on proving they are NOT using harmful chemicals on their crops while industrial farming can destroy an ecosystem with their use of chemicals and no one bats an eye at this very backwards rule. But I digress.
Yes, sugar is bad! We were talking about it last night. New research has come to light about sugar and gluten and how it affects the brain to the point of actually making us less intelligent.
Thanks for the link.

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WATERMELLEN 1/21/2014 8:34AM

    Here north of the border, too: absolutely.

How sweet it is? Not at all, not remotely.

And what a relief to see someone else putting forward a political position!! Thanks, Don.

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KANOE10 1/21/2014 8:32AM

    That was informative and excellent. I am right there with you. These sugar mega giant corporations are ruining our health with obesity. There is too much sugar in all of our refined foods. Taking action would be a good thing. Michael Pollan is great.

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CHANGE4FIT 1/20/2014 9:12PM

    emoticon Thanks for sharing and reminding us all that we have a voice in this on many levels.

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GREENGENES 1/20/2014 8:34PM

    Great stuff. You are absolutely right about the European culture and it is very obvious when you live there. I'd love to see a "wellness summit" with our politicians instead of the "prayer summit" they do.

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VALERIEMAHA 1/20/2014 8:32PM

    LIVE OUT LOUD! What a GREAT groove!!! Guess they're a Portland group. The words are excellent too. BTW, the "https://" has to go for the link to work.

And thanks for the important, intense information about how greed impacts our health and our responsibility to rein it in with our votes and actions.

As I said in sharing the Michael Pollan article on Facebook, "Thank you Michael Pollan! I never buy into the 'latest-and-greatest' designer diets, foods, herbs, nutrients, etc., preferring to do my homework, wait, and continue slow-but-sure with a formula that I know works (when I work it!)."


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PATRICIAAK 1/20/2014 7:22PM

    I agree

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FERRETLOVER1 1/20/2014 7:06PM

    emoticon blog!

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STRIVERONE 1/20/2014 1:43PM

    Don,
This is a great blog entry. I'd like to copy it to a closed group Facebook page where I think it will be very helpful. Please message me if that's OK.

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JESPAH 1/20/2014 11:51AM

    Add to this the fact that extra weight in vehicles lowers gas mileage. It doesn't matter where that weight comes from - a sack of kitty litter in the trunk or extra human booty - gas mileage does not care.

Who do you think gets $$ when gasoline is overconsumed and becomes scarcer?

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SLIMMERJESSE 1/20/2014 11:36AM

    I agree. But I still think we have the choice as to whether or not to load our carts up with sugar products.

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RACEWELLWON 1/20/2014 11:35AM

    Don as a coder for years - I have seen the increase of revenue for the hospitals and physicians due to over consumption of sugar and processed food causing fatal illnesses , Hmmm ? Pig Pharma benefits too ! have you ever read any book By Ty Bollinger - good read - been an activist for a while now ! good blog - Karen

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JUST_TRI_IT 1/20/2014 11:27AM

    Action.... yes. Thank you for this sobering blog. As they often say.. follow the money and your action belongs at the source.

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ONEKIDSMOM 1/20/2014 11:16AM

    Good for you. Complaining is one thing. Taking action is the next level of courageous.

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Better Scale-a-tude!

Saturday, January 18, 2014

Felt like I needed a mid-week boost so I jumped on the scale...and three more pounds bite the dust! Beginning to feel my clothes loosen a bit, too.

Yes, I know I won't always have that sort of pay-off, but here's a pay-off I'm planning to hold onto: using the scale as another friend in my journey!

Alongside with hunger, self-support (as opposed to self-bashing) & numbers my scale sidles up to join the powerhouse pack!

I used to play lots of games with the scale and weigh-ins...such as after a weekly weigh-in (yes, a sneaky under-handed method to sticking with only weekly weigh-ins!) I would relax my vigilance and look at the first few days of the week as my "coasting" days where I could "afford" to relax on my food choices. Now THAT'S how to keep the scale the ENEMY!

No longer!

I've been having some nervous thoughts about shifting my approach as the weight slows down but with the wisdom, knowledge and support of the At Goal & Maintenance team I know I'll come up with something that works a whole lot better than what I've done before.

