Monday, February 11, 2013
The Hospice aide is here so I am going to try to visit some of my Spark friends. I know I only have a few min and I have to learn all over again how to navigate Spark.
Sunday, February 10, 2013
I see that I have not blogged in over 900 days. I just could not. After a wonderful vacation in New Orleans and then off to Fl for a few weeks, my DH said he just did not want to be married anymore. There were no signs of trouble, we laughed and talked and explored etc. I thought we were actually two of the 'lucky ones" who had a great marriage. There was no one else in the picture. He actually abandoned me at a friend's house in Fl and just left (we were currently living in Niagara Falls, NY). I totally fell apart, the pain was horrific, I could not eat and lost an awful lot of weight (not the good way). I wanted to die and even did not want to share with my Spark Friends.
Anyway, we ended up divorced. Sure made me feel stupid and a failure.
Turns out, that I moved upstairs of my mom and step dad (86 and 88), tore apart a bathroom (I sound like Judy), threw up a lot, took over caring for the oldsters and used my nursing skills to assist until my wonderful, loving step-dad passed at 90. Then I had to clean out 40 yrs of stuff .... LOTS of stuff, settle the estate of which I knew nothing about etc, etc. I know some of you have had to do the same thing.
I ended up selling their house in less than 24 hours and I bought a ranch for my mother and I. I never thought I would be now 69 and living and caring for my totally dependent mom. Good thing I worked out with Spark etc so I am still in good shape. Also scraping the popcorn ceilings, painting the entire house, rototilling a garden, laying tile etc has been therapeutic. I now have Hospice coming in 3x / wk to shower her. She is showing some signs of dementia in the evening (Sundowning) but otherwise she is wheelchair bound so cannot get into any mischief. I have no time for myself (luckily she is napping right now so I am trying to hurry with this) and my schedule is entirely run by her wants and needs.
I am trusting God to give me grace and patience and keep me from falling by getting resentful or angry. I just want to have some "me time" since I feel the clock ticking.
I am hoping to be able to get back with the friends I have made at SP and start logging etc. I have no idea how much wt I have gained, I am just going by how my clothes fit. I wear a 10 so I know I must keep track now because I was wearing a 6 (rarely) and mostly an 8 and was down about 30ish pounds. Going through the divorce was when the 6's were falling offf. It was difficult to cook for the oldsters who had set ways of eating and me cooking for them in their kitchen. I have been much more on track the last month or so since things have settled down. It just feels so darn good to be eating right.
I have thought of all of you so very often since I left and hope all is well with all of you.
Maybe I will even get some time to check your blogs. I missed you.
Oh, oh... just heard mom call. Whew! Just in time. Hugs to all.
Tuesday, March 16, 2010
Don't know if any of you have tried this but I subscribe to Kalynskitchenblogspot.com and each day I get wonderful recipes.
Anyway, with all the rich New Orleans food, I go to exta effort to make healthy, low cal meals when I cook dinner.
Last night we had roasted cabbage.
Heat oven to 450', line pan with foil and spray with Pam.
Cut head of cabbage into 8 or more wedges and place in pan (leave core on or the wedges will fall apart).
Mix 2 Tbsp olive oil and 2 Tbsp lemon juice together and brush on cabbage. I did not need all that mix. Sprinkle with pepper and salt ( I omitted the salt)
Bake about 30 min on one side. Turn over (bottom will be roasted, too) and drizzle more oil mix on and continue to roast until done the way you like it.
I could have eaten the entire head of cabbage myself .... it was THAT GOOD !!!
I made broiled cat fish and a large garden salad with everthing in it.
I have roasted eggplant, peppers, cauliflower, broc, carrots, onions, mushrooms, zucchini, summer squash, butternut etc but the cabbage was a new one. Oh, my !!
Just had to share with my Sparkfamily.
Monday, March 15, 2010
We are still in New Orleans for another week and then off to Florida for another 5 weeks.... just long enough to escape the awful months of March and Aprl in Western New York.... YUK.
We have been biking and trikking on the Tammany Trace which is a 34 mi Rails-to-Trails path and is so incredibly well maintained it is a true joy to be out on it nearly every day. The furthest we have gone in one day is 22 mi round trip. Our fannies were very tired AND I do think I am literally working the small butt that I have always have had off. LOL
The challenge for me is the food. We eat out at least once each day as we are either biking or sight-seeing. The food is very rich with sauces, cheese, butta', and while I have tried to be careful about what I choose, it is still challenging. I eat only part of my meal and even then it is far more cals than what I am used to eating. BTW I tried crawfish (NEVER thought I would) and they are absolutely delicious. I even peeled one myself (eeewww).
The only answer to the rich food has been to control other meals during the day and cook dinner at "home" as often as possible. Not too many places offer the salads we are used to having and certainly not the great greens (except collards in bacon fat etc).
The good news is that along with lifting the weights I bought and the other exercises of biking, trikking, walking Daisy, I think I am maintaining. Talk about a lifestyle and figuring it all out.
When all else fails, I think about Diabetes and killing my pancreas. If that doesn't do it, I don't kow what else does. LOL
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