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Tuesday, November 18, 2008

This is specifically for MaineRocks and MetalBabe...you two are awesome. You always have a kind word for me and pick me up when I'm feeling low. I'm so amazed at how much I really like the two of you, without ever having met you! I'm so thrilled to have "found" you.

If ever you find yourself in upstate NY, you have a place to stay! I mean it. (As long as you don't have animal allergies, that is...although you'd still be welcome, just perhaps not comfortable!)

Thanks so much for your kindness, friendship and encouragement. I do believe I'm going to get back on track...how could I not with such a great support system? (Why have I not reached out for help before now?!)

In Peace, Light and Love,

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METALBABE 11/18/2008 10:54AM

    Thanks, Kim! Same goes for you if you are in Portland (and same disclaimer about the cat hair!). It is amazing to me how much we can have in common and how close we can feel to people we have never met. I think it has to do with vulnerability - we all share some pretty intimate things here on Spark. You are always safe with us, and we are here to give you a kick in the pants if you need one!

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MAINEROCKS 11/18/2008 9:09AM

    aw! thanks for the shout out! :-) i am also so glad to have "met" you. i feel like we have been friends for ages. same goes to you if you are ever in Boston, and apparently the cat hair here won't bother you. ;-)

you have us here to cheer you on! now back to business... any brainstorming ideas for the new exercise plan? :-)

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It's been so long....far too long!

Monday, November 17, 2008

It's been a very long time since I've logged on...even longer since I've written anything here.

I'm not exercising. I hate to admit it. But it's true. I've gained, since February, about 20 pounds. What the Hell?! I was so determined NOT to regain and here I've done it.

My food choices are pretty good, most of the time. But I have been snacking after dinner. I think the snacks combined with lack of exercise have done me in. My clothes are all tight and uncomfortable. I'm self-conscious. I hate it.

I refuse to buy bigger clothes, so right now I'm seriously limited in what I can wear. I keep thinking if I'm uncomfortable, maybe that will motivate me. But it seems to be having the opposite effect. Maybe if I go to the consignment shop and get one or two outfits that fit right and that I feel like I look okay in, I'll feel better about myself and THAT will motivate me. I don't know.

I hate to write entries like this...probably why I've not been writing or even going to sparkpeople. That would make me a fair weather sparker, huh? Only here when I'm feeling positive and probably need it least!

So there it is...in all its honesty and glory. I'm feeling and looking not so great. I'm looking for a change...a motivator...a spark...where better to find that than at SparkPeople?!

In Peace, Light and Love,

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METALBABE 11/17/2008 10:05PM

    Hi Kim -
Let me start by saying that I am SO GLAD that you wrote! I have actually been thinking about you a lot, and wondering how you were. You sound like so many of us right now - a little stuck, a lot frustrated, and definitely in need of our Spark friends. Here we are! I want to acknowledge a few specific things you said. First, the fact that WHAT you are eating is generally good is a huge thing. Exercise and calories are things you know how to do, and you will now that you are back. Baby steps. The second thing is about being "uncomfortable." I have come to believe that being uncomfortable in your own skin - let alone your clothes - is a crappy motivator (at least for me). Sentencing myself to discomfort feels like punishment, and just adds to my low self-esteem. Be good to yourself, whatever that may mean for you. You would do the same for us!
Good to have you back.

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MAINEROCKS 11/17/2008 9:36AM

    You are right... you have come to the right place to reverse that trend! I think for starters you have to get back into that exercise groove ASAP. Maybe also track your calories for a couple days so you have a good visual of what the night time snacking is doing to your waistline.

Time to put your foot down and get that scale moving the right way again. I vote NO for the new clothes. Start a two week "fast break" once you get the exercise plan in place and you can use the new clothes as a reward.

You have done it before and you can do it again. :-)

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Terrible at regular blogging...

Sunday, October 05, 2008

...it's been an insanely crazy last three weeks...no time tonight to play catch up...menstruating, so not weighing for a few days. Eating has been okay...more when there's time. I am still among the living!

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MAINEROCKS 10/6/2008 9:15AM

    glad you are still alive! :-) hope all is well!

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METALBABE 10/6/2008 12:25AM

    Thanks for the update/checking in! Good to know you are hanging in there through the craziness.

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Battery Replaced!

Thursday, September 11, 2008

And not only did I not die from not having the scale functional for two days, but I was able to see the number go down a bit. I wonder if I can force myself to weigh myself every other day...naw, I doubt it!

(Darryl and I had a little bet going on...my number went down further than his number on the scale, so I won a back rub! Yes!)

Anyway, I'm loving work again. Going in early as opposed to at the last possible second. We're on the third floor so I'm exercising all throughout the day, in addition to the walks with the furry four-legged children. And I've joined the Y and now need to get the pool schedule to see when I can work swimming into my life. (The only form of exercise I really enjoy!)

Gotta run...work calls...and I don't mind answering! ;D Have a fabulous day!

In Peace, Light and Love,

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DCFKAF 9/11/2008 1:46PM

    I think you may be right, MetalBabe!

As always, thanks, MaineRocks!

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METALBABE 9/11/2008 12:55PM

    Sounds like "replacing your batteries" is a great metaphor for what you have been experiencing. Good on ya!

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MAINEROCKS 9/11/2008 10:48AM

    Way to go girl! ;-)

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Tuesday, September 09, 2008

The scale battery finally died. It's been going for a while now. I just couldn't get it to "turn on" this morning. I HATE not weighing myself first thing in the morning! I called Darryl at work to have him pick up a new one on the way home tonight.

Running late for a meeting!

In Peace, Light and Love,

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DCFKAF 9/9/2008 7:24PM

    Well, I am a bit obsessed...I fully admit it! I dress according to what the scale says and, unfortunately, it dictates my mood. And without it, I just don't know what to do!!!

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MAINEROCKS 9/9/2008 9:39AM

    LOL. that would be a yikes for me too! i weigh myself every morning and feel out of my routine if i'm away for the weekend and without my scale! not obsessed, just part of the routine.

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