Now: off to a BUSY Saturday of ST, Spinning and moving a ton of pellets for our stove!

Keep the SPARK!

Don

  
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CHANGE4FIT 1/20/2014 9:08PM

    Enjoying reading about your 2014 success with the reset! I always find that the scale is my friend-it is honest with me whether I like it or not and helps guide me and encourage me in making consistent choices.

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GREENGENES 1/19/2014 9:01PM

    Way to go. Keep moving in the right direction.

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2WHEELER 1/19/2014 7:11PM

    Congratulations, Don. Keep up the great work. You'll find what works best for you. Good cycling weather ail be here soon.

I've played those scale "games" too. I changed my weigh in day from Mondays to Wednesdays so I could recover from the weekends. Now I try to weigh myself Friday morning and Monday morning. Sometimes it works; sometimes it doesn't. But at least I'm not scheduling my weigh-in to "buy" myself some time.



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STRIVERONE 1/19/2014 12:49AM

    In spite of all the advice to weigh only once a week, I find that I do best with a daily weigh in. I still play games with Monday morning which is what I call my official weigh-in.

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LUVLYLORELEI 1/19/2014 12:14AM

    Ah. Scale games. I've played them too. Mostly I would skip eating all day until I weighed in at my TOPS meeting at night, rush home and eat all the meals for the day in too short an order. Then I came to my senses one week and realized that if I eat about the same thing each weigh-in day, my weight should be no more or less affected by eating during the day. It's so much more peaceful to not have to run home and binge because I deprived myself.

I'm glad to hear the scales are no longer the enemy! You've reached the goal I would like to get to. I'm still working on that. I'm still trying to get the thing convinced that it should head in the downward direction number wise. Then it will be my friend. emoticon emoticon

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FERRETLOVER1 1/18/2014 3:42PM

    I, too, have been guilty of relaxing my vigilance for a day or two (or three) after a weigh-in - especially when the weigh-in was great. I basically would undo all my hard work. No more of that!

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WATERMELLEN 1/18/2014 12:51PM

    Don, you are doing GREAT!! It's wonderful to feel your confidence and joy of accomplishment!

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_LINDA 1/18/2014 11:11AM

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Wow! Great weight loss!
Maybe that's my problem too -how you described weekly weigh ins, which I am a fan of. That coasting until you get closer to it. Very interesting. Some calorie free food for thought!
Enjoy a healthy weekend!

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SLIMMERJESSE 1/18/2014 9:47AM

    You are an inspiration, for sure!

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KANOE10 1/18/2014 9:01AM

    Great job on losing those three pounds. I know you will figure out a way to make the scale your friend and a tool for maintenance. I am a daily weigher but am no longer scared of the results. I use them to keep me on track.


You are doing a great job of staying on track.

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ONEKIDSMOM 1/18/2014 8:28AM

    Somebody here on Spark referred to the scale as "like a GPS"... it's not your judge, it's just another tool to tell you where you are. I have adopted that point of view with my scale, and it stops the emotional cycle of either relaxation OR judgment. emoticon

Good job!

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WDIPIM 1/18/2014 8:22AM

  great job

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ELRIDDICK 1/18/2014 8:19AM

  Thanks for sharing

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Re-Set Pay-Off!

Wednesday, January 15, 2014

All righty...last week was my first weigh-in so THIS is my first week of seeing the pay-off: SEVEN POUNDS!

Here are some of the numbers I'm seeing on the nutrition tracker:

Daily calories totaling around 1400-1500

Daily carbs totaling around 130-150

Daily protein totaling around 80-100

What confidence boost to see that I really, truly *KNOW* what my body needs and can take control so effectively!

Before going to sleep or when I wake up in the morning feeling that little gnarly twinge of hunger in my belly now brings a smile to my face: my friend is letting me know I'm on the right track! YES!

Let's keep doing all we can to take charge and fill our lives with SPARK! :-)

Don

  
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CHANGE4FIT 1/20/2014 9:05PM

    Great Stats, Don-keep up the good work!!

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ZELLAZM 1/18/2014 5:08AM

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VALERIEMAHA 1/16/2014 9:57PM

    That's DAMNED impressive!!! Man, you've got it GOIN'! I'm curious about your fiber and fat totals as well, if you don't mind sharing. Your trackers don't register via the SparkPage. Difficult program -- no sugar or grains, first meal at noon -- and you're doing it with pizzazz!

