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We'll Never Be The Same Again.............

Tuesday, August 26, 2014

But do we even want to be?

As we go through life, changes happen. We tend to think about a lot of the changes that accompany age as being negative but really they are just different not necessarily bad.

If I knew then what I know now, I would have appreciated my younger self. I should have appreciated the body I resided in at 25 and taken care of it in a manner that it deserved. However, at that time, I was (as always) super critical of my body and too busy (the excuse) to treat that body with respect.

Now, at 62, I look into the mirror and can see so many changes. I may be asked for an ID to get the senior discount (that's something isn't it?) but I haven't been asked to prove my age to buy liquor for many, many years. LOL

But, as I said earlier, all the changes are not bad. I wouldn't want to go back to my 20's, not really, even while I peer at my reflection and recall my former self.

I can look back realistically and know that I was not always as heavy as I thought I was but I can also note that I am far fitter now than I was back then. I am stronger both physically and psychologically.....Ok, I don't have hand strength, my wrists and fingers are exhibiting the ravages of time but I am strong. I can do some things today that I would not have dreamed possible in my 20's. I know that my diet is far healthier than that of those earlier years. I have attained the age of recognizing what is important to me, treasuring and optimizing those things while letting the other "stuff" go. Believe me, that is a valuable lesson that seems to only come with age.

There is an old joke about two bulls standing on a hill out in a field. As the two bulls survey their field, they see a herd of cows looking lovely in the sunshine and the young bull says to the older one...."what do you say we run down this hill and get one of those cows?" The older bull just shakes his head and says " you go right ahead.....but I'm going to walk down there and take them all" emoticon

There is a reason I have had these rambling thoughts today. I read an article here on SP today about getting back into shape after pregnancy. One might think this article had little value for someone like me but in it, that thought about never being the same but better for the miracle of nurturing life, reached me to the core. A reminder that for every season there is a reason. It may seem natural to look with regret at what we've lost but we need to remember what we've gained. All change is not bad.

In the words of "old blue eyes"

Regrets, I've had a few
But then again, too few to mention
I did what I had to do and saw it through without exemption
I planned each charted course, each careful step along the byway
And more, much more than this, I did it my way


Don't be afraid of change my friends. We'll never be the same again, but then we really don't want to be do we?

  
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IFDEEVARUNS2 8/26/2014 5:13PM

    Read that article too, and had similar thoughts.
I've changed in ways I regret, but I also amaze myself by what I am able to do, things I never thought this body was capable of.

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Does a trophy need to be gilt?

Sunday, August 10, 2014

I haven't run a race in a long time. Injuries kept me from the road races and common sense said that recreational running was more appropriate....for a while. LOL

Of course, one sure way to get me to do anything is to call it a mini spark reunion. And that my friends is what happened. Wascallywone had a change in plans and was looking for something to do this weekend. Catantigo, her daughter and her sisters were going to be doing the Tater Trot so it was a natural. Two years ago, my husband and I had done this with Cat and had had a great time. You see where this is going don't you?

Now Debbieck is relocating to another state and even though joining the group meant many hours in the car for a brief visit and lunch, she and her very brave husband joined the group as well. They had other commitments so couldn't be there for the walk/run but got there in time for the reward ceremony when the reunion began.

What a fun thing to do!

But, when I run a race, even when I haven't been training, I have this burning desire to bring home a trophy. That is what got me into trouble in the past don't you know?! Pride goes before the fall!

So....I tried very hard to tell myself NOT to think about the trophy I brought home the last time I ran this race. I told myself to erase the finish time of that prior trot from my memory. Two years older, not adequately trained, no competition for years now...this is about fun, not bling. LOL

My facebook friends already know that I did not bring home a trophy unless you want to call those blisters on the toes of my right foot bling. So I need to ask the question.

Does a trophy need to be gilt?

Remember that I have not raced or trained for this really so when I look at the Garmin info, I am pleased. As is common, my first mile was accompanied by some wheezing and coughing, I should have used my inhaler before starting out but forgot. Doh!! LOL given that, I was surprised to see that mile one was done in 11 minutes. That's ok for me. Miles 2, 3, & 4 were very consistent right around 12 min give or take a few seconds. Not superb race pace perhaps but I'm fine with that since I know that it is a safe pace for me in my untrained state. Unfortunately, some blistered toes from some walks in the last week or so were not as resolved as I thought. Or, rather they were resolved but the skin was young and tender and not tough enough for what I was putting it through. So, mile 5 was slightly slower but still very respectable for me.

