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Clock Watcher

Friday, August 01, 2014

I am keenly aware of time. I've been that way since I was 6 years old... I can't say I always take it seriously or use it wisely, but the passing of it is like a ghost that haunts me. I used to think I was just born this way; worried that I was going to let precious fun minutes slip through my fingers, but I later learned that, for me, life's timer was set when my grandpa passed away.

It's true, I was very small, and had no concept of death. In fact, I'd only had 6 short years to get to know him, but what I did recognize, as though I'd always understood it, was the agony, grief, and pain that encapsulated our family, striking down all the big people whose job it was to be happy and capable of caring for me and my brothers. It only took one second for such serious changes to occur, and as a result I became a clock watcher.

I couldn't stop the clock, nor did I have any clue what my overall goal was, but I knew that if I could just stay awake forever and take notice of every tic and toc that I was at least doing what I could to not let anything get past me or my family. Of course, all of this was fear based, and what really happened was that I became overwhelmed by the daunting nature of the job, depressed at my overall powerlessness to stop time when I deemed necessary, and in the end, an insomniac that devoured whatever food I could get my hands on.

Needless to say, after forty-some years of clock watching... I have come to grips with the fact that I will never be able to quit the job. And, though it has and continues to play havoc with my life at times, I have learned that some amount of clock watching is imperative; that what has to change is my purpose for doing it.

We live in a world where so many take time for granted... it is believed that tomorrow will always be there to fix the mistakes or hurtful acts of today, and that dreams can always be picked up and pursued at a later date.

We have this day, minute, second to grab onto and make beautiful before the next one steals it away... let's not be afraid... let's be bold and let all of our clock watching push us towards whatever happiness and fulfillment we deserve. Let's not dwell in the past, nor hate in the present.

We all know time flies, so just think about how quickly our goals and dreams can truly be realized!!!

Best wishes to all!

P.S. I've been sleeping better... funny thing, getting a little rest seems to make me more energized for my daytime clock watching duties :)

  
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GHK1962 8/1/2014 9:43PM

    Firstly I want to say that I really like your message about having "this day ..." and to just live life.

Great message for sure.

However .... what I MOSTLY wanted to say is that I think your writing is awesome. As I was reading this I thought to myself ... wow, I wish I could write like that. Your style of writing makes me think you might do this for a living ... it just flows really well.

Anyway, my clock is saying I had better start dinner for the wifey ... have a great weekend.

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TWESTEN1 8/1/2014 9:05PM

    Very touching! And a great reminder for us all to live in the moment... and to truly appreciate every moment that we have.

I love to sleep :) And am glad that you are finally sleeping a bit better. Have a beautiful weekend!

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On Top of Old Dobler... lalalala

Thursday, July 31, 2014

I live on top of a hill, Dobler Hill, to be exact. Word on the street is that it is about a 9% grade and the longest hill (about 1/2 a mile) at that grade in the county. I haven't gone out of my way to verify these statements, but I can tell you that if I let my car coast by the time I reach the bottom I'm flying at about 80 mph.

I walked that hill today... both ways... when going down, I pretty much had to focus on keeping my legs under me and not eating the freshly laid gravel... when coming up, it was all about my heart rate and making it to the next spot suitable for a nose dive.

I kept thinking to myself, as I wiped the stinging sweat from my eyes "Surely this is blasting my pipes clean!" and "Man, I hope the pump holds out!"

The feeling I got after coming around the last bend and seeing my mailbox, well, it was indescribable... maybe Columbus felt the same way upon seeing land... all I know is that I didn't know if I would ever see it again, and when I did I knew a miracle had taken place.

The pride I felt as I drug my right leg behind me down the driveway was immeasurable, and if I could have lifted my head up high, I'm telling you, I would have!

SparkFriends... Old Dobler didn't beat me... I was the winner... and yes, it's taunting me right now as I jot this down for you... calling me names, daring me to do it again.. and I think I might!

  
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GHK1962 8/1/2014 1:01AM

    NICE!

And it was a HOT day today as well ... so double word score!!!! Good job.

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1JACKIE542 7/31/2014 11:14PM

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KNEEMAKER 7/31/2014 10:50PM

  Keep on keeping on! Old Dobler can never beat a winner and will always be there for you to take on. So go and one day run Old Dobler like it has never been done. Inspiring and I loved it. Wish I could take on Old Dobler myself one day. emoticon

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Sun-Catching, Reminds Me of YOU!

