Monday, August 30, 2010
Many of you know that I have been planning to retire on November 11th. Actually looking forward to it. Well today that plan hit a glitch. I was laid off. Wow! What a shock. I am not unhappy about stopping work. I am ready to retire. But to be told "We have to lay you off" is a different story entirely. First of all I didn't plan it this way. I'm not ready yet. It's not my plan. Secondly to be laid off feels like I'm not needed any more, not useful. It doesn't feel good. So I have tons of mixed emotions floating around my head. The main issue is that I will be left without health insurance for 2 months until I can get Medicare. I know it is unlikely that something bad will happen during that 2 months but it is very scary. Also, my husband has dental surgery scheduled for November but now we have lost his dental insurance. They have already removed his tooth in preparation for the implant so we have to go ahead with the surgery but now we have to pay for it all. Quite a bundle of money. Oh well. There is nothing I can do about it.
My DH is happy I will be home with him now and I am too, I'm just not ready. But, I promise I will work on being ready.
One decision I have made is that I choose NOT to eat over this. We went out to dinner and I made very conscious choices. I enjoyed a delightful tilapia meal with a bite of DH's chocolate cake and don't feel guilty at all.
Life is good and I will work thru this.