Monday, November 17, 2008
It's been a very long time since I've logged on...even longer since I've written anything here.
I'm not exercising. I hate to admit it. But it's true. I've gained, since February, about 20 pounds. What the Hell?! I was so determined NOT to regain and here I've done it.
My food choices are pretty good, most of the time. But I have been snacking after dinner. I think the snacks combined with lack of exercise have done me in. My clothes are all tight and uncomfortable. I'm self-conscious. I hate it.
I refuse to buy bigger clothes, so right now I'm seriously limited in what I can wear. I keep thinking if I'm uncomfortable, maybe that will motivate me. But it seems to be having the opposite effect. Maybe if I go to the consignment shop and get one or two outfits that fit right and that I feel like I look okay in, I'll feel better about myself and THAT will motivate me. I don't know.
I hate to write entries like this...probably why I've not been writing or even going to sparkpeople. That would make me a fair weather sparker, huh? Only here when I'm feeling positive and probably need it least!
So there it is...in all its honesty and glory. I'm feeling and looking not so great. I'm looking for a change...a motivator...a spark...where better to find that than at SparkPeople?!
In Peace, Light and Love,