Mile six was another story. I was pushing through the discomfort but found it very necessary to walk at times feeling as though the toebox of my right shoe was just one big blister. During this mile, I was still doing a reasonable back and forth with a couple of fellas I recall from that race two years ago...yes, they are older, I know that one of them is in his eighties. I could be tempted to allow pride to make me feel badly in the struggle to keep up with these guys but instead I look at them with admiration and feel honored to be able to run at pace with them for awhile. At one point when I pulled ahead very briefly the older of the two said "that's ok for you to pull ahead, you're half my age!" to which I replied, "I don't think so!" That of course demanded the whole age discussion and when I told him I was 62, LOL, his disbelief was a kind of a trophy for me. Why do I do this? is it for the trophy or is it to be as fit as I can be at any age?

Shortly after this exchange a woman I had been dogging throughout the race looked over her should and asked, "did I hear you say you're 62?" We started to talk as we trotted next to each other and she obviously felt the need to talk. She told me that her mother has cancer and is going through chemo, once again, and it's obvious it's important for her to talk about these concerns. I might have been able to keep my pacing with the guys. Heck, I know I could have. It would have been painful but I had it in me. But....I took advantage of this other trophy of running these races....connection with others. The final 3/4 mile was much slower. Who cares? Maybe I wouldn't have made it onto the awards stage anyway but if I had, would it be any better take away than the brief connection to another runner? I don't think so!

So, the 2014 Tater Trot was a prize winner for me. Time with friends. Finding out that I have more in me than I might have thought. Affirmation that continuing to work at this health and fitness journey is worth it....surprising folks with your age is fun! And finally, being human, connecting to others.....You know? I think these things are all gilt! emoticon

  
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MNTWINSGAL 8/11/2014 5:05PM

    What a great day! I hope you all went to the Mexican restaurant after a race well run or walked! Or in your case Donna....both! Sure wish I'd have been with you all.

Donna, I'm competitive too, so I can imagine how badly you wanted that bling. But you have bling in your heart from all the great connections you made at the Tater Trot. That's the best kind!

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WASCALLYWONE 8/11/2014 7:55AM

    Don't forget your bag of potatoes....a prize?? LOL!!! Maybe you can paint one gold and Steve can mount it on a block of wood. That might make you smile, for a little while, until it starts to smell. Haha..

We all "won" that day! Dave and I had 17 min. mile average, which is better than the 20 min. miles I usually attribute to myself on walks. I made a new friend and future walking partner in Stacy, and we connected and had some laughs with sisters, waiters and friends. WIN!! emoticon

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CATANTIGO 8/10/2014 4:11PM

    It was a wonderful day, for sure. I'm so glad you and Steve came to Antigo. Congrats on a race well run!

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JANET552 8/10/2014 11:23AM

    I think you got more than one trophy out of the Tater Trot even if it can't be put on display!

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HELP!!!!! I'm a prisoner!

Thursday, July 31, 2014

I love my technology!

Access to internet has allowed me to make friends I would have otherwise never met.

When you live in the sticks, being able to shop, research and educate is like a gift.

My fitbit flex nudges me to move even though I can only dream of catching up to Janet. LOL And my Garmin runs with me like the best running buddy....warning me to slow or pushing me to speed up and cheering me on when I make my distance for the day or when I study my log.

I LOVE my technology.....................except when it doesn't work. LOL

No, my patient friends, I am not going to repeat the harangue of the cellphone saga of the past few days. I promised you, kind pals, the drama queen will settle down.

This morning while I was on line sparking and checking e-mail, I tried to look at my fitbit dashboard and kept getting a message that I had no internet connection....not true! BooHoo! My look at the step board for my daily inspiration...not to be. My sleep log...not available. I felt lost. Stupid, but it's that morning routine and I guess fix that I just couldn't fulfill. sigh

By the time I was done with my other on line tasks, (yes, we're registered for the Tater trot!) whatever was going on with fitbit was resolved.

Now, I was ready to head out for a run and since I am going to do a distance run, I really wanted my Garmin....I charged it as usual after my last run the other day and set it in it's place of readiness turned off and ready for me....but as I synced the device at the end of my driveway, it told me that the battery is low. WTH?

Back into the house to put it on the charger and I think I see the problem, at first it wasn't making a good, constant connection with the charger...the pins need cleaning...it's been a while since I had done this and since I sweat like a piggy....well.
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Are the tech gods crazy? If you're familiar with that screwy movie you'll understand when I say I feel as though a coke bottle has just hit me in the head! LOL

I LOVE my technology! Now, if I'm charged up, I think I'll go for my run.

  
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MNTWINSGAL 8/1/2014 11:15PM

    Life is so different now than it was even 15 years ago. Now I spend countless hours every week working with my various toys -- Internet, smart phone, fitbit, etc...but much less time watching TV or talking on the phone....so it all works out I guess.

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WASCALLYWONE 8/1/2014 8:50PM

    We loved that movie, "The Gods Must Be Crazy!" emoticon Janet is right; you're troubles are over!

