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UPDATE: I Have NOT Forgotten SP

Sunday, December 07, 2014

Sorry to my groups that I have been away for so long. Things turned a little sideways here and I took a break from my computer for a bit outside of doing my side job of medical transcription. I am finally making bonuses at my night job and feeling a bit less stressed.

Things are a bit of a mixed bag right now, but overall life is pretty good.

As my status update says I have a new way to stay motivated and challenge myself a bit. I got a new phone and we got a "toy" to go with it. I now have a Samsung Gear 2 that has a built in pedometer, heart rate monitor, and an app for tracking activity and such. Haven't done much research on it just yet but I will learn as I go. I wanted to do this to see how many calories I burn just walking around at my day job. If it doesn't seem to be that many it may finally kick my butt back into gear to go for my lunch-time walks, or maybe an early morning walk as I am at my work site well in advance of when I need to be there.

I want to thank all my Spark People supporters who remind me every now and then that I have been away too long. Hopefully I will now be able to squeeze some time in here on SP now that I am not stressing so much about making my minimums for my evening job and trying not to kill certain co-workers at my day job. emoticon

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PRUPLEBEAR 12/9/2014 11:56AM

    I am so glad things are going pretty good for you! I was so happy to see a new blog from you! Dork it up my friend!

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4-1HEALTHYCYNDI 12/8/2014 2:19PM

    New gadgets can be very motivating. Good luck with your experiment. Have fun!

PS: Happy to hear you are less stressed now.

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TWEETYKC00 12/7/2014 11:02AM

    I hope things can go well for you, you deserve it. Hugs.

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Much too Young to Feel this Darned Old

Monday, September 01, 2014

I seem to be disappearing on here a lot. It seems I am only around on long weekends or when I get unexpected time off from work.

I am hoping September will be a better month for me. I weighed in for August and I am the EXACT same weight as in June (or was it July?? emoticon ), 120.53 pounds. While this is in the "normal" range for my height I am still not at the weight I want to be which is closer to 115 than 120. I know I should be happy that at least I am maintaining in the range I want, I am not and I really don't know why.

I feel run down all the time and I have ZERO motivation to get up off my butt and actually work out. I mean I do have a physical job (cleaning cars inside and out, carrying around body panels for said cars and walking on average 12,000 steps per day) I still feel like a "failure" in the exercise department. I suppose instead of coming home and hopping straight on my computer I could be doing something more productive and have tried that but I am stuck in the mind set that 10-20 minutes of exercise is not going to help (I used to be up very early to get in at least 40-50 minutes of workout time before work, that hasn't happened since hubby got a new job last year that requires me to be up at 3:15AM and out the door no later than 4:15AM now).

I am going to see my doctor about my injury from last month which healed nicely but is still itchy and seems to have a slight loss of feeling around the area I gouged out. Maybe I will discuss the tired/run down feeling at that time with him. Although, the last few times all that I have gotten is a list of standard blood work that shows nothing. It always comes back as completely normal, which I find suspect as I have suffered from anemia on and off my entire life. I should also ask for a more or less full physical considering the last time I had any screening tests for the girly bits was about 16 years ago. I did have a screening mammogram done 2 years ago that showed nothing. I guess I don't like to bother my doctor with what I consider my minor ailments but perhaps it is time to give him the entire laundry list of day to day symptoms that I have and see if he can rationalize them away or give me a clue what they could mean.

I think I am afraid to be honest with my doctor because of the family history on both sides for heart disease and stroke, cancer and other various disorders which seem to have a link to genetics. Working as a medical transcriptionist gives me insight to things I'd rather not think about but at 42 it is time to grow up a bit and fight for a body that doesn't feel more like it is 102.

Thanks for "listening" if you made it through the tangle of my thoughts. Now to go find something productive to do on this cloudy holiday Monday.

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BLONDEDOG 10/14/2014 11:22AM

    I am hoping that you went to your doctor for a full physical....those girly bits are important. Not to mention the heart bit.

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4-1HEALTHYCYNDI 9/4/2014 6:01PM

    Definitely speak with your doctor!!!! It is tough to pin down those niggling little things but be honest. There might be something more at work than you know. It is better to know what is going on and deal with it than worry about it. I know this for a fact.

As for the other, your body is still healing from that gouge. When my body is in pain or healing from and injury I have exactly 0 excess energy to get things done.

Hope things calm down for you and you can get your vvvrrrooom going again.

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PRUPLEBEAR 9/1/2014 6:37PM

    Say something to you Dr. Hugs! DORK on My friend

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TWEETYKC00 9/1/2014 4:43PM

    Get to that doctor and say something, that is what the doctor is there for! How can they help if you don't ask? I hope you can get some help.