Thursday, July 31, 2014

I got hitched... just the other day, in fact. I wasn't sure that would or could happen again. Oh, I knew it COULD happen, logistically, but I really didn't know if I had it in me to give it a try after spending, well forever, pretty much on my own (not counting my kids, of course).

I have to admit that in the years since my divorce... I had devoted myself to becoming an independent entity that moved and grooved according to my own will. I was holding on so tight to ME that the idea of sharing had dwindled to a small speck on a speck of thought, but as time went on that became highly unsatisfying and lonely. So, I did it... I said to heck with independence and said "I do".

Rob, I, and our guests partied it up in Bohemian style... bright flowers, flowing gauzy skirts, and hippie music. My mom and grandson made bejeweled sun-catchers that dangled from the trees and as the breeze twisted them this way and that, they gave off blinding sparkles.

I could feel the sparkles traveling in through my eyes, zapping my brain, and healing my soul. Little pops of sparkly inspiration, gratitude, and joy rained upon all of us as we danced, and laughed... and surrounded there by all that love I began to see I was meant for connection; that I needed to sparkle once again and share it without holding back.

I was reminded of you!

My sweetest SparkFriends... that's what you are to me, sun-catchers casting sparkles of love, hope, and acceptance my way.... thank you for your example, for never holding back :)

  
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DANALYNV 7/31/2014 2:43PM

    I am so happy to hear from you all... your familiar words of support and affection are more heartwarming to me than you can ever know... I've missed you :)

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YVETTEB57 7/31/2014 1:28PM

    Thats wonderful! I got goosebumps reading your blog. Congratulations!
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L*I*T*A* 7/31/2014 9:46AM

    such great news!!
so good to hear from you,good friend!!!
wishing you nothing but the very best life has to offer and the some!!!
blessings and hugs........ Lita


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_RAMONA 7/31/2014 8:55AM

    CONGRATULATIONS, Dana!

I am So happy for you! YOU remain an enduring SPARKLing in my heart and thoughts as I continue to journey!

You are in my prayers, ALWAYS: May today and every day bring to you a ridiculous abundance of whatever you need. May you find peace within and all around you. May you not forget the infinite possibilities that are born of faith and desire... a desire which even itself issues from God. May all your concerns, struggles, anxieties and fears fall like ashes as you rise on eagle's wings, SOARING above all that would hinder you along this tremendous adventure of being and becoming all you are created to be. May you answer your call and use those gifts that you have received to pass on the love that has been given to you. May the presence of God settle into your bones and allow your soul the freedom to sing, dance, praise and love beyond your wildest imagination. May you be overwhelmed by the grace of God as it simply "overtakes" you moment by moment... rather than being overwhelmed by the cares of life!

{{{{{{{{{ HUGS }}}}}}}}}
Ramona

P.S. 'Rob' is synonymous with "the best thing that can ever happen to you"... my marriage has been the most healing experience of my life... and his name, too, is Rob, LOL!




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EVIE4NOW 7/31/2014 6:41AM

  Congratulations. Hoping for a very long and fulfilling marriage for you.

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  What an uplifting blog.
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Who the Heck Knows What I'm Talking About?

Thursday, January 19, 2012

Have you ever been just going along in your day when all of a sudden you realize that you're really there?
It's hard to explain, but sometimes I will just be involved in some simple task or whatever and all of a sudden become acutely aware that I'm actually doing it.

Sometimes, when it happens I think to myself "Wow, who knew I'd ever be here doing this?" Since my divorce and all that that encompassed these little spells have fallen upon me quite often. I liken it to when people talk about paralell universes or an out-of-body experience, only they're way less exciting than all that.

What do I hope to gain by talking about it? I have no flippin idea, but I feel compelled to tell you that I believe it means something... that there's a huge message to be decoded and shared from those jolted-to-awareness moments.

If I were to guess I'd say the messages have everything to do with finding peace in one's self, perhaps a gentle reminder to just be satisfied and grateful for the opportunity to take in a breath and contemplate the hugeness of it all. To accept that we cannot predict the future, nor can we change the past... That all we really have is the moment we're living in and that in it is contained all of life's elements and energy to be used wisely or tossed away carelessly by choice.

We are so special, the mere fact that we can, for the most part, choose to take life a minute at a time, think about where we'd like to be in say 10, 20, or a bazillion of them is such a precious gift, and it is my hope that each of us will do whatever it takes to not allow even one more to be stolen, contaminated by negativity, or worst of all ignored or treated as if it doesn't have the power to change our lives completely.





