Wednesday, August 11, 2010
Don't know why exactly, but today feels pretty blah. I don't feel particularly healthy or peppy, actually, I'm kind of dragging. Quality and quantity of sleep was rather lacking last night, so I'm probably dragging from that, sure. Usually getting enough sleep isn't a problem, but this week is super busy!
Plus, everything is going slightly wrong today--I overslept and didn't get a chance to shower before work (not a biggie b/c I showered last night, but it wakes me up when I get a shower in the morning)...work has literally been one catastrophe after another (I'm blogging from the coffee shop in fact, where I'm hiding out for my morning break...sigh). I need to make a deposit at the bank today after work, but forgot my money AND my wallet at home. I also forgot half my lunch, so lunch is gonna be super small since I have no cash at work to get a snack with...ack! I'm feeling groggy and overwhelmed and I don't like it one little bit!
So here's hoping that's the end of my funky day though...tonight I've got a bodypump class lined up (new instructor, which is always exciting...you never know what you're in for...sometimes it's over the top, but it's always a good workout regardless!) After that I have a super salad planned for dinner (I've been looking forward to this salad since Sunday, when I picked all the ingredients up at the farmer's market!) and after that, we're going to a play (another Fringe Fest production). So it'll be a bit of a late night (the play starts at 10pm!).
I'm torn between squeezing a nap in before bodypump or washing dishes...I think in the interest of my sanity, dishes may be the better part of valour (plus, naps tend to make me cranky if I get less than 3 solid hours, which I don't have time for!) So I'm counting on bodypump (and perhaps most likely coffee) to give me enough energy to keep going till I get home for good today!
Tuesday, August 10, 2010
Haha...I just realized that with Sunday's yoga class and yesterday's bodyflow class, I just did two yoga(ish) classes on back-to-back days and I can still move my shoulders and laugh without crying from sore abs! I tried doing back to back bodyflow classes in January when I was stateside for a bit and it nearly killed me (well, not really, but it felt like it at the time!), so I'm really excited that I'm in decent enough shape now to survive!
Speaking of new realizations, I also realized that my approach to unhealthy food is *slowly* shifting as well...I was walking back to my desk from a meeting this morning and thinking about how proud I was of myself for resisting the "complementary" donuts! And then I got to thinking about last night--we decided it was too hot to cook, and ordered pizza. But. (And this is huge!!)...But we didn't order pizza early in the evening when we first concocted the scheme...I ordered the pizza on my way home from the 7:45pm bodyflow class and we had dinner after I got home...it wasn't an impulse pizza! And I stuck to having 2 pieces of a medium pizza (one greek veggie and one spanish chicken) and wrapped up the other two pieces of my half for lunch today. So while I have again broken my no-pizza streak, I'm totally OK with it since A) I didn't over indulge and B) it's the only non-home-prepared dinner we'll be having this week. And since overindulgence and overspending on meals out are my two reasons for the no-pizza rule, I'm pretty happy with dinner last night (and lunch today!)
In thinking about my "restraint" (haha) on the pizza front, it occurred to me that I've got a new trend going...I've noticed that when I exercise consistently and make healthy food choices on a (fairly) regular basis, I'm way less likely to go overboard. I think it's because I don't want to "undo" hours of hard work at the gym by overeating...
It's totally a "why bother" feeling, but not a "why bother working out"...more of a "why bother wasting time at the gym if I'm going to cancel the benefits out in one fell swoop of gluttony"? I know, you might say that time at the gym is never wasted, but I beg to differ...if I let myself over-indulge, it's effectively as though I never spent the time at the gym (since I have canceled out the calories burned, and I guarantee I won't feel as awesome as I would otherwise, either from feeling guilty about what I ate, or from feeling physically stuffed/ill b/c I ate too much). So in effect, my time/efforts at the gym are wasted. And I don't like wasting time/effort...I've only got so much free time, so I figure if I'm going to spend it working out, I'd better make keep it counting!
And I'm not saying this is all habit at this point, or even a permanent shift in my thinking...I'm sure given a week of not working out and eating like crap, I'd be back to my old ways...but that's part of why I'm blogging about all this stuff these past couple weeks--so that when I'm tempted to give it all up (I'm sure it's coming eventually!), I can read back through these posts and remind myself that it's not worth it either in the short or long term!
