Sunday, February 14, 2010
I did ok, I didn't eat my emotions which is a good thing. I still need to get a eating schedule down. I am still not eating healthy meals like I need to. I am finding it very hard to do. I have always had jobs that had consistent hours so it made it easy to plan out meals. Now, with hours all over the place, I am finding it really really hard to do that. My biggest problem is I can't eat a good meal at work because I have IBS or very sensitive stomach, doctors can't decide. so, eating at work leads to stomach problems and my job doesn't always allow me to get to the bathroom when I need to so I am stufk not eating that much. By the time I get home I am starved and very tired and put those together makes it hard to cook a good home made healthy meal. This is a work on progress, I sure hope I can find a way to do it.
My boyfriend did well,, no major amount of candy for vday.. the stuffed animal he got me did have candy but it is the hard candy type and I am not crazy over it,, so that won't be a huge temptation for me
So overall, this week has been just ok. I certainly dont mean to sound cruel or anything but one poster did happen to mention if I want to do it I will. I know she meant well but it got me to thinking,, that is not necessarily true. YES I want to do it but me being overweight has so much more than it being I am eating to much because I over eat. For me, eating is so intertwined with how I am feeling that it is almost one. What I mean is the only way I know how to sooth myself is to eat and I did it for years without even realizing it. So just stopping because I want to is not true,,,, It is easier to say "I am going to do it" than it is to actually do it. It is tough letting your best friend go. I think emotional eaters have it even tougher, you have to mourn the loss of your friend. All other addictions you cut it completely out of your life, you can't do that with food you have to learn to eat it in moderation and learn to eat only when your hungry physically and not eat it when your emotionally hungry. Just my two cents