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JANET552 8/1/2014 11:08AM

    I hope you had a great run!! I think technology has really given you the business lately. Maybe it's the trouble runs in threes idea -- fitbit, phone, Garmin -- and now you're done. Hope it's so!!



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CATANTIGO 8/1/2014 10:00AM

    You stole my words. I just told someone how different school is nowadays. The technology allows for so much more, until it doesn't work. Then you're really stuck. But I wouldn't want to give it up now. How else would we have met?

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GINIEMIE 7/31/2014 7:19PM

    Technology is a bane and a blessing. Guess you got hit with both ends. Glad you were able to figure out your Garmin issue and that your fitbit problem redressed itself.

Personally I'd like to bury my head in the sand vis-a-vis technology, but then I wouldn't have you and Janet as my friends. I still don't like the TomTom I was given for mother's day to replace my Garmin-I was comfortable with my Garmin even though we've done a few roundabouts with it in the last year.
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NIKKIV2 7/31/2014 3:27PM

    I have missed reading your blogs! Hope all your technology problems get resolved and you can enjoy yourself for a few days without any headaches! :)


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Pardon My Random Thoughts............

Friday, July 25, 2014

They say the most powerful sex organ is the brain.

Hmmmmm......

I say the most powerful tool we have for making changes in our lives, is our brain.

I was thinking on Wednesday's run " how many times have I done this?" The route I was running certainly but I was really thinking about my efforts to lose weight or change my habits. I couldn't remember exactly when dieting became a regular part of my life but I could remember it being a major part of my life in junior high and high school for sure and off and on through college and my adult life. I suspect, that I had even started to think about it earlier than all that but perhaps I didn't follow any specific plans until my teens when all of the sure fire weight loss plans were available to me in the magazines I read.

Was I successful? Sometimes. Did I make any permanent changes? Sure, I changed my metabolism with all the screwy diets. But mostly, I didn't change in any real ways when it came to eating or living in a healthy manner.

My friend Janet552, posted a blog titled sometimes. In it she spoke of the sometimes things that (as her Dr. would note) she doesn't need but she wants and has increased the sometimes frequency to sometime every day or certainly sometimes every week or more often.

It was Janet's post that was on my mind as I ran because it spoke to me. I don't believe (any longer) in going on sever restriction diets or denying any particular food or drink but rather trying to eat and drink in moderation and truly enjoy the things that might otherwise be off limits on diets. I learned the hard way that saying I would never be able to have pizza or ice cream or chocolate among other desired things only made those items even more desirable
and guaranteeing that given the opportunity to eat the forbidden item, I would over indulge.

The reason I FINALLY had more success here on sparkpeople is that I have not banned anything. Of course another reason is my friends like Janet who have led me through my discovery of my inner workings, sometimes when my friends were merely sharing their own light bulb moments.

But......even with success, I gained weight last winter and I've been ready to put all of the blame on the weather. The weather played a part. It kept me from exercising as much but the real blame belongs on my continuing to enjoy more of the things that should have been "sometimes" things when I wasn't burning as much. emoticon

This isn't a new thought really, but you know how it is, we can choose to ignore certain facts or imagine they aren't as important as they are. The mind IS powerful.

Power can be harnessed and used for good as long as we see that we have been deluding ourselves.

Yesterday I gathered my running clothes and placed them at the ready. My plan was to run early, a habit I have allowed to slide.

Again, thinking about the power of the mind, when I was training for a race, I took my training very seriously and on a day a run was scheduled, I would go...rain, snow, heat or cold be d6m8ed! LOL More recently, running for recreational as opposed to training purposes, I have allowed the heat or other excuses to become like the sometimes things that happen most of the time. Just as bad as eating chocolate every day by the way.

Ok, I ran today. It was an ok run. No it was better than ok but I need to get back to running more and improving my endurance and speed.

As I ran, a song appeared in my playlist, you probably don't know it, it's an oldie. Build me up Buttercup. An upbeat song that I have always loved. Today, when I heard the words.......why do you build me up buttercup, just to let me down......I thought about my body and how often I have done this..........and then worst of all, you never call (RUN) baby when you say you will.....

The brain is our most powerful tool.

  
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WASCALLYWONE 7/27/2014 1:32PM

    A song in your heart and resolve in your brain. You can't lose! (I mean you WILL lost the weight.) Great blog! Again.

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CATANTIGO 7/26/2014 8:24AM

    Oh sure, now I'll be humming that song all day. LOL

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MNTWINSGAL 7/25/2014 6:43PM

    Thanks for the ear worm Donna!

But seriously, you are spot on as always. I just need to get my brain on the right page like you've usually managed to do!

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IFDEEVARUNS2 7/25/2014 2:44PM

    Ah yes, I too remember that song. Love the analogy.

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On to Plan B

Friday, July 18, 2014




I worked with a dear friend who was so good at turning a frown upside down. It was a big trip on the rail cars so we brought him in to be chef and I served as his sous chef along with my on board services management duties.