Monday, August 09, 2010
So I had an excellent week last week (no days with out at least 1 star, and 6 fitness stars overall!) Whee! This week my challenge is to maintain my kick-ass motivation and keep putting just as much effort into this endeavor as I did last week. I know it sounds like an oxymoron, but I can't let one good week ruin my motivation!
See, I have this bad habit...I tend to let success kill my motivation. I don't really know why I do this, but I've found that having a successful week (or even a couple) inevitably leads to a sharp down-tick in my motivation. Maybe it's because I start feeling better, start seeing results, and I get laconic and say to myself "see, you've been good! this isn't so hard, is it?" and then I slack off and stop working so hard. Or I declare habits formed before they're really habits (i.e. I tell myself that I am in the habit of eating normal portions and thus can abandon my kitchen scale with ease--which doesn't work out so well!)...Or, the initial feelings of dissatisfaction with my pudgy state (which, lets be honest, are usually what kick me into high motivational gear) have waned as I start feeling better and seeing results. Or any number of other things...sometimes tracking my stars and calories seems exhausting...whatever. Motivation is easily zapped!
So I am focusing on maintaining my positive outlook, and as much high-energy motivation as possible (though I fully recognize that I don't have to be bouncing-off-the-walls-little-miss-chipper
-weightloss to be motivated!). But my main goal is to keep focused. One excellent week is all fine and good, but it does me no good whatsoever if it's followed by a disastrophe!
In other news, this weekend John and I went to the Sunday yoga class again--I think it's officially a new routine (at least till it cools off enough to do a long bike ride on Sundays!)...John really likes it though, and I like that it gets me to the gym, all stretched out, and I've been doing 30 minutes of cardio afterward...works out well! I discovered a new favorite cardio machine, even! THe arc trainer...I'd never tried this thing before yesterday (I usually stick to the elliptical or the rowers, maybe the bike if I'm feeling lazy and want to sit)...but the arc trainer feels a lot like an elliptical, except the version they have at the Blaisdell Y has it's very own cooling fan!!! And best yet, the force of the cool air is directly related to how fast you are "pedaling" the machine!! Evil! Genius! A little of both! B/c by the end of my workout I was flagging, but then kept going strong so my cool air wouldn't die! Haha...I seriously love it!
And in further other news, tonight is pedicure night!! bwahahaha...my reward for July's good behaviours! And then I may just go to bodyflow to show off my freshly polished tootsies. We shall see!
OK, that's all I've got for a Monday blog. Enjoy the week!
Friday, August 06, 2010
So this week has been one of the longest weeks of my life, I swear! But I've been super on-track and I feel really proud of myself for that! (I dare say I'm more proud of being on track for a whole week than I am at the fact that when I hopped on the scale this morning I'm well below 240--not just hovering around the 240 mark--for the first in months because I know that being on track and making the right choices consistently is going to lead to success however I measure it--not just on the scale!)
Last week I decided to try an experiment...I decided to be as positive and up-beat about my efforts as I could stand to be--downright chipper if I could manage it! I know I tend to lapse into moroseness and doom and gloom whenever things don't go my way, and even when things do go my way, I tend to take the "well, it's good now but it won't last" view, which ultimately sets me up for accepting failure as par for the course. And that's not acceptable. So I'm going to "fake it till I make it" (sooooo cliche, I know, but it sums it up!) and focus on positivity. Even when I mess up (as I'm sure I will), I'm going to acknowledge that I went off track, and then hop right back on as soon as possible--no beating myself up over mistakes, no guilt trips--that behaviour doesn't serve any purpose and just makes me feel worse.
So far I like the positive approach! I've finally gotten to a point where I don't care what I weigh (seriously, if I could not look at the scale for the next 6 months, I don't think it would faze me)...I'm more concerned with how I feel and my health (which are obviously tied hand in hand). And I know what I need to do to improve my health and happiness--I've known it for a long time, but was too wrapped up in my weight (esp. in getting discouraged & giving up when it didn't magically fall off if I had a good week) to do it right...I need to eat healthy foods to fuel my body and keep it in balance (not whacked out on sugar binges or surfing waves of fat!), and I need to exercise to keep my muscles and bones strong and active (I don't want to be tottering around like a granny in my middle age, after all!) And I know that a natural consequence of shifting my lifestyle in this direction will be weight loss, which is great, but it's just a side benefit--one of many!