  
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_RAMONA 1/19/2012 2:50PM

    Dana! Here you are... and in fine form!

I have these moments ALL of the time, LOL! ...But then, most of my life seems a bit of a miracle.

LOVE this: "do whatever it takes to not allow even one more to be stolen, contaminated by negativity, or worst of all ignored or treated as if it doesn't have the power to change our lives completely"

Truth of the highest order!

...however far away we may be in time and distance, you remain firmly in my heart, and I rejoice when our paths do cross. Be well, my friend!

{{{{{{{{{{ HUGS }}}}}}}}}}
Ramona

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L*I*T*A* 1/19/2012 12:50PM

    awesome words of great wisdom....
thanks for sharing them with us...
nice to have you back..sweet friend
blessings and hugs...........lita

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I Need a Mirror Lie Detector Test!

Sunday, August 30, 2009

Hi my sweet little Sparklers...

I'm just wondering about the manufacturing of mirrors... LOL... I mean, is there like a recipe for all mirror making or is each mirror making company like a grandma that just throws a pie together?

Here's the deal I have 3 mirrors in my house... well, that I seem to routinely see myself in. The first is in my bedroom attached to my dresser, and it's wide, thus it makes me look wide (hate that mirror). The second is long and narrow in the hallway... it makes me look sort of long and narrow (my favorite, I might add)... the third is divided into 3 doors on the medicine cabinet... and well, if I arrange them just right... ohhhhh yessss, it quickly becomes the mirror I could French kiss (no I haven't, YET).

Anyway, unfortunately, it turns out that for some sick reason I want to know the truth, that is, which mirror is lying to me? Is there no such thing as a truthful mirror? There needs to be a test.
I'm not saying I'd keep or even remotely use the honest mirror, but at least (depending on my mood, and mental stability) I could choose to embrace either the truth or the lie on my own terms... you know, like I seem to do with everything else in life.

And, ughhhhh, don't even get me started on the mirror I looked into at Target... that one tried to tell me I'm getting age spots on my cheeks... hmmmm, is that so I'll runout and fill my cart up with concealer and foundation??? Makes a person wonder doesn't it?

Love YOU!



  
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COLEMANSR 8/30/2009 8:02PM

    Me, LOL I leave Mirrors along. I take pictures and in the same spot. I'm gonna get it the honest way. Cameras, tell the sad truth or the Happy truth. (LOL)

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SPARKLOVE 8/30/2009 5:34PM

    I am here to help solve this riddle. LOL

First, the lighting above the Mirror or the room it is in .....makes a big difference in clarity. That's why when we put our make up on in the bedroom dim light and think we look fine till we look in a mirror where there is bright lights then we look like a clown. LOL

Next I want to tell you my theory of your bedroom mirror vs your long mirror. When you look in the long mirror, you are looking at the full package . You are more pleased with that mirror because you are probably like me.....A apple but have nice legs. LOL The shorter mirror zero's in on your trouble spots. Your waist and abs.

Therefore, all ways put your make up on in the brightest room. If you want to know the truth ....study your face in that mirror. If the truth is too hard to take look in a mirror that is in a room with dimmer lights. Avoid looking in the bedroom mirror that zeros in on your trouble spots and admire your whole package that shows you are more than your waist. LOL

Hope you have a great week! Joy

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L*I*T*A* 8/30/2009 2:31PM

    it kinda seems like we all have similar mirrors.............it's much more important to see the beauty reflecting back at us..................take care...........so glad to hear from you.............hope all is well....................blessings and hugs....................lita

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_RAMONA 8/30/2009 2:52AM

    Hello, Beautiful!

I know nothing about the manufacture of mirrors (and I apparently have the same three mirrors in my house!), but I do know without a doubt that the mirrors you should trust most are those illuminated by your actions, those of your own heart, and those in the eyes of the people who love you and hold you dear.

May your every day be all you need it to be. May an all abiding peace fill your thoughts, rule in your dreams each night, and conquer all your fears. May God manifest himself in ways you have never before experienced. May your joys be fulfilled, your dreams be closer, and your cares be lifted. I pray that faith enters a new height in you, that your territory be enlarged, and that fulfillment is just one step closer.

{{{{{{{{{ HUGS }}}}}}}}}

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