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SO sick of it!

Tuesday, May 17, 2011

I had an interesting thought the other day that I wanted to share. I was noticing a change in the way my clothing fit and the way I looked in the mirror. It was so nice. But then I started to think about how many times I had been at this same point in my life. How many times I had seen that change and anxiously waited for someone to notice I was losing weight. But it would be.. Oh, I noticed you lost some weight...(and then under their breath I hear..AGAIN!). And it kinda made me mad. I was like.. You know what, Patti.. if you had just hung in there the last few times you attempted this.. you would be SOOOOO much further ahead. You would be near or at your goal. What are you doing to yourself. And I decided I was SOOOOOOO sick of being at this point that I was NEVER going to be here again. I am going to stick with it and get it done. What is with the starting and stopping? Where is it getting me? I am SO over it! Well, then I got excited. Because I realized that I don't think I have ever gotten to this point before. I have never thought of my new lifestyle this way.. as a new me. As a new way of living. A better, healthier way. I allow myself treats now and then, but I am still sticking with the plan, the goal. I can do this!! I seem to have a whole new understanding about it. I am SOOO excited.. and SO sick of it! I think that is really good thing. I hope it inspires some of you that are struggling. Just get it done. Be who and what you want to be FINALLY. No matter how long it takes or how slow it goes, at least it is GOING!! I wanna hear "you're doin' it rite!" NOT "FAIL!"
As a side note, I just want to let you know that even though I am not on here very often, I am hanging in there. Just not a lot of time. But if you ever need me.. I'll be here! Have a super day!!

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LIBRA73 5/19/2011 7:40AM

    Woohoo! You WILL do this!

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MELAPHANTN 5/18/2011 3:31PM

    You have the right attitude!

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JEANORMALLY 5/17/2011 11:55AM

    GOOD FOR YOU...and Thanks for the motivation...I do know where you are coming from and where WE are going. I feel the excat same way and this time I AM going to complete my journey, I AM going to get to my goals and nothing anyone says is going to upset me to the piont that I give up. Yes, just like you I have been here before but this time my out look is so very different, this time I know I can make it.... This time the only person I need to please is ME. Yes it feels good when someone notices I've lost a few pounds and the compliments are nice but the way I feel insde about myself is what really matters most. Again GOOD FOR YOU and THANKS from me. emoticon emoticon

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It dares to laugh at me...

Thursday, April 14, 2011

So, some of you know the struggle I am having with my own personal scale. Not seeing the weight move quickly enough, but still staying on track. Well, I was all excited to go to the Doc's yesterday. I knew I would see SOME progress. Then I weighed myself at home and was pleasantly surprised! According to my personal scale.. I had lost around 7 pounds!!!! Wow..awesome! So happy!!! WHOOT!! YAH!! So here I go to the doctors office.... walk in the room with the scale and glare in horror at a brand new electronic scale. My mind screams NOOOOOOOOOOOOO.... I know each scale is different and this shiny, gleaming thing just laughed at me. I knew I could never compare what I weighed on their old ugly balancing scale to what I weigh on this glimmering beauty, but I gingerly stepped on and said "Oh, you got a new scale!". The nurse said "Yes and we LOVE it!!" Again the scale snickered at me and whispered..."you love me too don't you?" But I wouldn't be fooled. I said.. "well, I don't love the numbers its showing me" She laughed and said.."Do we ever?" And I replied "I might have because I am working on it really hard...but.." She took a look and said.. "Oh..you weigh more than you did last time..?" Again the scale laughed at me and I swear I saw it wink!!! That dumb scale had my weight at 2 pounds more than last time I was there and 9 pounds more than my own scale at home!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! They assure me that this scale is right. It is correct.. It is true. So, that means I weigh MORE than I ever thought??? And I have NO clue how much I really lost because I never weighed myself at home when I started eating healthy (DUMB MOVE!!!). Even my Blood Pressure was up (but I attribute that to my 'white coat syndrome' -although I wasn't nervous, I guess it can still affect you). But the doc was all happy about my changes. She has never heard of Spark People and was going to check it out. She was really encouraging and was so excited that my blood sugars were good. My thyroid is STILL not in range. Just a bit below. SO we are upping my meds again and that takes 4 or so weeks to catch up. I have to go back in 3 months. Maybe once my thyroid gets in range I will get some more energy and lose weight a bit more easily. I don't know that I have ever had it really in range. Anyway - as I walked out of the office, the scale reached out and poked me and whispered... "I'll be here waiting for next time." The evil thing. I just laughed back at it and replied "Next time I will be the one laughing!!!" heheheheee...