So no matter what the scale does (or how many inches I lose/gain), I'm going to keep persevering! I know that, logically, if I keep making good, healthy choices, my body will catch up to those and lose the trappings of all the unhealthy choices I've made before. And I just need to keep that forefront in my mind! I'm moving forward and not letting the past drag me down...it's done and all I can do is focus on today.
Thursday, August 05, 2010
One thing I've noticed in the few weeks (egad, is it almost a month now?) since I cleaned up my eating and (well, for lack of a better word) recommitted to a healthy lifestyle is that I haven't been crashing or suffering "carb hangovers" (my term...not a technical term, but it certainly fits the bill). And I think it has a lot to do with the minimal amount of processed sugar (i.e. candy) and the reasonable amounts of complex carbs (i.e. no pizza binges = no consuming 8 servings of bread at a whack!) that I've been eating.
In fact, I can only think of twice in the past 4 weeks (if you know me, you'll know this is HUGE). And both times, I can pinpoint the source...once was an entire (4 serving) box of whoppers + gummy worms + soda at the movies, and the other time was a half a pepperoni pizza in one sitting. I'm not proud of it, but honestly, that pales in comparison to my past behaviours--there were literally weeks where I had half a pizza 3 nights a week, or would sit at my desk several times a week at work and plow though as much vending machine schwag as the shrapnel in my change jar could buy...either just to pass the time or to distract from a stressful work situation. So twice in a month is a HUGE step forward for me.
And guess what? I like this so much more!! I hated waking up the next day feeling all groggy and bloated, or sugar crashing later that same day even and barely being able to keep my eyes open as all the sugar that had been coursing through my veins finally subsides. And considering that diabetes runs in my family (though who doesn't have that problem nowadays?), all this carb overloading was at the very least an uncomfortable, bad idea, and at worst, sealing my doom!
And you know what's really odd? I don't have much of a sweet tooth...I don't even usually put sugar in my coffee/tea/oatmeal! I tended to eat sweets not because I was hungry, or because I was craving something sweet, but because, of the available snack options (i.e. at the movie theater or at the vending machine) sweets reign supreme (at least in my haunts). So basically, I was eating them because I was mindlessly eating (not because I was hungry) and that was what was there. And since I've cleaned up my act and am focusing on home-prepared meals and snacks, my processed sugar intake has taken a nosedive without any extra effort on my part! And since I've been watching portion sizes, I haven't been overdosing on complex carbs (like pizza crust, popcorn, or bread) either. And I'm feeling amazing for it!
I also noticed that my sodium intake has been fantastically low! Don't worry, I'm still getting a healthy dose, I'm just not getting 3,000-5,000 mg a day anymore. And (shocker!) I haven't felt nearly as bloated either...hmmm... ;)
I'm so glad I'm feeling so much better (and I kind of wish I had done this sooner, but oh well--the past is past!) I just can't believe the difference a little sugar and salt makes haha!
In other news, I think I've finally figured out how much weight to use for bodypump! (Judging by my level of soreness today...haha...the best measure of success!) I used two small plates for upper body and one medium plate for lower and I am reasonable sore--i.e. climbing stairs I totally feel a tad uncomfortable in my quads and calf muscles, but it's not painful to sit/stand/squat. Which is awesome--the last time I did bodypump, I used all medium plates (at Roger-the-operatic-bodypump-instructor's suggestion) and that was too much...I could barely move the day after! So I think I'm going to try to make it to bodypump at least once a week, and I'm going to stick to what I used yesterday until I find it too easy!
Well that's all I've got for a Thursday blog! Today's my last day this week of super late hours, so I'm going to hit the Y tonight after work for some LIGHT cardio (see sore muscles, above haha) and then back to regular for a couple weeks! Tomorrow I think I'm going to try a pilates class (haven't been to a proper pilates class since college, so that should be interesting, at the very least!)
Hope everyone is setting themselves up for a stellar healthy weekend! Enjoy the tail end of the week!
And I must add, this will be a potential reward for August...soooooo cute!!!
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