Wednesday, July 06, 2011
My experiment with maintenance (just staying within 3 pounds of my current weight) is not working well. I have been eating at my upper level of calories (and over a couple of time) and I have really reduced my exercise. I guess in my mind when I am not trying to lose weight I can take it easy. Not true. In just a couple of weeks of this "easy" living, NOT binging, I have gained 4 pounds. Its just fascinating how quickly the weight can come back on..... I need to go back to watching my calories carefully and exercising actively and try to figure out what is going on in my head.
I think it is that I don't really want to maintain at my current weight. I still feel like I'm too heavy and am carrying too much fat. I don't really know if its the numbers (weight, BMI) or if I still don't like myself in the mirror. I "feel" healthy -- I don't get out of breath easily, I can move and bend without difficulty, I am wearing a good size (not Women's) . I don't know. I do know that I have to figure this out or I will regress...quickly.
So, for now, back to trying to get to 170. I've been told by many Spark friends that Maintenance isn't easy, maybe even harder than losing. I believe it. But I definitely am not going to quit my journey. I like it here even if it is a struggle.
Any words of wisdom?