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KNEEMAKER 9/1/2014 2:10PM

  Keep on Keeping on! This will sound silly but I was on a plateau and never thought I would ever start losing again. Then I read about starvation mode. I upped my daily calories by 500 and within 2 weeks my weight starting dropping again. Better than that I started feeling much better. Instead of being tired, I began to feel great again. It sounded stupid to me to increase my calories and actually start losing again but it worked for me. Perhaps you are starving yourself and need more nutrients for your body to perform. Read up on starvation and what your body does to overcome it. It may help you also. Good luck on your Life Journey. Enjoy every minute of every day. emoticon

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Feeling Frustrated

Friday, August 08, 2014

Yesterday was a bad day to be me. I went to go get fuel in one of our courtesy vehicles and rearended another vehicle (this will cost the shop I work for about $900 to fix). I am ever so grateful that my boss is not one to yell or lose his temper easily. Then about an hour and a half later I was attempting to cut a vacuum hose that had snapped on me so I could continue cleaning a car and wound up taking a good chunk out of my left index finger with the razor blade I was using to cut the vacuum hose emoticon It didn't really hurt when I did it and I just asked where the first aid kit was, cleaned it up and went on with my day. During lunch however it still felt like it was bleeding and it had been 2 hours with a Band-Aid covering it fairly tight. I went to my supervisor and showed it to him and he was like you need the ER, it needs a stitch. I knew there was no way it was going to get stitched because I was missing a fairly good chunk out of the finger (I was correct on this), so I went to a walk-in clinic rather than ER. At this point it had been over 3 hours since I cut myself and figured it was not really an emergency.

I waited for an hour and a half to be seen in the clinic and I was correct that while a stitch might be possible it would be more painful and may not stay in place according to the doctor who saw me. I agreed so I am using an antibiotic ointment and bandages to keep the wound infection free (I hope) and clean. The doctor wanted me to take 7 to 10 days off but I can't sit around that long and as it isn't really painful for me I told her I would take Friday and the entire weekend off but I would go back to work on Monday. I promised to keep it covered with a bandage and I will also use Nitrile gloves to keep it dry and as free of dirt as possible while at work. I would have entertained the idea of at least 4-5 days off if we weren't going to be short-handed next week with 2 people on vacation and we have a new person starting that I have to help train.

I am hoping next week and all the following weeks are a lot less eventful.

On a happier note I will be going to watch the WWE matches with my hubby and kids as a birthday present for the hubby.

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RASPBERRY56 8/16/2014 4:11AM



Please take care and stay safe - you've had a bad enough week and don't need any more issues! Enjoy that WWE time!

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MOMMA_BEAR_69 8/16/2014 2:08AM

    Prayers for rapid and complete healing for your finger. Glad you went and had it checked!!! Sorry you had such a rotten day!!!
Prayers, blessings and hugs,

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PRUPLEBEAR 8/10/2014 6:49PM

    Hugs. Hope your finger feels better soon. Have a nice time at the WWE. Get your dork on.

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    So sorry about your bad day, man when it rains it pours. I hope your finger heals well without problems. Glad you get to get out with family for an evening out. Make good memories. Hugs

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TWEETYKC00 8/9/2014 11:06AM

    Hugs, i hope the pain isn't bad. I hope you have better days ahead.

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NELLJONES 8/9/2014 7:57AM

    I hope it heals without incident.

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A Little "Racing Tomato" (Let's Play Ketchup)

Saturday, July 05, 2014

As you can see I have made a few changes to my page. I have made it visible to those on my SP Friends list only and I have changed my background to an anime version of my favourite video game hero Link.

I have finally done my weigh in and while I am not happy with the results I am happy that the damage isn't worse than it is. I am currently at 5.3 pounds above my goal weight but still just barely over the top of my maintenance range (I wanted to stay at 120 or under, had been hovering around 115-117 before). I think a part of the reason may have been not drinking enough water combined with some poor food choices. I also noticed that my last weigh in was in February 2014 and without at least a monthly check in I got lax on my routine.

With summer fast approaching it will be easier to eat more fruits and veggies as it is too hot to eat anything heavy and after going to the amusement park with the family on Canada Day (July 1) I found hot weather + heavy/greasy food = upset tummy.

Not sure if I mentioned it on my last post but at my last visit to my gastroenterologist I was told that I only needed to go back to him if I noticed any changes in my general digestive heath. I am also down to taking my medications only 2 to 3 times a week instead of daily. After much discussion he told me that it is very likely that the stress of my old job was causing a lot of the ulcer and GERD symptoms which in the past 3 months have settled and only flare up when I eat poorly or eat stuff that is too spicy.

I am trying to remain active here but am finding it difficult with limited time between 2 jobs but I am finding more enjoyment lately and hope that things continue on the up swing.

Not the most flattering picture of me but taken when we got home from the football game for our anniversary. Decided to take the hubby and girls to the game as his gift, he also got a personalized jersey.

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4-1HEALTHYCYNDI 7/9/2014 1:42PM

    Happy Anniversary! Sounds like you are doing better overall. I'm so pleased to hear that you are taking less meds. Fantastic! I also wish your life continues on the upswing.

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TWEETYKC00 7/6/2014 10:55AM

    Happy anniversary! I hope things can look up for you. Hugs.

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MOMMA_BEAR_69 7/5/2014 8:47PM

    HAPPY ANNIVERSARY!!! Sounds like you had a good time!!!
Just remember to do the best you can each day. That's all you can do!!!
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Blessings and hugs,

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PRUPLEBEAR 7/5/2014 4:02PM

    DORK on!