I have the same problem that ONEKIDSMOM described on your "Reframing Hunger" blog. And for me her approach feels sound. Third day tracking food and first day that I believe I'll hit the sack having stayed within caloric range. I'm takin' it slow -- you're jammin' it!

The eternal challenge!
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STRIVERONE 1/15/2014 9:51PM

    Wow! A pound a day.

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WILLIS9301 1/15/2014 7:23PM

    Wow! Great job!

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JESPAH 1/15/2014 7:20PM

    Great job on taking charge!!!

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ONEKIDSMOM 1/15/2014 7:12PM

    emoticon first week results! emoticon And keep on keeping on... compliance and making friends with hunger seems to be working for you.

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WATERMELLEN 1/15/2014 2:06PM

    WOW!! That is a fantastic result, yay for you!!

Hunger is certainly an effective message that we're doing the right thing: we're supposed to be hungry for the next meal, no cause for panic at all.

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Way to nail it Don!!!

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DOKEYOKEY 1/15/2014 10:30AM

    I love your comment about hunger. I was sitting in a beautiful concert the other night and sensing that I would have enjoyed it even more if I had more internal spaciousness to let the music vibrate in me. That is -- If I'd eaten less dinner, I would have enjoyed the concert even more.

So glad you are making such beautiful progress!

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RAINBOWFALLS 1/15/2014 9:42AM

    Great job! I too am making some progress. I don't see it on the scale, but I'm eating many more vegetables and fruits and I feel confident about it.

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PRINCESS_SOFI 1/15/2014 9:23AM

    There's nothing worse than waking up and you're still stuffed from last night.

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SLIMMERJESSE 1/15/2014 9:17AM

    Nice! Very inspiring!

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NEENSTER1 1/15/2014 9:11AM

    emoticon on your weight loss.

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KANOE10 1/15/2014 9:06AM

    Great job on the reset and the 7 pounds. I love your quote that hunger is my friend and that it means that you are doing your job!

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Rolling with my Re-Set!

Tuesday, January 14, 2014

I have really gotten rolling with my re-set:

---No sugar, no grains

---Eating only between noon - 8-9pm, resulting in a daily "fast" of 16 hours

---Tracking all food

---Weighing in weekly.

I've avoided the latter two for too long and I don't wanna hit spring filled with coulda/shoulda/wouldas. Being at the upper limit of my clothes...nothing nudges me like THAT!

The irony, which I'm able to take without self-bashing, is that when I finally weighed in last Weds. for the first time in a long time I looked back @ my weight records @ SP only to find my weight was within a pound of where I was a year ago last January! 255. I had succeeded in whittling down to 240 during this past year and allowed it to slide right back up again.

Here's my goal: no more Sisyphean-rock-rolling back up the hill only to allow that rock to fall again! REALLY going to do my utmost to hold onto nutrition tracking and weighing in so that I can hold onto, maintain and add to my progress.

Along with be-friending Hunger and welcoming it almost every night and morning when I wake up, I am making peace with what used to be my OTHER former "mortal enemy": NUMBERS! While I could do better with the whole portion thing and may tighten up in that department, I've made significant improvements.

For example I almost always have a bag of natural, unroasted almonds in my car for snacking. I used to snack on them very mindlessly without limits. Now I find myself being very selective about my almond-munching and count them out while I eat them, remembering that 24 roughly = an ounce. I'll often break up my ounce to 10 or so almonds at a time.

Over the weekend I had a challenge with TWO restaurant visits in one day, one of which was at a BUFFET, no less! The buffet was pretty easy to negotiate as I simply did not allow myself to "wander" into the sweet, desert-y section and stuck (since there were still breakfast items available) to a freshly made omelet with ingredients of my choosing and a slice of turkey.

Later we went to an ITALIAN restaurant where carbie dishes are crawling out of the woodwork! BUT: I found a nice big spinach salad with cranberries, walnuts and blue cheese and opted to top it off with a chicken breast. I used the dressing extremely sparingly and...best of all could only barely eat 1/2 of the salad before feeling "full", not STUFFED. Saved the rest for my my lunch at work the next day.