It was one of those trips when the challenges occurred at an ever increasing rate. This was not uncommon on these trips. Using vintage rail equipment comes with almost guaranteed mechanical issues and schedules are seemingly merely suggestions. While prepping for the first breakfast of the trip, I had gone to another car to pull something from a freezer. When I opened the freezer it seemed as though things were not frozen hard, I could hear it running and didn't have time to investigate thoroughly at that moment and thought that perhaps the bartender had been in the freezer looking for ice and hadn't closed the latch tightly. I closed the box and made a mental note to come back as soon as possible to check on it. As it happened, on my return to the kitchen I was working in, my husband stepped in having the dining room ready for business and a few minutes to spare. I asked him to go to the other car with his temp gun and see what he could see....Sure....you already guess it, the freezer wasn't working right, low on refrigerant or something and it was functioning as a simple icebox, holding what cold it could since it was filled solid with frozen food......food that was fast working toward un-frozen. Time to start breakfast service so I assigned two of the other crew members to go pull all the meat out of that freezer and haul it to other cars and other freezers (this of course meant that food is totally scattered among the cars and every prep job was an adventure.) I also had them note those things where the thawing was advanced and bring those things to our refrigerator in the dining/kitchen car. After breakfast service was completed and lunch prep begun, my friend and I sat down with the week's menus to discuss what needed to be used first. This sequence seemed to be repeated over and over again when air conditioning failed and we decided to create lighter meals than had been planned, and of course the refrigeration and freezer issues were found to be a recurrent theme. Days when we were supposed to be tied up over night with passengers supposedly free to eat out on their own never happened. Joey and I would sit down to come up with another plan. Every time we sat down to plan, Joey would say...." where are we...Plan F or are we plan S?" or something equally amusing as we worked our way all the way through the alphabet.

I've been thinking about my pal as I have been needing to move through my own alphabet of plans.

I had been doing the 28 day bootcamp DVD and trying to keep very closely to the subscribed plan. I got 2/3 of the way through the program before I felt that maybe I needed to make some adjustments for my personal age, abilities and needs.

Of course, I first was feeling disappointment at what seemed to be failure on my part. I reasoned with myself that Coach Nicole always encourages a person to do what they can do well and stay at a level if that is right, but it still seemed as though I should push on. I did for a while and continued with my fairly intense cardio routine, but encountered a day when I had to admit I might be over training.

I took a day off. Got back on schedule and again was having a rough time. Another day off, then a day when life got in the way and now I was two days off. I went for a scheduled run and had a lot of breathing difficulty. Was another allergen making an appearance? I had backed off of some of my allergy meds when I thought the worst of the allergy season had passed. I had neglected to take my inhaler with me and my run became driven by heart rate and pulmonary function. As I struggled through the run, I mentally questioned if I had forgotten a dose of my medication for my heart rhythm. I take this med every other day and though I usually portion out two weeks of meds at a time to insure that I don't forget, it sometimes happens. But no, I shouldn't have gotten off schedule. It doesn't feel as though I'm having rhythm issues and usually if I do, my HR reads lower than it is rather than running high. Do I perhaps need to increase my meds to a daily dose? Is something else going on?

Or, is it just one of those runs? And do I really need to re-think my exercise regime?

After the run, I take my BP and continue to check my BP and pulse intermittently over the course of the next couple days. I check the allergy index and Yikes! the mold count is very high...a known allergen for me, guess I need to go back on the other meds. sigh. And I continue to think about plans C,D,E,F................LOL.

Yesterday's run was much better with the additional allergy meds. I didn't note any rhythm issues over the last several days and with the exception of the day when I struggled with my allergies, my BP is consistently far too low to increase those meds anyway, so good thing. I am left with the conclusion that I need to pursue a less aggressive ST program considering my unique cardiovascular situation.

Go with the flow...........on to plan B!

  
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JANET552 7/19/2014 7:56PM

    Ah, all reasoned out. Good for you and I hope you find the Plan that is made for you.

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MNTWINSGAL 7/19/2014 1:41PM

    I agree with our SparkSisters who think you're a smart cookie to figure these things out. You know your body well, and I know you will figure out what's best in the long run. (har-har...get it?) But don't feel like a failure if you abandon your latest goal -- after all, it's not worth risking your health for. You'll come up with an even greater plan, even if it's necessary to get to plan Z and then start over at AA, BB, etc.

And I loved glimpsing into your life working on the railroad too!

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WASCALLYWONE 7/19/2014 1:03PM

    Wow! I didn't know you had all THAT going on. And yet you go on. And on, and on. Donna, you have perhaps prescribed your regime for the long term. As Cat said, you are a smart girl!

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CATANTIGO 7/19/2014 8:34AM

    You're just so smart. I'm glad you got it all figured out.

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