Tuesday, December 17, 2013
Today is my 2 year SparkVersary. It was one of those things I remembered as an aside. I haven't been sparking. Haven't been in touch with you, my precious friends. Haven't been exercising. Have been eating whatever is convenient. I can't remember when I cooked my last meal. I think my refrigerator has multiple science experiments growing in it. I'm afraid to look though. I'm not sure how much I weigh; however, I have no doubt that I weigh more than I have in a year. My smallest dress pants no longer fit. (Which is a problem, because I can't seem to find my next size up. So I'm still wearing the too small dress pants in hopes no one will notice my A$$ is about to burst a seam.) My smallest jeans still do fit.
This has been a tough year for me. Yeah. I know. It's been a tough year for all of us right?
I lost my dad suddenly in a tragic car accident in April. He was on life support for a week before the decision had to be made to cease that support. Daddy couldn't have made that decision about me. I'm not sure how I so easily made it about him. Listening to his last gasping breaths was heart wrenching and I zoned out. I've been gone ever since.
I fell in love. Also suddenly...and recklessly. Then had my heart broken. Just something else to stuff into the bottle and cork tight.
I had surgery in October. Not major surgery, but enough I had general anesthesia and couldn't lift more than 10 lbs for 6 weeks. Still waiting...
On the flip side, it has been a monumental year for me. I participated in 5 5Ks, two of which were obstacle course races. One of those 5Ks I ran all but 5 minutes--a 2 min stretch and a 3 min stretch. Flipping Awesome folks!!
I am struggling to redirect my energy and attention to my weight loss journey.
Today I will focus on being more mindful. Only water, no caffeine (although I really haven't been drinking much caffeine anyway). No more fried food. Menu planning and grocery shopping would be nice...after tackling the science experiments in my refrigerator. Later today I plan to go back and read my initial blogs. Surely there has to be some inspiration there, right?
Sunday, October 27, 2013
Hello. My name is Tiffany and I am an addict. No, not a drug addict. Not an alcoholic. I am a food addict. And I've been on a bender. I haven't been exercising. I haven't been drinking my water. I haven't been Sparking. Today that comes to an end.
Thursday, September 12, 2013
Okay. I have been a little irritated about the scale not moving down. This morning it sits at 200.0. Which is down .2 from yesterday. But still 1.7 pounds above my lowest weigh in. Yuck. I'm doing EVERYTHING right. Yesterday I decided to bump my calories up. Why? Because I haven't been hungry at meals. I know that sounds counterintuitive, but the one way I can tell I'm in the right calorie range? I'm hungry before meal time. When I'm not physically hungry at meal time, my cravings go through the roof. That's me lately. So I'm going to fiddle with my calorie range a bit and see if I can jumpstart my metabolism again. Hopefully it will get the scale moving.
For almost two months now I've been training hard in a Crossfit-esque class that meets 3 nights a week for about 1.5-2 hours each night. I also do cardio training Sat and Sun. My cardio conditioning has seriously done wonderful things. I can see the effects of the class on my running endurance and speed. (20 min straight last weekend!) I used to loathe the class because it really truly kicks my butt. Now it's growing on me. Not to mention this is the first time ever that a "fitness coach" has ever been able to motivate me. Just the thought of any of my school gym teachers makes me bow my back in rebellion. Not this guy. I want to work hard and sweat for him. But more importantly, when I'm thinking of cutting corners or reps, I keep going for ME...and he's found the right technique to make me see it that way.
With all this Strength/cardio training, I know I'm building muscle. I can start to see it in my arms...even through all the flab. However, it gets frustrating to not see the scale move or a difference in how my clothes fit.
Today, just in time I might add, two different people approached me and said they see recent changes--that it looks like I'm really trimming up. One of the HF classmates said he could see a change in my body composition--particulrly my face, back, waist and legs. I'll take it. Even though I don't see a change in how my clothes fit or anything else other than my performance. I like the idea of my back fat going away too. And since I can't see back there, it must be true. Right?
I'm keeping my focus and priorities straight. Reminder to self: the scale is only one measure of fitness, and not always the best one either. I think it's time to get out the tape measure again.
Saturday, September 07, 2013
I've been in an "exercise" phase lately. And it is true that you cannot out exercise a bad diet. Therefore, I haven't lost anything, except maybe a couple inches as I have replaced some fat with lean muscle.
After moping a couple weeks and generally feeling like dog doo because of my knee injury, I restarted my HF class. I also started running again. All while wearing a knee brace. I am so happy I did. My knee is still not 100%, but it seems to slowly be getting better.
The class has really made a difference in my running. Much faster improvement than the C25K program. Two weeks ago, I was thrilled to be able to run 11 minutes straight. Last week i was shocked to find I could run 16 minutes straight. This morning I was able to run for 20 minutes straight without taking a walk "break." In that time, I was able to run 1.5 miles. Yes, it's still slow, but I'm running. It seems semi miraculous to be honest. I've been "trying" to run for a year with very slow progress. These new strides make me very happy.
So...food. All I can say is I'm on track and serious again. I finally went grocerying and when I woke this morning had excitement rush over me at the "options" available to me. Sitting in my refrigerator is shredded buffalo chicken for sandwiches and taco salad casserole. I'm ready to make other dishes I can also portion and freeze for easy reheat. I really hate grocerying. It's better when I cook in batches and have options. THAT'S what makes it easy to stay on track.
Have a great weekend friends. Make good choices.
Monday, August 12, 2013
Here's a picture of me following the Warrior Dash.
Good News: I made it to the end.
Bad News: I blew my knee out. My GOOD knee. Now my bad knee is my better knee.
Trying to climb out of one of the mud pits, foot up around ear level, someone pulling me up by my hand...pop! There went my knee. I was able to gingerly complete the race, although I had to bypass a couple of the remaining obstacles at that point. Once I stopped moving, so did my knee.
I haven't gone to the doc to see how bad it is, but I do have it in a brace and want to see if it improves.
I'm done. I'm not 20. I'm not 30. I'm not even 40 anymore.
It's time for me to act my age. I don't need to be a warrior, bad a$$, ninja turtle, whatever. I knew I shouldn't have gone to the race. Now, I won't be able to get any cardio for who knows how long. And no, chair aerobics won't get my heart rate anywhere near the cardio range.
I'm really sad today.
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