Which leads to another reward I'm already reaping: my appetite is shrinking. I'm feeling full with less and less food.

Inspired by a Mary Oliver poem shared by VALERIEMAHA:

Flare

12.

When loneliness comes stalking, go into the fields, consider
the orderliness of the world. Notice
something you have never noticed before,

like the tambourine sound of the snow-cricket
whose pale green body is no longer than your thumb.

Stare hard at the hummingbird, in the summer rain,
shaking the water-sparks from its wings.

Let grief be your sister, she will whether or no.
Rise up from the stump of sorrow, and be green also,
like the diligent leaves.

A lifetime isn't long enough for the beauty of this world
and the responsibilities of your life.

Scatter your flowers over the graves, and walk away.
Be good-natured and untidy in your exuberance.

In the glare of your mind, be modest.
And beholden to what is tactile, and thrilling.

~ Mary Oliver ~

(The Leaf and the Cloud: A Poem)

My reaction: There might be something to be gained from re-framing many conditions formerly thought to be "negative".
I've been befriending hunger. Perhaps it's time to start adding others such as loneliness and grief (as mentioned by Oliver) instead of self-medicating with food...even GOOD food! I sometimes find myself gnawing through a bag of baby carrots when something is gnawing at ME.

As I have been learning to "be with" my hunger, it might be worthwhile to spend time "being with" anger, loneliness, anxiety and a host of other emotions formerly thought to be "uncomfortable" and to be avoided at all cost...

Don

  
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ZELLAZM 1/18/2014 5:07AM

    Beautiful poem, spoke to me today.

And thanks again for reminding me to stay hungry!

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MONANISA 1/15/2014 1:57PM

    Taking a look at our habits is always a good start. I think there are many roads to take on this weight loss and life journey what works for you may not work for me but looking taking inventory is a brave start.
Good luck will look forward to reading your progress.

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KANOE10 1/15/2014 9:29AM

    I like that poem. I agree with you..accepting all emotions is important although uncomfortable. You did a great job of navigating through those two restaurants. I am glad your reset is going well.

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GREENGENES 1/14/2014 10:22PM

    Way to go. Glad to see your plan is working.

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_LINDA 1/14/2014 10:19PM

    Wow! Surviving a buffet! Now that is discipline and self control! Being able to tame the Emotional Eating beast? That is the key to survival and success on a weight loss/maintenance program! Sounds like you are ready to launch!
I could never go without a breakfast, for me that sets the energy for the day. I hope this long period of time without food works for you!
Excellent self analysis and thoughts of dealing with problems!
Great work Don!

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ONEKIDSMOM 1/14/2014 7:34PM

    Excellent thoughts about "being with" emotions that had been thought of as negative or uncomfortable. Look them in the face, name them, visit, and let them go when they have run their course.



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PATRICIAAK 1/14/2014 7:28PM

    great realization and resolve.

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L*I*T*A* 1/14/2014 2:48PM

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WATERMELLEN 1/14/2014 12:56PM

    What a great blog -- and what a great Mary Oliver poem.

I do so agree that self medicating against uncomfortable emotion with food hasn't worked for me either . . .

You're communicating a feeling of confidence with this new approach!

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CRAVINGLIFE 1/14/2014 12:49PM

    Really enjoyed reading your post! I always appreciate the things you share because they really make me think about myself and how I can better handle what comes my way.

Keep up the good work and can't wait to hear how you are doing it!

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DAISYBELL6 1/14/2014 11:56AM

    A very uplifting blog from a very good friend on this grey chilly day. Thank you for the reframing concepts. I learn something from all your blogs.

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SLIMMERJESSE 1/14/2014 11:36AM

    Sounds great!

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RACEWELLWON 1/14/2014 11:36AM

    Good for you , Don - that numbers game is messing with me also right now - on the tracker and now the Human Lotus (SPAT) which I like but like many others here on Spark - I was over compensating on the calorie intake due to increase in activity according to the SPAT and I have to say that yes I am working on increased fitness for the Tri and I agree with the increase of nutrition for those activities however , my daily normal activities which do consist of many steps I am not increasing my intake of calories based on that info . emoticon

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