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DDHEART 4/28/2011 7:27AM

    This is why I missed you when you were not posting as often! you crack me up! At my last visit to the dr, I stepped on the scale after taking my shoes off....no way I want to add that! then when I saw that it was higher than my home scale I immediately had some of those evil scale thoughts even though I firmly believe it's important to keep the scale as a tool...using my home scale as the guide to what's happening over time since the dr visits are not so often and every time it may be a different exam room scale.....You have improved blood sugars....more important than the wt and helpful in getting your hormone levels straightened out too as I think that whole metabolic syndrome thing is huge in it's effect. Be happy for the sugars and you have 3 months to make that scale eat it's words!!

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LADYBUGG67 4/14/2011 2:30PM

    That mean old scale! He's not a good friend at times. Sometimes you just have to ignore him. I love that fact that you positively know that you will get the last laugh the next time you see him.

BTW I love your cartoon.

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BALISANE 4/14/2011 9:26AM

    No worries! The scale at my doctor's office always shows me as five or nine pounds heavier than the one at home. It's never about the number - only the difference! Put it out of your mind until your next visit, and think about the DIFFERENCE between the number from today and the number that day.

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SO Discouraged...HELP!??

Monday, April 11, 2011

This picture says it all. I have been really working hard for about 4 weeks now and have hardly lost a thing! I have a doctors appt. coming up this week and I was so excited to share with her how I have been doing. But I was hoping for more to show. I don't know what I am doing wrong. I am staying in my calorie/fat/carb ranges. I am slow at exercising, but I am doing more than I was (about 15 minutes on the treadmill a few times a week). This week has been crazy - eating at fast food places with no other options - but I have made good choices. Didn't enjoy them..but I made them and I was so proud of myself. Until today when I stepped on the scale. I guess I should be thankful for the little things. I have lost about 4 pounds or so. It is also the week before my period, so I may be a bit bloated. I DO have a thyroid problem that the docs are working on getting regulated. I know that slows down weight loss -but my sister is doing great and she has a thyroid problem too! I am not discouraged to the point of giving up - I know I need to do this for my health. I am just bummed about it. Sad.. disheartened. It feels like you try and try and get no where. I LIKE to see results. I am doing well in my blood sugar area..so I know that is a big deal. I would just like to see some other results. This is too much work to not see it. I am wondering if it is the fact that this is like the hundredth time I have started a program of being healthy and my body is like..whoa.. really? Again?? Let's see if its for real. I usually lose a lot the first week or so, but this time.. its like I have swallowed a sloth and he is holding onto my weight!!! Can someone give me some words to keep me focused??? I would really appreciate it!!

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MOMS100 4/17/2011 5:11PM

    4 pounds in for weeks is fine! At least you're LOSING and not gaining! Studies have shown that people who lose slowly are more apt to keep the weight off. I know it can be frustrating, but you're really doing fine! emoticon

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SLENDERIZE7733 4/12/2011 5:40AM

    I think you are doing great. The scale doesn't say it all. You should take measurements of your body, if you haven't all ready. Like you stated, you are not going to give up, so don't. You are taking and making positive changes which will eventually pay off. Every step you are taking is one more towards progress. I have been reading a lot of great articles in the wellness part and motivational areas of SP and I have never been so commited. Maybe you can read some that appeal to you too.... I know it gets upsetting, (losing weight and keeping it off) you work so so so hard and make better choices in your food intake, and where you think the scale will go down a lot, it doesn't. But think of it as a lifestyle change, you are eating better not necessarily for the loss, but for the better health, and that my dear should give you a better feeling, that you are taking all the right steps to live a healthier life.... you can do this, just don't give up.... no matter what the scale says you are making better choices and that will set you free... emoticon emoticon emoticon

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HONEYBEEZ 4/11/2011 11:36AM

    I know how frustrating it can be to work so hard and seem to get nowhere...That being said, I will also say emoticon, you lost 4 pounds. It doesn't seem like much when we work so hard, but four pounds is four pounds ( a bag of sugar).
Are you checking how your clothes fit? That's another great measurement for how you're doing. The weight loss doesn't always show up first on the scale, but clothes usually do show it after about 4 weeks worth of work.
How are you feeling physically? Stronger? Do you have more stamina...able to do a little more, more easily than you used to...that's another great measurement of success.