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ZRIE014 7/5/2014 1:14AM

  great. have a good day. emoticon

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Feeling Like a Slacker

Friday, June 06, 2014

Right now I have not checked my weight, tracked my food or tracked my exercise. My clothes aren't tight yet but then again most of my clothes were too big anyhow because let's face it I am too cheap to go out and buy new clothes. I work in a place where what I wear really doesn't matter (I detail cars for a living). I go to work wearing HUGE T-shirts and jeans along with my lovely 3 lbs a piece safety shoes (I opted for "cute" steel toes shoes rather than boots). I no longer go for my lunch time walks, but 5 days a week I do get an average of 15,000 steps. On the weekends I sit for about 20 hours over 2 days doing my other job and I just feel like there is no time for me anymore.

I have taken to bringing a book or a knitting project with me to work on during my lunch break, which lately has contained way more fast food and pop than good healthy stuff. I have no one to blame but myself. I am finding it hard to want to eat anymore baby carrots and I can only eat so much celery but the other veggies I like are too pricey right now and I am also trying to buy only Canadian grown fruit and veg which limits what is available. I did break this rule and bought some strawberries that came from California and I thought they tasted bland.

I am also finding it difficult to function as I am up at 3:30 AM to get hubby to work by 4:45 (20 minute commute and need breakfast before we leave), then I go to my work place and sleep for 2 hours in the car (can't afford a 2nd one right now and we live to far away to come home after taking him to work). My work schedule has changed a bit and I now work 8 to 5-5:30 which is better than it was for the previous 9 years at my old employer (7-7:30 start time and not leaving until 5:45-6:30). I do work another part time job in the evenings from home.

I know what needs to happen and part of it would be getting a second vehicle on the road but that just seems so wasteful to me when hubby and I have to be in similar locations, unfortunately at very dissimilar times. I know things could be worse, hubby and I are both employed we will be watching our oldest daughter graduate from her trades program next week and our youngest will be learning to drive this summer. There is so much to be thankful for but right now all I can see is the deep dark hole I have dug myself into and I don't know how to get back out.

My hubby is very supportive and we talk a lot about where we want to be but just don't know how to get there.

I will end on a very positive note that my new job (started at an auto body repair shop as a production assistant 2 months ago) is going VERY well. I am asked my opinion, it is heard and I get a "thank you for your hard work today" that is actually sincere. It is not all positive feedback that I get but anything "negative" is done constructively and with helpful tips on how to do it better next time. Today we put out 8 cars that had to be detailed inside and out and things were good. I am enjoying my job again and actually look forward to going to work now, it is no longer a chore to be endured. I do a lot of lifting and moving but it is not the same as actually working out (today I was moving bumpers, fenders and helped to move a few larger items like doors and side panels as well, it is a lot of fun), which I think is the crux of my problems above.

This got really long and I thank you all if you made it this far. It seems I complain a lot but this is cheaper than therapy emoticon

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4-1HEALTHYCYNDI 6/9/2014 7:48PM

    First **HUGS**
Second... don't be so hard on yourself. You are adjusting to a new lifestyle. One with a shared car and less sleep. It takes time to adjust to the new situation. Now you are thinking about what you truly want, it seems the adjustment period is coming to an end.

Perhaps you could change your routine a bit and find a park, or gym (low cost of course) and do some exercise in the between time or go for a walk before work. I've found that exercising in the morning before work really works for me.

Glad to hear you are enjoying the new job! With your daughter learning to drive it might be time to get that second car. 3 people with 1 car is tough. I've been there done that with the one car for the family. It is tough and limits your choices significantly. I hope your budget will soon allow for one.


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TWEETYKC00 6/9/2014 7:59AM

    Sending a major hug your way!

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PRUPLEBEAR 6/8/2014 10:16AM

    This is a lot cheaper than therapy!!! Glad the new job is going so well!!! Maybe you could sleep in your car for an hour and half and then walk for 30 mins! Might make you feel a little better. HUGS

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No, you weren't complaining. You were just unloading, as Yvonne-M said. You needed to unburden yourself, &, as you said, it's cheaper to share here than to go to therapy. Also, well said, as GrammieOfTwo said.

I related to this blog. I've been without a car a few times in my life, & I know what it is to have to share one as well. Congratulations on your new job, & I hope that leads to more opportunities for you. I'm glad you're enjoying it.

Yes, focussing on our blessings is very important & it does help, but sometimes it can be super hard to see them - oh, I can relate!

I hope that you're able to get out of your dark spot soon, & hopefully sharing with us here helped with that.

I hope you're enjoying your weekend!!


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YVONNE-M 6/6/2014 11:31PM

    You just unloaded a bunch of baggage that has been weighing you down....that's not called complaining here my friend! You know what you are doing and have been truthful and accountable. That in itself is a WIN! I challenge you to track every bite tomorrow. It's matters not what you eat or drink either, just track it and you will see where you need to alter your approach. Just one day........you can do it! emoticon

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