I know the first thing we usually want to see is that scale number move, but everyone's progress is different and shows up differently. Make sure that you don't use the scale as your only measurement. You're doing great. Keep it up!

P.S. Be sure to drink your water...it actually helps.

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LADYBUGG67 4/11/2011 9:54AM

    You should be proud of the lifestyle changes that you are making each day. That is something to celebrate! 4lbs is awesome! Just keep doing what you are doing (eating healthy and exercising) and eventually you will reach your goals. Persistence is key!


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MUMMYUK2 4/11/2011 9:52AM

    You didn't gain the weight overnight, why do you think you can lose it overnight ??

Weight Loss is one of the few situations where Slow & Steady Wins the Race.

4lbs is a great accomplishment Celebrate that and focus on the Postive

Good Luck emoticon

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I'm not as sweet as I used to be...

Thursday, March 31, 2011

At least that's what my blood sugar reading is telling me!! I am so glad. When I started my journey this time - about 2 1/2 weeks ago - I was getting pre-diabetic readings, on the border of diabetic. Scared me to death! Got me motivated to get healthy. I have been working on it really hard and it is paying off. My fasting sugar this morning was 86!!!!!! YAH!! IT is so nice to see results for such hard work. And it really helps to keep me motivated to keep doing well. It really is worth it!! I haven't weighed myself yet. It tends to really discourage me if I haven't lost what I think I should have. I have decided to not jump on the scale and let that rule my life too often. I have a drs appt in the middle of April. I will let them tell me the news. It will be a surprise. I am just happy about the blood sugar numbers. Wanted to share the good news!!

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VEGFAERY 3/31/2011 2:14PM

    90-130 mg/dl in the US
4-7 mmol/l in Canada

Sounds good!!!

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UNKNOWN_SISTER 3/31/2011 11:06AM

    emoticon That is awesome! I dont know what 86 means as far as blood sugar, as here in Canada, the readings are different, so normal blood sugar is between 5-8....but it sounds like a good thing, lol

Keep that diabetes away as long as you can, its no joke, I have been a type one diabetic for 23 years and its not easy....

Keep up the great work! emoticon

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CRZYGRL72 3/31/2011 9:32AM

    Congrats! Keep up the great work to a healthier you :)

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12 minutes?? REALLY??

Monday, March 28, 2011

That is all I can do on the treadmill! It kills me. My legs feel like rubber! For those of you who don't know.. I just came back to my healthy lifestyle! My blood sugars were in prediabetic stages. I am working hard to get it under control. Yesterday it was 90 (fasting) YAH!! Lowest its been in YEARS. (usually 100 fasting). I started getting serious about 2 weeks ago. Today starts my 3rd week. I have been working up to healthy living slowly. Using the treadmill about 3 times a week the first week (10 min each time) and last week I tried to do 15 minutes, but only did it once or twice. Seems like I am so tired. Aren't you supposed to feel better when you eat healthy and exercise? i seem to always have a period when I am drained. What's up with that? Anyone else have that problem or any insights?? It is frustrating. Well, just wanted to say HI and see if anyone out there is listening!! emoticon

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JUDITH316 3/31/2011 1:18AM

    you are doing a good job, it takes time and right now it sounds like your body is adjusting to everything, one thing for sure as you build up your stamina and strength your exercise times will get easier. I know as I have been there and from time to time I still experience those times of tiredness and not feeling as strong, but for sure it will pass...Keep Sparking my friend, you are doing a great job...and yes I'm listening.. emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon

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MOMSCRZR 3/28/2011 2:03PM

    You are building up your stamina. Try having some protein after your exercise session.

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BS2678 3/28/2011 10:42AM

  keep it up...it's worth it.

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